When Life hangs in the Balance...

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she told him she wanted children.. and at her core.. deep down she knew she did ..but if past history told her anything it was that her body was not built for it.. Jacob and Aysil.. and then the numerous miscarriages ..maybe she was just not meant to be a Mother.. she glanced across to him then.. her head tilting a little to the side.. he spoke on just letting nature take its course.. that he wanted to make love to her.. to marry her.. and to see where their life took them.. there was a smile there.. it was small but genuine-.. I like the sound of that.. -she nodded-.. just letting whatever happens.. happen.. We do need to learn.. to be around one another again.. it's well.. -she poked at the fruit in the bowl there-.. it's been a while.. -and it had.. had they ever really lived together ? no.. not really.. spent the night on a few occasions.. but for the most part she was with Nautilous and he was with Bells..

he tried to explain this tart type of food.. she looked a little perplexed by his description.. her hand rose as she rubbed at the side of her head lightly.. -.. Oh.. -she looked down to her hand when he mentioned it would be around about that size-.. well it sounds.. intriguing.. You'l have to show me.. -she nodded.. she was curious.. and she knew that it was possibly something she already knew about.. but.. in those moments there were a lot of loose connections that just needed to be jogged.. when he mentioned the possibility that Caela loved her more than platonically her brow rose.. -.. uh.. -she blinked-.. I dont think so?.. but.. I guess.. I dont really know.. -it was an odd series of thoughts.. did her sister want her in her life like that.. and thats why she kept everyone away.. -.. whatever the reason.. she caused me so many issues.. -she frowned-.. and she hurt people.. and I just have this horrible foreboding feeling that she's going to pop up at any given moment.. just to cause trouble.. -she placed the bowl down to the side there as her hands came down to rest there upon her lap-.. Thaylan told me she had arranged the ..-she paused.. exhaling as her fingers twitched before she forced them to settle-.. that she had arranged the issues on the surface..with you.. and I.. -she glanced up to him.. she figured he would understand what she meant.. finding that out just about killed her.. well.. literally since he explained it mid fight..

the subject turned to that of love.. and what it meant to be loved.. and to give it in return .. she told him her fears.. how she was broken.. how she was scarred.. and the genuine worry that she couldn't love.. or in the very least didn't know how to.. he pulled her in closer to him.. up atop his lap there as she leant in closer.. her back to his chest.. his comments on having different sex organs did illicit a quiet laugh from her.. -.. Ahhh ever and always so very blunt Mr Fironiil -she nudged him lightly with her elbow.. he reminded her of the billy button obsession she had.. she chewed on that smile.. Ohhh that was a thought that had not crossed her mind in quite some time.. -.. yes.. you're right you refused magic.. as much as everyone pushed.. but you still went to all those classes.. I remember.. because you used to read out what the pages said for me.. and then of course letting me practice on you.. with some rather.. varied results.. -another quiet chuckle as she let her mind wander.. picking up little things.. like someone had thrown an entire lifes worth of photographs onto the floor.. and each of them were slowly being picked up and attached to pieces of string.. -.. But you do have magic now.. you're quite skilled.. I'm impressed.. -she nodded.. his trip through the webways was so so smooth.. the two settled into that companionably silence.. just listening to the sounds of the breeze, the birds and the pond water lapping against the sandy bank.. before he spoke..

did she want an adventure.. a carriage into the village to purchase food.. to obtain the glasses he felt she needed.. -.. You're going to carry me everywhere today then?.. -she watched as he moved to stand.. whistling for that carriage that appeared a moment or two later.. he helped her to her feet.. before she found her place upon the plush velvet seats within the vehicle.. she shifted along a little to make sure he had room before the door was closed..he told her.. he wanted to teach her how to read and write.. that it was time.. that it was important.. even going so far as to give her a reason...picture books at bedtime if they had children.. she offered a smile and a little nod of her head-.. Though!.. -she held up a finger-.. I am very good at making up stories.. I think.. -she paused.. as if she wasn't sure.. but it felt like it were right..-.. but yes.. I know.. I tried.. that night.. to figure it out.. at least a little..I think I got more ink on my skin and shirt than I did on the paper though.. it's a lot harder than it looks.. -she was easily discouraged.. but then again she was most certainly not in the right frame of mine to be learning anything that night.. he asked her what she might need for the house.. she wasn't entirely certain but figured she might know it when she comes across it.. the carriage ride was gentle and easy.. it went past a lot of the houses.. the gardens.. the temples..before it would come to a slow stop nearer to the village proper..

its usual busy walking traffic.. people getting bits and pieces.. the men reading their papers.. or being dragged from shop to shop by their partners.. children dashing about..the scent of flowers from the florist.. bread from the baker.. smoke from the blacksmith who specialised in both weaponry and jewellery.. the shopping part was easy.. as she came across certain items they sparked a memory.. or an image.. it might not have been perfect but it was something.. apples and fruit.. spices and herbs.. flour and milk. small bits of cheese and meat.. which he valiantly carried for her .. she on the other hand was not going to allow him to carry her.. Not all day.. managing to fashion up a pair of crutches similar to those she had taken from the surgery back at the estate.. her legs were a little better than then.. she had more strength.. but she wasnt able to put all her weight down.. not just yet.. still she had movement and that was a good start.. she would let him go and get what he wanted.. if he needed to pop into anywhere in particular as she just slowly.. very slowly wandered.. that click.. click.. click.. of the crutches meant he would know she wasn't far away.. though she came to a stop.. outside that small shop front.. the one she recognised.. Belles had taken it on for that short time before Nautilous had.. well.. put a dampner on it.. a dream she had held since she was younger.. was a shop front of her own.. -.. This was the one yes?.. the one Belles had.. -she leant against the slightly dirty glass as she peered into the darkness-

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the two of them had settled up on one of the landings.. the quilt and pillows.. blankets and wine.. did they really need much more than that after the day they had both shared?.. probably not.. he pulled her in closer to him as he recognised she was struggling with it all.. -.. That ride you organised was perfection, a happy memory that I will be holding onto with both hands for many years to come love.. I assure you.. -and he was being completely honest.. no one had ever really gone to so much trouble for him before.. it wasn't all about what he wanted.. or what he would like.. she pushed him to try things he hadn't even thought about.. and thats why this worked so well between them both...he nudged her and she pushed him.. they made each other recognise they could do better.. they could experience more.. if they just put themselves out there..and because of this they were running leaps and bounds.. she pulled in closer to him.. he sighed at the feeling of her arms around him.. holding him as he was cradling her.. her question on wether or now she had told him how much she loved him today brought a smile on.. he brushed his lips to her forehead-.. Have I told you how much I love you today mm?.. You are so.. So amazing and I am so proud of you.. Look at you.. getting job offers that No other pale skinned elf would be given.. you have won over a race that is not so easily swayed.. and you did it all on your own.. I will gladly come along with you.. stand beside you.. and behind you as you take these leaps in your career..

-she spoke about the body scan she had done and how intriguing and difference it was.. he seemed genuinely interested.. -.. I look forward to seeing all this ground breaking research.. and Ill offer my help where-ever you require it.. -he had passed on his news then.. about his Mother and Nautilous separating.. and how he wasn't even sure how he didn't see it.. it would weigh heavily upon him for some time to come.. her words helped.. they did.. a lot.. she knew just what to say at the right time to make him lift up.. even if it was only a litle.. -.. No.. you're right we wont participate.. but I will remain worried for her.. I dont know where she is.. my guess of her being with Diovan is simply that.. a guess.. I figure he wouldn't hurt her.. I mean.. I have my doubts.. but.. Ill be honest with you my love.. it would seem that I dont know people as well as i thought I did.. -his brows furrowed-.. But.. I wont interfere unless she is getting hurt.. then I sware to all that is holy upon this surface land that I wont give a single damn who's brother or who.. or who belongs to what family.. Ill level them all.. just to be done with it.. -he wouldn't allow this to continue.. he would put his foot down and end it.. no matter what it took.. he exhaled when she spoke on everyone else breaking but them.. -.. I cant let them all just wander alone.. their my friends and family sweetheart, and when people are down they need support. Whilst I wont allow their issues to impact on what we have, I wont let them sail the rocky waters without some kind of anchor.. I will always be there for them.. always..

-they had discussed the idea of working in Menzoberranzan.. and how much it would take to do so.. he mentioned the thoughts that had been crossing his mind.. namely leaving a lot of his surface work behind.. passing it onto the next people in line.. that he wanted to be with her.. success would follow.. plus an opportunity like this wouldn't come around again.. he knew that full well.. -.. I promise should I get uncomfortable I will tell you..-he placed his hand over his heart. -.. We will look to this as the next step for us.. a change in scenery.. a change in people.. in lifestyle.. a Huge learning curve.. and a challenge.. which is something I really think we could both do with right now.. -the perfect distraction.. they would curl up and cuddle some more.. sharing the wine.. the fizzy fruit sherbet and just each others company.. the view of the stars was magnificent.. before it would be time to go pack their things.. he slipped away since she was already done.. packing up what he could find.. he hadn't taken much really.. considering he had been brought there from Naggaroth.. but soon enough the two of them would be porting on down to Oxford.. together their magic seemed to meld.. to intertwine.. not so much a tangle of sparks.. the room at the old fashioned Inn was warm and comfortable.. it was almost cosy really..

he made sure to start up the fire for her.. he knew she had a reason to be here afterall.. she had one of her first professional appointments.. not at the university.. not with a professor looking over her shoulder.. no this one she earned on her own..and he knew she could do it..he watched as she slipped into one of his shirts.. a smile crossing his features as he slid his hands down into his pockets-.. Ah.. precious.. You make everything look stunning on you.. -he shot her a wink as he moved in.. he'd steal a quick little kiss.. just something soft.. small.. -.. I have no clothing.. its all back in Arvandor.. apart from a few bits and pieces that were at the estate.. and since I am not required here.. for the next hour or so.. Im going to see what I can scrounge up from the town attached.. I spotted a couple of stores from the window.. -he cradled her cheek-.. Goodluck.. I know you can do this.. just remember to keep the blinds drawn, I know the hour draws late.. and the sun is not an issue.. but the Drow are incredibly private when it comes to their medical history.. -he would linger there a moment longer before making his way out of the room.. letting the door close quietly behind him.. -

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After she left Silverthorn she made her way to this Inn.. it was small and a little out of the way.. just east of the largest city, she had been filled in on what had happened between Rose and Aeson.. or well to a point anyway so she figured..quietly.. that she would get Rose to meet her outside of the gates.. outside of the kingdom and in one of the smaller villages.. Anya was given all the information she needed..and she trusted her daughter implicitly.. she knew it would be passed on..and there would be quiet hope that Young Rose would accept the position.. she remained there within her darkened chambers for the better part of the day.. just one with her thoughts which was a pretty dangerous thing.. she had little to no distraction.. so it meant her mind wandered.. her decisions were questioned.. the could/should/would's all came to the surface and it caused her to pace.. on more than one occasion she got so frustrated she actually yelled against the sound proofing within her room.. but composure would return swiftly..when darkness fell and she was able to open her curtains she caught a glimpse of Jacob wandering down the driveway.. it gave her the information that Rose had arrived.. and for a moment she wondered if her family had gotten to Silverthorn safely..

she'd not heard from Thaylan.. but perhaps they were simply partaking in the wine and drugs.. that and the awaiting hands of Splinter.. she slid into her heels as she made her way out of the room.. no cloak this time.. it was not necessary here.. the dress was a thick luxurious velvet.. a tea length strapless gown.. it wasn't fancy or over dressed.. it was incredibly understated but elegant.. the click of her heels down the long polished wooden hallways would softly echo.. before she came to your door.. rapping her knuckles against it a couple of times-.. Rose? -she would call out-.. are you available?.. -her hands would rise to clasp before her.. taking that step back as she waited till she was granted access.. offering a smile and a nod of her head as she made her way inside.. -.. Thankyou for coming, I appreciate that you took time out of your schedule to come and see me.. -she would glance around a little until she was able to find a seat.. settling down upon it as one leg crossed its partner tightly.. -.. Im afraid I couldn't stay.. at the estate -she exhaled-.. an issue cropped up that had me leaving earlier than expected..which is why I asked my daughter to approach you instead.. -she nodded-.. I do trust everything with you is well?.. -that richly coloured gaze of hers lifted to catch the golds of yours.. her manners would always be impeccable.. regardless of the race she was entertaining.. unless it was dwarves.. in that case they could go get fucked for all she gave a damn-.. I have been talking with Adelaide.. -her head tilted a little.. just enough for those ruby curls to shift over her shoulder a little-.. it's why I called you here instead of within the kingdom.. I didn't want you to be uncomfortable.. Did Anya bring up the possible position opening within my House by chance?..

-Ah a subject change.. perhaps a necessary distraction-.. I am in the process of re-accepting my Mothers land an estate and I am looking to take back up my titles and I know it in my heart that we will grow.. and possibly quite quickly.. so I will need the right people behind me.. I find you to have exceptional talent and skill. You are still so very young so if it were a perfect fit you would be able to move from my House into that of Anyas when she stepped out of my shadow.. its a lifetime position.. but not all encompassing.. it wouldn't be a strangle on you..you would still be afforded so many freedoms.. to go and live as you please.. so long as you were available when the cycles came around or.. in the sake of emergencies.. -she would search your features.. all in an effort to read you.. -.. but.. as I said to Anya.. the decision is not necessarily an easy one.. therefore I wouldn't expect a quick answer.. I wouldn't require you straight away.. not until we have established the land.. and then you could come down and look at it for yourself.. -she nodded.. shifting in that seat a little as she took a breath-.. mm.. as for what I requested of you.. earlier.. I .. -and this is where her poker face would fail.. you would be able to catch the somewhat ..pensive..hesitant look in her gaze.. -..

Well.. I havent had a physical since before I was pregnant with Anya.. and that was quite some time ago.. Id never been terribly comfortable around the ones that Valkryn had chosen for me.. and then the ones I chose for myself.. well they always seemed to disappear.. -she waved her hand a little.. Valkryn wanted things his way.. no other-.. but.. for a little bit of back story.. Uh.. -she paused.. rubbing her lips together.. deciding just how deep to go with this.. -.. I dont know if you know this.. Im not sure what Anya has told you.. but.. Thaylan is my sibling... he is actually my twin brother.. we were incredibly close as children.. and.. well.. closer as young adults..He was my perfect star.. the only one who understood my heart.. who knew my mind.. who could truly challenge me and who I gave my everything to.. I ended up pregnant.. with Anya.. -she nodded.. moving to stand then as she felt perhaps a but more comfortable being able to move around as she spoke-.. it was hidden.. from my then husband.. Valkryn.. he thought the child was his.. it was easier to just go with that then to admit to sinful ways the two of us had committed.. for if we had of been caught Thaylan would have been executed.. and I would have been excommunicated.. Anya would have too.. been killed.. -she rolled her neck a little-.. Thaylan left.. without a word when he knew things were getting.. tight.. when it was perhaps simply a matter of time before we were caught up with.. Unfortunately I was told he had died.. and it just about killed me.. I fell hard.. so hard in his absence.. -she peered out the darkened window at the gardens and hills in the distance-.. I birthed Anya on my own.. and she was the only thing that kept me going.. she did not like Valkryn.. cried anytime he came anywhere near her.. I remember that well..

when she was still an infant war was called upon my House.. a rival House was being tested and was told to bring mine down.. if they succeeded they would take that land and I would have to go.. I was prepared.. my soldiers were strong.. even if their weapons master was a complete idiot.. but when the rival house got to the wards.. somehow they were all dropped.. all my protections were gone.. and we were raided and razed swiftly.. I was hidden away as a soldier.. but someone knew.. My sister had orchestrated it all from behind the scenes.. but i only found that out recently.. -she turned.. facing you.. her back pressed to the glass-. I was struck with a long sword.. -she motioned to her lower stomach-.. across here.. swiftly..stabbed.. i remember the searing hot pain of it.. how it took my breath away.. i failed.. i faltered.. i had no one around me.. then my sister appeared.. my apparent saving grace and i was whisked off to a young wizard.. i fell in and out of consciousness..there was a lot of gaps there.. stuff i dont recall but when i came around i was told i had lost so much blood and the blade had knicked and cut so much that my womb and everything else had to be removed to save my life.. I would no longer be able to have children.. -she dragged her tongue across her teeth-.. It took me some time to come to peace with that.. as a Matron family means So much to us.. having children .. extending our bloodlines keeps out Houses open and healthy and running.. Anya was my jewel and I protected her with my life..I have killed people that have attempted to hurt her.. more than I think many would even realise..

-she stepped away from the window as she poured herself a cup of water from the jug waiting on the table-.. the issue is though.. there was an altercation..in my sisters house.. You saw the after math of it.. what had happened to Thaylan.. that was my sisters doing.. before Sydel ended her life when i myself could not.. but in amongst all this.. a supposed truth came out.. that the wizard was such a trainee.. and a complete idiot.. that he removed part of my liver instead.. -she tilted her head-.. that I should still be able to have children.. and whilst this has just about floored me.. and sparked a light in my heart.. I didn't want to get my hopes up to high.. my sister has been known to lie in the past.. and -she exhaled.. her hand rose as she rubbed it across her forehead-.. Whilst I am desperate to share that experience.. of pregnancy and of family.. I had long since made peace with the fact I wouldn't be able to.. so.. -her brows furrowed-.. thats where you come in.. can you please give me the answer I so desperately need.. a yes or a no.. so I know where to go from here.. please Rose..

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Fucked.. that was the only real descriptive word there was for his state of mind right now.. he was utterly and completely fucked.. he knew he was gutless.. he knew he was a coward.. and that just made things all the more worse.. but.. he also knew he couldn't face her.. he knew that in those moments he would back down and just stay.. he knew that he would tell her all the things she wanted to hear.. and he had the power to do just that.. but he would have Hated himself for it.. so he just ended it.. swift and sharp.. though the wounds would take a long time to heal.. he had ran off.. back home to Silverthorn after spending a day or two with Hanali.. the goddess of love was little more than a distraction.. he treated it like it were a job.. like sowing seeds in the fields.. or painting a fence.. just think about something else and soon enough it would be over.. he found himself in the addictive loving hold of Splinter though as he knew his mother would Not enter.. no way would Adelaide walk into a place like this.. never Ever.. not even if her very life depended on it.. so here.. he was safe.. and here he would remain until he had figured out what he was going to do next..

the place was as would be expected.. filled with patrons.. the music was pumping in the darker rooms, the stages were filled with all manner of masked characters.. women and men.. doing all manner of erotic things from dancing to masterful scenes.. the bar though was a little quieter.. the space had been reserved for him.. he had a bottle of whisky before him.. a glass half filled and a cigar.. the bartender was a shape shifter with an interesting talent.. for when she touched a patrons hand she knew just what they desired.. not only in their drink order.. but also in the kind of woman they wanted to serve them.. perhaps it was a current partner.. perhaps it was an ex.. perhaps it was a long term fantasy lover.. the ones that ran on highlight reels in peoples minds when they had spare moments in private.. or perhaps it was someone they couldnt have.. shouldnt have.. regardless.. when the shifter returned with the orders.. the vision they saw.. was of their own desire.. he blinked when you two settled in beside him.. making him sit back in his chair a bit-.. Well now.. This i did not expect.. -he exhaled a long stream of smoke from the cigar as he placed it down upon the ashtray.. he asked how everything had gone and he knew that Naut would know precisely what he was asking.. he nodded when he heard Rose was hurting..-.. mm.. I struggled with that.. I really did.. and Im a fucking coward for it.. I know it.. I own it.. I.. -hesitation-.. I just couldn't.. I.. -he sighed-.. I knew if I went to her I would have stayed.. nothing would have changed.. and thats not fair on her..

-he frowned.. turning his back to the bar when the server returned and she looked in that moment like Rose.. he shook his head.. picking up his bottle instead.. several of the girls approached.. offering services.. private dances.. booth shows.. they were beautiful.. stunning even.. but no .. he sent them off to one of the stages to enjoy one another.. he could still see it.. but.. he wasn't able to appreciate it like he might of before.. this was fucking with his head.. he paused though when Naut mentioned splitting with Sydel-.. wait.. wait.. -he turned-.. what?.. -he blinked.. -.. You and Sydel separated?.. -he was visibly stunned.. -.. uh.. Im sorry man.. I had my head so far up my own ass i didn't realise you were both having that much trouble.. -he huffed.. turning his gaze back to the stage-.. why the fuck would you go to Menzoberranzan though?.. -turning to Thaylan-.. Ah.. no offence Thay.. just.. seems a little odd.. thats all.. -he didn't want to start a war or anything.. Nautilous had only gone down there maybe a handful of times.. -.. its not the nicest of places.. ive got the scars to prove it.. -he rubbed his lips together-.. mm.. no.. no yet.. several of the smaller parts Im having trouble with.. I might need to go travelling.. find the original makers and see if I can get them to rebuild it..if I could wave a wand and have it fixed i would.. but.. no such luck.. the weathers going to be a bit wonky for a little while longer im afraid.. but ill do my best to keep it under control.. -he leant against the bar with his elbows.. just downing another shot of that incredibly strong well aged whisky.. it was burning like a bitch on the way down but the pain was the perfect distraction-.. what are you doing here though?

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The air was crisp, almost cold as the wind was picking up, blowing the old leaves of fall across the ground and the fallen petals of many flowers along the grass… The rooftop was chilly but his company and the rugs were perfect, just warm enough to make the night viewing ideal, and the sherbet and wine? Perfect companions. “I look forward to doing a whole lot more things like that with you… For the first time I get to just… Do things like this… Let you see how special you are… How much you mean to me.” Sure, to some people their trip to the fair was pretty boring or just flat out cheesy but it had been his first time and he had gotten to have fun doing it, they’d won toys and ate more food than you could think two people could shovel away. Laughter and surprises, frights and lessons learned through new adventures, it had all been perfect… Just like he was to her. “I want to take you all over the worlds, find all these special things you love, the places you adore and what really makes you smile…” Mostly because when ever he was smiling? She knew she would be too. Small questions asked as they held each other snug on that flat space, the stars slowly spinning around them, the brightness promising rain in the near future. She loved him so much but sometimes they could get so busy in a day that she might forget to tell him that. Just in case she had? She made sure to tell him now and his response? The lips to her forehead and the way she could feel that smile still lingering even as he kissed her. How could she NOT love this wonderful man? He was perfect for her in every single way and even if her heart was bruised over Ace? It could never be broken because her heart? Was held safe in Jacob’s embrace, no one could ever really break her, no one could fully tear her down so long as Jacob was hers… As long as they were together. “I think you did this morning but… Do please tell me again.” She said with a smile as she looked up at him as he praised her, making her glow like his own little star in his arms, cuddled up close and warm together. “I did it because you believed in me.” She would have just been this wall flower the rest of her life if he hadn’t noticed her in the crowd. He saw her though, when she thought the world had her made of cellophane and glass, he could see her… Had faith in her and nurtured her, guided her so that she was able to be here, the woman she was today… Almost a fully licensed Doctor… “You saw me when the world made me invisible… You gave me that chance and without you? I wouldn’t be the woman I am today. This? This dream of mine? You made possible.”

Telling him about the offer to go down to Menzoberranzan was a big deal though. She knew for a fact what had happened to him down there before, the mess with Cara and Ric, how they had fucked each other and made him watch as he lay there a victim of drow poisons. Who wouldn’t be extremely leery of going through that again? It didn’t matter that Cara and Ric were dead, didn’t matter that it had nothing to do with Gia and Anya’s house, a person once bitten by a dog will always fear the dog… At least until something comes to change that and it takes time, it takes a very long time before it can be done, it has to be wanted… And she hoped that this might be the very thing that helped him on the path to healing that hellish wound. “I can always use your help. You’re the one who’s been teaching me magic and I could use another course of teaching if your up to it. There’s a lot I’d like to run by you and see if we can’t fine tune a few things and perfect some others.” She was learning from others where she could, the mages and warlocks on the surface had some very unique skills but they were different from elvish magic, some things she couldn’t get to mesh as well as she liked… Others she knew with just a bit of tweaking could be really amazing once smoothed out and dine tuned. Going into the sad event with the family and the separation on the heels of so much loss… She just felt… It might be better to limit their involvement. This group of people were… All very strong feeling individuals and she knew for a fact that Sydel held a grudge hard and fast and did not forget even the smallest slight. The last thing she wanted was to make an enemy out of her friend if she was caught talking to Nautilous or something along those lines. “What you want to do? I will support my love. I just worry that we might be seen as playing favorites and all that would do is grow this divide in our family. There’s no… Easy way to help or handle this but I hope we can do it without causing any waves.” She said gently as she reached up to cup his cheek and stroke her fingers along his beautiful jawline. “But I have to say… Hearing you talk about getting all mean and fighty… It does things for a girl.” She said with a wink and another squeeze of her arms around him. She was breaking the mood a bit, changing the topics, the gears of the conversation so to speak.

What mattered most of all though was his promise to tell her if and when things got hard for him down there with her. She didn’t want to miss this opportunity but if Jacob ever felt at all that this wouldn’t work? She was going to leave. Still he was so supportive of her choices and the chance presented to her. She knew his history but the fact he was willing to do this with her? It helped settle her soul so much, she could look forward to this change, this newness without fear that things were going to perhaps fall apart. She was fascinated by the Drow and had been the moment Jacob showed her the unique flora that grew in the moist and warm caves where not a shred of light came into from above… So harsh… So dark… And yet look at it? The people were beautiful and courageous, brave and fierce, and in some ways? Kinder than most of the humans she knew. “Please do my sweetheart. Nothing in this world or any other is worth seeing you bothered or sad. I’d drop the sun itself if it meant you’d smile again.” But he was right… This was a huge change and it might be exactly what they needed. So far they’d just been kept apart by people and schooling, life in general keeping them both on harsh short leashes, only allowing them small batches of time together and neither of them were terribly pleased by them. But this? Was a chance to spent large tracks of time together uninterrupted. Not just uninterrupted but time where they could be like they had been, learning new things together and making discoveries like they had at the first, putting their minds together and falling asleep before fireplaces or in libraries… Candles their companions and the occasional lamp for extra light… “This change first… A chance to explore a fascinating new world while also being afforded quite the comfortable lap of luxury, the best of both worlds for us, a whole new race and culture to delve into… And who knows… Maybe this is just the change we need for us to be able to start our own family.” The drow were so very family orientated that this was perhaps just what they needed for her to conceive and have a baby. Who could say? They had both agreed not to be in a rush and to just… Wing it. Let it do it’s thing and if it took some time for her to get pregnant then they’d just put it on hold a while and do their own thing before trying again. No rush or pressure just… Fun and hope… Buckets of hope…

The night began to change and the storm began to roll in, calling their night to an early end as they disappeared inside, her to make sure she didn’t miss any of the things she had packed up and he to pack his own things what ever remained to him. Once they were done up though they ported over to Oxford and surprisingly to her their magic meshed like best friends for once. Before it had always been a little jarring, a bit of a spark and shock, like static or burnt ozone… But now? It was smoother than powdered silk and very comfortable to slip through into the room that had been set up for them, she herself just remaining in Jacob’s shirt for comfort as she took his pants off, bit tight in the trunk if you get the drift… “Aww, you know you are the sweetest man? I love your shirts they’re so comfortable and it’s a lot like getting a hug from you, plus they smell like someones cologne…” She said with a smile and a wink before he said he had to go out and she totally understood that. She’d pull out a little watch fob she had made for him, in the center of it was a perfectly preserves four leaf clover, something she’d made for him with the one she had found at the college while studying outside. It was meant to go on his watch chain that she had bought him last year and to bring him luck. “Take this with you then sweetheart and have some fun. Grab some beer if you like? Just make sure you pick up things that are durable as it’s rough down there from what I’ve been told. We can do your beautiful suits and the like once Matron Gia’s house is reestablished and we’re settled.” She knew that much at least which was why everything that wasn’t serviceable was put back into trunks and sent to Naggoth to wait until she needed them again. “Can you do me a favor too while your out sweetheart? I have no idea if there is any bookstores open but if there is, could you pick me up a new romance novel?” It wasn’t much but it would keep her busy in the down times, preoccupied with the romance on the pages, allowing her to keep Ace out of her mind for a while longer.

