Post by Deleted on Sept 30, 2014 19:36:30 GMT 9.5
ϕ₦ḁṷṭḯḷṓṷṩϕ
ᶲI Loved Her Not For The Way She Danced With My Angelsᶲ
°But For The Way The Sound Of Her Name Could Silence My Demons°
°°°
says to .°.a sky full of stars.°: *As hellish as it sounded, he hoped it was more self-induced honestly, better it that than having her run through the ring as her body adjusted to being pregnant. So far she had taken to it like a fish to water, aside from the whole not eating thing, she had done beautifully. Even that was sorted out as she now ate quite regularly and she was starting to put on some much needed baby weight. He told her though, that she honestly should have been in bed, and for quite some time too… She had been through a lot in the last 24 hours, and she needed her rest, her sleep…*”So long as it’s not too serious, just a niggle versus anything else, right? If it gets worse… We’ll have to see what’s making it happen… Though I wouldn’t worry about it too much for right now though, it’s a normal part of pregnancy right now love, so if it’s rearing it’s head we’ll just take it in stride…”*He was surprised to find that Caela was in bed, curled up and crying, that was a bit off… She had seemed ok earlier yesterday, and as far as he knew, nothing bad had happened…. Had it?... He couldn’t remember shit all unfortunately…*”Is Caela all right? She seemed like a bit of an ice queen yesterday… Hearing you found her crying well… it’s a bit different… Hope it wasn’t anything any of us did…”*He would say softly, rubbing his hands over his face, wishing he could drag back the hours he had lost in a black void of who knows what the hell. She teased him about how he needed his rest too, and honestly, he didn’t know what he needed. He probably looked like the back end of an ugly ass dog right now, but aside from a headache that was fading due to the willow bard and coffee, physically he felt alright… Sort off… Well, he didn’t feel TOO bad anyways…*”Meh… I’ve felt worse… hung over is not a state of being I ever want to be again any time soon….”*And wasn’t that ever the truth! He felt god awful really, yet he also knew he had felt worse, but the idea of curling up in bed with her was so very tempting…. She had come over to him, rather than have him to do her, and settled herself nice and comfortable in his lap. He was worried with that how he had left things, that she would keep him walled out, and she wouldn’t come near him… It was a relief, and more than a bit heartwarming to see her come over to him and just plop in his lap, knowing she belonged there. She turned his head a bit then, bringing to mind that he had apparently tried to shave for some god awful reason last night, and had done one hell of a hack job at it to boot. He could only groan at that, he really did adore his beard, he kept it trim and close and well groomed… And for some reason unknown to him, he had decided to just shave it off, and DRUNK no less. He sighed and leaned into those caresses there, wrapping his arms about her middle as he held her close, grinning as she said she would even it out for him after they got some rest.*”You would be the only person to have done it on accident… Hell and damnation this is why I don’t drink Deathshead, the stuff kills me every time, I always black out…”*He just hoped he didn’t fuck a knot hole or a wood elf, he had done that the last time and he was NOT keen on pulling splinters out, not by a bloody long shot. She had told him the events of last night a bit… Well, what she had heard from Dio there, and he just sat and listened… After all, what Dio said might be important, but he couldn’t say how or when… Though it would seem Dio was a loose lipped flipping canary… He literally, physically cringed when she said she saw the picture of him from back then, facepalming before running his hand down his face.