When Jacob had left she made sure the room was set up, she took his advice to heart and had the room warded three different times, one for sigh and one for sound… The third? Was to keep anyone from scrying or spying into the room by magical or other means so that everything inside the room was perfectly quiet and private. She went through and dimmed all the lights and lamps, put up the fire grate so that it softened the bright glow of the hearth, going about and covering every window in the room with both shutters and curtains. Nothing was getting out of this room or in it without her knowing about it. She had just finished slipping on a pair of her own slacks and some flat pointed shoes when she heard the knock on the door, pulling her hair back into a ponytail as she went to it and opened it up wide, smiling at Gia and welcoming her in with warm gestures and a kind voice. “No please, honestly Matron Gia this really is nothing, I am very happy to help my friends mother at any time she might need me.” She and Anya were almost the exact same age and got along thick as thieves when they were near each other so she was more than happy to help Gia out. Plus Gia herself had been so warm and kind to her when she had met her, from the party and after there was only friendly words and a motherly concern. Who could ever mind helping out someone like that? “I understand that yes. Anya was a pleasant surprise I do adore her very much, it was delightful to catch up and she seemed more than a little thrilled to have someone her own age down and about with her, and I admit I’m excited too.” The whole prospect to her was amazing and all she wanted to do was get started. This was a dream come true, that once in a lifetime chance and it had landed in her lap, all because Jacob took a chance with her and now? Look at them now… It was amazing how life can turn and twist for you when you least expect and in some amazingly wonderful ways. “Ah… Well… I’ll be ok. I’m not the first who’s had a courtship dissolved and I won’t be the last. Just got to keep busy so time can do her thing and ease the pain till it’s just a bittersweet memory. I wish him well and I hope he finds someone who can understand his heart and make him happy.” She wished him well… It took every ounce of her ‘grown up’ mentality to say that and believe it at least in part. She really… She really didn’t like it to be honest, she knew she would miss Ace for a very long time if not forever, she had seen how broken he was on the inside and she had felt that she could have helped him… She wanted so badly to help him… But one bad day… One confession… And all of a sudden she was soiled goods and he tossed her like yesterdays bad fish… She had never once thought in all her life that something like that could happen, be pushed to tell the truth and then punished for it, it made no sense… It hurt… It would always hurt…

She listened as Gia went on to explain that she was about to re-establish her house in her mothers territory, that there was a lot of hardships ahead but she was sure their house would flourish and thrive, that they would grow very quickly on a whole and they needed a doctor to ensure that it all happened and it went very smoothly… A healthy people bore healthy children, who then went on to birth their own children and so on down the line, and you need a good doctor to ensure the proper soil is cultivated and maintained before you grow anything in it. Her face was friendly and open, she didn’t feel a need to wear a poker face here with her, if anything she dropped all the walls. Why? Because of trust. Gia was putting herself out there big time, offering her this position rather than another Drow, one who had been in practice longer and who knew the culture and was accepted by the people. If they were going to make this work that meant chucking a whole lot of preconceived notions out the door. “Anya filled me in pretty well and I’ve taken the time between her visit and now to talk to my beaux and I wish to be very frank here a moment. I am not a woman who takes long chunks of time to ponder over things. Time spent thinking is vital but you can easily over think and ruin something because of it.” She said as she would pour Gia a glass of wine and offer up a tray of roasted and chocolate covered locus. Not QUITE Drow but… Close! She’d place them down on the table between the chairs before she’d resume her seat and settle in comfortably, legs crossed in a casual but classy manner, more relaxed than Gia in the moment stature wise. “I’ve been in love with the Drow as a people for over a year. Everything about the Drow fascinates me and this position offered? Is a dream come true to me. We’ve decided that it would be an amazing blessing for me to take this position and I fully plan on doing so. AFTER- You allow me to give you a check up and make sure I am up to what your standards would be. I would never let you hire me on without myself being up to par.”

Because of that though she remained silent, only nodding or soft sounds of agreement as Gia went on to explain the family relation, shaking her head just a bit and holding up her hand to pause her just for a moment. “Matron Gia, or… Gia, if I may? The relation you carry is not a concern to me. Anya is a beautiful young woman, she shows no signs of inbreeding or genetic faults. That is the whole reason behind people and the ongoing taboo of relations not breeding or producing offspring. Too often there are extreme genetic defects but Anya? Is a perfect young drowess and likely her children will be perfectly healthy as well.” So long as, say, she didn’t inbreed with her own brother. At that point the tree might begin to fork in a little too much and genetic issues would arise. “I also feel it is important that we have no secrets from each other if I am to be your doctor, I want our relationship built on trust and friendship as well as respect for each other, so I am going to tell you that Jacob is my brother. We share the same father but a different mother and in my mind? Sometimes your heart rests in the chest of one who shares your same blood.” She hoped with that Gia might be a bit more relaxed… Less nervous and a bit tight… She would listen as Gia resumed her story of what had happened and when, the why of it and her fear that she could never have children again, only to be told that might not be the case. No wonder she was a basket of questions and nerves at that point, who wouldn’t be?! In the end though, hearing that it was a mage who had explained this to her and not an actual doctor, well her jaw hung open a bit and she just blinked in shocked silence a little bit before she would speak. “My dear, that was not well done of your sister! A wizard has no business talking about organs or any other thing. The only time a mage ever deals with organs it’s typically some poor animal they’ve cut open to read the future or receive messages from the dead. Unless this wizard gave you a fortune cookie I’d say he wouldn’t know a whit about what he was doing. I’m just glad he stopped the bleeding so you could survive.” Honestly? There were reasons there were doctors who were also elves. Healing magic could only do so much! You had to have the knowledge AND the skill, otherwise you were going about in the dark, hopefully fumbling about.

“Here… Let’s get you settle into the bed as comfortably as we can, shall we? Once your nice and snug I’ll start the scan and we can go from there.” She said and once Gia was settled? She’d start to weave that same golden curtain of silken threads that would settle over Gia like her favorite blanket, just warm and safe, bringing to the forefront such calm and serene feelings… Almost floating on the softest waves of sunshine and warm water. “I would like to say though while we do this? That the medical field is very advanced and there is so much we can do now. Even if there isn’t a womb anymore we can still transplant one from a suitable donor. You might still have children Gia, we just need to find the starting place but don’t you worry, we’ll get you right where you want to be.” She said and once the spell was completed she had those five layers thick, pulling each one up till she got to the organs. That was, after all, where she needed to focus though she would go back to a few later, something was reading pretty funky… “You’re in excelent shape Gia, honestly your cardiovascular system is pristine, your organs are all in the condition of a woman Anya’s age… Your muscles are good and your bone density is perfect, you could easily have children in a healthy manner on this so that’s a step in the right direction, now lets go a little deeper…” She said, scanning down where she’d pull up the display a bit more, enlarging that area. “Well, you were lied to in your past years but not now, your womb is right here. There are indeed some pretty bad scars though, I’d say it wouldn’t be safe to try and deliver vaginally, you could easily tear the walls of your uterus and that would make future children incredibly different to conceive. I’d deliver you from now on via c-section for the safety of you and your babies.” She said easily, pulling the scan down a bit more so she could get that 3D, and with that? She’d lift it up so that Gia could see it easily herself without having to sit up. “ I would also way you are making up for lost time without a doubt… And I think I should go down into Menzoberranzan with you as soon as you leave.” She said as she would point out to the surprise of her lifetime. “Now… Take a deep breath and please don’t faint.” She said with a laugh as she’d reveal the surprise. “These here? Twins. These are from one donor… Likely Thaylan as you said you two are twins.” She said before she’d move down a little more, this one on the flip side. “This one is…” She said, a brow raised quietly but she wasn’t judging. “Nautilous’s child. It’s too early to guarantee the sexes but… I feel a bit bad for the boys… They’re going to be outnumbered… All girls it’s looking unless something changes but… We’ll see.” She said before she’d move through the scan a few more phases. “Your breasts though… Given Anya’s age… You might want to work on massaging them and getting things moving around a little bit… Just to keep the lymphatic nodes open and flowing… And NO- Absolutely NO corsets until after the delivery. Right now we’re at a really delicate stage, we want to make sure you don’t lose these precious little babies, especially with there being three. Now… It IS normal to lose one or two this early, the twins might lose one and that’s perfectly normal, it happens a lot and it’s nothing and no one’s fault.” She said as she dropped the scan before she’d settle down in the chair beside the bed. She felt a bit wiped after that… The scans? Took a LOT out of her. Her max? Two a day and after that she couldn’t have lit a candle to save her life.

Pausing for a moment she would lean forward and gently tap the space on her shoulder where the dragons bite rested. “We didn’t know what had happened, we only knew that Nautilous separated from Sydel and left, no one’s seen him since. Given what I see here… I feel we now know why he broke it off with her. This… Is a very serious mark… It’s marriage for Dragons and not something easily given, it’s permanent, meant to last through fights and even if the flesh were to be removed…” So… Maybe… She was sort of a huge fan girl of Nautilous’s, the man was a legend and more complex than a thousand-sided rubix cube when your color blind, she just adored the man she found on the written page. Fascinating didn’t begin to cover it. But because of that? She knew ALL about that mark and who had given it by simple facts and deduction. “There hasn’t been a Queen chosen in over five thousand years and if he chose you… He values you and thinks incredibly highly of you… In the many many years he was with Sydel… He never once gave her that mark…” She said before she’d hold her hands up on her lap before moving them together like closing a book. “But all that aside? I hold no opinion or judgement and everything that has been said and seen in this room? Stays between us, even through torture and death my lips are sealed, your secrets are safe with me. Now… As your doctor? You need to start taking in more milk and water, you need a lot more protein too with all that is going on, and I will start to make you some multivitamins to pick up any deficiencies we might have… If you start to spot you need to tell me instantly. If you feel any twinges or pains, overtly nauseous or dizzy, or if you have a funny taste in your mouth I need to know. Once we clear the three month mark then we can relax a bit more but until then consider me your shadow.”

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Small but still a step in the right direction, something that he was happy to see, it meant that somewhere… There was hope. Hope? Well that was enough to give him all the energy and faith he could possibly need to see this through to his last breath and he was more than content with that. “Over a decade and then some… Outside of the one night in your house when we created Jacob we haven’t actually lived in the same room together. Even in the Manse we were on opposite sides of the house…” It had been done that way to keep everything peaceful and kosher, private too since too much overlapping could be a very bad thing. Now, he had slept in the same bed, the same room as Sybelle but… Was it strange that though he loved her he also knew it wasn’t… Her? Not really? Like… A shadow or an echo… His real Sybelle, and his Sydel, now resided in one person and for the first time since seeing them both? He felt like he finally had her home again. It was… A really beautiful thing. “No matter what does, or doesn’t happen though Sydel, my joy is just being around you. That’s all I’ll ask for… Anything more? Is just a really beautiful gift that was unexpected but precious and priceless.” And that was exactly how he would see it. Children or no children, it wasn’t as though they couldn’t adopt, plenty of children in the world who’s family were taken from them and needed love and affection. But they had a long, long time to think about that, neither of them were in a rush after all and they had a lot to work out between each other too.

Speaking of thinking about things, it took him a minute to explain what a tart was, and honestly? It was pretty fun. He’d never really had to explain this sort of stuff before, if you said tart most people knew it was a flaky, buttery pastry of divine deliciousness. He knew for a fact one of the first things he wanted to do for her now? Was buy her a cherry turn over, with those big sugar crystals on the top and nice and warm, ooey gooey cherry filling? She’d be in heaven. Especially with a glass of ice cold milk. That sounded like a dessert date in his mind, and as it was the day was leaning well into past luncheon, and berries? Weren’t going to cut it for her for long. “I’ll do more than show you… We’ll pick up a couple in town for us, nice and warm and fresh, a glass of cold milk or tea if you prefer.” It sounded like something he really wanted to do for her though. One of many things but they had time to take it nice and slow. A little surprise a day sounded like the perfect goal.

Caela came in and he honestly had to wonder if Caela’s feelings for her sister were way more than platinic sibling love… Maybe Caela was romantic love? Maybe she had an obsession with keeping Sydel to herself and as such insulated her against the world and everyone in it? Even if someone was perfect that didn’t make them good enough for a person with that sort of mentality. No one would ever, ever be good enough, and the more he thought about it? The more it made sense. Still her feelings, her concerns in this moment were what was real and he did his best to try and calm her, his hand on her back with slow strokes as he… Well he really did his best. “If she does? We’ll just face her together. We’re not kids anymore, we know about her now and we’re a lot stronger and smarter than we used to be, she cant hurt us anymore.” Though finding out Caela had been the one to reveal the whole thing with his Doppel ganger and the rape? His heart shattered and he knew if he ever saw Caela? He’d kill her this time. “I was told about it later… And I want you to know… Any and all intimacy between us? Is entirely and completely on your schedule. If you never feel safe with me touching you sexually that’s alright, I’ll love you all the same no matter what, you are so much more to me than what we might find in bed through sexual intimacy.” And she was… She was so much more than that. He lived a life without sex just fine before, a blow job here or there was just fine by him, he didn’t need much. Just something to take the edge off over time.

Hearing her laugh though… Now that? Was a gift for him… It had come out of a bit of a dark, somewhat sad conversation, her fears about not knowing how to love… Being unworthy of love herself… It was a tangled mess and that was just how it went. All the same? He didn’t think that was the case and he told her he had loved her since they were children and long before they knew their lower parts were quite different from each other. “Well to be fair I don’t really know what to call them outside of a couple of slang words… Mother never addressed it as anything other than a ladies organ or her flower, and my dad, well his didn’t function since his injury so he never really talked about it other than calling it the P word…” Now… As a ranger… And who his brother was… You would THINK his sexual vocabulary was a lot more evolved than that but… Well honestly it just wasn’t. He knew a few words… like… A handful total… “But I kind of like the flower idea and yours is very pretty… And… I’m really not good at this I admit.” He said with a laugh and scratching the back of his head. “Like, the guys always reserves certain words for the pleasure houses we’d sometimes run across coming back from a mission, and they referred to them as another P word that is just not attractive sounding at all and the last thing I want is to stick my phallus into something that is named after a creature that claws and hisses.” Yeah. His P word? Was phallus. His father was a very educated man at the least! Moving onto the bit about billy buttons was a wonderful thing though, it saved his flaming cheeks from getting third digree burns at that point, going on to talk about their magical classes and he was surprised she remembered… Honestly it was a great thing, it warmed his heart to know she could still recall their classes as children before she’d stop coming altogether. “I liked reading them out for you, and trust me, it wasn’t the magic spells that came with the unique and varied side effects. It was testing your potions. You know I still can’t fart where anyone might see ever since that one potion had them lighting up like neon clouds of vapor… I still have some of the guys tease me and call me rainbow rump.” Yeah… Try living THAT one down. It hadn’t helped either that the potion came with another side effect of massive flatulence but hey! His toothache was gone so it had done what it was meant to do. “It feels weird honestly… I don’t think I’ll use it a lot but… It’s a nice tool to have in need… It helps me feel a little less… Well… Useless.”

A snort was all he could get out for a moment when she asked if he was going to carry her around everywhere. ”Third grade you sprained your ankle on the tree branch that broke. I gave you a picky back ride to the doctors and then carried you around on your errands before taking you home. I did it then and I can do it now.” And he would too! It wasn’t too different, well, actually it was. He had gotten a LOT taller but she had remained the same. He’d helped her to her feet and whistle down the carriage before he’d settle her in and the two sat together and enjoyed the weather on the way into town, the two of them had a good bit to talk about, one of them was something very important to him. She needed to learn how to read and wright and he wasn’t going to give her any flex on it. The reasons? Well he felt they were more than valid and it was amazing to see her smile and nod for him. Just to see her want to try… It meant the world to him it really, really did. “What you did was a beautiful thing but let’s make your next letters something a whole lot happier, huh? We’ll pick you up some things for it in town today, colored inks and quills and a lot of paper for you to practice on. A few learning books too and if we’re blessed with children they can use them too. Though I won’t deny I always have loved your stories. Maybe now you can write them down yourself as you learn… I can see you making our child their own little fairy book… So keep that in your mind to motivate you as we learn together huh?” He said before the carriage arrived there in town and once they were out? He helped her fashion up those crutches so she could get around a bit more, he himself would dart off to Jacobs place to get those spectacles for her, he knew they would help and that was all that mattered. They were a bit big for her face but they’d clear up the whole world for her, he himself had to wear his to read labels and prices and the like, and while they walked together? She would pick out things that she needed, he himself happily carrying them in a large basket, splitting off again to get a few things while she walked up towards that old herbalist shop that had been hers… For a little while… He paused, coming back with a bouquet of billy buttons in his hand for her, a waxed box of tarts in the other before he paused… He had a very sad memory here too, they both did, and they were shared and caused by the exact same man. “It was yes… It’s still yours, the property is held in eternum, if this… Might be something you wanted to try again. You have an amazing gift, an unmatched skill, I think… It might be something you could enjoy though personally I’d burn it down and build a new one.” New building, new memories, that was what mattered wasn’t it?

“Close your eyes and open your mouth a minute?” He’d ask and once she did? He’d tear off a chunk of that turn over and pop it into her mouth for her to eat, smiling as he’d sneakily hand her that bouquet too before he’d kiss her cheek very, very softly. “Hows yours stomach now? Feeling a bit better? If it rumbles while you chew it means you’re still hungry… I think we might want to get you a real pair of crutches though… You look like a street kid playing beggar.” He teased and if she went to hit him? He’d stand still and take it. “By the way I do got a question for you, sort of circles back to what we were talking about earlier... What’s a cunt? The guys talk about it pretty frequently but I cant tell if they love it or hate it. They always complain of it smelling like fish and they talk about eating it, but I’ve looked through every book and I can’t find a cunt fish anywhere. Do you know?” He asked, genuinely confused and maybe a little concerned because some of the guys talked about some things that made him a bit nervous… “Apparently you can only beat it with your tally wacker? I think that’s a type of wood instrument but I really don’t know. I do know the guys catch it with their wedding tackle which I guess is a lure?... I don’t know much about fishing either but I know you used to fish quite a bit before. You know about the cunt fish, wedding tackle and the tally wacker?”

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She had settled into your room, it was really quite cosy and comfortable.. she noted that you had gone out of your way to make sure it was dark enough for her.. it was a nice touch.. and would be recognised with an impressed nod.. not many knew the extent of a Drows discomfort when it came to light.. both natural and unnatural.. some of it was fine.. but some of it was incredibly painful and would lead to all manner of sickness.. the two fell into companionable conversation.. the wine was a nice touch.. not quite something she would partake in normally.. the surface brews were more akin to flavoured water to her.. but it wasn't unpleasant.. they had spoken about Ace and how much she had known about what had happened.. you seemed to be taking it better than she would have originally expected.. and she idly wondered.. wether or not this was a front.. - Heart break is an incredibly raw emotion and something that should be felt, it should be experienced and only then can you really move forward.. I sincerely hope that you have had time to go over it.. especially with your love and your family.. lean on them if you need to.. never be too proud.. -she brought up the positions she had available.. requiring a personal physician.. and then of course there would be a place for Jacob should he agree to come along.. she figured quickly these two were a package deal.. she listened to your response.. her head tilting a little to the side.. offering a smile in response when she heard you talking of your fondness for her race of people.. but her smile broadened when you said you would accept.. both of you no less-.. Wonderful.. and I appreciate the honesty and open-ness to allowing me to check on these skills you do have.. Its been some time since I have had any kind of medical done on my person, Ive avoided it mostly and really just didn't feel it necessary..but certain things have come to my attention recently.. and i felt it pertinent..

-she began her tale then.. the story of her life.. telling you about Thaylan being her brother.. and then Anyas Father.. she nodded when you explained about genetic defects.. and how Anya showed no signs of it.. at all.. her hand rose as she pressed it to her heart-.. Perfect.. she was such a good baby.. an even better child and the most precious young adult I could have ever been blessed to know.. so hearing she is well certainly calms my heart.. thankyou for that.. -she didn't know you were going to perform the medical on Anya.. but this new information was welcomed.. the honesty you showed her in the next few moments was accepted graciously.. hearing that Jacob was indeed your Brother.. sharing a father no less.. -.. Ahh.. so you understand more than most would.. Thankyou for telling me that.. Honesty saves everyones time in the end.. and I firmly believe that knowing this.. -she motioned between them both with a hand gesture-.. brings us a little closer together.. -she opened up then.. giving you that bit of back story when it came to her fertility and the issues that surrounded it.. Anyas conception.. Valkryns irritation and annoyance.. and the War that caused the House she was in to fall.. how she was tricked when her wards all came down and subsequently run through with a rather sharp long blade.. whisked away to a wizard which was peculiar but at the time she hadn't the strength to question anything.. she chuckled quietly and nodded when you spoke about wizards having no place when it came to the medical side of magic-.. mm.. I tend to agree.. but at the time the only thing I can recall is falling in and out of consciousness.. maybe a green pointed hat.. i dont know.. I too am thankful the bleeding was able to be stopped.. for I fear what might have happened to my daughter if I had of passed away at that point..

-Valkryn probably would have given her away.. or maybe Chaka would have passed her off as her own.. but she could have easily died that day.. she moved to stand then.. sliding out of those heels of hers as she settled atop the bed.. shifting till she was comfortable.. this.. all of this was a little on the odd side.. and there was an glimmer of caution.. even if it was only fleeting.. her hands rested down against her sides .. giving a nod for you to begin.. the feeling she recieved from the magic scan was..quite soothing.. it was like a gentle caress.. a soft warmed blanket.. a loving embrace.. she'd not felt sunlight so much so that analogy was lost on her.. but it was really very nice.. and it helped to calm her.. to relax her and that would have been one thing you would have noticed.. her stress levels diminished quickly.. -.. really?.. -she questioned when you spoke about being able to transplant a womb from a suitable doner-.. wow.. thats really quite incredible.. I never would have thought it could have come to something like that.. but I guess its always and ever changing.. -she fell silent.. looking up at the canopy on the bed as you continued your work.. she really wasn't sure what you were looking at.. or even what you would find.. the comments on her being in excellent shape were surprising.. -.. Well thats certainly favourable news.. My Mother was always in good shape.. or appeared to be.. -her head tilted a little on the pillows as you swung the display around.. she wasn't really sure what she was looking at thought..a series of lights and shapes.. her brows drew inward when you mentioned her womb and everything was still intact.. -.. Oh thank the goddess.. -she exhaled.. relied evident upon her features as those garnet coloured eyes of hers become a little more glassy.. it was an emotional thought.. the idea of being able to have children.. something she had long since given up on..she nodded when you spoke about having to go through a c section though due to the scarring-.. As long as I can carry I dont mind a whit how baby ends up out of there.. Oh my god this is.. this is.. wonderful..

-she swallowed down a breath that was causing her issue catching in the back of her throat..-.. Thaylan is going to die I just know it.. -she chuckled a little.. her brother would be beside himself.. though she fell silent when you mentioned she was making up for lost time.. and that you would need to follow her back home-.. Im sorry?.. I dont follow.. -confusion settled there upon her features.. you werent making a lot of sense.. you wanted to follow her back to Menzoberranan on the off chance she got pregnant and needed a csection?.. all in the matter of months?... she tilted her head as she looked to where you were pointing.. again it meant nothing to her.. she'd not seen one of these scans before.. she squinted when you suggested she take a breath.. and to not faint?.. - Im sorry Rose.. You have me so confused...- you would then show her the twins.. Thaylans twins.. she swore her heart stopped in that moment.. it surely took a stuttered beat as there was an audible gasp.. her mouth dropped open a little and her hand lifted to cover it.. and then you hit her again.. there was another little life there.. a child from Nautilous and she shattered.. she cried.. tears just trickled down her cheeks as her breath caught over and over again.. anything else you had said.. after that ..about her breasts and the nodes and corsets .. you may as well have spoken to the wall.. not a single bit of it got through.. she was pregnant..she was actually pregnant.. to not just one but three.. it was almost too much to handle.. she'd been under so much stress since she had left the estate.. she'd not slept so well.. so much circled her mind.. her thoughts were becoming so loud.. but this.. learning this.. just hushed everything.. -.. Oh My God..

-she wiped her fingers beneath her eyes.. trying to stem the flow of tears that were trickling down her cheeks..she slowly pulled herself up to sit.. long legs dangling over the edge of the bed as she tried to compose herself.. -.. this is.. this is incredible.. this is more.. more than I could have ever.. ever asked for.. -even through all the tears she was still smiling.. it was broad.. she was practically beaming -.. thankyou.. -she whispered.. reaching to take your tired hands in hers as she gave them a light squeeze-.. from the bottom of my heart.. thankyou.. -she swallowed.. reaching for the water there as she took a sip.. all in an effort to remove the hiccups that had formed.. though it was a failure.. she was an emotional wreck.. -.. this is.. amazing.. -she glanced down to the flat of her stomach..her shaky hands would glide across the velvet of her dress.. it had been so long since she had been pregnant.. So long...-.. this means the world to me.. all ive ever desired.. wanted was family around me.. I was blessed with Anya.. and I wanted so much more.. id long made peace with the fact I couldn't.. so this has almost blindsided me.. -she lifted her teary gaze as you tapped upon her bare shoulder.. where that bite remained.. she rubbed her lips together as you spoke.. listening about Nautilous and Sydel.. how you werent sure on the hows or the whys.. she exhaled a long shuddered breath-..- Its complicated.. -her brows drew inward.. hands clasped together before her.. -.. Uh.. we met.. before the party..the one I organised.. we spoke.. talked over all and nothing.. it was .. amicable.. -her breath continued to catch against the back of her throat every so often.. causing those quiet gasps as she took another small drink from the glass-. he approached me.. and asked for a kiss.. I gave my permission and it just spiralled from there.. very deep.. very hard.. very fast.. He's quite broken..exhasted.. tired.. and so vulnerable.. I tried to make him understand that he too was worthy of love.. that he should be expecting what he himself was giving out.. and that it was not possible to pour from an empty cup.. something my Mother had taught me when I was much younger..

-she sighed-.. I fell for him.. hook line and sinker Rose.. he's a fascinating creature.. his intelligence is unparalleled..he is as sharp as a tack..incredibly loving.. kind and gentle.. He intrigues me.. -she frowned though it was more from a sadness than anger- We shared something truly magical.. so many promises were made and choices taken.. when he did this.. -she motioned to her shoulder-.. he explained it.. much the same way you did to me just now.. of its importance.. its seriousness.. its meaning.. from him to me..-she blinked a few times as she brushed a finger beneath her eye once more-.. I had my reservations.. and I remained.. cautious up until that moment he said.. he had chosen me.. up until he made his professions.. and thats when I opened myself up to him fully.. I allowed him in.. Thaylan was there with understanding and love to give.. the next day.. was the surgery.. with the sisters.. and the children.. as you well know it didn't go so well.. there was the altercation between brothers.. he got pretty banged up.. I helped him out as much as I could with a loving hand and gentle heart.. he asked how he could enter our home.. our House.. that he wanted to get away from here.. I gave him a run down.. the finer aspects of my employ and where he would fit.. and then something happened.. it was sudden.. in the blink of an eye.. he shifted.. he asked me for time to work things out with Sydel.. and it hurt..

-she swallowed-.. but I understood.. I told him that It was always his choice to make.. and forever would be.. and I left that night.. -she took a long slightly shakey breath.. her hands rose to rub up the sides of her neck-.. im in an odd position ..I know.. like you do that he has left Sydel.. I couldn't turn off what i felt.. no matter how hard i tried.. the risk is high.. the gamble is huge.. -she worried the corner of her lip-.. but i miss him.. and its just about killing me.. however.. its also highly possible that he needs to finally work on himself.. something I told him to do.. -her head dipped forward.. you spoke on things that had been spoken staying between them.. something she was incredibly thankful for.. the advice.. the milk and water.. the protein and some vitamins.. she nodded-.. mm.. I will.. thankyou.. I will do as you ask of me.. whatever it takes to remain as healthy as possible.. I have more than myself to think about now.. -she glanced up to you.. -.. I need to get to silverthorn though.. and I dont want to make you uncomfortable.. we could meet up afterwards if thats better.. I just need to go and see them.. they are waiting for me.. -she rubbed her forehead.. -.. all the drama aside though.. You most assuredly have the job if you still want it.. this.. was perfect..

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To be fair he wasn’t the only one that fucked. He and Ace were in similar enough boats that they could catch each other in passing along turbulent waters. Though Ace had broken off something in the very beginning versus he himself who had tortured the person he loved for over a decade… Someone had done a kindness to their partners though he doubted many and most would ever see it that way. He himself had to wonder at it, something about it wasn’t lining up right, it wasn’t meshing at the edges… Like trying to fit together a poorly cut puzzle the pieces weren’t laying properly, rather they were either too short or overlapping at others, which made him wonder just what was really going on behind the scenes. Not that he himself had much if any right to talk given he’d fucked up with Sydel and Gia in back to back fashion he was definitely NOT the right person to judge a single soul in regards to Romance or anything else like that. He and Thaylan were down in Splinter and waiting for Gia to return from her doctors visit and that was where they had all met up again, unexpectedly yes but perhaps not entirely so given that Splinter had more whisky and women than most continents on the surface.

“Life’s full of some random ass changes this season it seems. Someone found our little voodoo doll copies and gave them a good hard shake it feels like. Let’s hope they keep the pins out of it or we’re going to all be hurting.” Because right now? He had a feeling who ever DID have his voodoo doll? Was a sadistic little asshole and those pins would likely be red hot and stuck in places he’d rather not ever get stuck. He avoided the alcohol as it was just wasted on him and instead picked up a cigar and lit it up with the offered match, puffing away quietly before he’d answer Ace’s question as best he could, and hearing that answer? He himself was quiet for a minute before he’d speak. “Not fair on her… Or not fair on you? It’s one thing to admit you’re a coward but don’t add lying on top of the list mate, you’re better than that.” It was all too easy to try and make it out like Ace was just the noble, hurting party who had set the little bird free rather than cage her, but sometimes the birds were never meant to be wild. Sometimes? Your cheap ass just needed to buy a bigger and better fucking cage… But like he’d thought before, he was in no place to judge, he himself had fucked up so royally his dick was still in the fucking dog.

Speaking of all of this though he had answered the question in regards to why they were there, explaining he had broken it off with Sydel and that he was going down to Menzoberranzan for a few years, figure out his own life and all the shit that came with it. It was funny though that out of everything THAT was the thing that seemed to cause Ace to pull his head out of his hat of melancholy and take note of the world around him for a minute. “No one knew, not just you, we’d been working on it for years but… Every time we fixed something, something else broke and in the end I knew the only chance she had at being happy was with my brother, not with me. Fate is a river who runs her own course and I tried to change that and I dammed the river up, made it leave it’s natural course and I? Just ruined everything. She was always meant to be with Diovan and in the end? That river won and I really wish her happiness and joy, she deserves that much if not more.” And he did. He really…Really just wanted to see her happy more than anything else, to be happy and in love, and who knew? Maybe she might be able to have those children she wished for after all? Right now? He just knew more than anything else it was time for her to shine, to be herself, to take the steps he had stolen from her so many years ago.

“I have a lot of work to do down there that’s going to take me a couple of years at least. Been outrunning a debt for a long time and the thing came due, we all gotta pay the tab at some point, can never really outrun it.” He said, careful to be truthful but not give away too much, there were still secrets that he needed to shelter for a while. Thaylan had just waved off the words said with a smile as he had curled up with a bottle of lovely absinthe while himself and Ace spoke back and forth. Thaylan right now? Might perhaps be a bit on the jittery, excited side as he might be finding out in a couple of hours time that he was going to be a father again, and he himself? Was silent and refusing to allow hope to take route. Gia had made herself very clear through Thaylan that he had burned down the chance of ever being with her and if a child had come of their union. All he would do was bleed internally because it was a dear wish but something he would not be allowed to partake in. “The weather is fine, it managed itself before you were born, it will continue to do so long after you are gone. Don’t worry about it so much right now. Just keep it from being too hot or dry, otherwise let the thing run it’s course, you’re doing fine. How far are these guys spaced out around for your globe?” He’d ask himself before Ace would ask him that other question as Thaylan had reached out to stroke his back lightly. “Gia asked me to come along with her here for a bit, not sure how much longer we will be in each others company but going down into Menzoberranzan together, there’s a few things I need to help her with.”

That was all he would say on it though. Splinter had a LOT of ears and he wasn’t about to go blabbing in this place. That was like putting your head in the guillotine and wondering why your heads lopped off. “What are you going to do now though? I mean you can say your fucking around with your globe and I know you are, but your also hiding, but that can’t last forever. You don’t want to be King and Ryker is better at it than you are, no offence, but hes a lot more stable and loyal to Silverthorn. Ryker can’t be King unless you abjugated the throne. You finally going to do that?” He asked, looking straight at Ace with his one good eye, the other covered with the scar and patch. What WAS Ace going to do? Would he finally do what was right? Or what was easy?

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he had tried his best to explain this tart thing to her.. this pastry item with fruit?.. or something like that but she couldn't quite get her mind around it.. he was going to pick one up for her in town.. she could try it first hand.. with some milk even or tea.. she offered a smile and a little nod-.. that sounds good.. I dont know what goes with which but im sure ill figure it out.. -she was genuinely interested in trying all these things.. in feeling her way around .. it could be quick and things would just come to her.. it might be a little slow.. but.. he was being a true and honest gentleman with her.. and his patience was welcomed.. they touched on a little about Caela.. the oddity about the older sister that didn't seem to want to allow her to explore.. to make friends.. and certainly not lovers..maybe there was something to it.. maybe Caela did love her younger sister more than a sibling usually would ..but in those moments all she wanted was for it to all go away.. her sister had caused her So much grief.. and the fear would always be there.. that at any given moment Caela would just pop back up again.. to make life difficult.. he told her that intimacy between them would be on her terms.. her schedule.. that he understood she might not feel safe with him touching her that way.. that was an honerable gesture..she reached for his hand.. curling her soft fingers around his as she gave it a light squeeze.. the conversation shifted .. to something incredibly lighter as he began to trip and stumble over phrasing used for genitals.. everything but the Actual words.. Oh it was entertaining how awkward he got.. she couldn't hide the amused smile as she laughed a little-.. You havent changed a bit.. do you realise that?.. You struggled with the terminology when we were teens..

-ladies organs and flowers.. P words and other such nonsense.. the chuckles continued.. but she didn't want him to think she was making fun of him.. she just found it utterly cute-.. You know you wont turn to stone if you say the actual words right Diovan?.. -she tilted her head to the side.. glancing in his direction with a smile-.. Phallus is certainly one I can say.. without hesitation.. that I have never actually used.. well.. till today.. -her smile turned into a grin as she laughed and she nudged his side with her elbow.. they spoke on his lack of magical abilities.. their shared classes and then of course the varied side effects of her trialling potions on him-.. But you were such a well behaved guinea pig.. -she reached up to pinch his cheek-.. the rainbow rump.. thats certainly a new one.. I think I preferred when your clothing dissolved and you had to do a naked run all the way back home through the forest.. -she chewed on her lip there.. shaking her head a little .. oh the tales to tell.. -.. You were never useless Diovan, you were always there for me.. -she tilted her head.. he mentioned carrying her around in third grade after she sprained her ankle-.. mmhmm.. and I may have exaggerated that one.. a little bit.. maybe.. -she chuckled.. she sprained it yes.. but she could have probably walked on it a bit more.. the carriage arrived and they made their way into the village .. he wanted her to learn how to read.. and how to write.. he was going to work hard at getting her up to speed.. so that if they were blessed with children she would be able to read to them.. it was a nice thought really.. but could she get there?.. how many others had tried this?.. to get her to read?.. Gia had once.. Nautilous had numerous times.. and it always ended up in failure.. or her just throwing in the towel.. but she would try.. she really would try.. they shopped.. getting bits and pieces.. fruits and flour, bread and cheeses.. a bit of everything to restock her little cottage kitchen..

he had disappeared for a little while as she made her way slowly down the sidewalk.. past a few of the shops.. coming to a stop before the old herbalist.. it struck her then that it was Belles store.. or.. well hers at its core.. but that it had been closed when everything just went so wrong.. her heart hurt a little at the thought as she peered in through the dusty window.. she asked if it was the right one and he confirmed it.. that it was hers.. forever.. if she wanted to try again.. though his advice was to burn it.. she pursed her lips together.. -.. mm.. Ill have to give it some thought.. it was always a dream to have something like that.. a little place of my own.. maybe in a little while I will revist it.. -she moved along a little way.. before he told her to stop.. to close her eyes and open her mouth.. her brow rose as she turned a little.. shifting the crutches so she had proper balance.. she did as asked.. and was treated with that incredibly sweet turn over.. she blinked as the sugary sweet and tart that struck her without warning.. -.. Ohhhhh my god.. -her hand rose as she pressed it to her lips.. blinking her eyes open as she noticed the bundle of buttons..and she felt that cheeky little kiss to her cheek.. -.. Oh now that was good.. I dont know what that was.. but.. Wow.. yes.. -she nodded as she rubbed her lips together-.. You can get me one of those Anytime.. -it would be then that she would slip on the glasses he had gotten for her.. the ones from her son.. they were a bit big and slid down her nose every so often when she held them in place she could see.. and clearly.. she blinked and looked around-.. Ohh.. yes thats better.. I can see now.. -everything was a lot crisper.. cleaner.. and colourful.. she looked to the buttons and smiled.. reaching to brush her fingers across their rounded tops.. before she would inevitably flick one of the heads at him with a playful wink-.. Thankyou Diovan.. really.. all of this.. is just wonderful.. My stomach is feeling a bit better yes.. its not hurting anymore.. as for the crutches im hoping I dont have to worry about them tomorrow.. but.. I guess.. ill wait and see..

-she slid those glasses back into place as they made their way down her nose once more.. the two of them continued on.. before he said he had a question.. something that circled back to what they were talking about earlier?.. -.. uh.. right?.. whats that then.. -before he struck her suddenly.. near on winding her with the series of questions about cunts and fish and tally wackers.. she blinked.. and blinked again.. turning to look to him..-.. surely you arent.. -serious?.. oh but he was.. He was serious.. Oh dear god.. she laughed.. hard enough that she nearly lost her balance.. those poor glasses of hers ended up falling into some small pot plant they were standing near.. -.. Oh no Diovan.. no.. -she laughed as she reached to cover her mouth.. a Mother with her child had made their way past.. the Mum was covering her kids ears .. she bit her lip then as she reached up to cover his mouth with her own hand-.. Hush.. HUSH.. -she snickered.. glancing over her shoulder as she watched the woman swiftly pick up step and move further away.. -.. Oh dear lord.. -she wined as she couldn't help the amused smile on her face.. -.. dont say another word mm?.. nothing.. zip it.. or I wont take my hand away..

-her voice was clearly full of mirth and amusement.. she would wait till he nodded.. or agreed before she would draw her hand back.. -.. You truly dont know huh?.. You have been frequenting pleasure houses and its never struck you what they were talking about?.. -only then would she lean in.. her hands upon his shoulders for balance as she whispered in his ear.. explaining just what cunt meant.. how it certainly wasnt a fish.. and how it would only smell like fish if the woman had not bathed in Quite some time.. oh she tried not to laugh.. his innocence when it came to this was adorable.. and yet in the same breath remarkable.. the difference between him and Nautilous was striking really...she explained a tally wacker.. whilst wood might help with explaining it was no instrument.. she didn't use flowery words.. and she wasn't delicate.. she was certainly not his Mother.. this was not the time for organs, petals and phallus.. -.. I mean I guess you could beat it.. hammer it.. pump it.. fill it.. whatever takes your fancy.. but.. my advice to you.. is not to use the word cunt in public.. -she snickered as she pulled back a little.. but not before her lips would leave a gentle imprint to his cheek.. -.. You are as adorably awkward as you have ever been.. -she re situated herself upon those makeshift crutches.. looking about for those glasses that fell-.. I think we best get you home before you frighten the children.. -she shot him a wink-

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he was surprised to see them both there.. it was unexpected.. entirely so.. your remark on it not being far on which party had his brow rising-.. Look man.. If you want to get pissed with me.. or angry or point fingers.. go for it.. I really do not give a single rats ass right now.. Make it my fault.. Ill own it.. whatever.. done.. dusted.. Im a coward.. Im an asshole.. yep.. all of it and more.. I get it.. Thanks -he waved his hand..-. I dont need nor want a lecture.. and this is not the place to have them.. so.. either drink.. smoke.. or fuck off.. -he exhaled a long stream of smoke.. he was really not in the mood to be having deep and meaningful about relationships with anyone.. he'd written the letter.. he was the bad guy.. he accepted it.. done deal.. hearing that you had broken things off with Sydel surprised him.. he knew all to well that Sy originally was meant to be with Diovan..-.. preaching to the choir.. I know.. I remember it.. -he rubbed the back of his neck-.. still.. i thought you guys were pretty fucking solid.. Im sorry to hear that man.. -he downed another glass of whisky.. the bartender refilling it a moment later before shifting along to talk with Thaylan.. -.. yeah I guess we all gotta pay our dues at some point.. cant run forever.. -he exhaled.. this was becoming depressing.. and he hated that shit.. -.. Ah they are dotted here and there.. few opposite places.. might take me a month or two to get the smaller parts.. but not impossible.. just gotta do it.. -he shrugged.. - something Ill probably organise in the next few days.. -he listened to you speak on Menzoberranzan.. and how you were helping Gia with a few things.. -.. watch your back down there eh?.. I guess since you have two guides it wont be that bad.. but.. that place can be pretty fucking treacherous.. as for abjugating.. yeah.. I know.. and I probably will.. I think ive had enough.. of all of this.. of everything.. Ryker was always going to be the better King.. -he shrugged.. - just gotta get the ball rolling I guess.. anyway.. Ill be around.. I gotta go do some things.. tie off some loose ends.. you know.. stay in touch eh?.. -he nodded.. patting your shoulder.. offering a salute to Thaylan before he butted out his cigar and he headed off down one of the darker corridors.. off to no doubt speak to his Mother.. get the lecture that was coming to him.. -

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..a raven haired woman would approach Nautilous.. offering a low curtsy..she said nothing.. just looked to him with those sea green eyes.. she would reach for his hand.. and if he would allow it she'd take his in both of hers.. turning his over.. palm facing up.. and in it she would place a small folded piece of paper.. only then curling his fingers over it ..before she would turn.. nodding her head to Thaylan.. he might recognise her.. it was Gias shimmer..her herald.. she wasn't real.. she didn't exist other than on a magical plane ..she would turn then and make her way back into the darkened shadows...


Nautilous

I request a moment or two with you, alone if you would permit it.

Meet me in the southern green house at the chime of 12.

Gia

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..once read it would dissolve in his fingers.. she didn't know about his lack of magical ability.. so it was probably a good thing she only requested him go to the other side of the kingdoms grounds.. -

[BadInfluence]

Jacob had helped her out a lot in regard to the lighting issues. She had done the best she could, trying to find that balance between where she could help keep her comfortable but still be able to see, and it might be some time still before that perfect line was struck but till then? It was good enough to know she had been close enough for the situation to be comfortable for both parties. Wine and locus had been brought out for Gia to partake of as she saw fit, it would be cruel not to offer some sort of finger foods, this was a business meeting after all. She however hadn’t expected the conversation to round about to Ace and in all honesty? She faltered every time she had to think about him… Her hand over her chest for a moment as she sat down, feeling that raw, aching squeeze in her chest like it was going to crush her heart. “I’m afraid to… I don’t have a family really, they’re broken and scattered, hurting themselves… I think if I stop… If I don’t allow myself to slow down… Then it will just run it’s course in the back of my mind.” She hoped so but she had yet to lay her head down with the knowledge of what was going on. She looked up at the ceiling for a moment as she fought back down the creeping tendrils of emotion that kept trying to strangle her. “Jacob loved him too, longer and harder than I did, I won’t unload on him when he himself is probably hurting.” And there was no quick route out of this, no magic pill or injection, no miracle diet plan would cure her of what ailed her… The fact was she had loved Ace deeply and when he cut ties the way he had, after pushing her and pushing her to tell him everything, it was cruel… Vicious really… In the moment he had told her it was just a fantasy and that it wasn’t what made her who she was… But the next day he was gone. Literally. He made himself a liar and she wanted to hit him… Yell at him… Scream at the top of her lungs till her vocal cords snapped… She was mad and hurting and her emotions inside were such a chaotic turmoil of a storm that she knew the moment she so much as cracked the door open she’d be sucked out and torn apart by it’s vicious teeth and cutting claws…

Switching topics though she told her that she would much prefer to show her that she could indeed do what was asked before accepting the position, she wasn’t about to sell herself as a horse if she could only trot along like a donkey, that wouldn’t do anyone any good. Besides, she really was genuine in her admiration and respect of the Drow, it was like this sudden connection that she really wanted to explore. “I prefer to be honest really, I need to be sure that I am up to your level after all, the position your offering is generous and an honor. I’ll not take it if I am not up to snuff.” If she had? Imagine how many ripples that would have down the line? She and Jacob were pretty much starting to tentatively plan on this being the next step for them in their life and that was already a huge thing for Jacob to do given his scars regarding Menzoberranzan. “Mmm and no one blames you either, many people have a fear of doctors, though that’s usually because people avoid check ups and come in well after things have gotten pretty bad. Much as people hate the dentists for having to pull teeth that could have been saved with regular cleanings.” She said with a smile of her own before things would start to go into the medical area, the two of them spoke easily together, comfortable and honest. A very, very good start to the type of relationship they’d likely have once things truly set on a roll, friendly and open without being overtly familiar. A very, very good thing indeed… “You’re a very important person Gia, I’d say that while it might not be terrifically important, I do think bi-yearly check ups would be very beneficial in making sure that you stay fit and healthy for a very long time to come.” But that having been said Gia began to fill her in on some of her history, all important things to know so that as time went on, she would be able to better tailor the care given and needed from her and for Gia. Honestly though she had a bit of a more open minded approach to a lot of things than many others, even though she was young she really refused to let a lot of lifes dictates demand of her how to act and where to judge. “More than well, she is in absolute perfect health, I’ve yet to come across someone who has been as well cared for as she is. You, Matron Gia, are a very wonderful mother. You can tell you truly went the extra mile for your daughter.” After all you don’t get that sort of care unless your mother really and truly puts you at the front of every little thing in the world, where nothing and no one means more to her than her child, and that care? Well that’s what makes for extremely well rounded, healthy, and kind children.

“Indeed we do. We found out later in our life, after we had already been together for about a year but even though we knew it, it didn’t change us or how we felt.” It would have been too easy for them to have split off because they both knew how taboo it was, the risks and complications that came with it too, they could have done it but… They hadn’t… They loved each other and that meant a hell of a lot more to them than their shared father. Besides, to be quite honest, while Diovan had been the sperm donor? He was and had not been a father figure to either of them. “I’m glad you feel so, honesty and trust are really important in a doctor and patient relationship, especially one on the level that you have offered me.” She would be the Family Doctor, exclusive for the most part, and not just exclusive but they were going to be seen a lot like relations… Much closer than the average group for sure. When Gia explained her concerns, the issues with pregnancy and then the battle upon her house, being wounded and then taken to a mage to be healed. The last one though, that struck her as being completely useless but in the end he had at least healed her enough that she survived, so it wasn’t as bad as it could have been… “I do hope he gave you a fortune cookie before he left… That is utter madness but he did sav your life which was the most important thing.” But… Really? She would never have put a single ounce of salt in anything they’d have said, there was no way in hell they could have known a kidney from a gallbladder! “I am glad that you survived for Anya is a very sweet and dear friend of mine whom I love quite a bit. But let’s look towards this possible future we might see, hmm? Time to reveal some facts for you.”

Gia was up on that bed and she began the scan, it was indeed warm and comforting, very relaxing as she worked and that was the most vital part. It was amazing what stress and fear did to a body, it could cause so many false readings, spikes in blood pressure and heart rate… Cholesterol could go through the roof with just an hour of stress a day! As she set up the scan she felt it good to speak to Gia about some of the other options, things that were important because if say that she found out that Gia’s womb was too badly damaged or gone, well there were things that they could do. “It’s not something we do often, it’s only ever done in extreme circumstances because it can have very poor outcomes sometimes, but it is an option… But right now? Let’s just focus on seeing what we have to work with.” She said with a smile as she began to go through the motions, checking out the cardiovascular system and the like, making sure that her body could sustain a healthy pregnancy as that was pretty vital to the whole thing. “Genetics will tell true more often than not. It’s why families in the past used to inbreed, did you know that? It was to keep the genetics pure and it works so long as fresh blood is taken in every other generation. It’s why some families are utterly beautiful and have all the benefits nature can provide while others start out strong but can’t finish in the end, so to speak.” The trick was just… Making sure to outbreed often or the genetic flaws of inbreeding could be seen and once they started it was almost impossible to cull in a bloodline. Funny enough witch elves tended to dip into the family tree a bit more than most, partially due to the fact that witch elves were incredibly small and secular in their society, but also because they had standards. Literally. It was exceedingly rare for a witch elf to breed or marry someone that was not a witch elf, every other race were just slaves to be used, killed and mulched into the fields for nutrients.

The scan went on and she was able to show Gia that indeed her womb and both ovaries were intact, and while there was indeed scarring it wasn’t so much as that it would cause extreme difficulty in conception, though it would definitely make it a bit harder… And delivery would have to be via c-section of course. “Oh you can carry just fine from what I am seeing. Getting pregnant might take some work since there is a lot of scar tissue but it’s far from impossible, just make sure you climax a lot and take a good long nap afterwards so everything can settle and swim up stream as it should, keeping a healthy diet and limiting stress should make it a lot easier. I’d say you can easily get pregnant before the year is out if we do this right.” It was wonderful to see someone so happy about it all though, lately all her run ins with pregnancy and childbirth were all sad, she hadn’t once had a chance to just see someone… Happy. So this? Was an excelent change of pace and one she really needed today. However… She did want to look a little closer at something, there was a cyst on one of her ovaries and that made her want to look a little closer, especially since Gia was indeed sexually active… And because of that? She got to see that little trio of bundled nerves… Honestly it was just a lump of cells, not even shapes yet, just little eggs burried in the walls of her uterus. In a couple of months though? The picture would be quite different. “Oh, oh oh, please now… Don’t cry!” She said as she grabbed up a box of tissues and handed them to Gia to dry her eyes, explaining that there were some steps to take now, things to help make sure it all flowed correctly. She closed the scan down and just quietly reached out to pat her back very softly, she really was happy that Gia was so over the moon but she’d never seen someone cry like that before, it was a bit of a shock but she hid it very well behind a warm and compassionate expression. “Well it’s not uncommon though, as a woman gets older her eggs become a bit softer shelled and more come through, hence why women in their thirties and such tend to have more multiple births than women who are around my age.” The hands extended were taken a soft squeeze returned as she tried to help her with those hiccups, searing out the nerve endings that often helped to end them when pressed down, just applying a soft pressure and massage to ease those beasties off a bit. “ It’s my job as your Doctor to give you all the news you need. But that also means we need to take care of You First, you’re everything to those little bundles right now, and that means you need to start putting in the effort now. Normally we’d take a month or five to prepare your body for pregnancy but this time? Well we’ll just have to put a rush on it.” She said with a wink before she would move into areas a little more…

Personal…

She knew what that bite was, she was after all the most knowledgeable person about the man who had given her that mark, and it had gone quite the ways to explain why Nautilous had suddenly separated from Sydel despite everyone thinking it was all fine on the surface. “Seems complicated is all anyone can live these days…” She, Jacob and the sudden cessation with Ace… Sybelle dying and leaving behind a baby for Garafin and Taru to raise… Diovan and Sydel now suddenly shacked up together… Nautilous and Gia with Thaylan… “Nautilous and I have a lot in common, we both grew up without families to love us or keep us safe, living like that can make it… Really hard to believe in love or any self-worth… And it makes you feel like… Just one wrong step and you’re suddenly unlovable entirely.” She was worried about Jacob but she kept telling herself he loved her and it was going to be ok… He wasn’t going to leave… As Gia explained things though, the way it had all happened between her and Nautilous, the rapid fall before Nautilous suddenly withdrew… “Oh honey…” She said, the doctor bit slipping into the back and just Rose the woman coming to the forefront. “Listen to me a moment… I’m young and I don’t know everything, but I know a whole lot about being an orphan like him, so I’m going to give you a peek inside… See… Sometimes we orphans are guilty of this thing called self-sabotage. We do it so the people who wanted us wont anymore. Now, I know it is entirely contradictive because the fact is we are all so desperate to be loved and we need a whole lot more than the average person.” She said as she spoke. “We fear that these people will see the real us and not want us so it’s so much safer to just stay alone and unwanted. It’s a familiar pain we all know and are almost intimate with. The fact was that you were like a family willing to adopt him and give him a home so he? Acted out. He’s just scared, more than anything he is really, really scared. It’s not that he didn’t want you, not for a second, it’s moreso his flight or fight survival instincts kicked in and he flew because he doesn’t know anything else… I’d say… Personally… It might be good to talk to him again, it doesn’t have to be about his baby or anything else like that, just talk to him… See where he stands… You might find that it’s not all quite what it seemed at the first.”

Directions were given then for Gia to make sure she kept high on the milk and dairy products for the growth of the pregnancy, to take in extra protein too as she would need it, need it in some likely great excess… She’d also make her up a vitamin plan to help supplement what couldn’t be easily found in food. Hearing that she would do all that but that she had to go back to Silverthorn made her pause a bit… “Actually…When you go could you deliver a letter to Aeson from me? Please?” She’d ask before nodding her head. “But yes, I very much would like the job, please and thank you. It’s really a chance of a lifetime and I wouldn’t miss it for anything… Just a few more minutes of your time while I jot something off…” She’d ask before she’d indeed go to sit down at her desk… One letter to find Jacob and tell him that she was done and Gia found her skills suitable and she had taken the position. She loved him, missed him, and would seen him when he returned… The next one was to Ace and that one… Bore more than a few tear stains even if she didn’t make a single sound…

“Dear Ace,

I’d like to be petty and blame you for everything, it would probably feel good for me in the end, but it would just be a lie and mean too. I am sure… What you did was with all the kindness you could muster and I wanted to say thank you… For thinking of me and putting my needs first, for… Taking the time to look out for me like you have from the start…

I’m really sorry that we didn’t work out, I wish we would have maybe met at a later time in my life, when I was a bit older… A little more settled… The fact is that I’m still young, I’m still learning myself and what I like and don’t like, I’m experimenting and exploring and… Well to be honest that’s the last thing you need.

I never once lied about how I felt about you though… I love you. I think I always will… I really… I really…- really wanted to help you find out how to heal all your broken parts… Help you put them back together so the world didn’t hurt quite so much. I just… I wish that… We… That I… That I was enough. I hope… No matter what happens… That you find peace Ace. Peace in this life so that you don’t feel like you are so broken… You…

You were always… Always beautiful to me… I never saw you as broken… Just unique…

Goodbye Ace…

I bear you no ill will and I hope you will find peace in knowing that I don’t hold you accountable for anything…

Sincerely,
Rose Ganeth…

[BadInfluence]

“Take a step back there home slice, I’m not trying to piss in your soup, I’m actually trying to find the main core right now. It was sudden as fuck for us to see you go and ask for permission only to turn around not even three days later and drop them both. Just breathe dude, not a soul here thinks you’re the bad guy, we’re mostly just shocked.” And they were. But he figured… Eh… Maybe his words weren’t coming out the greatest considering his whole fucking day had gone to shit so fucking hard he was STILL stuck down the U-bend of the loo. He had reached into his pocket and pulled out a small gift, something wrapped in waxed paper and slid it towards Ace, and what was inside? Well dreams in a pack. Drow drugs that had been from the party, a bit of something to help ease his agony and the ache in his heart, not forever but… Enough to allow him several hours of uninterrupted peace. “Something to help ease your pain for a while… Me and Sydel were… In a lot of ways… But you can be solid and still fuck each other up. That was our gimmick… We had done so much shit right man, SO much, but what we fucked up on was the shit that was vital to health and happiness. No matter how far the ass travels, it will never come back a horse, and after ten years… I wasn’t about to make her do another ten with so much shit wrong between us because of me.” Thaylan had been happily playing with a bottle of Absinthe before he remembered to take it away from him and sliding it to Ace. “He’s not allowed alcohol, Gia’s going to be ripping him a new asshole, he’s gotta take it fresh. No pain killers.” Thaylan just grinned and chuckled quietly, taking an iced tea instead and drinking on that while he smoked a cigar, enjoying the view of those luscious young things on the stage doing just about everything they could to entice a man to stray. As the night in Splinter went on as per usual he had asked Ace how things were going with the globe, how much of it might be shipped in versus going to do it himself. “Man I’d go and get those parts personally rather than have them shipped. Your mum, no offence, is worse than a starving dog with a meaty bone. Adelaide has no middle ground, she’d either full tilt, or not at all. My heart aches for you and the relationships you lost but man, it fuckin breaks for you having a mom like that, mine doesn’t give a fuck so I can at least live my own life… Again, no offence, I respect your mum but… Glad she’s not mine.” Fucking. Truth. Clause. This shit was going to get him fucked up or killed, thanks so much Llolth, you eight legged cunt from hell.



He told Ace he was heading down into Menzoberranzan and he nodded, he knew it was absolute chaos down there on a whole different level, like a roach motel. People go in… People don’t come out. He wasn’t about to tell Ace that he didn’t think he was going to be with Gia or Thaylan long though, he’d already ruined that one waaaaay at the start, like tripping and knocking yourself out at the sound of the starting gun. “We all have a place we belong and this was never yours… Making you a Prince, a King, it’s like nailing a fish to a tree and telling it to evolve… You’re a good Man, Aeson, a DAMN good man. But this was never something you needed. Like you can do it but it would kill you and a King needs to love his job to be good at it otherwise it just wears you down into dust. I really hope your Mum chills out and doesn’t give you too much grief. You’ve been put through enough here. If you need me call me, I’ll come help.” He just… You know… Wouldn’t be all that fucking fast about it anymore. He and Thaylan remained at the bar, chatting quietly about a few things, the possibilities that lay ahead of them….

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Thaylan: You know she’d never cut you out of the childs life if you did manage to get her pregnant…



Naut: I know but I couldn’t ask her to let me near my child if it was going to hurt her. There’s a fine line to everything but that’s one I won’t cross… Am other shouldn’t be made miserable by her child or vice verse… I’ve seen what it does to both parties first hand.



Thaylan: Oh, little prince, not everything will turn out as sad as your own did…



Naut: We don’t know that Thaylan. I can’t do anything truly good or healthy, it’s like my hands are tainted or cursed, everything I touch is going to get fucked up at some point. Right away or a decade later it always breaks.



Thay: Have you already undone the work my sister did with you? Do you honestly think she would have fallen in love with you so hard if you were that bad?



Naut: She fell fast but fell out of it just as quick…



Thay: Oh hardly sweet one. She is not out of love with you, she’d just hurt, trying to build up walls to keep herself safe. She is not like other women, time to mourn or indulge in weakness is not something she is allowed, she must be strong always and you? Took that from her for the first time in her life. You scared her… As much as she scares you.



Naut: Ugh Thaylan go fuck yourself with that god damned crystal ball.



Thay: Well I could but I thought I might prefer you instead?



Naut: Oh no, not that quick mate, my ass still won’t let me sit right. You had no damned mercy you fucking asshole.



Thay: Well I DID indeed fuck your asshole and I do apologize for my zeal, you were extremely enjoyable, but this time I am offering up my own. I’ve never been with a man like that before… I’m curious.



Naut: Oh? Well then alright but I’m not going to be a dick like you and make your ass hurt.



Thay: Aww, what a pity, I like a little pain like any other healthy adult.



Naut: Dude. There is NOTHING healthy about us.



Thay: I know, it’s wickedly wonderful, isn’t it?

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They were conversing like this back and forth before this beautiful woman had come up to his side and he was taken aback a bit and actually leaned away from her. It wasn’t till she grabbed his hand and placed the note in them that he eased up a little bit, something about that aura, the trick unsettled him deeply… Reminded him of Chaka and the way she’d let him know she was coming before she’d actually set foot on the property… He shuddered just a bit but got over it quickly, Thaylan explaining things to him quietly, all of which helped to ease him a good deal and his concerns? Vanished. He’d opened up the note and read it, his head tilting to the side a bit before he’d look at the clock, scratching his head before the note would dissolve. “Come on Thay, I need to put your punk ass back in our room and make sure you can’t get to any alcohol. Your best bet is to just sit your ass in a tub of ice and let it go numb before the canes you. Old trick from my past. I gotta head over to the greenhouse before it’s too late and I miss my date.” He’d say and with that the two of them also left Splinter and they’d return to their rooms, Thaylan to sit his ass in the bucket of ice water and he himself changed into something more suitable, plain still but nicer… Walking along the ground towards the greenhouse he made sure it was empty, no one around to spy or listen, not a single soul breathing nearby… He might be magically retarded now but he was still part dragon and his hearing was better than even an elfs.