*”Oh for fucks sake… I was thirteen… it’s just… it was something I got from my dad… Thankfully I don’t have it anymore… As for the picture of our mom… There’s only ever been the one… As far as I know it’s the only one in existence… She was pregnant with Dio when she let her husband paint her portrait then… Though in truth Dio’s hair was worse, was down to his ass like a damned womans…”*He would grumble, looking to the side as he personally was more than happy to take that portrait and have it either repainted, or destroyed. Damn his father and that bloody genetic fault of causing ginger children. He was just glad it was a temporary thing, and that after a few years he had gone blond once more, and never turned red again. He watched her get a bit of hesitation there, a bit of tension as she rubbed her forehead, which naturally made him pay closer attention. What he heard… he didn’t like… it made his brows draw in quite fiercely over his nose as he paid very close attention… When she began to describe the woman though… He knew… Only one woman looked like that… Who would fuck with someone’s head… He whispered her name the same time she said it, knowing Vanima was there once more, fucking around…. He still said nothing though, he just nodded when she paused, letting her go on and to get it all out… Though when he heard that Diovan had told her about Vanima…. Oh… Oh that hurt… He shook his head for a moment, one hand about her waist, the other came up to rub over his face.*”Vanima is… She…. She wasn’t horrible… She stayed with me when Dio would leave and I wasn’t left so alone in a world where I didn’t understand the language… She taught me English a bit… words I didn’t know… She used to sing for me, bring me little food snacks and thing she made… She went through hell when she lost our daughter… If she just...”*He shook his head, feeling an old pain surging up, one that needed to be left in the dark where it need never be felt again.*”You don’t need to be apologizing, but he does, he has a lot to answer for…. He had no right telling you about what happened… No right to burden you with my past… I leave things buried in the dark for a reason…”*He wouldn’t say anything more than that… Diovan was a bit of a fucking prick to drag Sybelle into his past, especially when he was hiding twenty years of their shared history together, JUST so she could be happy and guilt free. His brother doing that just bestially flipped him a big fat fuck you and your efforts, and that, no… That shit didn’t fly with him at all. He told her he was sorry for clamming up on her earlier, about how he had just turned and ran, rather than tried to hash his feelings out with her… *
(00:12:16 )
ϕ₦ḁṷṭḯḷṓṷṩϕ
ᶲI Loved Her Not For The Way She Danced With My Angelsᶲ
°But For The Way The Sound Of Her Name Could Silence My Demons°
°°°
: *He told her he wouldn’t do it anymore, that he would tell her when something bothered him, even if he knew it might hurt her he wouldn’t lock her out anymore. Shortly after that he admitted he was kind of pretty sure he had slept with Garafin, there were too many signs of it that he had, even though he couldn’t remember a damn thing about it. He was just red there, and getting redder when she said that he should ask him about it, might put two and two together.*”I don’t know Sybelle… I mean… what if I did?... And if I did… what if Garafin doesn’t go that way and it just happened because we were drunk? What if it makes him uncomfortable? Dio was right, I really do get along well with Garafin, he’s top dollar that guy… Caela is lucky to have him. More than she knows…”*She had shifted his hands then, down to rest over her belly, telling him that there was no way there was nothing worth while inside himself… That there had to be, and that his heart was there with their children , to which he corrected her right off the bat. The children were important yes, without a doubt, but his heart was only partially with them. It would forever and always rest with their mother, he loved Sybelle with everything he had, the children were just the proof of his love for her. She told him that she would look after his heart, if he looked after hers, and with that he would reach down to kiss the finger that held his ring there.