Settling down on the bench he had his arms resting on his knees, he was sweating just a bit from nerves and the heat of the greenhouse, his head hanging down. What did Gia need to talk to him about? Was he right? Had he gotten her pregnant? Or was she telling him he hadn’t and the two were going to part ways forever? What if she was pregnant? Would she even allow him near her? Would she understand what he was going through? He wanted to be able to give her clear and concise answers about his internal conflict but he himself didn’t even have the words. Everything inside was so knotted up and torn… Frayed and impossible to unravel even a small bit without extreme and exhaustive efforts.

[BadInfluence]

“Well it depends on the weather or even the time of day. Tea is normally when it’s cold out or first thing in the morning, but children often have it with milk any time of day, and for adults milk with them after dinner for a type of dessert. It’s good either way, just depends on how you like it, there’s no wrong way to do a tart.” He said with a laugh and he was just really… Really glad they had this… Something they wouldn’t have had if Sybelle hadn’t passed on and Nautilous having left… It was like the extra players were gone and it was allowing them to finally be together like they should have been, Sydel was not Sybelle but she WAS his love, the way she would have been given the natural progress of things…Well…For the most part. They’d talk about Caela for a moment or ten and as they went on he made sure to tell her that if Caela did pop up again? She wouldn’t be facing her alone for one and two? That maybe the reason Caela was so weird? Was because of the fact that she might have wanted to keep Sydel all to herself. It would make more sense than anything else, Sydel was all she had as a child and being whored out, that was scarring to anyone. Those two had been forced to be close or the event would have killed them and it seemed possible that Caela being the elder would have warped those emotions into a need to control the one thing she did have… Not uncommon by any means, at least not on the surface, it had happened before but… Just… Very odd… Normally they would not have gone to the lengths that Caela did but… Well what is there to say? Some people simply have deeper feelings than others. He also knew that, given what had happened before, she would have some serious issues being intimate with him and he understood that. Acts of intimacy between them? Were going to be strictly on her basis and nothing else, their hands catching, squeezes of affection shared.

Things shifted to something far happier though, memories of their youth, the funny ways they had spoken or acted together. As children they were thicker than molasses in November, even as they grew up and the differences between male and female grew they were still together, best of friends… Though her laughter was a good sign he couldn’t help the awkward grin on his face, scratching at the back of his hairline a bit. “Sort of hard not to, you know? It’s not like I had a lot of reason to even use them, my sexual dalliances consisted of you, only you. We didn’t talk that night and I’ll be honest I certainly couldn’t have called our organs anything other than something very, very respectful…” Raised by him or not? Jacob definitely had some of his mannerisms and sadly, none of them were exactly endearing, not unless your woman was very, very special… And had a great sense of humor. “I mean… I know the… Proper term like… -Vagina- and -Penis-“ He said, turning quite the shade of red a moment there, coughing awkwardly into his closed fist, unable to make any sort of eye contact. “But just… It’s all sort of unromantic…” And sex to him? Was the epitome of romance and the expression of affection and love. Sure, he had his issue, the pain need that had been driven into him like a stake and he couldn’t shake but honestly? That was pretty much it. He was… Rather unassuming n bed… No one had decided he should be otherwise.

As she recollected those tales though… Ooooh his cheeks were mightily red and even hot when she pinched them, his laugh was natural but embarrassed, covering his face with his hand as he recalled ALL too well the story she was recounting. “I’m glad you missed the rainbow rump but that naked run was horrendous! The medicine in tablet form was enchanted to dissolve but it didn’t, just my clothes! I swear all of Arvandor knows what my arse looks like now.” That was close, if not THE, most embarrassing moment of his life. Especially given his house was a bit of a run away from the school! “I was terrified you’d see my… Parts… And be massively unimpressed. Plus I have horrific tan lines I look like a panda…” Oh yes… Memories indeed! It was his turn to reach out and give her hand a hold when she said he had never been useless, that he had always been there for her, and he honestly always would be. He wanted to take her into town with him and when she asked if he was going to carry her around all day? He reminded her that he had already done that before, this wouldn’t be the first or last time he had done it either, of that he was sure. “Oh I know, it wasn’t even swollen, but I let you carry on anyways… I was just happy to be with you but I think my heart sounded like hell through my shirt… It wouldn’t settle down it kept racing and throbbing in my chest because you were so near me… I remember you had used your citrus soap that day because you smelled just like a lemon merengue pie, sweet and citrusy…” And he would have REALLY loved to have taken a first kiss with her but they were still kids and kisses back then were pretty terrifying things!

Arriving in town with her on some make shift crutches they moved around gathering up this and that, himself popping off to fetch her a pair of Jacob’s old glasses from his house, pocketing them before he’d get back and he’d forget for a minute or two to give them to her… Or maybe it was because he just wanted to do something for her without her being able to see what it was right away. When he found his way back to her side he caught her looking into the old store and he filled her in on it, giving his opinion on it, that it should just be burned down given the memories inside of it… “Well… We can do that… And if you decide you want to we can tear it down and build something new there together, just you and me? I’m really good with that sort of stuff, we rebuild houses and barns and stores when orcs raid through a village, and you know… While rebuilding we can make it yours completely, from the nails down to the shingle color on the roof, you can even do those stained glass windows you always loved…” It would be hers… Entirely… No ghosts or other souls lingering in it’s shadows, her stamp on everything, utterly and perfectly her in every way. While she was occupied looking through the window he pulled out that turn over and asked her to close her eyes and open her mouth, and once she did? He tore off a piece and popped it in her mouth before sneaking a kiss and present to her the little bouquet of billy buttons he had gotten just for her, the last treat of course in his back pocket, little bit of a theory test! “It’s called a turn over and they can have any sort of fruit in it you want, they’re some of my favorites, the crust is sweet but flaky and just a little crisp.” He’d set the glasses on her face then and sure enough there it was… Her vision was perfect and he had to pause a minute in thought. “Hey Sydel… I just realized that never in my life with you did I ever see you wear glasses before… Maybe the reason you never got into reading was because you couldn’t see anything?” It would make SO much sense! It was something stuck in his mind now before she flicked a billy button at him and he just laughed, shaking his head as he caught it and tucked it into his shirt pocket, patting it lightly with a smile on his face. “Let’s test a theory real quick before we head to your home?” He’d ask before he’d pull out two glass bottles, one was white and full of rich creamy milk, the other was obviously tea colored. “Let’s see which one you like the most with a pastry.” He said as he’d hand her the tissue wrapped turn over and he’d hand her one of each of the bottles in turn and which ever she didn’t like, we’ll he’d finish it himself with his own turn over, chatting as they enjoyed the shade over a shop front. “We’ll see. We might try and help you walk a bit more today, swimming might help more though and the weathers looking really nice, perfect for a swim. We’ll pick you up a suit for you to wear before we go.” Sure they could magic one up but why do that when you could help a tailor or seamstress put food on the table for her family?

All this talk though did have him circling back to something he wanted to ask her, he was currious about something and she was his best friend, because of that it was just SO much easier to talk to her than anyone else. He trusted her not to judge him but more than that, he trusted her not to laugh at him. As she looked at him in disbelief his utter and complete look od confusion told her flat out louder than any words could that he hasn’t kidding. He legitimately had NO idea what the hell anyone was going on about and just wanted to find the truth. Even more to his confusion was the way the mother looked as she hurried her child away and he just blinked in complete and utter loss. “What? Is it like a bad fish? I don’t get it? What’s going on and why did that mum just-“ He was going on before she covered his mouth as she laughed so hard she nearly fell over on her crutches. He literally had NO idea what was going on. He nodded his head though when she told him to hush and not say another world or she wouldn’t take her hand away, his head was tilted at an angel at this point, he was completely lost… “I go but I don’t participate usually, just to enjoy the smoke and a massage, maybe a… Um… Mouth wash… From time to time but nothing more? Why? Is the cunt fish found in a brothel? It would explain the smell I’d catch sometimes in the seedier places…” He said with a nod, a look of focus on his face as his fingers gripped his chin deep in thought, it would also explain why sometimes the guys came back smelling like fish and mentioning the cunt too… When Sydel leaned in and whispered in his ear what it was though? His face fell and he went white as a sheet. “Oh My Goddess!” He gasped and shook his head, stepping back before he’d tear off down the street to that mother and child before he’d bow and make profuse apologies, earning bright laughter and smiles form the mother while the child looked utterly lost. When he came back he just sort of sagged against the wall, his eyes wide in shock before she kissed his cheek, telling him was as adorably awkward as he had ever been. Seeing her looking though he’d crouch down to catch them up in his hands, wiping them off on his shirt before he resettled them on her face, his entire expression was just raw shock. “Yeah uh… Let’s go… Goddess above… I can’t believe I said that in public… If I knew I wouldn’t have even said it behind closed and warded doors…”

Together they’d walk away and on the way out he’d pick up all those packages as well as a bathing suit for Sydel, many and most were ready made during the season for the many visitors who came through for festivals and wanted to take a dip in Arvandors Glittering Sea, so it was easy to find one for Sydel true enough. He also picked her up a lace parasol that he held up for her so she wasn’t getting beaten down by the suns rays, her skin while no longer white could still burn if she wasn’t careful, she’d gotten sun burned before as children so he wasn’t about to let her do that again. Once out of town he whistled up that carriage once more and they’d take the ride to her home before he’d carry her across the bridge and into her home. He set her by the door in a chair where the sun could still fall on her while he worked about the kitchen, putting everything away in a place he remembered it being once before, though some of it he was sure he had gotten wrong in some way or form. At least it was all put away, right? He’d then go about trying to set something up for dinner but he was at all loss so he knew he’d have to order in, thinking perhaps some fish and seasoned wild rice and a salad would be best, writing it all down in a note and sending it out the window to the Inn. Who else would he trust to cook that well? Garafins chef was a GOD in the kitchen and everyone ordered from him in the off season. It’s how Garafin managed to make such good money at the Inn even when the festivals were not in season. He’d then head to her bedroom and start to remake the bed, taking off all the old sheets and blankets and placing them in a hamper, pulling out the new ones he had gotten from town while she wasn’t looking and made the bed for her. Pillows were freshened and lavender placed inside the cases to chase away the last bit of lingering smells, same went against the mattress and under it, her blankets were brought in from outside in the sun where they had been hanging and getting the freshness of the cool breezes… Candles set up and replaced and everything that she could need done? Was done. He’d be wiping the sweat off his forehead when he came back to her side and settled down on the floor, leaning back on his arms as he watched the sun move across the sky with her, eyes closed for a moment as he just enjoyed the warmth. “Do you want to try and take a dip now? I figure after that and dinner… I should probably go home…You’ve been through a lot and I don’t want to make you uncomfortable with anything right now… Unless…” Unless she wanted him to say but he left that open, it was her choice if she did or not and he wasn’t going to press her, their last time together was quite some time ago and for her? It had been a changeling wearing his face who had beaten and raped her. On top of all that? She’d just been separated from her long time husband and partner. He had no idea what she might or might not want and he wasn’t going to presume he knew what was best either.

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she could never have gambled on this.. never have bet on this.. never in a million years.. her world had been turned upside down with Nautilous.. and then this.. finding out not only that she was pregnant.. but that she was goddess willing carrying three.. Three little beings.. hopefully daughters but still.. three.. it was shocking.. it had stunned her and she broke down.. she shattered there upon that bed.. all her fears on not being able to have anymore resurfaced.. all the grief she had swallowed down appeared.. there was a lot of sadness there.. a lot of tears were spent in darkened corners when no one was looking.. and when she rested at night alone.. but this time.. it was laced with something sweeter.. it just took the right men in her life to get her the goal she desired.. children.. she wanted a family.. she wanted all that came with it.. she had done so for as long as she could remember.. and slowly.. piece by piece things were falling into place.. You handed her the tissues and she dabbed them under her eyes.. the hiccups were irritating but tolerable.. -.. I had no idea it would be this way.. I had hopes for a baby.. I did.. Ill even go so far as to say I prayed for one.. but to this end.. I am quite shocked.. but so overjoyed by it.. -she squeezed your hands there, thankful for that little bit of pressure to stop the jerking movements.. her breath catching and stealing her voice.. she nodded when you spoke on now being the time to look after herself..

that normally they would need so much more to prepare.. but she'd jumped the gun.. -.. whatever it takes.. -she continued to dab the folded soft tissue beneath her eyes.. and she would.. she'd follow the instructions to the letter.. this was important to her.. the bite came up soon after.. and she was intrigued to hear you knew so much about it ..about Nautilous no less.. for she knew of no books or anything like that.. a quiet chuckle sounded as she nodded her head when you agreed that everything seemed to be complicated lately-.. I sometimes think we cant avoid it.. the complications.. the drama.. -she took another small drink of water there as she tried to regain that composure.. taking some slower deeper breaths.. she explained what had happened.. the kiss.. everything..her shoulders sinking a little as it came to an end.. though your advice struck her.. quite deeply.. for it was new and something she had not really thought on up until this point-.. mm.. thankyou.. I guess for me.. at home.. Family is everything.. we stick together like glue.. we prop each other up.. my childhood in comparison probably looks like a dream.. i was blessed.. but hearing.. of you both being orphans.. and the lack of love.. the desire for comfort.. but the inability to truly accept it.. -she nodded-.. it explains a lot of things.. that tells me a possible reason as to why he pulled away so suddenly.. I wish I had of known more.. I put my defences up when i felt him pulling away.. and I fear I may have hurt him in the process..

-she rubbed her lips together.. clutching that small square of tissue.. -..I will go and seek him out.. talk with him and find a middle ground.. Thankyou though.. Rose.. I am in your debt.. for this.. for all of this.. -she listened as you told her about the dairy products.. the protein and vitamins.. she put it all down to memory and would write herself some notes -.. Of course.. -she nodded when you asked if she could deliver a letter-.. If I cant locate him ill pass it onto Thaylan.. it wont get read.. I assure you.. he will just be the messenger in the middle.. -she slowly moved to stand.. smoothing out the front of her velvet gown.. sliding her feet back into those tiny heels..-.. Oh.. before I forget.. -she turned moving across to her bag there as she pulled out that little velvet pouch.. -.. Im not sure if you are interested.. but.. most others at the party were.. and I had not had the chance to ask you before now.. this.. -she placed the bag down upon the desk as she took the folded letter and slid it into her pocket-.. this is the memory recall drug.. it will open up the foggy gates from the party we all shared.. it will enable you access to what you saw and heard.. everything.. but only if you want to.. I suggest talking it over with Jacob first.. there is no sense in one of you remembering and not the other.. -she reached for your hand once more.. giving it a squeeze-.. I will be gone for tonight.. and perhaps a chunk of tomorrow since I cant travel during the daylight hours.. but I will message you when we are ready to head down into the Underdark.. Stay safe.. keep warm.. get comfortable.. I will contact you very soon.. Thankyou.. again..

-she lingered a moment longer before she would make her way out.. the gentle click of her heels sounding across the polished wood floor.. the door drawn closed behind her.. she exhaled deeply once she had a moment.. her right hand rested across the flat of her stomach.. she was still struggling with it.. with all of it.. the dream.. that they teased with.. that they played with in the bedroom was one thing.. but for it to be an actuality.. that was something else..she penned a letter to Nautilous.. asking for him to meet her in that green house and she would be along at 12.. it would give her time to pack up a few things.. and hopefully it would mean most of the kingdoms folk were sleeping.. so they would not be interrupted..she drew on that portal and made her way through.. it was a smooth quick jump.. she never really had any issue when it came to the webways.. having been using them since she was a child.. ending up in her chambers.. it was late..closer to 11:45 by the time she removed her cloak.. and left her bags in that room..

he might have felt.. a soft hum of energy if he were paying attention though if his magic was indeed sapped dry its very possible he missed her near silent entrance completely..she slipped into that green house via a secondary rip.. she was behind him.. and seeing him there.. that close caused her to pause.. she swallowed.. her heart performed some pretty incredible acrobatics within her chest..coupled with an echo of pain..he had gotten her so twisted up and she really didn't know how to deal with it.. noticing his slightly hunched over state.. was he nervous?.. his breathing was a little erratic.. and he was sweating?.. her soft hands came down to rest there upon his shoulders-.. Relax.. - softly spoken..it was pretty warm in there.. being a greenhouse.. but she was used to the humidity. so this was comforting..but for him maybe not quite so much.. -.. Its warm in here.. -her hands would slide down from his shoulders as she would move around to the front of the bench .. the dark velvet of her gown brushing against his knees as she stood there before him.. -.. and you dont look very comfortable.. -there was a little hesitation as she reached for him.. sliding fingers beneath his chin as she tilted his head up so she could catch his gaze.. her eyes were a little puffy.. her cheeks still a little damp.. it was clear she had been upset.. that she had been crying.. it would be then that she would see the eye patch and she'd blink.. her head would tilt to the side-.. please dont tell me you got into another fight with your brother?.. -she looked concerned.. worried even as she searched his features.. this overruled the pain she had felt.. the need to make sure he was ok.. -.. Are you ok Nautilous?.. -she would question.. he looked.. strained.. tense.. akin to how he was when she had gotten him to sit upon that bed when they first took that tumble down the long long rabbit hole.. -..

Thankyou.. for meeting me here.. Though.. I fear whilst I am used to the humidity of an enclosed space.. you might not be so much.. we can go for a walk if you would prefer it.. -her fingers would fall away from their place just beneath his chin.. if he decided he would prefer to wander she would step back a little.. and guide him out into the darkness of the surrounding thick lush gardens.. but if he preferred to remain she would settle down upon the bench beside him..she took a quiet breath-.. I heard what happened after i left.. through a few channels.. -she blinked a few times.. before she would lift her gaze to look to him-..After you had told me you needed time to fix things with Sydel I felt the best thing I could do.. for you in those moments.. was to go.. to give you the space you desired to make the choices that you needed to make.. I wont deny that it didn't hurt.. because it did.. and Ive barely slept a wink since.. You managed to rattle me.. and no one had ever done that before.. I -hesitation-.. I really wasn't sure how to react.. -she rubbed her lips together lightly-.. How to handle the idea that the man I had let into my heart..might not wish to stay.. -her hands clasped together.. that rich dark ring was still there upon her finger-.. so I came here.. under the guise that I was going to organise the trade routes .. to reopen the trade after the separation of Rose and Aeson caused the contracts to be voided.. and Ill be honest.. youve plagued my thoughts the entire time.. -she had no reason to lie.. or be even remotely deceptive.. -.. Please Nautilous.. tell me whats going on in your head..

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-she couldn't quite see the blush upon his cheeks when the conversation turned adorably awkward.. but she could hear it..in his voice.. he was getting shy.. squirmy and a little embarrassed-..You always were very respectful Diovan.. from day 1 onwards.. a proper gentleman.. -and he was.. from what she could remember.. he never spoke to her out of turn.. or tried to take advantage.. it was a nice change from the men she had to deal with as she was growing up.. it showed her that they werent all that way.. that she could want for something more.. that she could want for him.. the conversation turned incredibly light when the magic tales came into play.. the rainbow rump was a new one and it made her laugh.. but she reminded him of when he had to do the naked run her smile broadened into a grin as she laughed a bit more-.. I did see ALL of you that day..-and she did.. yep.. every single inch.. might have been a fleeting gaze when he took off running like he was on fire.. but still.. she saw everything..-.. as for the tan lines.. I recall warning you about those.. I never had them.. You just needed to be naked in the sunshine more often Mr Fironiil.. -she chuckled and gave a light shake of her head.. she had warned him.. on more than one occasion when he complained about the t-shirt lines and markings from his shorts.. she used to lay out in the sunshine naked behind her little pond home every chance she got..its surprising she didn't have more freckles.. he took her into the village.. it was a warm sunny afternoon...still early enough that there were people wandering.. making purchases.. going about their business.. she found that fated store.. the one that started out with such good intentions.. but ended miserably..-.. mm.. I think I would like that.. to start again.. to build it up.. personalise it a little more.. I would really appreciate the help..

-she turned to glance toward him there with a smile-.. but Id want to help though.. not just have you do it all.. I want to be useful.. I havent done anything in such a long time.. -and she hadn't.. everything was done for her.. he reminded her of that fact down in the maze gardens at the estate.. Both brothers had done it all.. and she let them.. not anymore.. no.. she needed to start doing things.. helping more.. the cherry turnover was divine.. the sweet cheeky little kiss was cute and the flowers .. oh her heart just ached.. she smiled.. reaching to capture some of the powdered sugar that rested against the corner of her lips.. he explained that any fruit could be put inside it.. and she just was in heaven.. it was So sweet.. and just enough tart.. the glasses were slid into her face.. they wouldn't quite sit right due to her head being a bit smaller than Jacobs.. but his little theory worked.. she could see.. she blinked a few times.. glancing around before looking back to him.. -.. Youve never seen me with glasses because.. ive never worn glasses.. I mean.. I guess.. that could be why i had so much trouble.. -everything looked so much sharper than before.. could he be right though?.. should she have been wearing them all this time and no one picked up on it.. she flicked the billy button head at him when he got cheeky.. he passed her the pastry once more.. and the bottles.. the milk and tea.. the combination seemed to work with either.. but she had a high preference for the tea most assuredly.. the two of them just stood there on the street corner.. she enjoyed that pastry a lot.. the tea washed it down really well.. he mentioned swimming though and she nodded-.. its been a while since Ive done that.. generally the pond at the back of the house gets quite warm after being in the sun.. You going to join me this time?. if I remember rightly you refused So many times in the past.. Ill put my foot down.. I wont go in if you dont..

-and she wouldn't.. she could be stubborn as hell.. anyone that knew her she could dig her heels in like noone else.. they wandered on a bit more.. and he struck her with the sheer oddity of his next series of questions.. Oh she tried so hard not to laugh.. but she failed miserably..the Mother and Child just made it even more amusing..cover the little boys ears .. but the cherry on top was his confusion and disbelief that he was saying Anything even remotely wrong.. she nearly lost her balance a couple of times as he just kept going.. talk of cunt fish and brothels.. before she leant up to whisper in his ear.. when he paled she bit back her smile.. watching him tear off down the street after the Mother and child .. she leant against the lamp post.. watching him return.. his frame sagging against the wall there.. she turned to gather up her glasses once more though.. but he got to them first.. cleaning them before sliding them back onto her face.. she laughed at his comments after she said it was time to take him home before he offended anyone else-.. They are just words Diovan.. relax.. -she nudged his side with her elbow.. they would both move back to the carriage.. she had picked out a swimsuit on the way past.. the parasol was kind..it would take no time at all for them to be back outfront of her little home.. her arm reached around behind him as he carried her easily across the bridge he had had So much trouble with in the past.. before she was settled down in one of the chairs near the door.. she slid those glasses back up her nose.. watching him as he ducked around the house.. putting the food and items away.. -.. It doesn't feel so fair for you to be doing all the work..

-she turned to glance out over the countryside when he disappeared into her bedroom..still with quite a few mattresses piled atop one another.. she had No idea what he was doing in there but he was gone for quite a while.. sharply pointed ears twitched to the sounds of his movements.. shifting something.. moving something else..soon though he returned.. settling down beside her.. just enjoying the sunlight as she had been.. -.. what were you getting up to in there?.. -she'd question. before he brought up swimming, dinner.. and the prospect of him leaving her alone for the night.. did she want him to stay?. did she want him to go?.. it was a series of thoughts that she had not entertained yet..-.. I really want to go swimming.. yes.. but like i said before.. only if you're actually going to join me this time.. -she reached for the crutches then.. those makeshift pieces of wood and twine that really werent the best but they were at the very least functional.. it helped her get from one side of her little home to the other.. she gathered up the bag.. the one that her swimsuit was still in.. he had the choice to slip out.. or remain where he was.. but she was going to strip out of that yellow sundress.. her back was to him as she reached back around to draw down the zipper .. realistically they had seen each other naked before.. Numerous times and in compromising positions.. the sunny fabric fell to the floor.. she then pulled the light pink and white gingham crop top down over her head.. adjusting till it settled across her bust.. her hair was pulled up in a loose pony tail...she removed the basic white boyleg underwear she had on only to then replace it with the high wasited swimsuit bottoms.. it wasn't overtly sexy.. it wasn't really very showy.. but it fit and it suited her body shape and type perfectly..once her hair was up it would be obvious those swallow tattoos were there upon her back once again.. she turned to glance over her shoulder toward him .. -.. you coming?.. -she would linger a moment before she would make her way out the back door of her little pond home.. getting as close to the edge of the soft sandy soil and grass as she could before she would lower herself down to her knees.. she'd reach down into the water.. feeling its temperature.. it was as she expected it.. warm.. but not uncomfortably so.. she would swing herself around a bit.. she was getting a bit more feeling in her legs.. not enough to put weight down.. but enough to move them.. she slipped down into the emerald green depths..down beneath the surface.. disappearing for a moment before she would surface closer to the middle of the pool itself.. her hair slick and flat.. down upon her head as she tread water to keep afloat..-.. Im waiting Mr Fironiil.. and Im not a very patient person.. -she laughed a little-

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He had slipped away easily, heading down into the village proper.. there weren't a lot of shops open at this time of the evening but all he really needed was a good tailor and perhaps something to eat.. luckily there was both and within close proximity.. he spent quite a few hours at the tailor.. just getting a couple of items.. namely shirts and slacks.. a jacket.. things that were a bit more hardy since they would be classed as travelling clothes as opposed to say what you would wear in an office setting.. neat casual.. but of sturdier fabrics.. he was thankful and paid the tailor well.. he had received her note in a timely fashion.. it brought a smile across his features hearing her news .. her good news no less.. he took his bags along to the second store.. gathering up a bottle of sparkling wine.. a small box of super sweet orange chocolates and a single white Lilly..

he offered a charming smile to the owner.. leaving a substantial tip.. the area seemed a bit quiet this time of year.. and he hated to see anyone struggling.. back toward the Inn he would move.. making short work of the distance he had no reason to take his time .. returning to their shared room he would make his way inside on soft and silent feet.. his gaze.. that deep blue and green would wander over the still darkened room.. catching a glimpse of her still seated at the desk he would come up behind her.. all she would see was that lilly coming down to rest there upon the wooden desk.. and the feeling of his lips.. soft and warm to the curve of her shoulder-.. Congratulations on your job offer my love.. -he would whisper.. placing the bottle down beside the floral bloom and then of course those sweet handmade chocolates soon after..-..Im not going to ask for details as I understand all to well about the doctor patient confidentiality.. but do tell me it went well?.. -his hands would come down to rest there upon her shoulders and he would slowly begin to rub.. just a light massage.. a desire to touch.. to be close ..he was so proud of her.. his heart was full it felt almost uncomfortable.. but he knew.. that all of this was an almost bittersweet victory.. after what had happened.. still.. he was keeping in high spirits for her.. hoping she would lean on him if she needed to.. he would always be there for her.. always.. - 

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It was hard watching someone break down like that, and while she knew it was with happy emotions she could only imagine the type of stress that Gia must have been under given everything, this being the key that finally unlocked the dam to all the emotions that she had been bottling up. It was sometimes needed but far from healthy, she knew that first hand, she was still stuffing things down into her own bottle but she knew it wasn’t going to hold. “It’s alright, you can go ahead and cry here, I won’t tell a soul… Just let it all out, good for the body and the mind, and you have a lot to look out for now… And a lot to look ahead to…” She said gently as she had handed Gia tissues and just gently rubbed her back with soft warm strokes, a soft smile on her face as she nodded her head, she knew all about how shocking multiples were… She’d had them several times herself but she wasn’t about to bring that up, her own had ended quite sadly and she wouldn’t cast that shadow over Gia’s happiness, she wouldn’t even entertain the thought. She knew a LOT more now than she had before and she wasn’t going to let Gia make the mistakes she herself had done. “No one ever really does though, do we? As women conception to birth is all very different and unexpected, we can’t time it or plan how it goes, it’s all a bit of a wild ride” First Taru with Garafin’s twins then Gia with her triplets, Hanali really had done her work hadn’t she? Perhaps it was less the amount of people getting pregnant and more so the amount of children per birth? Would explain her own repeated multiple pregnancies and she half wondered if that was the cause for the issue… She’d conceived every time in Arvandor but was always back on the surface or away from the place itself… Maybe she just had to stay around where she conceived? Was that the trick of it? If so then this trip couldn’t be better…

Usually though if people were trying to conceive they took a little more time to prep, make sure their bodies were ready and the like but Gia had jumped in and was swimming beautifully all the same, they just wanted to make sure there was nothing lurking in those waters so to speak. “Well the good news is that you’re incredibly healthy so this should be a very smooth and easy pregnancy, I think the worst will just be the last couple of months when the babies are all fighting for space, that’s when just everything hurts and you’ll want to live in the bath. I’d say swimming would be your favorite pastime through this whole thing. I do hope you already like the water because it’s going to be your best friend.” She said with a smile as she would find that pressure point to help Gia with those hiccups that she was suffering from, noticing the bite and unable to resist commenting on it, it all just fell into place… Though while things fell into place that didn’t mean there were no complications or drama… She just suddenly understood the reason for it. “I agree. But you can’t grow a garden without tilling the soil. Sometimes you have to have chaos to find peace in the storm.” That was going to have to be her mantra for a while… You can have flowers without storms, there's got to be bad for there to be good, and that was just her main thoughts… Keep positive… As they spoke and the story came out she tried to explain something to Gia that she wouldn’t have understood on her own. There’s… A really screwed up thought process, behavioral pattern to every orphan, that self-preservation at all costs… Run from anything good because if you rely on something that’s not yourself, you’re going to get hurt twice as bad, you gotta stay alone and stay with things that aren’t good for you because you don’t deserve good things… It’s a MESS and only a few ever really get past it, grow out of it, even she struggled with it some days and had to buckle down and stay busy before it all flooded and floored her. “It’s hard, we’re pretty complicated and it isn’t easy for the people who love us to always understand why we might have issues or hang ups, why we can change on a dime… It’s why Ace left me… I’m still growing, I’m evolving as a woman and learning who I am, who I want to be… He loved the person I was before I went into the cocoon… He did not love the butterfly that came out… But that’s just how it goes… Nautilous is likely afraid you’ll feel the same and he ran because he loves you… It’s SO much easier to love someone if they don’t love you back… You have… Well… You have nothing to lose.” And she really… Really hoped that Gia could make good use of this information too. Jacob loved Nautilous almost more than anyone else, that was his father in his heart and his soul, and if this made him happy? Then she knew Jacob would be happy too and she lived for that man unlike any other.

The letter had been written and given, she wasn’t expecting a reply and she hoped she didn’t get one back, she wasn’t sure how well this grown up side of her could hang on given the storm she was riding. She just wanted Ace to be happy, even though it wasn’t with her, would likely never be with her… She had seen the man, broken and aching under all that façade and masks, and no matter what… She hoped he found someone who he could show that to who would love him like she had, love him and want to help him put all those pieces back, but just remembering… It made her ache… Her throat closed up as she gripped her hands into fists and forced herself to focus, to ground herself… Center… Center… “Oh?” She’d ask as she picked up the little bag there, her heart stammering a bit, fingers closing around it tightly… “Jacob hates not knowing things, I know we will appreciate this a great deal, thank you… But I will say… I would love to attend any other parties like those…I don’t remember much but I have a feeling… Something really special happened… Something I really want to remember.” Though when Gia said she was going to be gone she paused a moment and shook her head. “Hold on just a moment then, before you go let me whip up some pills for you, the sooner you start taking them the better. Is there a flavor you prefer? That’s my strong suit with medicine…I can make it taste quite good.” She’d figured that out after having one of Sybelles contraceptive potions and it tasted like tea with a dead foot stuck inside a dead gym sock had been steeping in it for a week. She’d quickly magic over her medical bag which still had prenatal vitamins from Sybelle that she had been giving her that Sybelle always forgot… Which meant she had a surplus, at least a months worth which would give her more than enough time to tailor the next batch to Gia’s needs, tailor made so that it would be the most beneficial. Once the flavor was given she’d add in that particular things essence and hand her a packet of perfectly circular pills that would dissolve on the tongue, she knew all too well even water can make a pregnant woman throw up at any time, it was far more effective to make them like this. “We will likely enjoy the rest, thank you very much, Jacob is out currently buying clothes for the trip so we look forward to this with a lot of joy and excitement. I will be sending little letters to check up on you though, this is very important and I understand why you wish to keep me from your side for the moment, I do need to know any changes…” She said with a smile before she’d give Gia a hug and send her on her way, she herself going back to that desk with the ultra low lighting, her fingers tracing the blotting pad idly…

She’d sent Jacob one of the bubbles containing the information that indeed she did get the job and was just waiting for him to come home to her. She’d take off those pants once more and just curl up in his shirt there, staring into nothing and her mind, oh her mind was not a happy place… She was falling into bitter waves, her mind sinking deeper and deeper into dark thoughts, her mind screaming at her to pleasure herself and ease the sorrow that way but she refused… She didn’t want sex to become her currency, her magic pill, the cure all for life's troubles… She wasn’t that person, she didn’t want to become that person, it wasn’t who she was… But oh… It was so… So easy to allow herself to be. When Jacob came up behind her she had been so lost in her own wars that she hadn’t noticed it, jumping just a little as he softly paid the lilly down before her, her heart skipping a beat as she reached out to pick it up… Holding it close to her heart as his hands touched her shoulders along with his lips. “I wouldn’t be here without you Jacob… This is something we’ve both done… I am the masterpiece you created…” She wouldn’t have become anything without him there… She would have idled on, not taking an active part in her own life, content with the mundane and taking pleasure in the simple acts of reading and learning all she could… But now? Now she had the world in her hand, she had more knowledge and skill than she ever could have dreamed of, she was growing in leaps and bounds and she owed it all to him. “It did, it went extremely well, she was very happy with the news she received and she felt that my skills were more than adequate for the job she wishes me to perform. However, her situation does require us going down into the underdark with her in two days time, she’s in a delicate state and I need to ensure that she does not push too hard or risk anything…” She alluded to but did not outright say what it was and she knew Jacob could easily put the two and two together without her having to say more than that. But was he ok with it? Would he be content to move down sooner than later? Put his resignation in by letter versus in person?

Looking at the wine and the sweet little chocolates she smiled a bit watery up at him before it just all started to crumble and he could see it there on her face, she was losing her death grip on her emotions, her strength was faltering and chunks were starting to fall. “Jacob…” She asked a bit brokenly, taking in a sharp breath, holding it as if she could force that air to cement and block her emotions from crumbling any further. “Ace… He dissolved our courtship today… In a letter… He said… He-“ Another sharp breath, her shoulders starting to shake, she was almost gasping as her hands fell to her knees and gripped as hard as she could. “He-… He-…” Her breath caught on a sob and she squeezed her eyes shut as she rocked forward, her head resting on the rest as the tears started to fall. Why had Ace done it? He had written how it was supposed to be better for her in the long run or some such nonsense… But she? Put the two and two together, the timing of it was all too clear, he had left her the day after forcing her to confess the thoughts on her mind. He had told her she could trust him but if she could? Why had he left like that? He had said she wasn’t weird or a freak but he sure tossed her aside like she was. What if Jacob did the same? What if one day he forced her to talk too? Made her put her back against the wall and confess the darker thoughts of her mind? Would he think she was a monster and throw her aside too? Her own brother… She clung to that taboo fact like a lifeline. He could never truly leave her… He’d always be a part of her because of the blood they shared… But was it enough? She made herself sit up and wiped at her eyes furiously as she turned in the chair and almost threw herself into his arms and clung to him like he was all that kept her from dying. “Would you leave me too? If you saw something inside me that you didn’t like? I’m growing… Changing… I’m becoming a woman and shedding the skin of the girl I was and I’m so… So scared you’ll hate what I become… That you will leave me like he did because a phase of my change didn’t suit your ideals…” Of course, she couldn’t guarantee that it was the reason he had left her, but she had a pretty solid idea that it was exactly why he had. “In my head I keep hearing these things telling me to make love to you, to let pleasure override the pain, to give in and use your body… Make you use mine… Just to forget everything for a while but I won’t… I don’t know… How to handle this… I- I don’t- I don’t WANT to do that but-“ She said shaking her head as she just rested her cheek over his heart and cried… And cried… And cried a while more until his shirt was soaked through and she was utterly exhausted, her legs going out from under her as the magical use, travel and the day in general just caught up to her. She’d collapse to a heap if he didn’t catch her but if he did? She’d just curl up there quiet and small in his arms, not a word, not a sound outside of the small kitten like mewls and sniffs as she fought for control again… But feeling a bit better for the cry all the same… “Oh… Gia… Gave us these…” She said, handing him the bag that she had put in her breast pocket, the little pills rolling about in there like the apples on the tree of Wisdom… “Gia… Offered to help us remember what we did at the party… If you want to remember I will too, but if you are better, happier leaving it a fog that’s good too… But just promise me… You won’t go… No matter what we see… Please don’t judge me and leave me like Ace did…”

[BadInfluence]

He picked up on the magical energy but that didn’t make him feel any calmer. He was a sitting duck in a lot of ways, he still had all his brute strength, his abilities as a dragon born but magically? He was more retarded than even his own brother had been. Anyone porting in right now? Had the chance to make him into mince meat but he wasn’t sure if that was such a bad thing… He’d ruined two lives while trying to spare either one pain or sadness. Sydel though he knew would be ok, she had Diovan, she had the man she really… Truly loved… He was the one she was supposed to have been with from the start before he ruined the flow of that romance. Stepping away was the kindest thing he could do for her, for both of them, even if she hated him now… He just hoped at some point in her life she realized he had done it for her happiness, no matter what came after for them both, no matter what paths they took… She would always be his Princess but… He had to let get go… Her wings were no longer broken or clipped, they were beautiful and right now, right now it was time for her to fly… Fly away and hopefully never, ever look back…

Naturally though he was a ball of nerves at meeting Gia again, the way it had been broken down and explained to him meant that he knew full well just how badly he had fucked up, fucked up without even meaning to. The words he had said did not come across as he had meant them too and everything had been broken before it even really got to start. “I’m fine… Mostly…” Yeah, he couldn’t lie which meant that he was unable to play it off, he was torn up, his stomach in knots and he felt like he could puke at any second. Imagine how horrifying that is for someone who’s never felt it before? A complete and utter ball of nerves where normally he was so cool and collected he made Ice look like a hot spring. All the same her touch felt amazing, and for a moment, just that split second his heart calmed, beat regular before it all sort of went chaotic again. “I’m fine, just really scared of meeting you again, given the way everything was explained to me about how badly I had misspoken and screwed everything up… I never thought you’d ever let me see you again and I don’t know how much I can handle… I’ve never been scared of being in love before…” Sydel’s was… Chaos…Blood…Death… And later on it had mellowed out, tempered and become sweet, but it was never like how it was with Gia… The instant connection, the ability to speak about such intelligent and evolved things, to share the world with someone and they actually WANTED to see those places… It was… God it was so fucking beautiful it hurt… When she mentioned the eye patch he shook his head. “No. Sydel and Diovan have been in Arvandor the entire day, they’re rebuilding together what they should have had, I’m honestly happy for them…” And he really was… For all they had each fought so hard to try and make it work, you can’t make pieces hold without glue and neither of them had any left, they’d spent it all on cracks they kept making in each other over the years… It was time for them both to start fresh and learn how to work with someone else… “I had the surgery to replace my blind eye, while it was being done Jacob revised the scar for me too, it’s going to be a lot harder to notice from now on.” On his face at least, gotta keep that bread and butter looking good, but the rest of him? Was so deeply scarred in so many places he likely didn’t have enough skin to revise them all.

“Honestly? No… No I’m really not alright… Leaving Sydel hurt but it kills me that it didn’t hurt nearly as much as it did hearing I had lost you because what I said…And what I meant… Didn’t carry over. That killed me and will forever more.” It was a fact. Losing Sydel had hurt him, mortally wounded him, but Gia? That had been the death blow… He leaned into her touch for as long as she held him, his hands coming up to catch hers, to hold them close as he kissed the palms of them. “You’ve been crying… What’s wrong?” He asked before she thanked him for coming to meet her, the concern that the heat and humidity here were a bother to him, he just shook his head. “I grew up in Egypt, its ten times hotter and wetter there than this, it’s fine…” Yeah… Egypt you never really dried off, you were always wet in some form or another, at least if you lived near the Nile… Deeper in the desert though water was so scarce, so rare every part of your body dried out, your skin would crack in seconds without proper care and preventative steps… He made space for her on the bench beside him as he turned a bit to keep watching her, that beautiful hue skin, the whites of her eyes and the glorious garnet hue between… The red of her hair and her lips… The dark velvet of her gown… She was so beautiful… Inside and out… And he had lost her as soon as he had found her… All because he hesitated out of fear… As she spoke he paid very close attention, he would never, EVER fuck up like he had before… He’d never risk it… As it was he was just grateful to be around her again and it took all he had to keep from taking her in his arms and kissing away those lingering tears in her eyes and make everything that had hurt her go away. As she wound down though he paused and was silent for a few moments, wanting to make sure he said the right things, that what he wanted to say came across right… His fatigue and pain from before had muddled his mind and his words, causing so much pain and misery, and apparently not just to him…

“Gia… I wanted to stay. I never, ever intended to leave, I just… Didn’t know quite how to admit that…” He said, and for the first time he struggled with his words, the flow of them and the smoothness… The nerves were back and it made his voice choke up now and then but he was going to do this dammit, he was going to get it all out, every single bit of it even if it fucking killed him. “When I asked for time… It was just so that I could break things off with Sydel in a way that wouldn’t hurt her too much… She… Is a good woman, she tried to make it work as much as I did, but neither of us could fix it… I saw it… But she didn’t… Not at the time but I think she will and I hope realizing it brings her peace…” He wanted their parting to be Amicable… He knew it was going to be messy… Painful… There was no way he could have made it easy or fun, they were severing more than half of their lifetime spent together, years of history and that was never going to be easy… There was no way it wasn’t going to hurt… But he did hope the way they did it was healthy… And he hoped with all his heart she’d find so much more happiness with his brother than she had ever found with him… “All the while I was just waiting for the chance to get back to your side…But when you left and Thaylan explained everything to me, I realized that words had been tangled, lines missed and you were hurt… I felt that you’d never want to see me again and it killed me inside… It still does… I never… Ever lied to you Gia…” He said as he shook his head, catching her hands in his for a moment, lifting them to his lips… Kissing the ring he had put there… One of his finger as well but his old wedding band was gone… “I meant what I said, from start to finish, I want to be with you… I love you… But I understand if you don’t want me back. I will respect that… I’ll still go down into Menzoberranzan with you and take you to your mothers lands, I’ll help you reestablish yourself and get on your feet, then I’ll leave if that’s what you want… But… If we did make a child please… At least let me provide for her… Don’t… Don’t lock me out…”

[BadInfluence]

“My mother… Sheltered me way too much I think, kept a lot of the world at bay, wrapped me up in a lot of innocence and I’m starting to learn a lot of this way too late but… She did raise me to be a gentleman. With you though? Well it’s just amazing… Like I get to your Prince Charming, just without all the bells and whistles, and you know… Massive looming castles.” He said with a smile. Honestly though his mom might have done him a favor in some ways but in others she pretty much handicapped him in more ways than she knew. He had a LOT to learn about the world but given who he got to share it with right now? He was leaning more on the favor side of things… He really loved her, had since they were children when he proclaimed one day she was going to be his wife, his mother thought it was adorable and his father? Well Mortiki was always a man of few words but he had smiled at least… And now? Well now it was all hopefully going to come true. She had agreed with him after all and from their talks today it seemed that… Well… His dream might just become a reality after all. But this time? He’d do it right. “I’ll always be your gentleman though, that is, until you don’t want me to be.” Ah, see! He could flirt a little! Though between the two of them this was his first time trying. He gave her a wink and a grin as they continued to laugh and relate the various anecdotes of their shared childhood, she had definitely put him through a few very embarrassing moments, but in all reality? He was just so damned happy to be with her that he’d have done it all over again and worse just for five minutes of her time. “I couldn’t be naked though you know that. Mother was very adamant about privacy.” He said with a laugh and it was true, he never saw either of his parents without clothes, and unless he was at home in his own shower? He often wore his speedos because they allowed the most of his skin to be used without showing certain facets of one’s self. “I did at least start going out more the last few years, in swimwear yes but it’s still better than the shorts and shirts I used to wear, and a good deal cooler I admit.” It was too, and he’d taken to bathing in the sun on his off days, so that over the last few years those old tan lines were gone and his whole body had a soft sort of walnut brown hue to it. The funny part of all of this though was that he still did it mostly in private, never went to the beach or anything like that, always managed to find a secret spot or five to flit around from at various times. Thanks to a certain naked run he did have a bit of fan club… Not a ton but a few girls who, when ever he was in town, had taken to following him about and hoping he’d suddenly become naked. “But… When you say All… You didn’t actually see-…” He hedged, afraid of what she might say, that she had indeed seen ALL of him… And by all… Yeah no… He wasn’t sure how his younger self would have taken that but the word mortified came to mind pretty quick.

Heading into town they’d pick up all the things he felt she’d likely need plus what she told him to get, catching her pausing by her old shop, the dreams it had held before they were crushed… Nautilous… He really was at the core of just about every bad thing that had ever happened to them… It was good he was gone, it might sound heartless but it was true, his brother was never going to cut it… He’s past was too dark and bloodied and he was just ill suited for Sydel… But he pushed much of those away before he’d tell her they had options for the place, tear it all down, rebuild it from scratch… It would be so much better that way, she could really put her own stamp on it, make it into a place that was 100% hers. “I think it would be a lot of fun, I’m really good at that sort of stuff, like building and it would be pretty spectacular to do this with you.” And I would be. He’d been building things since he was a child and he often helped out all over the place in the rebuilding of cities and villages aver raiding orcs and the like, he was really quite skilled in it, he could easily go into business as an architect and carpenter if he wanted to. “What are you talking about you silly goose? Of course you’ll help me. You’ll hand me all sorts of stuff and then of course you’ll be putting in doors and drawers yourself, all the finer details I’ll leave to you, I’ll crack off on the bigger stuff. We’re a team, right?” From teaching her to read and write and now to building, there wasn’t anything they couldn’t do so long as they were together, and he had a good feeling… this time? It was finally their Forever.

Picking up Jacobs old glasses though, they weren’t a guarantee but it was a shot, after all both he and Jacob wore glasses… Chances were? Sydel needed them too but she had never known it. You don’t know the world is not naturally blurry if it’s all you’d ever known. It would have made learning to read and write, as well as math, incredibly difficult which would likely explain why she just took to cutting classes before quitting completely. “It makes a lot of sense. Glasses aren’t common after all so no one would think you needed them. Your type of vision is often really overlooked because it’s not exactly life altering, its annoying, but you can make due. We’ll get you some proper ones tomorrow, fitted for you and everything else, you’ll like them I think. Plus you look incredibly cute if you don’t mind me saying.” She was beautiful without them for sure but with them? It gave her this adorable sort of quality that just made him want to pick her up and cuddle her, which for him was a new feeling, he’d never once wanted to do that to anyone or anything before but… Fuck she just looked SO CUTE… It was irresistible.

The sweet treat and flowers later it was interesting to learn she liked her pastries with tea versus milk which left him the bottle to down with a grin, the two of them walking by slowly before resting on a corner, she finishing the pastry and he with his bottle of milk. He figured, given her legs she might enjoy a swim, she was something of a water puppy and he’d always caught her in the water in the warmer months. It was safer than walking and would help her get better control over her legs in a way that was low impact, low stress, and low risk of her falling over and hurting herself worse. “That’s playing dirty… But your right I never did go, but yeah… If that’s what it takes for you to go for a dip I’ll go too. Besides I need to make sure you don’t drown if your legs get too tired.” Though he knew damn well she could float at least this gave him the chance to have a reasonable excuse to push himself into the water. Fact was he was an excellent swimmer, his body was built for that sort of thing, lean and strong with just the right amount of muscle. He’d done more than a few water rescues and some of his clients had been sea elves so naturally there was a lot he could do in the water. Just… He… Often didn’t that’s all…

But oh… The real shock was when she had answered his questions in regards to cunt, tally whacker, and wedding tackle. Now, when she explained it after she had laughed her pretty freckles right off, yeah… Oh… Oh that was almost as bad as the nude run in regards to embarrassing and seeing the child and mother having gone by, their reactions… Oh you bet your ass he took off after them and apologized profusely, he had never once used bad language in front of anyone, let alone a child! Ignorance had truly bitten him in the ass that time and ooooh yeah… No… Time to go before he said something else he didn’t know the full meaning of. “Dirty words though! I need to have a talk to the guys about that-… Actually- Uh no… Better to let them think I knew it because if they realized I didn’t… I’d get a whole different level of education and I don’t think I’d survive that one intact…” All the same she nudged him and he just smiled, the two of them picking up the last few things on the way out before they’d whistle the carriage up and head back to her house, and yes… He easily could navigate it this time, knowing where it was and with his body and mind more in balance it was a sync, especially with her in his arms. Once inside he began to set everything up for her and at her words she could have heard him laughing. “You get to work tomorrow fixing where everything goes because I’m pretty sure I screwed up a lot of stuff. I’m used to my house and the way I put things there and I can’t remember all the places you used to put stuff here. Enjoy the rest because tomorrow chances are you’re going to be busier than a cute little bumble bee.” And she would…Between organizing her house properly and airing it out all the way, chasing out the cobwebs and animals that likely took up residence while she had been gone, then of course figuring out everything she wanted to do and her first reading lessons? She was going to need the rest today! When she asked what he was getting up to in her bedroom though? “No one’s slept here in years, the bedding needs tossed out so I picked up some new ones in town, I’m not going to let you sleep on almost three decade old sheets.” Yeah, no… Nasty.

Once that was all done though he’d sit in the doorway beside her and ask her a couple of questions… Did she want to go swimming now? Or wait? Did she want him to go? Or stay? Heavy maybe but it was important to know. He wasn’t sure how he felt about leaving her alone but at the same time he didn’t want to invade her privacy or the way she was going to being to rebuild her sense of self once more. “Alright, I’ll go in with you, I’ll change in the pantry.” The house was built for one after all, no spare bedrooms or anything like that so he stepped away to give her privacy, the pantry was huge anyways so more than enough room for him. A little magic pull had his speedos in his hand as he stripped down and pulled up those skin tight briefs over his well muscled legs and settled into place over his hips. Nothing could be hidden in these bad boys but he also had nothing to hide. He had an excelent body and he was not ashamed of it. Striding out he saw her in that bikini… “Oh my God-“ He uttered before he’d suddenly get a nose bleed and he’d have to pinch it off instantly, fumbling around to try and find a cotton ball or something to stuff up his nose, acutely embarrassed in the moment…Yes… They’d seen each other naked in bed before but… He… He couldn’t really say the old Sydel was really… His… And the one that had come back, Sybelle, she wasn’t quite right either… But Sydel? Now? Oh now she was his Sydel, tip to toe this was the woman he had fallen in love with as a kid, and so for him? This was the first time since the night they made love and created Jacob that he’d actually seen her body…And that precious little bikini was NOT OK. It clung to her in ways that made his body ache and with speedos there was no fucking hiding the fact that he was tenting hard against that restrictive fabric. He had hid a bit by the door so that she couldn’t see him and the state he was in. “You look perfect… I’ll be there in a second.” He said as he waited to get that bloody nose under control and once it was? He’d quickly get into the water so she couldn’t see what the sight of her was doing to his body, a neat cover in that beautiful vibrant green water, just relaxing in the warmth of the water before he’d make his way over to her. “Legs feeling a bit better like this?” He’d ask with a smile. “Anything feeling new or different? Anything bothering you or something like that?” He just wanted to make sure if anything did seem weird they got her out of the water before things got bad. A water rescue was something he did often but it was far from comfortable for the person drowning. Nothing like a big wet headlock basically…

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He could feel just how tense she was.. how tightly wound ..he knew deep down she was hurting.. he had received his own letter earlier on in the process but it was different for him.. the relationship that he an Ace had developed whilst strong.. still was very on and off.. the first time this happened it had hurt him.. but as they grew apart and come together and grew apart.. it became almost predicted.. though he had hopes.. quietly that this time Aeson would finally settle.. seems that was not going to be the case.. he offered a smile when she said she wouldn't be there without his help.. something they had both done-.. Whilst I did have a hand in this.. all the hard work and the dedication to your craft.. thats all your sweetheart.. all you.. take the credit.. its due.. -he was so proud of her.. incredibly so.. she had come so far in such a short amount of time.. she was not his first student, he had taught many previously but she just needed a little direction.. a little guidance and support and she flourished.. it was so beautiful to see her bloom the way she did.. - Perfect.. Im so glad it went so well.. though ill be honest.. I had faith it would.. You are extremely talented..-he tilted his head a little when she mentioned them having to go down to follow Gia and the remainder of the family due to her sudden delicate condition.. Oh that was a no brainer.. he knew to what she was referring but he would never question.. -.. Well.. she is in wonderful hands..and if she adheres to her good doctors advice I am quite certain things will run smoothly.. Seems though.. -he reached up to rub against the stubble that had appeared there upon his chin and cheeks-.. I am going to have to organise my resignations a lot quicker than I expected.. but you know what.. -his hands returned to her shoulders to give a squeeze-.. sometimes life does that.. throws things at you with no notice to make sure you are paying attention.. We can make this work.. I know it in my heart

-he nodded.. he would just need to do a few things.. take a little time to make sure he let the people know .. the people that he worked with that he cared about.. that he was going.. writers cramp would be coming that much was for certain.. he had placed down the bottle of sparkling wine.. the sweet handmade chocolates.. before he felt her starting to fail.. the shaking of her shoulders.. the little trembles.. her breath catching all of it was breaking his heart.. -.. Its ok sweetheart.. -he whispered.. he could see she was trying to hold it all in again.. the way she was fisting her hands.. the way she was stiffening.. he slid his hands down her arms and slowly uncurled her fingers.. softly.. carefully..-.. shhh.. -he whispered into her ear-.. Its ok to cry.. you need to let all that water go my love.. you were drowning in it.. -he released her hands then and he moved around the chair to stand before her.. -.. I know.. I know I got one too.. -he would reach down and scoop her up in his arms.. cradling her against his chest..as he moved across to where the fireplace was burning.. where the floor had been covered with the softness of a blanket.. with cushions and pillows.. he put her down and only reached away long enough to remove the hearth that had been in place for Gias comfort..before he would pull her in against him.. his hands gliding up and down her arms.. pressing his lips to the top of her head.. she clung to him fiercely.. crying up a storm there against his shirt.. his lids had fallen closed and he went quiet.. he just held her.. thats all she needed in that moment..

she needed comfort..he exhaled when she asked if he would leave her-.. No my love.. You would have to do something pretty horrible for me to even consider leaving your side.. and that is not you.. I dont see you wiping out villages of women and children.. I dont see you turning into this horrifically evil creature who's intent is only to cause havoc and pain.. Change is inevitable sweetheart.. we all do it.. numerous times in our life cycle..if we didn't we would probably go a little crazy. -he rocked her a little.. just cradling her in his arms as they both were embraced by the warmth from the fire-.. Ive seen a lot of you.. You have seen a lot of me.. we are both not the same people we were when we met.. and yet.. here we are.. Aeson is complicated.. he has been for a very long time and if you ask anyone that has been in any kind of close contact with him the same question, you will most probably get the same answer. -he nodded-.. i am so sorry that all of this happened.. Im sorry you are heart sore and it hurts.. I really.. deep down thought it was going to work out .. I did.. or I would have never.. Ever put you in that position.. -he exhaled-.. Ace and I kind of fell in and out of this kind of thing.. and its happened for a while.. but he never really stayed.. I always put it down to Silverthorn and the responsibilities Adelaide always threw upon him.. that and his Father was a complete and utter asshole.. but..thats besides the point.. -he pressed his lips to the top of her head-..

In the letter he wrote me he apologised.. profusely.. he told me that he was so worried about how you would take it.. not having had a lot of experience in this kind of thing before.. and that it was killing him to know..that he had hurt you this way.. It hurt.. it did.. and it will probably continue to do so for some time ahead.. but.. I forgave him a long time ago.. he will always have a place in my heart.. I love him.. I cant help that.. it's just the way it is.. but maybe we just arent meant to be together.. and I feel that it happens that way sometimes.. two people.. or in this case three.. the love..is there.. clearly.. but there needs to be more than that.. and sometimes people come into our lives to help us realise things about ourselves that we might not have seen before.. ways to fix ourselves if we are broken.. ways to open up.. letting us learn how to be vulnerable.. and thats why we will never really hate them.. -he reached over and pulled a soft rug over her.. just so the two of them could curl against the cushions-.. I know I love you.. with all of me.. every thing I have is yours.. and i want to be with you.. thick and thin.. good and bad.. all of it.. we can weather the storms together.. and I am certain nothing you have to tell me or show me.. will frighten me away.. Im in this.. for the long haul angel.. I promise you..

-his chin came to rest there atop her head.. just holding her.. she spoke then about making love to him and using him.. letting pleasure override the pain.. it was an odd thought.. something that made him pause.. -.. its possible something to do with your heritage ..using pleasure to salve the pain.. If you need to use me to clear your mind.. if you need me to do something for you Rose.. You can.. I am here for you in every capacity.. Dont ever feel ashamed by what you feel you need.. by what you feel you desire..Ill never judge you for it.. If you need sex just say so.. really.. we all cope differently.. some people quash it down.. some drink.. some go out and fight.. some take it to the bedroom.. it's just how we all handle stress and anxiety and grief.. Dont ever.. Ever be ashamed.. Im here for you.. -the two of them would settle then.. just reclined .. enjoying the warmth.. the fire.. the cuddles.. before she brought up the little bag from Gia.. the pills from the party.. -.. Well.. what are your thoughts on it?.. -he glanced down into the bag there at the little coloured discs-.. I mean Im not going to go over whatever happened there.. and again.. Im not about to judge you for anything.. Im pretty certain thats what those parties are for.. just to.. let lose and there to be no ramifications.. -he gave a little shrug of his shoulders-.. Im open to taking it.. but only if you are..