*”I would never have put this here Sybelle, if I didn’t already plan with everything in my heart, to take care of that precious treasure… I promise I will take care of yours for all of your life Sybelle…”*He would shift her a bit so he could hold her in his arms, and stood up lifting her easily in his arms, despite the fact he was still pretty tossed. He would nod his head to the cook who returned it, and carrying her out the door, not answering her question as to where he was taking her. He would push the door open into an empty room, crossing over to settle her down into the bed there, making sure she was comfortable before he would slide in beside her. He was working through it all… Telling her everything that he felt she needed to know, about the reason why he reacted the way he did to Dio there, why he had closed up and ran… That he didn’t so much mind if she took a lover, just only if that lover was his brother, that made him want to just kill him. He told her that he had heard about Caela and Garafin, how they hadn’t touched each other in twenty years, and how he never wanted to have that happen between them… He also admitted that he had offered to help them, to help Grafin make love to his wife again, and if Caela wanted another baby… That he would help them there as well… He was seven shades of red admitting that, but it was all coming out, and he wanted her to know… He didn’t want secrets like that between them, just keeping shit in the shadows, pretending that the little circle of light between them was all there was… No… He wanted to spread that light out, to really and truly be honest with her, even if it left him feeling more than a little raw. He told her that she was better than her sister, something he felt was quite important for her to know, because from what Garafin had said Caela had always been seen as little miss perfect and Sybelle left in the shadows… He watched her blush there before she paused, saying she had more to tell him, holding him where he was when he would much rather smother her with kisses… He paused, listening, though he had to admit when all was said and done, all was not done and said… He sat up then, wishing he had some clothes on, this situation left him feeling more naked than he already was. It was bad enough to hear that Diovan had a crush on Sybelle, which meant that the woman he had always seen his brother lusting after, was his Fiance…. But it was worse to hear that Diovan had even gone in to kiss her… that he HAD kissed her… and that Sybelle left afterwards... He was deathly silent, and he was working through everything inside, and it wasn’t exactly pretty in there. What he wanted to do was get out of bed, find his brother, and rearrange his face… What he did do, was different.*”Dio has only ever loved one woman… since he was a kid, he said…. There was just this one girl he wanted, and she was the only girl he had ever really loved, but he never went after her… That was you then… And knowing… Knowing that I asked you to marry me, that we’re engaged… He still had the angst to kiss you… Knowing all that… KNOWING what happened with Vanima, for fucks sake, with YOU knowing what happened with Vanima…”*He was upset, but he wasn’t yelling, wans’t raising his voice… But he was hurting…*”I can’t do it Sybelle… I won’t… It’s one thing to do something when you don’t know the facts…. But he knows I love you, that I asked you to marry me…. And he still went and did that… For you… ONLY because of you Sybelle, am I not going to go over to his house and rearrange his face for him… But don’t ask me to keep trying to patch things up with him after that…”*He would move then, to get out of that bed, and dropped the sheet in exchange for the robe found in the room and sliding it onto his bare frame.*”You’re going to stay there in that bed and sleep Sybelle… I am going to go and talk to Caela for a moment… I will be back and we’ll have a nap ok?... But please understand that I need a moment to get my mind off of things and let my temper cool a bit… I am not shutting you out or hiding anything… I just need to work through this anger a bit...”*If she didn’t ask him to stay, he would leave the room for a moment and head over to where Caela’s room might be, quietly checking each room as he went. When he did find Caela’s room, he would knock softly, wait for her to allow him to enter before he would. When he did though, he closed the door behind her quietly, and would look at her there…*”Caela… Sybelle told me you were crying for a while… Want to tell me why?”
(05:46:22 )
.°.a sky full of stars.°.
…Sybelle Anikin...
…He came into my life like lightning in the darkness…
.jagged and white hot.