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it would be amusing really if either of them realised just how nervous they both were in that moment.. similar reasons.. caution..fear..insecurity.. pain.. she had so much going on in her head..so many idle thoughts and then on top of all of that..the fact that she was pregnant.. it still shocked her.. still caused those garnet coloured eyes of hers to glisten every so often as the image circled round.. she asked him if he was ok.. and his response told her a lot.. 'Mostly'.. she knew better.. the way he was seated.. the slightly hunched over position.. the erratic breaths.. the sweating.. it was an echo of how he was that first evening.. before he shattered and broke down.. he admitted to being scared of meeting her.. after all that had happened.. that he thought she would not ever see him again.. -.. Thaylan wrote me..more than a couple of times about you and his thoughts.. he is much older than his years I believe.. ever wise.. all seeing.. Love can be pretty frightening.. I recall something I said to Anya once.. -she spoke softly as she reached to tilt his head up to look to her-.. If he doesn't scare the hell out of you a little.. then he's not the one.. -her head inclined a little.. she looked to the eyepatch there-.. and ill readily admit I was scared as hell to want you.. and Id never really felt that before.. -she enquired about that patch then.. hoping he had not been scrapping with his Brother again.. a curious look crossed her features though when she heard that Sydel was with Diovan.. rebuilding.. and that he was happy for them-. Thats a very adult way to look at it.. very courageous.. though I beg you caution Nautilous.. please tread softly.. for what you have done is no small thing.. and these things dont always heal overnight.. -her hand moved from his chin to press over his galloping heart-.. feel it.. but remember you have so much purpose.. you're here for a reason..

-he explained he had his eye replaced.. surgery no less.. and the scar revised.. intriguing.. -.. You have put yourself through so much.. in such a short amount of time.. a lesser man would have faltered.. -she asked if he was ok.. and he was quick to answer in the negative.. his honesty broke her heart.. that leaving Sydel was painful.. but losing her had just about killed him.. she watched as he reached for her hands.. his were trembling a little.. a touch on the clammy side.. the kiss to each palm caused her lids to half close as she took a breath.. -.. I received some news I wasn't expecting.. it has rattled me a bit.. -her brows drew inward as a secondary breath was taken .. this time a little shaken.. she gave him the option to walk if the temperature was too high.. only for him to remind her of where he was from and she nodded-.. Of course.. forgive me.. that was silly of me.. -she settled down to sit beside him.. shifting the velvet of her dress till she was comfortable.. her hands coming down to rest there upon her lap..she told him what had happened.. giving him a little insight as to what she went through.. what she had heard from him and how it had affected her.. he remained silent and respectful.. this was hard.. and it hurt.. her voice wavered a little.. her breath caught every so often.. but it had to be said.. it had to come out.. there was no way this could be left up in the air.. especially with them having to travel together shortly.. silence fell between them.. just the soft sounds of the wind against the trees in the garden.. the bubbling of the pond somewhere hidden away in the green house..before his voice cut through it.. she lifted her gaze.. looking to him as he stuttered and stumbled..

she could hear his voice choking.. but how he was forcing it out.. much like she had done herself.. he explained his wants to stay.. how he just needed time to cut ties with Sydel.. his waiting for the chance to get back to her.. only to find Thaylan instead the misunderstandings.. the tangled lines.. how she ended up hurt and how he had never lied.. her fingers curled around his hands as he reached for her.. he kissed that dark ring of hers.. and it would be then that she would notice his wedding band was indeed missing.. she brushed a finger tip along the indentation that remained.. - I was frightened.. Im not too proud to admit that to you.. -her thumbs brushed against the sides of his palms-.. I had fallen in love with you.. it was so quick and so hard.. it made my head spin.. I never expected it.. It threw me .. You made me feel so good.. you made me smile.. I had a feeling that you and I were cut from the same cloth almost.. in that we have so many similar interests.. we are of near identical intelligence and wit.. comparable dry humor.. We just seemed to fit.. perfectly.. I ignored the bells going off in my mind.. calling out for caution.. something I have never.. ever done before.. and then.. when you seemed to pull away..in my bedroom.. I come to an understanding.. of how scary it was to look at the one you love and realise that there were only two possible outcomes.. forever.. or not.. and in that moment I figured you were going to go back to Sydel..-her gaze lifted to look to his-.. I had quite a lot of self doubt creep in.. along with disappointment in myself.. for allowing it.. No one has ever made me feel that.. and it was odd and it hurt.. so thats why I left.. I pretty much made up my mind.. that you had taken what you wanted and had then decided to go back to what you had before..-she tilted her head a little- But.. I was wrong..-she would never.. ever be to proud to admit when she was at fault.. when she had made a mistake even if the lines were somewhat blurred-

I misunderstood what you meant. -she slowly moved to stand.. still holding onto his hands.. her fingers still curled .. still clasped as she gave a light tug.. a silent beckoning .. of him to his feet.. and when he did.. if he did.. she would release that hold in an instant only to wrap her arms around him in the tightest embrace she could muster.. her chin to his shoulder.. her body pressed firmly to his.. -.. I want you.. -she whispered with her lips close to his ear-.. I love you.. I need you and Im sorry.. -she clung to him so tightly as tears tumbled down her cheeks.. My god this day had been one hell of an emotional roller coaster.. it had rocked her from left to right.. up and down.. torn her inside out.. but there within his arms she was finding a peace she had learnt only came from him.. only came from being near him.. -.. I missed you.. more than I think im willing to admit.. -the corners of her lips curled a little at the thought.. We are a bit of a mess.. you and I.. but the honest truth is you captivate me in ways no soul ever has.. - it was a sobering thought.. but it was an honest one..she pulled back a little.. reaching to brush a few fingers beneath her tear laiden lashes -.. I ask of you Nautilous.. -she spoke softly as she looked up to him.. her hands still there upon his shoulders-.. to stay.. with me.. I need you more than you think..will you give me that chance?

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She didn't answer him when he asked if she had seen ALL of him.. deciding to leave him with those lingering thoughts as she just smiled.. and even laughed a little.. of course she had.. she'd seen all of him on quite a few occasions when they were younger..those cheeky peeks when either of them had to get changed for temple, swimming, camping and the like.. but she never let on.. Not once.they'd gone into town..and she entertained the idea of rebuilding her little shop.. the one that currently stood abandoned and had remained so for a little while now.. but she wanted to help.. she needed to be useful now.. she had to have a purpose or she would easily fall back into bad habits..he spoiled her in the village though.. he carried the bags.. he got her all the little things she needed for her house.. the pastry though.. that was a surprise.. it had been so long since she had really eaten anything like it.. it was beautifully sweet and tart..

his theory on her needing glasses was probably pretty bang on.. for when she slid those oversized frames onto her face she could see Everything.. and with such clarity and colour.. his comment on her looking incredibly cute though.. well that illicit a response she wasn't prepared for.. the colouring of her cheeks.. she actually blushed.. it wasn't really red.. just a soft tingle of pink.. she could feel that heat though.. enough that it made her reach up to hold her face a little.. the smile that followed was one that couldn't easily be quashed.. it was one of those emotions that you had to claw back.. his words made her feel good.. made her feel nice and warm.. -.. Thankyou Diovan.. for everything.. -her gaze.. that striking blue and green lingered a moment before the two of them would wander a little further down that side street..she did want to go swimming if the chance arose.. but only if he that he came along.. it was rare for him to join her and she spent So much time in the water in her youth.. hiding from her sister beneath those oversized lily pads when it got later into the evenings.. but for the most part he remained on the bank.. OR if he did come it was almost fully clothed.. his comments further on about those dirty words though made her laugh-.. Ahh but the dirty words are the most fun.. afterall dirty words sometimes come with the most enjoyable intentions.. -they returned to her little cottage on the pond.. away from most.. the silence was beautiful.. you could only ever really pick up the soft hum of the students village off to the east.. she settled on the seat whilst he put everything away and tidied up.. he even went so far as to change all her bedding.. she nodded-.. I guess.. yes you're right it's been a while since anyones slept on that bed..

-the thought hadn't really occurred to her.. just how long it had been since she had been here.. how long it had been since They had been here.. together.. she glanced back over her shoulder as he moved to settle beside her.. she would have to find a way to make it up to him.. for all of this.. she knew though that he wouldn't accept Anything.. but still.. she wanted to try at least.. giving a little nod when he said he would change in the pantry she set about balancing on those crutches and the wall as she slipped out of her sundress and underwear.. and into that pink gingham bikini.. it was kinda plain.. just basic.. but it fit perfectly.. better than she could have expected.. she was always a little on the lean side though her bust was not small.. proportioned to a point.. she slid her hair back into a pony tail as his voice cut through the silence.. she blinked at the quiet exclamation.. turning to glance over her shoulder-.. sorry?.. -before she would catch a glimpse of him in those skin tight speedos.. -.. Wow.. -she suddenly blurted out before he managed to hide back partially behind the door frame.. she tilted her head.. turning then to face him properly.. trying to get a bit more of a look though it was for nothing.. he was keeping that at bay.. the muscle tone was perfection.. he was lean and built in the way only a ranger could be.. he had struggled with the appearance of her in that moment.. and she become a little absent minded herself in response.. -.. Uh.. so.. no more tan lines then.. -she bit back a grin as she turned .. a quiet laugh sounding as she began to make her way out the back door-.. Dont make me come back and get you.. because you know I will..

-she reminded him as she left the crutches on the bank.. along with the glasses as she slipped down into the awaiting warm grasp of the pond..she dipped down low beneath the surface.. finding it was quite easy to manoeuvre her legs in the water.. she was practically weightless here.. gravity was no issue.. when she surfaced he was already making his way across to her.. she reached up.. slicking her fingers back through her hair as she tread water.. keeping afloat-.. Feels kind of weird.. but.. not in a bad way.. Ill let you know though if I get tired.. But uh.. Speedos huh?.. -she wore an amused smile-.. That what youve been hiding all this time?.. -she would shift .. her hands coming to rest on his shoulders as she came in behind him -.. Dont hide.. You look.. really.. Very.. Good.. -she'd whisper in his left ear.. before without warning she would press down on his shoulders.. forcing herself up which would in turn push him under the water.. spinning him around in the process so when he surfaced he would be facing the opposite direction.. away from her.. she would back up.. laughing as she showered him with a wall of water when he surfaced..-.. Thats for not joining me for everytime I asked you too.. -she splashed him again as she moved in.. ushering him back toward the side of the pond where the cooler water from the river fed into it.. there was a small waterfall.. it arched down from above them both.. she pushed him through it till he would have felt the warmth of the smooth rocks pressing to his back.. all sound from Arvandor was drowned out by the pool.. by the falling water.. just the two of them in that small spot where the heat from the stone and the cool from the river water met.. soft puffs of steam floated about.. she reached up.. her hands found his shoulders once more.. and she could have easily tossed him down into the bubbled water that surrounded them.. but she didn't.. she closed the gap and stole that tender kiss.. laying claim to his lips as she wrapped her arms around him.. drawing in closer...against him.. heads tilting a little to the side.. her heart shifted ..her cheeks felt as though they were on fire.. -.. Stay.. -she whispered against his lips-.. Please stay.. I dont want to be alone.. -her gaze lifted as she looked into those stunning green eyes of his-.. I want to be with you.. -there was a great deal of vulnerability in those words and in her look.. if he could see it.. it would be clear as day in her eyes.. in the way she was worrying the corner of her lip with her teeth.. -

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“That’s one of the things I love about you the most… You could brag about it, remind me of my beginnings, say I’d be nowhere and nothing without you and you’d pretty much be right…” She said gently as she continued to stare at the desk before her before grabbing up the lily, it was so beautiful and pristine, it made her heart ache in so many ways just to see it… Her Jacob… The first flower she ever got… “But you don’t… You always turn it about, build me up, you won’t let me hide and you never have… You are the most beautiful soul ever in existence Jacob…” He was incredible and this world, none of them really, deserved him. He was brilliant and funny, kind and so warm hearted, he couldn’t bear to let someone suffer even if it meant he had to be put in hard times. She would never meet someone like him, even if she lived a hundred thousand lifetimes she knew there was only him, would only ever be ONE him… Every day she thanked the Gods for that meeting he held, the way he had come in late with his hair a bit messed up, his sleeves a touch sloppy where she could see his tattoos… She’d been fascinated with him and it was like, despite having seen each other in the halls from time to time, it was the first time she actually SAW him… And she just knew… That was where she was meant to be. Not the program, not as a doctor even, but there… But him. That was her place, the only reason she existed, the purpose for her drawing breath… Was to be with him.

Talk of the job position and how she had gotten it, the smoothness of the meeting, it had all gone very well indeed though poor Gia tended to have a bit of… Shell shock… There towards the end. Who could blame her though? She’d hit one hell of a turbulent bit of stream there but it seemed like it could have an incredibly happy ending, that is, if everyone was willing to be just a little more patient and understanding. “Take some credit for yourself though… I’m this far because of all your support. You never once failed to help me get through every rough patch.” And he had…He truly had. Any time school seemed overwhelming or a certain topic was driving her nuts, when something was out of her grasp or she just couldn’t seem to get it to make sense he was there, always patient and knew just how to help her sort it out on her own. He was the most amazing man, he truly was, and it made her wonder… Why in the hell Ace was making her so sad when honestly Jacob had everything and had always made her so happy? “It should go very smoothly she’s in excellent health, just a few dietary tweaks for optimum health and that should do it really, but I’d like to stay close by until the danger has passed.” Those first few months were always terrifying… For her? She’d lost every single one in that three month window, the second one she had almost been there, she’d nearly cleared it… For Gia? She would make sure come hell or high water that she got through those months easily and was able to take those sweet babies all the way to term. It was a gamble, it was going to be a lot of hard work for them both but for the chance to bring so many beautiful little ones into the world, was it really THAT hard? “Oh sweetheart… Do you want to stay a little longer? I didn’t even think-“ And she really hadn’t… She’d forgotten all about that and look at her… Putting him in a difficult situation all because of her own lack of thought. “You can follow me down a little later… If you need to? Anya gave us some house pins to wear on our cloaks so that we will be given smooth and safe passage…” She said, her fingers curling and uncurling, her head was starting to fog over in the most horrible sort of way. Emotions were crushing in and with her energy stores so depleted she didn’t have anything left in her to push them back. “But to be honest… I don’t want to be apart from you ever again… I don’t like that my own selfishness put you in a bind but I can’t bear the idea of you being away from me for a day let alone how long it might take for you to handle it all in person…” She would reach up and squeeze his hands, her grips almost too tight, the tremble in them a sign she was so close to breaking. “I’ll help write the letters and anything else you need me to do so that you don’t take this burden upon yourself alone. We’re partners, always…”

All the same though… She lost the battle… Maybe it was the beautiful lily he had given her… Maybe it was the perfect little gift of chocolates that he knew she loved the most… Maybe it was his hands on her shoulders as he tried to help ease the tension that had set there from the moment she read the letter… The wine he knew she adored… Maybe it was just that idea mix, the perfect cocktail that broke down the last dam she had to stop the tide of emotions from rushing out, shattering her defenses as it all came to the forefront. He was telling her it was ok to let it all go but her mind didn’t quite accept that, it was far too ingrained in her to be strong, to not show weakness when ever you could… A neutral expression to the world so that no one could hurt you, kick you when you were down, but this… This was so out of her ability to cope, this was more than she had ever felt before in her life, a sorrow deep and aching… The first heart break… It’s always the worst… To make things even more cruel though was to find out that Jacob had gotten one too. Here she was breaking when he needed someone too, surely it had hurt him as well, his love with Ace had gone back much farther than most and the two had never really had a chance to be together in the scope they deserved… Was it better that way? That they were so on again, off again that it would hurt him less, make it easier to bear? Even so she felt guilty for crying on him the way she was but at this point she couldn’t even try to stop. The first tears had fallen and the tide gates were open so everything was spilling out of her much faster than she could control. She was so grateful for his arms around her though, taking her before the fire the way he did was so comforting, the glow of gold and orange around her and the smell of burning pine and the pops and crackles of the cone and knots in the wood.

Questions were asked, big ones, things that after what Ace had done? Terrified her. Would he leave too? Would he find something in her like Ace did and cut ties like a boat severing an anchor? She felt so used and betrayed by Ace and what he had done, pusher her to do thing she wasn’t meant to do, take a role she never wanted to begin with… He rocked more than just her foundation, he rocked her entire sense of self, fear and self doubt were now companions of the closest nature and it made her want to second guess everything about love and just how much of it was real… “I wish I never met him…” She stuttered out around cries and hiccups, her heart was so bruised, it ached so bad… “Wish I never knew him… Never let him touch me…” She’d been intimate with him, the only other man besides Jacob she had ever touched, ever allowed to touch her… More than touch they made love… Actual love, real love, not just fucked sensually… They’d gone to a sacred place and he acted like it didn’t even matter… “I didn’t want to fall in love with him, I fought it from the start and I should have kept it up, I should have stayed away… Then neither of us would be hurting right now…” But she hadn’t… The moment the two of them entered that little ruse with her in the bedroom it was all over, her body ached remembering the way he felt, from the first stroke of penetration to the climatic end where he filled her with seed. She was ruined… Ace broke so many things in her and she wondered how many shattered hearts he had lining the walkway of his path… How many other poor women had he crushed under his bootheel… How many men? He was like a trophy hunter who was only out for the kill… “I love you too more than anything… You’re the only reason I’m here right now… In so many ways… I don’t care what rests in our future, no matter how dark it might be, how difficult or cursed if it ever came to be… I’d go through hell with a song on my lips if I was walking beside you.” She said as she clung to him.

All the same though her mind kept gnawing on her, telling her that the best way to make the heartache ease off was to fuck, to bury all that emotional baggage under pleasure. She was getting beyond angry at this, that damned Gods forsaken voice was what had gotten her into this mess in the first place, driven her mind to places she KNEW weren’t hers. Like reading a smut novel you picture the scene but that doesn’t mean it’s actually yours, and this voice in her head was constantly reading these things out in her head, over and over again and it was always different. The main goal was to always drive her to pleasure, to sex, and she was just glad that she had the willpower she did or she’d fuck her way through half the guys at her college during midterms and finals. “I don’t want to use sex like that… But I can’t help it either, sometimes the urge is too strong…” She said around tears and a stuffy nose, sniffling as she wiped her tears away, for sadly she was not one of those women gifted who could cry and make it look beautiful. “I hate this… I HATE it… It’s always there, chewing on my skull, screaming at me the moment I’m not busy…” Confession… That was her confession of just how bad it was and why she could never make herself relax… The moment her guard was down Slaanesh was whispering in her ear and her body was all too quick to betray her… Damn genetics… She mentioned the bag Gia had left, the antidote to the sleep spell that had left everyone well rested but foggy of mind, that it would allow them to recall everything… She knew something important had happened, that much was a constant niggle at the back of her mind, even more pressing than Slaanesh. His thoughts on it though made her pause and she thought about it for several long moments before she’d speak. “I know you have too many long lapses of time that you can’t account for… Blank spaces in your mind where you were not in control or aware of what was going on, only coming to at the end, and I know how much it bothers you…How much it aches…” But he had gone through those moments alone… He had her now and she wouldn’t ever let him hurt like that again. “I know I want to remember every moment I spend with you Jacob… We were there to let go, let lose, no judgments… Those parties are meant to have sexual pleasure without fear or consequence… The Matron is there to make sure no one goes too far… I trust Gia and I trust you so I know…What ever happened… Had to have been incredible…” But therein lay a problem… Just the idea… It was like a sudden shift in temperature, the numbness that had been blanketing her was suddenly gone, burned away in an instant by the white hot lick of passion that made her heart still and her chest ache… She bit her tongue hard enough to draw blood as she gripped the end of his shirt like a lifeline, forcing her eyes shut to try and focus but really, that only made it worse… She’d reach into the bag and pull out the disk where she’d place it on his tongue, taking the other one and placing it on her own, letting it dissolve.

As it did it was like someone suddenly lifted the veil that cloaked that portion of her mind, a bit like watching a play from the first person perspective she observed it all from start to finish, all the luscious sensations flooded through her and she drew her thighs in so tight they burned. Ace hadn’t even touched her though he had been there, no instead she had Jacob in all his luscious Dom behaviors, her breath catching hard in her throat. “Of fuck-“ She gasped before she whined, all her good intentions going STRAIGHT to hell, literally faster than anything else in her life. With each memory, each scene she was given the full effect, all the pleasure of the moment and by all the GODS there was a LOT of pleasure! Curled up against Jacob her hand slid under his shirt that she was wearing and instantly began to play with herself, shattering hard within literally seconds as she clung to him as if she were going to fly apart if she let go. It wasn’t enough… Gods no… She tore off his shirt so hard she feared she might have ripped a button or two off, revealing she had nothing on underneath as she rocked against him, her thighs parted over his as she make love to him with all his clothes on… No penetration but plenty of grinding as she panted against him, her pupils extremely dilated so that there was little more than a pale golden ring of color, the pheromones bleeding off of her like the thick smoke of multiple burning cones of incense. “Oh my God-… Jacob-… You were incredible!” She gasped as she arched against him, her head falling back as she made excellent use of his poor lap, another shattering climax ripping through her as she fell forward…Flush with his chest as she panted but didn’t stop, oh no, her hands went down once more but not for herself… No she grabbed his cock through his now thoroughly soaked slacks and began to jerk him off as she panted sweetly against his neck, her skin flushed and hot, every sweet bruise and bite mark he had left her that night reappearing on her skin like the masterful strokes of a paint brush. “You knew… What I wanted…What I’ve always wanted with you… But couldn’t dare ask…” That whipping had been beyond erotic, the girls lapping at her cunt white the leather bit into her skin, the metal shackles that had dug into her wrists… It was all she ever dreamed of and more… Then moments later Thaylan came into the picture and oh… OooH! That shocked her, she had no idea he actually did see her like that, she and he were always on friendly terms but he had raped the fuck out of her… But she didn’t hold it against him… That was a fetish of her own, being dominated, forced to accept a big juicy cock and be bred like that…Another orgasm ripped from her as she bit into his shoulder this time, all the while she rocked and ground down against him, her hands working over his cock as only she knew how… Then a soft blanket of sleep for a moment, she had fainted she knew that much, and when she came around it was on a couch with Jacob above her but…Not Jacob… She’d seen those eyes before… The man above her was his shadow… “Oh…Crow… Sweet Crow oh… I am so sorry I forgot you for a moment…” She whispered in soft, shattered, pant like breaths against his neck as she kissed along his skin hungrily. “Never again my shadow… Your pretty bird will not forget…” She crooned sweetly, adoringly as she remembered the rest, how gentle he had been with her… How sweet and tender… The perfect gentleman, the ideal prince, he was nothing if not entirely chivalrous with her… Even the pain she felt as she gave up her virginity to Jacob a second time was sweet to her and he had been so careful to ensure her pleasure from start to finish… “Lyon…” She whispered the name gently… They were trying to conceive… She’d been given fertility potions…

She’d been given fertility potions… She gasped when it all fell down on her… The realization… Her hands left his cock to tear off his belt then, helping him out of his clothes as quickly as she could, a frenzy of hungry lips and eager hands as she kissed very inch of exposed skin she had of him. “We have… A few hours… Before the drow fertility magic wears off… Before I’m… Out of cycle…” She panted, dear god she was almost trembling at this point, her skin flushed with need and desire. “We were trying for a baby… I wanted a little boy… To give you a son we would name Lyon… There’s still time… To try…” She whined and as soon as he was naked? She’d impale herself on his cock with a hunger he’d not seen from her before, nails digging into his skin with the sweetest kind of pain, her lips crushing over his in a starving kiss. “Please my Love… Let’s make a baby right here… Right now…” She said around their kisses before she’d move in a bit more and wrap her tongue around the tip of his ear in a way she knew drove him to utter distractions. “Cum in me over and over again tonight, empty yourself into me until there is nothing left, make love to me until the sun comes up and our son rests inside my belly.” Would it work? It was hard to say…For the first time she actually really, desperately wanted a child but she was struggling with conception but they still had this last bit of a window, another twelve hours before they’d not be able to do anything again for a month but oh… Oh the chance… While it lasted…

[BadInfluence]

He couldn’t lie but that didn’t mean he couldn’t leave things a little on the simpler side. He didn’t want her to worry about him and he definitely didn’t want her to know that his whole world had suddenly tilted on it’s axis the moment he had fucked up without ever even meaning to. What he had done with his life afterwards was entirely and completely on him, the choices were his, just like the actions were. She had been right, so had Thaylan in so many ways, his words act his actions weren’t meshing and that was entirely on him. He had to step up to plate and own what he had done but more than that he had to find out who the hell he was. But all that? It paled in comparison to the stress and anxiety he felt when she had asked to meet him here, his fear that she was going to cut him out and cut him down for what he had done was extremely real, indeed he fully expected her to destroy the last bit of him he had left… And it would be entirely merited. “Thaylan is… Incredibly unique. I’ve met a lot of people in my life but no one is quite like him.” He said as she reached down to tilt his head up, making him took at her and the fear in the eye that remained, the caution and the wariness. He was waiting for the other shoe to drop. Just poised there, ready for the push, to be tossed into oblivion. But what he was getting? Wasn’t that. Was it coming later? Was she going to just drag it out? He didn’t see hew doing that though, Gia was different, she was special and warm… Kind and Loving… He had seen all of that and more. So… What was this, then?

“I know they won’t… This is going to come back to hurt me many, many times over my life I know, chances are I’ll look back more than a few times and wonder… If I did the right thing.” He said quietly with a Gaelic shrug, one of those movements that drove some of the people who knew him to extreme irritation, but Gia? She might just get it… “I know I did… It took me ten years to do the right thing but I did it… I just wish I had done it sooner so I could have saved her a lot of pain and suffering…” It was a sort of reminder to himself… His own mother didn’t want him, women only used him, why should he thing he could have love with someone? It’d burned him so many times in the past and he had hurt Gia just trying with her. When was he going to learn? Even so she was being so damned loving towards him right now, she was giving him twine to tie his broken parts together in a bundle, to keep from losing any in the chaos of this change. “I did falter, plenty of times, I just didn’t allow myself to falter long. All of this has been… Extremely hard… Plenty of times I almost quit because seeing her cry was killing me but… I was no good for her… I never was.” And that’s where the biggest part of his growing up had come from in the last twenty-four hours. He’d realized what he had been doing with Sydel was cruel and almost juvenile, playing house without giving her any real substance, sharing a place to live but never once did he make it feel like a home… He was cruel and he saw that now in so many ways and he really, truly, with all the remains of his heart wished her and Diovan the very best. A home, a house, a place full of children and warmth… Something he should have given her but couldn’t and rather than see who’d fault it was? He just let her think it was her fault because it was easier that way… Her hands on his cheeks though, those he caught and he kissed her palms, taking in her scent like it was the first breath he had in over a day.

Hearing she had received news she wasn’t expecting he looked over to her and his heart fell for her. “Oh… Oh I’m so sorry… I knew you were confused about it after Chaka…” Her womb was gone then… He was confused himself a bit by it because he could have sworn on his own life that he had felt his seed take root inside her and he was never, ever wrong about that, it was something he had perfect control over and yet hearing this? He mourned for her in silence. When she asked if he was uncomfortable though he told her that he was used to this sort of thing on a much grander scale but when she apologized? “Don’t apologize for that… You didn’t know that and that’s not your fault.” He went silent though so she could finish talking, he remained perfectly silent, refusing to interrupt or cut her off. What she said? Was important and he listened to every uttered syllable like his life depended on it and in many ways it very well might. He hurt for her though, knowing how much he had troubled her, the pain he had left her with. He hadn’t intended to but he had spoken without giving it just thought or time to process. What she had offered him he wanted, he wanted to take it with both hands, to live that life and allow himself to finally be a man rather than a whore… If only he hadn’t ruined it with a few small words, misspoken and misunderstood, things spoken in heart break and fatigue… How easily the world can shift when you place one foot wrong, and all of this, it had shaken up so much inside of him that he wasn’t even sure which way his compass set… The needle was still spinning and he was trapped under water without knowing which way was up…

Catching up her hands he kissed the spot where he had placed his ring upon her finger, speaking as much from the heart as he could, trying to make sure there were no ways to be misunderstood. It was so much harder than he thought it could be, explaining everything in such a way, trying to keep emotions out of his voice but failing all the same. The truth, all of it came out and while it wasn’t all smooth or poetic, it was honest even if he stuttered and stumbled a bit here and there. The truth was that he loved her, he wanted to be with her, to go with her down into Menzoberranzan and be her Weapons Master. He wanted to love her, make love to her, help her create a whole new dynasty… But he also knew he had hurt her deeply and if she didn’t want him? He’d understand and he’d respect that, he’d still stand by his choices and his promises, but if there was a child… If something… If anything in that vein was possible… Then he begged her not to lock him out of their daughters life. “I know how you felt… All of it… You’re like a soul mate I never knew I was missing… We’re the same, you and I, a matching set…” Only Gia was unbroken and by all the GODS he would never, ever break her, he’d leave and end his life long before he’d do anything to hurt her. “I was tired and grieving, I didn’t pay attention to my words as I should have, what I said was not what I meant and that is no fault of yours. But never… Ever… Did I not want you… You are my forever.” He whispered to her as she pulled him to his feet and when he did? The hug she gave him was returned ten fold as his arms came around her and he hugged her so tight, so lovingly that it was as if he were trying to take her into himself, where he could keep her safe and near his heart forever.

The words she spoke were a balm to his shattered soul and he couldn’t help the sound he made, something akin to a cry and a sigh of relief as he just held her so damned tightly, peppering kisses everywhere his lips could reach. “I love you too Gia, you’re the space I’ve been searching for my whole life, the piece of me I was missing and could never find…” And he’d tried to fill it with Athena, with River, with Vanima and with Sydel… But only Gia…Only ever Gia… Did that space finally get filled and for the first time he knew what it felt like to be whole… He felt her tears through his shirt and he picked her up, holding her in his arms like a cradle as he caught those tears with his lips in the softest of kisses, moving to the bench to sit down and rock her. “It’s alright my love… I am here… Get out all the tears you’ve been so strong to hold onto…” He said gently before she spoke again, hearing that she felt they were a bit of a mess made him laugh, the first time gracing his face that he had had in more than twenty four hours. “My sweet we aren’t just a bit of a mess, we are THE mess, but there’s no one I’d rather be a complete wreck with than you… Beauty is born through Chaos and I think you are the most beautiful thing I’ll ever see.” Kissing away the last of those tears, catching her hands to kiss away the ones on her fingertips as well, tasting her own special flavor of tears on his lips. “Yes… I will stay with you till the end of time… Please marry me Gia, allow me to be your husband and your weapons master, give me the chance to give you my heart and my soul… Let me help strengthen your foundation and give you the future you were meant to have… Let’s build a word together Gia… I’ll ask every day, a thousand times from morning to night until you say yes, until you agree and allow me to take your name…” He spoke softly against her hands before he would lift one of his own and catch those gorgeous ruby locks in his hand and pull her in towards him a bit more, tilting her head back as he kissed her, his soul and heart on his lips as he wrote the poetry of love across hers in a kiss that stopped time and give birth to a million stars…

[BadInfluence]

He probably would have had a stroke there and then if he had ANY idea how many times she had been peeking at him over the years while they grew up together. He’d always been respectful, if he ever came to visit and she was naked, he always averted his eyes and left a flower letting her know he had been by. The fact she had spent years of her life peeping on him would have been the last thing he could imagine for her, they were best of friends and while he had loved her since he was a child, he always figured the feelings and attractions were one sided until that fateful night when he took it beyond feelings and into reality. Maybe it was a sign they were meant to be together long before either of them knew it? In the city though he had fun being able to help her out, this was something they always did together though, the monthly runs to town for supplies that they couldn’t make or grow themselves… Things like sugar, flour, fabric and things of that nature. Coming across her old shop though it was easy to reimagine it, something beautiful and entirely her own, something they could build up together on the lot after the old store was torn down. They might even settle down a few nights in the future and draw it out, make sure everything was built the way she always dreamed of, from the nails on up. Not too long after though he snuck her that sweet cherry turn over, the kiss to his cheek in return was a surprise but one he enjoyed, that blush on his cheeks was impossible to miss just as much as the smile was.



The glasses though… He always wondered about why she struggled so much with reading and writing in school, he thought she might have been dyslexic but never once did she speak with her words turned around or anything like that, but seeing this now? That her eyes were blurry and that the glasses fixed it? It would have explained SO much about her struggles as a kid. It would also help so much in the future as he helped her learn to read and write. The bonus though was that she looked utterly adorable with glasses, it was too cute and he couldn’t stop himself from telling her that, and the blush on her cheeks that time? Oh now THAT just made it a hundred times cuter with that smile on her face. “Honestly you are so beautiful it’s a wonder the sun even comes out because it can’t shine half so brightly as you do.” Oh shit… For the FIRST TIME in his LIFE he actually got to out what was on his mind, the poetry he always thought of when he looked at her but his lips, his tongue would never comply… But this time it did and it shocked him hard but just… Wow… It was like Christmas coming early! “You thank me every time even though I tell you every time that I love doing this with you. It’s time we get to spend together and that always made me happy.” Especially since a majority of the time Caela wasn’t around either so it was just him and her, having fun and enjoying the time spent together, rain or shine they never missed a single meet up. They were talking about possibly having her try to go for a swim to help strengthen her legs without risking her hurting herself by pushing too hard on her crutches, and while she agreed it wasn’t without an ultimatum, that he had to go with her which naturally he agreed. He’d walk over coals to make sure she was ok if that was what it took. As they spoke she educated him on just how poorly informed and completely naive he was about the words he had heard before, and oh the embarrassment was akin to a physical pain, talk about catching the tail end of the game! What she said after made him blush furiously, but he laughed all the same. “I have never ah… Used any before in bed and our… Liaisons… Are pretty few and far between. Well they were anyways… I was always out ranging and when I came home Sybelle was busy with the children or at Temple, so our times together were pretty limited to Festivals and anniversaries…” So in the span of a year…They had sex maybe three… Four times if they were lucky. He didn’t blame her, he had his hang ups in bed and Sybelle was far too sweet and kind to be able to push herself into the role to help him climax, which also explained why children were also a bit more spread out… “You’ll have to teach me sometime… What you like to be called in bed…” Oh man he couldn’t believe he actually got that out but it was really important that he did all the same. It was a genuine interest, he wanted to pleasure her in bed, if they ever got to that place again…



Back at her house he began to strip the bedding down after putting the old stuff out to be recycled and the like, the cabinets filled and everything was ready for her to take up residence again, anything they might have missed could easily be gotten in the coming days. At that point she was ready for her swim and he had gone to the pantry to change into his speedos, water rescues were hard enough with clothes on, everything else just felt as though it dragged him down… Made him slow. Speedos however were skin tight and stream lined, he could swim fast and for great distances without a single issue of drag, and yes… It did keep a majority of his tan lines now to a bare minimum. When he came out he was expecting her to already be out in the water, not standing there in the doorway with her body framed by the sunlight in that beautiful little bikini. His mouth was dry, his throat locked up, his chest was doing some serious Olympic styled circus tricks in his chest… She was beautiful and that bikini, fuck, that should be illegal it was too perfect… When he realized he had suddenly gotten a nose bleed from the places his mind went he ducked behind the door-frame and shoved a cotton ball up his nose, the two of them quite shocked at the changes in each other, a bit like seeing it for the first time in so many ways… “Yeah no more tan lines… And I’ll be out I swear it…” And he would, he REALLY would, once he got his cock back under damned control and his nose stopped gushing like a teenager looking at erotic pictures for the first time. Once he did though he headed out into the water, it was still as warm as he remembered, almost bath water on the hotter days but it felt incredible at night… He easily made his way towards her across the water, eating up the distance like a fat kid at a buffet, hardly making a ripple as he cut across. He’d asked her to tell him if anything went weird though, there was a lot going on in her body right now, if she got a muscle cramp he needed to know so he could get her out without her falling under the water so to speak. “It sounds like your nerve endings are just waking up. When I had to lay up in bed with an injury the first few days walking always felt extremely weird.” And he knew that first hand, it always felt really strange, like settling into your skin all over again but the swimming would help her get over that a whole lot faster. The commend about the speedo though… Haha… Yeahhh… He was blushing again as he tread water easily. “Everything else feels like it’s dragging me down, keeping me from my full potential and sometimes we have to perform water rescues so I can’t be slow…” If he looked good in them or not now he had no idea, he never looked at himself like his brother, that just wasn’t him. If he did look in the mirror? It was only to shave or cut his hair and normally he had that done at the barbers.



Her hands on his skin… The whispers in his ear… Dammit his cock was going to give him fucking vertigo with all the god damned ups and downs! If Sydel knew it had been almost over a year since he had sex? Ugh… Did she? Because if she did this was downright mean! But before he knew it? She dunked him, using his body as a way to pivot herself up higher and his head went under the water, surfacing a moment later onto to get hit with a wave of it to his face and he spluttered before he began to laugh. “I might have joined you more if you didn’t always go naked! I’m just an elf, not a saint, seeing you naked does things to me and given we hadn’t even kissed at that point I seriously felt that showing up fully erect was going to go over well.” He said, still laughing as they swarm together, following her where she either pushed or pulled him to. This was new though, he wasn’t aware of this place and he could have sworn he knew the area around Sydel’s house like the back of his hand, so this was a bit of a treat. He’d go under the falls with her and in that space behind it there was almost perfect silence, just the sound of water and their soft breathing, his heart in those moments began to do some pretty insane acrobatics once more. It only got worse till he felt he might stroke out before she pressed her lips to his in that kiss and he returned in before her heart could have even taken a beat, his hands coming up to cradle her cheeks as he’d slowly guide them to a place where his feet could touch bottom. Once he did he pulled her in against his chest and held him close and tight, his lips kissing her forehead before he’d slowly move down to her cheeks, along her jaw and neck… Her shoulder… “I’ll stay with you as long as you want me to… I Love you and I always will… Just tell me… As soon as you want things to change… Promise me…” He asked, allowing the moment to catch him up, making him brave and almost fearless… A bit farther back, the fall was over a natural cliff that made the place a bit of a cave, warm rocks resting at the back and a sandy floor covered with bits and pieces of moss like the softest of carpets…



Leading her out he’d lift her up in his arms and carry her over to the softest place, filled with small blooming flowers and smelling sweet, warm and quiet… Safe… There he’d lay her down and he’d settle in atop of her, one of his hands catching hers, linking their fingers before he’d move down to steal another kiss… And another… And another still… Each kiss was sweeter, better than the one before as he relearned her, listened to her body and the sounds she made… His free hand caressed up and down her side, along her cheeks and her shoulder, down her petite little waist and her hips… He explored her all over with hand and lips, finding that perfect mix until she was sighing under him, wriggling and whining just a bit… He’d keep it up too, just kissing her over and over for the next hour at least, their lips constantly in contact before she’d feel that pull of magic… Smoother than honey before she’d feel something different, something resting on her finger where her wedding band had once sat, the metal cool as it would slowly warm up to her body temperature… He’d made it ages ago but never got to give it to her, life had never really allowed them to sync up fully, and by the time he had Sybelle he was so afraid he’d lose her again they ended up eloping. This ring? Was a work of art in and of itself, cut from stones he had gathered himself, had cut and polished properly before set into the design he had drawn up himself. The center was a black opal with streams of green and blue through it, touches of purple here and there… The outer rings around the main band were emeralds on one side, the other were blue and green sapphires, the entire thing together was quite the attention getter… Not because it was large or gaudy, more so because of the quality of the stones and their color, and it would fit so perfectly over her dainty finger. “That has been waiting to grace your finger for well over thirty years… It’s finally where it belongs… Just like us…” He whispered against her lips before he’d slowly start to kiss down her neck and shoulder before he’d go a little farther than that, caressing her skin with his tongue before nipping her here and there as he went across the flat of her belly, dipping his tongue inside her perfect little navel… Lower… He’d blow a hot breath over the space between her thighs, looking up to her, waiting for a nod… A word… Conformation or to ask him to stop…


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I will always help you angel.. always.. sometimes it just takes a second set of eyes.. or a bit of direction, nothing has ever really stumped you.. You picked things up so quickly and just ran with them.. You really do need to learn to take more credit for yourself.. You're such a smart woman..-he would always offer assistance.. in anything.. but especially medical issues, he had a wealth of knowledge to share.. and sharing it with her was his most favourite obsession.. they spoke on Gia and the 'news' she had recieved.. without going into to much detail he had a fair idea on what she meant.. -.. That sounds like a smart move yes..that way should anything crop up you will be on hand to sort it out and give her the best care you possibly can.. -he knew full well how hard this could all be.. helping a woman through a pregnancy when she herself had had so much trouble in the past.. but he also saw it as a learning process and a way to heal.. maybe to even live vicariously through someone else until it was her turn.. he had faith she would carry a child to term soon.. he just had a feeling..-.. No its fine.. I dont need more time, It will just require hand written letters other than say a visit.. I have no issue doing that and I would rather go down there with you..-his brows furrowed a little and he rubbed against the back of his neck-.. Ill be honest I dont think Ill be too comfortable heading down there on my own after you.. -and he wouldn't.. he probably would have gotten stuck at the gates.. or with the guards of a certain house.. he could have frozen up at any time if something triggered him.. so his preference would always be to travel with someone.. namely her until his heart was settled.. -.. Though yes Ill take the assistance with the letters for sure.. -he laughed a little-.. I could dictate them and you could write them out.. but thats something we can sort out in the next few days..

-she struggled and he noticed.. saw it.. felt the trembles and little shakes .. his heart broke for her.. utterly and completely.. he picked her up and carried her over toward the blankets before the open hearth.. making sure the fire pit was open.. the soft glow washing over the pair of them.. he held her.. cradled and cuddled her.. keeping her protected as she shattered.. he did his best to wipe away her tears.. to calm her.. to console her.. her words of regret.. how she wished she'd never met him.. how she'd fought it all from the start.. he brushed his lips to her forehead-.. regret is an intriguing thing.. -he pulled the quilt over her.. his hands slid up and down her arms softly.. -.. I understand that you are hurt right now.. and angry.. and upset.. and you are well within your rights to feel it all.. and believe me.. its for the best to feel everything.. holding things in only hurts so much more in the end.. but.. The way i see it.. love.. the way I feel it.. is.. I will never regret Aeson.. or say that I wish Id never met him.. -his chin came down to rest there atop her head-.. because once upon a time he was exactly what I needed.. thats not the case right now no.. what I need is right here.. in my arms.. Just you sweetheart.. just you.. -he held her that little bit tighter.. it would take some time for her to heal from this.. and no doubt a lot of distraction.. but he would do his best to keep her spirits up.. to remind her.. how much she meant to him daily.. nightly even.. she confessed that her mind was telling her that sex was the answer.. but she seemed torn about it.. that she didn't want it to define her.. he reassured her.. or tried to.. that if she needed it she could take it.. whenever she desired.. he was here for her.. in all and every capacity.. -.. If its that bad.. in your mind love.. maybe we should be looking into it.. -his hands slid up to glide back through her hair.. sliding it behind her ears-.. I have gods that talk to me on occasion but.. its not like that no.. there's nothing chewing away at my skull.. I firmly believe that would drive me up the wall.. -he became quite concerned by it.. -.maybe when we are back on the road.. we could have a chat with Nautilous.. he seems to know a great deal about the gods and goddesses..maybe he could be able to find a solution.. or at least know what is going on..

-he nodded..those pills were brought back into play then.. the ones from Gia... if he was honest he didn't have a big opinion on it.. he didn't like not remembering things.. it bothered him.. but he would only do this if she did.. he drew breath as if to speak before she slid her fingers into his mouth.. placing that pill down.. taking the second one for herself.. it dissolved quite quickly.. it was a sweet taste but was fleeting before he felt the sudden shift within him.. as if the veil .. the fog had been lifted in his mind.. he took an audible breath.. blinking a few times..-.. Oh wow.. -he exhaled.. clearing his throat a moment there after...he could smell the incense..the candles.. the scented oils and wax.. his gaze had shifted around the room.. and he saw everyone.. Gia, Thaylan, Nautilous.. Ace and Diovan.. his sweetheart Rose.. it only occured to him in that moment that his mother was not in attendance.. had the break up happened before this?.. the visuals coupled with sensations soon forced those logical thoughts to the back.. he could hear her frustrations.. her sudden blurted exclamations as she gasped and whined.. his lids felt heavy.. there was an almost pressure in his chest as he watched her dancing..the night made its slow progression.. his gaze wandered over her form as she moved like liquid.. the way the orb lights seemed to know just where to accentuate.. just where to highlight.. the soft round of her hips.. the dip of her waist.. the luscious fullness of her ass.. his throat ran incredibly dry as he shifted.. a growl from the back of his throat sounded.. he could feel her shifting.. rubbing against him as she pleasured herself.. the soft cries of her shattering made his head tip back .. made his body tremble against her.. there was No single way to hide that arousal.. the fact those well crafted slacks of his had become incredibly tight.. his cock was aching from the restraint..

his hands reached for her.. gripping her firmly.. tightly.. holding her as she ground down against him.. teasing and tormenting him with each erotic rolling of her hips.. he could feel her heat.. hear her whimpers.. oh gods his heart was so tight..and to top it all off.. to make it so much harder he was hit with that harsh wall of pheromones.. it struck him suddenly.. like sultry smooth fingers around his throat.. just cutting off enough oxygen to make him light headed.. his brows drew inward when she reached down to stroke him.. to jerk him off through the fabric of his slacks.. he groaned and gasped.. grunting as he clenched his teeth..-.. Fuck.. -he growled.. the images kept coming.. striking him one after the other.. the drugs.. the scent of sex.. the view of her being strung up..the drow slaves on their knees with lips locked onto that slick sweet little cunt of hers.. the whip..the sweetest of saccharine cries.. his hold upon her his tightened.. enough to leave marks upon her bare skin.. -.. My God.. -he swallowed-.. You were Fucking incredible.. -a shuddered breath sounded.. he could feel her lips against his skin.. against his neck.. one hand rose from her hip to reach .. tangling within her hair.. gripping it fiercely as he yanked her head back.. their lips would meet then in a hungry heated little kiss.. mouths devouring.. tongues searching.. breaths stolen as he whined and gasped.. the slap though.. -.. Fuuuuuck.. -his shoulders sunk .. he never.. Ever wanted to strike her.. Ever.. not even in a fit of passion.. that was.. that was something new and he wasn't entirely sure how to take it.. he looked to her.. an apology was there upon the very tip of his tongue before she proclaimed it was just what she wanted.. that he knew all of it.. all of the dirty little things she needed but couldn't dare to ask-.. Always.. always .. just tell me.. Id give you anything.. Id do.. anything.. he groaned as he felt the pressure within him rising.. her sweet hot little body writhing on his lap was driving him to madness..

the sight of Thaylan there.. lining up behind her.. to fuck her.. to rape her took a strangle hold upon his heart.. he hissed out a breath.. it was one thing to see Ace fuck her.. but this was something different.. this was someone else.. someone not connected to them at all.. the way she cried.. the way she screamed.. she bit him then and he cried out as he bucked up harder against her.. -.. Fuck.. Fuck.. -he grit his teeth-.. Fuck yes.. I love the look in your eyes when someone else is fucking you.. You look to me.. Right where you should.. That sweet little body of yours being invaded .. he utterly ruined you.. and You loved it.. You wanted more .. I could see it.. -his hand slid around from her hair to glide beneath her chin.. gripping it as he looked to her-.. You want more.. desire to be fucked hard by Drow men mm?.. -he wasn't angry.. he wasn't disappointed.. he was genuinely intrigued.. -.. The sight of such sweet pale skin being destroyed by something so much darker.. That was certainly a sight I wouldn't mind seeing again..-he leant in and bit her lower lip.. tugging a little with his teeth before the scene shifted.. his body took on an odd sensation.. she would have noticed the mild confusion on his face. -.. Crow?.. -he questioned.. blinked.. it was like the memory was his.. but wasn't.. it came to him as though he were caught in some kind of dream like state.. though his lids faltered and flickered just a touch .. she would have noticed the hold he had on her softened.. before those bloody red eyes would reappear-.. Oh Im not so forgettable pretty bird.. I knew it would come to you.. -a brilliant smile crossed his features as he tilted his head to the side-.. Ill always be.. just there.. in the background.. -he leant in as his lips found that sweet spot.. where her shoulder met her neck.. he dragged his tongue.. he suckled and nipped.. whilst his hands slid down behind her to get a nice firm handful of her lush ass.. he rocked up against her.. she would have felt the hard lines of his cock against her sweetly sensitive slit.. -.. You'l always be taken care of..You need no one else.. just us.. We .. are the natural drug for all your panic.. your anxiety.. your fear and anger.. He was just a random encounter.. Im glad he's gone.. Im sorry pretty bird if thats hurtful to you.. but.. I was growing worried.. watching.. that he was going to take you away from us.. that Jacob wouldn't be strong enough to stand in.. to lay claim upon that which was his.. You.. -he lifted his head.. to look to you there as the two of them continued to rock.. to grind against one another.. teasing and tormenting as he slid his hands up her sides.. cupping those sweet little tits of hers-.. We need you.. -he leant in stealing those lips of hers as he cradled the back of her head with his fingers-.. but remember.. remember the bell..

-he whispered.. before she would feel that shift as his hands became stronger.. more tangled and the kiss deeper.. he was still confused.. he didn't quite understand.. but.. right now his head was full of so much lust there would be no room for logic.. she suddenly shifted then.. tearing away at his belt.. it was all so fast.. so quick.. is slacks had been slid down just enough to set his cock free of its restraint..he looked back to her with a widened gaze as her kisses became more and more erratic.. she was gripping and grabbing him everywhere.. -.. mm?.. a few hours?.. -he would question.. curious as to what she meant.. they were trying for a baby.. she wanted a little boy.. she wanted to give him a son.. that there was time.. before he even had a moment to speak she had literally impaled herself on him and he sucked in the sharpest breath as his body stiffened beneath her-.. FUCK.. -he cried out as he gripped onto her fiercely.. it was almost an agony in his eyes as he looked back to her.. both of them trying to catch breaths that were impossible as they panted and whined.. -.. Yes.. yes love.. -he swallowed.. reaching up for her as he held one hand against the back of her neck.. stealing her lips.. a kiss though broken ensued as he lifted his ass up to thrust up into her.. to dive higher into those slick silky walls of hers.. she was so incredibly tight.. sweet and wet.. he groaned and grunted as she shifted and moved atop him.. -.. I want you.. I want this.. I want us.. -he groaned..-.. I want us to have a baby.. so badly.. -he shuddered and just about died when her lips attached to his ear.. she knew full well what that would do to him.. he groaned deeply.. his hands shifted to her back.. supporting her as he manoeuvred his knees up.. still remaining anchored deeply inside her.. though she'd soon feel the softness of the fur blanket beneath her..he'd part those creamy white thighs of hers..wrapping them around him as he came down over her.. atop her..

his lips would find one of those jewellery encased nipples where he would bite and suckle.. tugging upon it as his hips would rock up into her.. gliding in and out .. a harder faster thudding.. intermixed with smoother softer.. so much slower strokes.. keeping her lower body lifted.. just enough that he could dip deeper.. leaving her with that lush ache that only came from explorations that went past the norm.. he gasped and groaned as their bodies met.. over and over again.. he watched the way her muscles writhed and shifted with every thrust.. he lifted higher to capture her lips.. to look down into those stunning golden orbs.. before he would pull back.. moving to sit up.. to get a hold upon her hips.. to lift her ass that little higher as he fucked her.. forcing her head down harder into the blankets.. into the cushions as her tits bounced as her body shuddered and shook.. and he just lost it.. he cried out when that first climax was torn from him.. filling her.. coating that sweet hot little cunt of hers with so much of his cum that he honestly felt quite drained.. that tablet though.. and the pheromones meant he was not sated.. and if she wanted a baby in that time frame.. he'd damn well do his best to make sure there was not a single inch of her not painted up.. his hands slid down her frame.. touching her.. caressing that soft smooth sweat laden skin.. before he would slowly withdraw.. feeling that sticky sweetness just dribbling out of her before he slapped his hand against her ass-.. turn over for me.. -he would croon to her.. waiting for her to roll.. if she laid flat though he would reach down and pull her up onto her knees.. that sweet ass in the air.. he'd slap his hand across it.. once.. then twice before without warning he would thrust that still hardened length up into her.. invading her quickly.. swiftly. filling her completely as that cum just made that passage incredibly smooth.. he would grip onto her as he picked up that slower pace.. fucking her then.. harder as he slammed against the round plushness of her ass.. watching as it jiggled every time he made contact.. the sounds were delicious.. she was So wet.. he reached forward.. grabbing a hold on her hair.. pulling her upper body back so she arched like a cat-.. tell me angel.. -he growled-.. how badly you want a baby..

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-he was hurting.. she could sense it.. feel it.. it was like an extra added weight upon her person.. it made her heart sore.. - Doing the right thing is not always easy, sometimes its the most painful decision you will ever have to make..-her fingers were soft as they brushed past his cheek-.. You come to an understanding of what love means..that you care for another persons happiness more than your own no matter how painful the choices you face may be..-her fingers lowered.. to tap then atop his stuttering heart-.. You will always love her.. and she will always have a place in here.. -fingers found his chin then as she tilted it up to look to her-.. and I can say.. without a shadow of a doubt that you will forever remain in hers.. you two had something that was incredibly strong and vast.. and it lasted just long enough to guide you onto a different path..You werent wrong for each other.. you were right.. in that moment.. You were what she needed.. and vise versa.. the hows and whys of that meeting.. at the reasoning and who stacked what dominoes up to fall.. well.. thats just history.. Your heart hurt after letting her go, and that means the feelings you felt were genuine.. -she tilted her head.. sighing softly.. -.. None of us like when things end.. and no one really likes this kind of pain.. this ache.. this heart hurt.. but sometimes we have to put things that were once good to an end after they turn toxic to our wellbeing.. and when you broke down.. on that bed in that room..-her hands fell to his shoulders-..you told me.. and showed me.. just how toxic it had all become.. Who you were Nautilous.. who you are.. and who you can be.. are three different people.. -he had asked her why she was crying.. what was wrong.. and her answer was a little on the vague side.. but it still held just enough honesty.. his response was heart felt.. and she wanted to tell him.. right then.. right there that he was going to be a Father.. but.. no.. something held her back.. the timing was not right..

she settled in beside him.. his kisses upon her palms were soft and sweet.. enough to make her fingers twitch in response.. the corners of her lips to curl a little.. it was all laid out.. she spoke her truth.. her heart.. she told him what she saw was happening.. she gave her explanations on why she left.. and how Thaylan had written to her about what had happened after that.. he took his turn on trembled and stuttered words.. the nerves and stress between the two of them was fierce.. it was strong.. like a dark cloud hovering.. she nodded a little when he spoke on how he was tired and grieving.. that his words came out wrong.. -.. I should have given you a little more understanding and time.. for that I am sorry.. I was quick to make a judgement and it was not the right one.. -he knew she would be honest.. she had said as much when they spoke in that pool room.. she admitted to faltering .. she was far from perfect.. and when she was wrong she said as much.. its why things between her and Thaylan ran So smoothly.. they were honest.. when they hit those bumps in the road they spoke about it.. they communicated.. fights and arguments were rare.. but it had been so long since she had felt this way about another person.. in fact the Only other person she felt this for was Thaylan and those tweaks.. those beginnings happened so so long ago she had forgotten how easy it was to stumble.. she moved to stand.. fingers curling around his as she pulled him to his feet..the two embracing firm and tightly.. she held him fiercely.. arms wrapped around.. her fingers would reach.. fanning out against the back of his head.. her lids tumbled closed as she just breathed him in.. his scent.. his warmth.. it had only been.. what.. a day and a night.. but it felt like it were far to long and she admitted to missing him.. so much.. he proclaimed his love for her.. that she was the missing piece.. the one he had been searching for.. all this time.. -.. Your broken pieces are my missing ones.. -she breathed.. feeling the tears tumbling down her cheeks once more.. this day had so many highs and lows..

her heart and mind was unsure on just how to react.. so it all just spilled down her cheeks.. he cradled her.. carried her as he settled back down upon that bench.. her fingers curled against his shirt as he told her to cry it out.. to let it all go.. -.. By the goddess its been a chaotic few days.. My heart isn't sure what to do.. -she forced out a slow hitching breath as she glanced up to him through incredibly glassy eyes.. there was a smile there though..a beautiful warm emotion playing out upon those richly coloured lips.. -.. Thankyou.. really.. Thankyou.. -she reached to wipe a few fingers under her eyes.. catching a few more of those that were latching onto long charcoal lashes.. composure.. she was going to find an ounce of it to hold onto.. though when he laughed she easily followed along.. giving a little shake of her head-.. Well.. bring on the chaos then.. and Ill meet it.. head on.. -her fingers curled around his after his kisses were placed.. warming her heart with such a tender action-.. as long as you're there beside me.. -she asked him to stay with her.. to be with her.. she wanted him in her life.. all of him..-.. I want all those broken pieces.. and those charming smiles.. that quick wit and incredibly cheeky dry humour.. I want to lay a claim on that heart of yours..-she glanced up to him.. -.. I know ill never have all of it.. and thats ok.. but I want to protect it and show you how to build it up.. but i also I want to give you mine to hold..-her smile only grew when he said yes that he wanted to stay with her.. till the end of time no less.. the proposal though caused her to blink.. she was not expecting that.. it caused an odd little reaction.. her heart almost seized in her chest.. it took a much shallower beat.. they had spoken about marriage on a few occasions now.. it was idle chatter amongst the three of them.. but in those times it felt more a passing bit of conversation.. just something sweet to muse on..

but no he asked her and it struck her.. he wanted to build a new life with her.. from the ground up.. he wanted to be her husband.. her weaponsmaster.. and to take her name.. and all of this.. he offered.. to do with the thought that she couldn't have children.. thats why it caused her breath to catch.. she knew all to well how much family meant to him.. and it was one of the things she found most attractive about him.. they had such similar values.. but he was putting her above that.. she leant in.. her forehead pressed to his.. her hands slid up along his arms.. to the rounds of his shoulders.. the sides of his neck.. -..I choose you, and ill choose you over and over and over.. -she whispered .. her lips lightly brushing against his with every word-.. without pause, without a doubt.. in a heart beat.. ill just keep choosing you.. I want you Nautilous.. in your entirety and I want to love you.. endlessly.. -her fingers rose to cradle against his cheeks..her smile grew a little more and she even laughed just a touch-.. in my culture.. its the women.. that ask the men.. -she tilted her head.. pulling back just a little to look to him..-.. so my answer to you.. my sweet broken knight.. is no.. but in return.. -her smile only grew-.. I ask of you.. if you will do me the honour.. of taking my name.. of stepping into the position of my WeaponsMaster.. My heart is open for you.. I desire you in my life.. in all facets.. so. with all that in mind.. I humbly ask ..Will you Marry me Nautilous.. -her fingers caressed just softly against his jawline.. before she felt his fingers tangling within her hair...tilting her head back and they kissed.. she just about melted in his arms.. it was a soul searching.. poetic.. love defining union.. it trumped their first kiss.. it drowned everything they had done up until this moment.. its goal was to steal hearts and breath.. to remove the weight and stress that had been placed down upon them both through the tangled web of misunderstandings.. it was their freedom from their pain in physical form ..she sighed ..a gentle fear that her heart would burst apparent.. when it slowly broke she leant in to capture another just soft and small.. -.. I love you Nautilous..