says to ϕ₦ḁM: ..she shook her head a little when he said as long as it wasn’t too serious.. her feeling that little bit peachy..- .. I am sure I’ll be fine.. I don’t get sick often.. just threw me a little is all.. I’m probably just tired.... she was tired.. she could feel it deep down inside.. along with everything else that she was feeling.. the stresses of the day.. portal shifting tugged at her a little.. the sudden burst of energy she got when she was on the other side.. how she practically ran the whole way to that Inn there to find her sister.. how she had wandered endlessly.. she’d barely sat down for more than a few moments.. the dreams that continued to haunt her a little.. and then what happened at Diovans house.. all of it.. from Vanimas sudden injection into her life.. to the kiss she did not see coming.. that was possibly all taking their tole.. she would rest she knew she wouldn’t have a lot of choice sooner or later..he asked her about Caela.. and if she was alright.. - .. I on’t know.. she wasn’t in a very talkative mood.. she was sobbing there almost silently in her room when I weasled my way in.. so I just held her.. till she finally fell asleep.. I.... she exhaled- .. she’s not the same.. she really isn’t.. she never used to be quite this bad.. sure she was always a little more stern than I was.. little bit of a killjoy on occasion.. but to this degree..heavens no.. Im quite worried.. her hair was wet.. she must have taken a bath at some point.. I really don’t know.. Ill have a talk with her.. I will.. perhaps spend the day with her.. .. he had gone to move and she stopped him then.. settling down upon his lap.. noticing the shaving mistake.. the small cuts and missed places.. she offered to help him with it after she had rested..- .. You need to stay away from this deathshead wine then.. .. she nodded- .. I cant say I have had such a drink..least not that I can remember!.. but.. no.. you need to stay away if its causing you to have such horrible blackouts in your memories.. .. she had told him about going into Diovans house and noticing the portraits.. namely of him with his red hair and he got all agitated about it.. it made the corners of her lips twitch and she couldn’t help but laugh- .. Oh pshh.. there was nothing wrong with it!.. I thought it was cute! And you never know.. these children may well have the same.. . she shot him a wink there before she just smiled.. finding his irritation of her seeing the picture quite amusing indeed.. she found the gentle ribbing between brothers interesting and a wee bit cute really.. it didn’t seem to matter what age they got to.. siblings always did it.. took little jabs at one another when able.. she told him then on how she was visited by Vanima.. she watched his face changing.. the emotions running across it.. before he would explain how Vanima wasn’t so horrible really..how she had stayed with him when Diovan left.. to make sure he wasn’t alone.. teaching him English andf feeding him snacks when necessary.. that she used to sing to him.. and how she went through hell when they both lost their daughter.. she shook her head a little when he saidDiovan had a lot to answer for.. that he had no right telling her about what had happened.. that he had no right to burden her with his past like that.. his preference being to leave it buried in the dark for a reason- .. don’t be so hard on him really.. he was just trying to explain who she was.. I was frightfully confused.. I didn’t know who she was.. or if what she was saying was indeed true.. I still don’t know what she would want with me.. I.. .. she shook her head a little- .. I really don’t know much about it at all.. as for burying your past.. you can never really bury it ..not really.. you can try and hide it away.. turn your back on it.. put it down in a tiny little box and hope that’s where it will stay.. but it will always be there.. being dragged by a tiny string attached to your boot.. .. she was tired.. and because of that she was prone to nonsensical rambling- ..or something.. .. her brows furrowed she lightly rubbed the side of her head there as she looked to him.. - .. I want to learn all of you.. I want to know.. all there is to Nautilous.. all the silly things and the happy things.. the sad things and the things that make you so fired up and angry that you get these lines right there on your forehead.. .. she would tap there against it just lightly- . please don’t be to hard on him.. he was trying to explain to me more about you.. when I mentioned you went quiet today he told me to be gentle with you.. that you have such a big heart.. .. she drew her lower lip inward.. lightly chewing upon it with her teeth- .. he does love you.. .. she nodded a little.. he had apologised then for clamming up on her.. and spoke a little more on Garafin before his cheeks got so red they’d have easily rivalled the tomatoes the cook was currently slicing up for breakfast..hearing him questioning the acts itself.. hearing the concern the worry in his voice.. on what might have happened-.. so what if you did?.. .. she shrugged her shoulders a little..reaching to cradle those heated cheeks of his- .. he does go that way.... she nodded a little with a smile- .. he won’t be uncomfortable.. I assure you.. wouldn’t have been the first time I have caught him with a guy in his bed.... she laughed shaking her head a little-
(05:46:30 )
.°.a sky full of stars.°.
…Sybelle Anikin...