-whispered softly.. looking up into that one working brilliantly blue eye..though her forehead found his once more.. she just desired that closeness.. an almost making up for lost time.. -.. this seems to be becoming a habit.. not wanting to move..the desire to just stay.. right here.. like this.. -another kiss to the corner of his lips as her hands wrapped around the back of his head.. she took a soft breath-.. but...we need to go back I have something.. for you both.. and i think we need to talk.. all together..its important.. -she nodded a little as she exhaled.. slowly pulling away from him.. sliding down from his lap as that little velvet dress fell back into place.. she reached for his hand-.. You should know.. though that I have hired Your son and Rose.. as physicians on cycle for the House.. I find their skills to be exemplary.. no one I have come across in my time thus far could match what they know.. their medical experience combined is incredible.. and Rose will be my personal physician.. -her fingers curled around his as the two of them walked out of the greenhouse together.. out into the awaiting embrace of darkness.. the night in full swing.. only a few lanterns dotted here and there.. she bristled a little at the low in temperature.. -.. She is in a bit of a dark place right now due to Aesons departure.. but I feel.. that your son will settle her.. she's an incredibly strong woman on her own.. but he makes her stronger.. I didn't bring her along.. I felt it would be unkind to make her come this far knowing the memories such a place would hold.. so the two of them will meet us on the road when it is time..-she would release his hand.. only to slide her arm around him.. to walk in closer against his side.. her head resting partially against his shoulder.. there was so much comfort in this.. it just felt right.. they approached the side suites.. the ones kept for the Kings closest friends and relatives when they were on the grounds.. she would make her way inside.. knowing Anya was off with Adelaide.. unsure on just where Thaylan was or what he was up to but figuring he was around.. hopefully not with his ass in a bucket Or drunk.. she rapped her knuckles upon the hard wood door as she moved inside.. a wave of her hand would have fae lights lift instantly to the ceiling.. giving the room a soft glow.. and with them being high enough they would never directly cause issue with her eyes.. -.. Thaylan?.. -she would call out as more of the room was illuminated.. turning then to Nautilous.. reaching her warm fingers up to capture his cheek as she guided him down for them to kiss once more.. just something small.. something to bring a smile-.. go sit.. I just have to get something.. -she nodded as she slipped into the room she had been residing in.. just through the door to the left-

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“It’s hard to but I’m getting better bit by bit…” She couldn’t change a lifetime of habits in a day, but she was still making progress, some days more than other but so long as it was a step? It didn’t matter how small it was still progress. Together they had done so much more than anyone could have ever attributed to them for their age, she was young yes but so was Jacob, between the two of them they barely mustered enough years to be considered a respectful doctor in his field but them? They were breaking down walls and discovering, creating, patenting new ways to help heal and save lives. There was nothing holding them back and together they were unstoppable, there was no medical riddle or mystery that they couldn’t solve so long as they put their minds to it, it was one of the many things she loved about him… Just all the things they could do together… “Smart and hopefully getting smarter… But I have a lot to learn yet before I’m anywhere near your level.” Jacob had devoted his entire life to the craft and she had a long way to go before she knew nearly as much as he did but that? Wasn’t exactly a bad thing.

Gia was spoken about then, the fact she had taken on the job once she had proven to Gia that she was capable of the tasks needed for her position, and how she felt it was important to go now rather than later… Jacob knew her suffering more than Ace ever could, Ace didn’t even know she had been pregnant, let alone the miscarriage but Jacob? Knew every single one. He knew the way she had suffered, the pain she had gone through as she suffered one loss after the other, a back to back series of miscarriages that had left her jaded and badly shaken. Helping Gia?... It was hard in some ways because there was envy in her soul for it, jealousy too, a longing… But in a way this might be just what she needed… If she could save one? Then maybe there was still hope for her too. She could take every precaution, make sure she never put a foot wrong if that was what it took, she’d do it all and then some if that was what it took. Gia? Was going to benefit from this drive in her though, there would never be a more well cared for, healthier or better looked after pregnant woman in the entire history. “Exactly… She was a touch shocked but she’s agreed it is the best course of action.” She just felt horrible on top of everything else because here he was, already struggling with knowing he was going to be going to the under dark, but now he had a time crunch in which he had to file all of his resignations and everything he had honestly worked so hard for… He was giving up SO much to come with her and she swore on her soul she would make it up to him, give him such a rich life down there that he would never regret coming with her, and hopefully… With all her heart… She would be able to give him children…

Offering to give him more time, to perhaps join her down there instead of coming right away, but the way he hesitated? The way he rubbed the back of his neck? She reached out and took his hand in hers and gave it a warm squeeze. “It’s ok… We wont go anywhere unless we’re together. You just go ahead and find out when you want me to write the letters and we’ll work through them together, get them all squared up and sorted, smooth as powdered silk you’ll see…” But honestly she could only keep this façade up for so long. It had started to crumble with Gia a bit around the edges, she’d had a much firmer grip then though, she wasn’t purely exhausted magically and otherwise so she could hold on much better… But now? She was drained emotionally and magically and with Jacob being so warm… So supportive and comforting it was like he was slowly, one by one, uncurling her fingers from their death grip around her emotions. Once that last finger was pried off she just shattered in his arms, the hearth was warm and glowing comfortingly behind her, her head over his heart as it all came out. The good, the bad, the ugly… Ace had hurt her so badly doing what he had, she wished she hadn’t met him because this pain was so deep, so raw and ugly… It was like suffering a wound inflicted by a rusty, jagged ended spork, forcing and pushing through rather than cutting cleanly… The feeling of that rug being dragged up her form as he held her, his words were kind and wise, born up from someone who had long since known first hand how raw heartbreak could be… “I have to hate him… Cause if I don’t… I won’t stop loving him.” Hate was clean because it burned, it cauterized all wounds, and while it wasn’t always the wisest choice? It was all she had right now to try and gain the strength… She had forgiven Ace for what he did… But that didn’t mean she would ever forget… “You’re all that I want… All that I need. You are my perfection…” In all things they were perfectly matched… Mentally, physically, emotionally… There wasn’t a plane of existence where they weren’t beautifully in sync, just different enough to keep it interesting, similar enough to never worry about drifting too far apart or getting into terrific rows over something. They were absolutely perfect for each other.

Even so though her concerns about what was going on in her head had become serious after Ace left her because of it. It was bad and on days like this where she was worn out, nothing left but the shell of resistance, that was when she heard it the loudest. It was a constant mantra for her to go out and ease the pain and sorrow with pleasure, always to lean on pleasure, that sex solved everything. She confessed to Jacob that it was so bad it was like gnawing on her skull, the moment she stopped focusing on something, the time she dropped her guard? It was back in with a vicious sort of vengeance. “I think so… I think it’s time I leaned on you and our family about this…I’ve tried to do it on my own for almost a year now and I’m out of options…” Yes… He had heard her right… She was finally confessing to needing to help and her understanding that it was time to lean on him and their family. She was out of time and she wasn’t going to lose her Jacob, her family, her friends or her career over this. She wouldn’t submit to it, she was always, always going to fight it… She just hoped that in leaning on someone else she wasn’t burdening them or making a situation or possible situations worse because of it. The question about the pills had come up and he said he had no real preference one way or the other, the reason she was choosing for them to remember though was because Jacob already had long swatches of his memory that were stolen from him, huge chunks of time that he had no idea what had happened or when… Only coming to after the damage was done…

Neither of them were ready or expecting what came next though, the moment those sticky sweet tablets dissolved she was hit hard with the slow evolution of that night, all the memories and sensations… The drugged high and the music, the scent on the air and the way her body had felt so alive, she was lightning in the flesh… She’d NEVER danced like that before but she was there, seducing with her movements under that perfect lamplight before Jacob joined her, taking control and she bent like a piece of wet fabric into what ever position he wanted her in. That night as it spun out was lush in ways she could never really define, her body over his there before the fire was suddenly hotter than the blaze within those brick walls, lust hit her thicker than tar and she was doomed… What resistance she had been using to refrain from using his body and hers to ease her pain was gone in the moment it would take a match to light, a sudden bright blaze and it was gone, wisps of smoke all that remained of her pathetic paper mache armor. The pheromones were bleeding off of her thicker than fog over the bogs and marshes, hitting him as hard as it she was already being hit herself, her hands over her core as she shattered within seconds… Another a few moments behind that as she rocked and panted against him, her face was a mask of the most beautiful agony ever seen, a woman about to fly apart at the seams… Her hands dipping down between their bodies, his slacks soaked by her obvious pleasure and oh, such sweet little digits wrapping around that thick throbbing shaft…His hands digging in hard enough to bruise her flesh over those markings from the part and she relished it like a drug user does that first hit. “It was amazing-“ She panted as their memories were shared, he pushed her to places she had never gone, never dared asked for and it was all she could have ever dreamed of. The hand in her hair made her hiss hotly as their lips collided moments later, her teeth sinking into his full bottom lip to nip to tug as their were pawing each other like youthful teenagers in a rut. Looking into his eyes she saw what he was feeling and she shook her head quickly, oh she did NOT want him to apologize for any of it, that had been the most luscious of pain she had ever felt… She confessed he knew everything she wanted without her having to say a peep, he gave her everything she needed, the pain and the pleasure so tightly mixed they were one in the same. “If I step out of line… Don’t ever hesitate to hit me… Remind me through pleasure and pain I am yours…” She panted, the two of them were a hot mess together, grinding and panting as their pressures mounted over and over again. ”Tie me up like that, leave me hanging, whip me till my skin welts and I bear the marks of your leather… Let the shackles bite into my skin… There is so much pleasure in the pain you bring me you don’t know… How much it arouses me… How easily I can cum from you striking me… Your pain is my pleasure, and my pleasure is the pain you give me, each lick of a whip is paradise…” It was so true, she loved it when he was soft and warm too, the romance between them would always be alive and healthy…But in that same coin? There was a flip side that was darker, grittier, far from polished and bore the signs of blood and violence… It was what she needed, that coin and both sides of it, the sweet and the savage… She needed to be cradled and adored on one hand, on another she needed to be hunted and punished, she could not exist in just one side… She was both and THAT had been what Ace could not handle… The fact she was more than just one side of the coin, she herself existed in harmony between the two, and Jacob…Not only did he understand it… She felt… In her heart… He was the same…

Thaylan raping her was what swung in next and it had shocked her but she would never ever take that back… The pain was beyond exquisite and it scratched such a forbidden, horribly naughty itch inside her soul, her orgasms during that were so hard and hot they left her weaker than an hour old kitten. It drove her to a sweet sort of frenzy as she bit him, hearing the hiss and the way he cried out, the way he bucked up into viciously… Heaven was withheld through a strip of fabric… Those slacks were the only thing keeping him burried inside her… As he spoke oh FUCK those dirty words made her whimper and groan in hungry and painful need, her dilated eyes looking into his, the two of them finding so much decadent common ground… “I did, I won’t lie Daddy, I fucking loved being raped like that… No sight… No way to know what he was going to do… Just the pain married to pleasure till I was so weak all I could do was cum around that big drow cock-“ His fingers on her chin, she had no reason to look away, there was no shame… Just lust and understanding… “I want to watch you fuck someone too… I want to hold a dirty little bitch down for you and watch you use her flesh hard and brutal, I want to see you unleash your devil and destroy that supple flesh before you cum deep inside her, cum gushing out of her for me to lick up… I LOVE you and only You… With you there is NO Fear… I know you will never leave me nor I you… Sex is not what holds us together and I want to explore this world with you… I want to see how far our rabbit hole goes… I want to explore the pleasures of Drow flesh with you until we’ve both gluttoned on it… I want to see you fuck through a line of drow slaves, paint their pretty dark cunts up with your beautiful white cum, their mouths open as they drool with raw pleasure from all the exits and entrances you make into their body…” It took this memory… This knowledge for things to click into place for her in so many ways, she no longer feared Jacob wanting another woman, there was no need… No one else would ever compare to her and she knew that now with a solid certainty that eased such a weighted fear off her heart. “Next time you order a thick juicy drow cock into your fiancées pussy I want you to be the one holding me down and making me take it. I want you to pick out the man who rapes me and make sure I take it like your filthy little bitch… Jacob… I want to wear your collar…” It was something they had… Talked about a little here and there… He wore hers but she wore no ones, Sydel had given her a loaner for Splinter but other than that, no such metal graced her neck. But she was telling him here, now, she wanted to be his slave as he was hers… Shared ownership, both master and slave to each other, the perfect union of give and take…

Crow…Crow… She suddenly remembered and her heart ached for the fact that the drugs had made her forget him, this brave sweet shadow who kept Jacob safe for her, always made sure Jacob would come home to her… “He is your Shadow, he keeps you safe from Grace and keeps you alive when you’re in danger… He is the dark side of your soul and he is gentle… Kind and sweet to me… He makes sure… No one will ever keep us apart…” She said before she’d feel that dark crackle and her nipples hardened up all over again, knowing her sweet shadow was coming forward, her arms around him as she held him close the moment he came to the foreground. “I remembered… There was something important I had to remember… I remembered you but I couldn’t make the picture clear up until now…” She said as her arms rested on his shoulders, her body rocking with his at a much slower, sweeter tempo… The way his lips fell on her sweat soaked skin, making her moan as she moved her head to the side, giving him all the access he wanted… “I’m so happy… That you’re real… Not a dream…” She whispered so soft and sweet, his hands on her ass to get that full grip he adored, grinding her a bit harder against his cock as she fell into him like a dance. “You are all I need… You are both my mates… My husbands to be… Not hurtful no… You need to claim me… I am yours… No one elses…” She got out in pants, whimpers and the sweetest of mewls, her brows drawing in before his hands shifted and moved up to cup her breasts and she shattered atop of him with a high sweet cry as she flooded his lap again. She was So Hot… Burning up… Her head spinning like a top as he captured her lips, his fingers in her hair, nodding her head. “I’ll steal that bell and choke the life out of her with the chain… Please be there… When I do… I want you to see… The hand of the woman who loves you… Liberating you from…That serpent…”

Feeling the shift back she could see that he was confused and she’d explain it all later in detail but right now? There was just this overwhelming pressure of lust, like being deep in the abyss of the sea, crushed by the dark of need… Along with all the memories she remembered something else almost as important at that bell and that was that she was still on that fertility potion, the magic would last another twelve hours or so, and in that time? They had added help in conception and yes… Yes it drove her into a frenzy as she nearly destroyed his clothes tearing them off of him, her words stunted a bit, a touch on the short side… She tried to explain and she got most of it out, that they were trying for a son last night, a little boy to name Lyon… She wasted NO time in getting that cock free and she impaled her soaking wet cunt over it so that it slid in like a knife into hot honey as she cried out and shattered all over again atop of him. She didn’t stop though, she barely slowed down as she rode out that sweet high, nails digging into his skin here and there as she knew she was going to be going wild, she didn’t want to hold back or play nice… She? Wanted that baby. Now. She’d move with him even as she moved against him as well, lips catching and bruising in hot kisses like melted chocolate, hot and smooth and utterly addictive… “Me too- I want this baby so badly Jacob, I’ll do anything…” She sobbed brokenly as he shifted, fucking up into her as she cried out sharply and her hand came down to her cunt and a few hard, fast strokes had her shattering so hard that she locked up around him as he shifted them… Rolled her onto her back as she shuddered and trembled like the last leaf on a tree in winter winds. “Yes!- Yes baby pump this little cunt full of that big bad dick!-“ She was such a lady outside of the bedroom, perfect manners and decorum, you wouldn’t even think she knew how to cuss… But close that door? And she had the dirtiest mouth that any whore house could have ever bragged about.

Switching up the temp the way he was doing was driving her perfectly fucking insane, her hands up over her head as she gripped the bedding as her head tossed side to side as she cried out over and over again, his lips upon her nipples and his cock thudding so deep into her that he made her hurt deliciously… She arched hard, her ass barely on that sweet soft fur as her thighs clung about him, locked at the ankles behind his back as she met him thrust for thrust… Back in such a clean bow an archer would have envied it as she cried out over and over again, her pussy was getting so god damned tight it was only the lushest of rides, flooding his cock and balls with wave after wave of those sticky sweet juices. That last bit… The way he moved her higher so her weight was on her shoulders and neck, her hands finding their way into her hair as she pulled it herself, mouth opened in a silent scream as her tits bounced and swayed so full and plush upon her delicate chest… She could feel his cock pushing against the skin of her stomach, he’d be able to see the ouline of it as he pounded into her, so fucking huge compared to how tiny… Delicate she was… Catching her breath the scream he ripped from her lungs would have satisfied every little corner of his sensual and sexual fetish riddled soul… She came so hard that she nearly fainted, her vision going and her breath caught in her chest, her whole body going limp as she splattered him and his thighs with her cum as he pumped her full of his own… She lay there in a daze and she couldn’t have remembered her own name to save her life, jerking and twitching with each random wave, the echos of the beast that had consumed her… Each shudder forced his cum out of her and splattered across her thighs, sticky sweet and oh so very, very potent.

She was told to turn and she couldn’t stop the whimper that fell from her lips, rolling as best she could, laying flat on her stomach as her head span and her heart raced so fast she was sure she’d have a heart attack… She was suddenly lifted to her knees and her ass slapped which made her rock forward, trying to escape that sweetly punishing cock of his before he gripped her, dragging her back against him and onto his cock with such a swift smooth impaling she sobbed brokenly as yet another orgasm hit her and knocked her down another peg… Crying against the fur, her lips parted as she drooled, her eyes glassy and unfocused… She had never felt so god damned good… Like… She was beyond high, she was stuck in this loop of just pure pleasure, broken only by sharp sudden peaks of climatic bliss that never really seemed to end, they just got tighter… Harder… Closer together until they were almost back to back it seemed, mere minutes between her screaming pleasured moments as she shattered, his name on her lips more often than not as she fainted more than once… He’d taken it all from her and kept going… His fist in her hair and pulling her back, her hands reaching back to grip his hips, to feel those thick strong muscles jumping and flexing as they fueled his cock inside her “I want a baby so fucking bad… Not just any baby… I Want YOURS Daddy-“ She panted, her head caught on that tight arch, her scalp on fire as he made her bend to the shape he wanted her and she thrived in it… His cock pressing out against her belly with such an angle, her hand pressing down over her belly to feel that vicious hard shaft plunging into her and pushing his cum deeper and deeper inside her, her other hand up to cup and mold her breasts. “I’d sell my fucking soul to have your baby Daddy… My Master… My sweet Big Brother!” She cried out hard and suddenly as that slapping of his free hand against her ass made her shatter all over again and she was just utterly ruined forever after this… Deliciously fucking broken… “I’d do anything… Everything… To have this baby- I’ll make pacts with the devil himself if I have to! I’ll keep you tied up in bed and use you all day… All night… I’ll take any potion or powder to make sure this thick cock of yours put a baby in me-“ And she would… It didn’t matter who she had to talk to, what she had to do, she’d do any of it… All of it… If only it meant she could get pregnant and take this little one to term… She moved her arms up to catch behind his neck and brought him down to kiss her, lips tangled and tongues dancing as he pounded into her harder than Thaylan had, making her drop over and over again as she shattered and by this time? She couldn’t keep up…

She was reduced to nothing but a pile of climatic, white hot nerves, a perfect slave to every little thing he wanted… Every position, every speed, anything and everything was given and taken… They’d go at it for hours, longer than they ever had before as he took her in every single position a man could take a woman, so much so that by the end she was thoroughly gaped and cum was gushing and oozing out of her cunt as she was finally released onto the rug on the floor long after the sun had started to rise… She was bruised… Beaten… The whip marks from the night before caressed her body like she were a canvas to be painted in purple greed red and black… Fresh teeth marks… Claw marks…They each bore the marks of the others passion as she lay there, panting like a marathon runner with asthma, covered in sweat and cum and completely… Perfectly… Utterly sated… This room would have to be burned down, they’d never get the smell of sex out of the walls, their passionate screams and moans would forever echo and ring from the timbers… She curled into his arms on the floor there and clung to him, she couldn’t speak, her voice was gone from all the screaming and moaning… Every succulent cry and saccharine whimper… They’d NEVER done that… Not like that… There had always been borders… Boundaries… But last night? It was all gone… Nothing had been held back and it was… The most amazing sex… Ever… She knew once she woke up she would be hurting from head to toe but right now? There was only warm pleasure and perfect satisfaction… They’d fucked well past the time the potion would have worn off and in all honestly only witch elves and drow could fuck more than twelve hours straight and not die… Her lips curling in a soft smile as her lids dropped over and over again, keeping them open as much as she could to look up at him, this beautiful man of hers… All the sides of him that she adored… Loved… God… How could she have ever… Ever… Thought there could be anyone other than him? His place in her heart was whole, any space was filled, consumed and taken over…There was him, and only him, forever more… She just hoped… They made it this time… But if not?... They would keep trying… Trying for as long as it took…

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He was the Diovan she could remember from when she was younger.. the longer she spoke to him the more that she was remembering.. just little things.. scenes playing out.. images.. words spoken and actions made.. it would take some time before it was all there but there was a lot more there than before.. he'd always been a little awkward around her as they got older.. when they were kids it was care free and easy.. they just fooled around doing silly nonsense.. she'd drag him half way across the country side just to get some special flower she had heard about.. but he did it.. he always come with her.. he was always there.. at her side.. when she had the really hard days he lightened the load...and in return when he fell down she helped him right back up.. they were each others anchor.. as adults things got a little messier.. she knew she was attracted to him.. she felt it.. she knew it.. he was everything she could have ever wanted.. ever desired.. Caela tried so hard to poison her mind on it.. but no.. she never believed a word her sister spoke.. or the gossip that was fed into her ears.. he was perfect.. for her.. so yes she did catch those glimpses of him whenever she could.. she could admire him naked and she did whenever she had the chance.. naturally she never got caught.. so he was none the wiser.. but.. she never really took it any further..

at that time in her life she had some pretty shocking self worth.. and she saw herself as damaged goods.. and who wanted that?.. so when he did appear with that flower on his lapel.. her first thoughts were he had fallen for someone.. and it couldn't have been her.. so she never actioned it.. and therein lay the problems.. he was shy and reserved.. and she felt unworthy.. so they never met in the middle.. no one took the step that was required.. otherwise things would have been Vastly different.. still.. life circled around.. and they ended up back where they had left off.. a little older.. a little wiser for it.. with perhaps a few more answers than they might have had if they had of fallen so much earlier..she enjoyed the tea he had gotten for her.. it was sweet and went down easily.. the topic on cunt fish and tally wackers had made her laugh harder than she had done so in quite some time.. his innocence was adorable.. but when he spoke on not using certain 'dirty' words in the bedroom before she paused.. -.. Well.. You dont have to use them.. it's just one of those things.. it either works.. or it doesn't.. there's no hard and fast rules when it comes to things like that.. -she offered him a smile.. he admitted his sexual activities were few and far between... a mixture of timing and travel.. festival and anniversaries.. her brow rose a little and she tilted her head-.. dirty words aside.. are you telling me in not so many words.. that you and Bells didn't spend much time in the bedroom?.. -there was a lot of ways she could have asked it.. but the last thing she wanted to do was make him uncomfortable.. she felt almost saddened for him that he was missing out on that attention.. that intimacy.. that closeness.. she knew full well it wasn't his skill..in the times they spent together he knew precisely what to do without issue.. so what was it..though his question.. his little request on what she liked to be called in bed surprised her.. that was quite forward.. she glanced toward him with a knowing smile-.. I think you'l have a fair idea when it happens.. -though in those moments the only thought she had.. was.. anything but princess.. she'd probably crumble if he did that..it was possible they maybe should discuss the things they Didn't want to do.. didn't want to be called..but there would be time.. the two of them returned to her little home on the pond.. the little corner of paradise she called all her own.. he fluttered around helping her out.. putting things away.. remaking her bed and making sure she was as comfortable as she possibly could be ..

it was time to swim.. something she had adored since she was able to kick her legs.. it was her escape.. and Caela HATED it.. so hiding in the lillies was easy.. she slipped into that little pink gingham bikini.. her heart took a hard jolt when she caught a glimpse of him in those tight speedos.. she tried to see a bit more.. reaching to look.. but no.. he was hiding fast behind that door ..idle cheeky threats were made before she moved out into the awaiting loving arms of her pond.. dipping down beneath it and surfacing just in time to see him moving toward her.. she told him her legs felt kind of weird.. her whole body did.. on and off.. his explanation made sense.. enough to make her nod a little-.. I can do more now than I could back a the estate.. I just cant put a lot of my weight down yet.. nut im hopeful I will be back to usual movement in a day or two.. I'm not to fond of being incapacitated.. -she liked to move.. she liked the freedom of walking of running .. and dancing.. something she had not done in quite some time.. she threw the speedo comment at him.. watching as his cheeks coloured.. her smile could only grow upon noticing it- You still blush as often as you used to.. -she reached across with a cool wet finger to lightly press to his cheek-.. it tells me so much more than your words ever will.. -she gave him a smile.. a genuine one.. true and honest as she shifted around behind him.. hands finding his shoulders as she whispered in his ear.. he did look good.. he looked fucking fantastic in that swimsuit.. it left very little to the imagination and he was in great shape.. she did not realise what her words were doing to him though.. how he was riding hard on that teasing highway.. but before she even had the chance to see she had dunked him under and splashed him hard when he resurfaced.. watching him splutter and put his hands up .. his laughter was soon coupled with her own..his comment on not swimming with her because she was naked made her scoff-.. Oh please.. Thats nonsense.. -she splashed him again as she began to make him move backwards-.. I would have kissed you if you'd come in with me..

-she kicked up her legs to send another wall of water his way.. watching him struggle with it as she avoided whatever he had tossed in her direction.. -.. If you could have read my mind back then Im pretty sure you'd either have been traumatised , aroused.. or both.. I just didn't think you saw me that way.. -she admitted as she guided him back through the cooling water wall.. back into that little dimly lit space.. just the two of them.. no prying eyes.. no outside traffic.. just the sounds of water and their own slightly trembled breaths.. her hands had found his shoulders and she took that step.. she stole that kiss.. but he returned it immediately which made her heart just burst.. he backed them both up.. her feet felt the ground but other than that she just lost herself in his arms.. his touch.. he pulled her against his chest.. she reached her arms out to wrap them around him.. as she requested he stay.. softly spoken words..she did not want to be alone.. and she really wanted him to stay.. her lids closed over and she sighed when he kissed her forehead.. her cheeks.. he told her he would stay.. for as long as she wanted it.. she smiled as she looked back to him..lifting up just a little as she brushed the tip of her nose against his.. another quick little kiss before he picked her up and guided her back down into the depths of the cavern.. he placed her down atop that soft mossy bed.. the area had an interesting combination of scents.. the flowers saw only a small amount of sunlight.. it was dewy and warm.. he layed across her.. she could feel his body weight.. and if it werent for his kisses that were so incredibly sweet that kept on going she would have allowed that sliver of hesitation to take hold..

it was there.. in the back of her mind.. he might have noticed it in the way her fingers curled around his hand a little tighter.. face to face they stayed for a time.. feeling his touch.. his caress as she reached around him with her free hand.. fingers lightly strummed against his lower back.. the points of her nails grazed against his damp warmed skin.. -.. you taste so different.. -she breathed between his kisses.. and he did.. as Sydel everything was kind of bland.. kind of washed out.. colour.. taste.. texture.. but kissing him now.. showed her all that she had been missing out on.. -.. it's good.. it's really.. really good.. -she whined a little.. shifting easily beneath him in response to his touches.. her head was swimming.. she felt warm and lush.. like she'd been wrapped up in a warm blanket..but still kept on that fine little edge as he teased her sweetly.. the magic pop caused her to stir.. a curiosity rose. before she felt the change.. the shift in weight upon her hand.. her finger to be precise.. she blinked as she lifted her hand.. turning it around to find this band.. this ring her mouth dropped open a little.. she took a breath-.. Oh my god.. -she took a stunned breath.. turning it this way and that as the perfectly cut gem stones glistened in the low lighting.. he explained he had been waiting.. for well over thirty years.. her smile only just grew-.. Oh its perfect.. .. Wow.. that is beautiful.. -and it was.. it was a creation like none she had ever seen.. the colours were so vibrant and the setting unique.. yep.. her heart was about to burst she could feel it..

she reached with that hand to lock it behind his neck.. not allowing him to move away just yet as she captured his lips once more.. lifting her head up off of the pillows of moss as it was a little deeper.. a little more desire laden.. more love filled than the earlier sweet little ministrations.. she controlled this one.. her tongue dipped up into the heated depths of his mouth.. taking his.. they mingled.. she tasted and stole his very breath.. -.. I love you Diovan.. -she whispered.. her breath catching against the back of her throat-.. My god, so much.. -she whined softly and she did.. her heart ached in those moments.. for him.. her head settled as he began to move down her.. her lids half closed.. a soft sigh.. a murmur in response to his kisses.. down the side of her neck.. her shoulder.. across her upper chest.. if he could hear her heart it was stuttering.. skittering away in her chest.. she reached for him.. her fingers tangled within his hair..the tongue in her navel though.. that made her wriggle.. that made her smile and even laugh a little.. her knees went to draw in when she felt that hot breath blown between her thighs.. only to be caught by his frame.. his body that had nestled in that space.. she took a bit of a gasped breath.. oh her head was swimming still.. he'd put her on that edge.. that place where you become eager for touch.. but also you know how sensitive the teasing has made you.. she murmured as her free hand came down to rest there upon the flat of her stomach.. the ring he had put there on display.. catching his gaze she gave him a little nod.. her lids felt so heavy.. but she was far from tired.. -.. Please.. -she almost whimpered-