…He came into my life like lightning in the darkness…
.jagged and white hot.
says to ϕ₦ḁM: .. Caela is lucky to have him yes.. I agree.. very very lucky.. he is an extraordinarily wonderful man.. .. she traced a finger down along the soft blushing cheek of his.. along the curve of his jawline- .. I’m not surprised you two get along as well as you do.. you are both quite a like really.. very similar in some ways.. .. he had picked her up then.. cradsling her close as he took her to a spare room off to the side.. laying her down upon the bed there.. he told her about the no secrets deal.. how he wanted to be completely open with her.. utterly so.. and it was then she decided she had to unburden herself.. she couldn’t keep things from him.. she told him about Diovan admitting that crush.. and then of the kiss that occurred right before she left.. she watched him closely after she had finished talking.. silence seemed to settle in that room there.. it was that uncomfortable sound.. not even a tap dripping.. or a bird outside.. there was nothing.. though she could hear her heart.. it was thumping away there in her head..she was actually nervous in that moment.. on what his reaction was going to be.. and beginning to regret she had said anything.. his words finally sliced through that nothingness.. telling her that Diovan had only ever loved one woman, since he was a kid.. that there was only ever one girl he wanted but he never went after her.. gathering from her words that that one woman must have been her.. her brows furrowed and she blinked.. he continued on to mention that his brother had the audacity to kiss her knowing that he had asked her to marry him..knowing all of it..and then of Vanima.. and all of it.. she swallowed when he swore.. oh he was upset.. he wasn’t raging at her.. or yelling.. or even raising his voice.. which was worse.. it was worse..she kind of wished he would just rage.. because at least then she would know what was going on in his head.. his calm demeanour was more unnerving than if he would have just flown right off the handle.. she dragged her lower lip inward.. watching him as he slowly moved to slide out of the bed there.. dropping that sheet only to replace it with the robe.. telling her he couldn’t do it anymore.. he couldn’t possibly patch things up her heart was aching a touch in that moment.. she drew herself up into a seated position there.. her back pressed to the headboard.. the quilt wrapped around her.. she offered him a nod of her head when he said he was going to seek out Caela.. and that he would be back to have a sleep with her.. she didn’t say another word.. not a peep.. she just watched him move to step out of the room and the moment that door closed her head just fell to her knees.. her arms wrapped around them firmly and she drew into a tight little ball.. taking deep long breaths.. that shuddered a little on the inhale..she’d done the right thing? Yes?.. she was questioning herself in that moment.. an inner argument was going on in her head.. circling her mind.. exhausting her all the more than she already was.. and making that nausea just pick at her..there was no way she was going to be able to sleep.. she couldn’t do it on her own.. he knew she had trouble sleeping on her own.. she stretched her legs out.. slowly peeling back those covers as she moved to stand.. her hands reaching to clutch at her belly there as her lids half closed.. she just felt terrible.. she tied that material belt around her middle and slowly moved to pad silently out of that room.. she had no idea where Rose was.. that would have been her first choice and she was not about to go poking her head into peoples rooms.. goodness knows what she might find.. so she slowly made her way down the dimly lit hall.. one door was open a touch however.. she caught a glimpse of the figure upon the bed.. his hair pretty much all over the place.. she didn’t need a second look to figure out who that was.. she made her way inside.. closing the door as quietly as she could.. if he had drank as much as Nautilous did.. then his head was going to be pounding when he woke.. so leave the beast asleep.. she slowly slid in beside him there.. her head gracing that pillow..the bed was warm and comfortable.. it had already been slept in.. and she could smell Nautilous there upon that pillow.. it made it easier.. it settled her raw nerves.. allowing her lids to tumble closed.. before she felt his arm slide around her as he rested in close behind her.. and she just drifted off to sleep finally-
(05:58:59 )
°-The White Lilly-°
…Caela Aranossë...
..you'll never see the end of the road - While you're traveling with me..
says to ϕ₦ḁM: ..she had all but collapsed into that bed there when she heard movement in the place.. she hightailed it out of that bathing area as quickly as she could.. last thing she wanted was to get caught..especially by those two.. she didn’t expect Sybelle to come in though.. certainly not expected.. but more helpful than perhaps her little sister would have ever known.. she didn’t ask her questions.. she didn’t push her or demand answers.. she just held her.. and that’s all she needed in that moment.. as she was finally able to just drift off ..for in the dream world all her troubles just seemed to melt away.. just seemed to disappear.. floating into the land of nothingness…where things hadn’t changed.. where she hadn’t made nay stupid decisions or packs with the ‘devil’ himself.. her hair remained damp from the session in the bathing room.. her skin was cut up in places and she was growing quite a few bruises..namely around her throat and upon the delicate dips of her shoulders.. her makeup had run terribly.. her lower lip was split.. but she looked comfortable resting there.. all curled up.. her features weren’t quite so strained.. quite so focused on being proper.. she was fully relaxed in that moment and she looked a lot younger.. a lot softer.. it could be seen in those moments just how those two were sisters.. where Caela kept things rigid.. organised and proper.. Sybelle was more aloof and spontaneous.. so it kept the wrinkles from her face to a minimum.. she flinched though when she heard a male voice just outside her door.. the knocking there causing her head to ache and she curled up a little bit tighter in the process.. she murmured softly- .. no.. no.. please just.... she forced her head down into the pillows there.. shaking it as he would have entered the room- .. I’m really not suitable for guests or visitors.. .. she swallowed.. her voice was scratchy and a little bit broken.. she’d swallowed quite a bit of that bath water when Ace held her head under.. and it did quite a number on her throat- ..I think you just need to go.... she’d utter though her voice remained quite muffled what with her getting a mouthful of fabric and cushion. - .. look I wont tell Sybelle what happened….. she slowly lifted her head there.. only to drag that sheeting up to rest just atop her nose there as she looked across to him..she looked exhausted.. and that mascara she wore had made a pretty set of panda eyes- ... it’s not my place.. I don’t know what type of relationship you and my sister have.. and really that’s none of my business.. and I don’t care.. what you and my husband do... she shook her head a little- ... if you make him happy then so be it…he appeared happy.. you both did.. from what I saw.. . she nodded.. drawing up into a seated position - ... please just leave me be.. I’m not deserving of attentions this morning.. not am I suitably dressed for company
(07:07:55 )
ϕ₦ḁṷṭḯḷṓṷṩϕ
ᶲI Loved Her Not For The Way She Danced With My Angelsᶲ
°But For The Way The Sound Of Her Name Could Silence My Demons°
°°°
says to .°.a sky full of stars.°: *He nodded his head when she said she didn’t get sick often, that she was sure it was probably because she was just tired, and he wasn’t going to push on that end anymore. If he saw her showing any more symptoms of her being sick, he would go and find Jacob, have him give her a quick look over to make sure everything was ok. After all he knew she was wiped out, he knew she didn’t have much in her to start with, that since the split she might be more stable but she was weaker too… He didn’t want her to push herself, and because of that he knew he had asked Garafin to look out for her, and he trusted him to do that for him while he was gone. She told him Caela was crying when she came here, and he had asked what was wrong, for some reason her words had triggered not exactly a memory but… a sense that something about that was important. His face turned rather serious, a bit thoughtful for a moment before he smoothed it out, shaking his head.*”I will talk to her first baby… Something about that is tugging on my mind… I can’t remember why, but there is something there, and I would rather see if I can remember what triggered it if you don’t mind…”*He told her that his mind was just shot, the headache was almost gone yes, but his mind was a big fat drug and alcohol soaked blackout for most of the night. He knew Deathshead screwed with him, and normally he avoided the stuff really, but Jacob had ordered it and hell if he was going to puss out on that crap. No, he took it like a man… and after that was when things began to go in and out… until nothing. He actually grinned there, a soft chuckle when she said he needed to stay away from it, even though she had never had it.*”It’s the Drow’s alcohol of choice… Laced with snake venom. It lays out most people, and honest I do avoid it love, it was Jacob who ordered it. Everything after that just kind of… Well it starts to get fuzzy… and then a little after that just goes black… I literally don’t remember most of last night… I’ll avoid it like I usually do, but if someone orders it, I’m sorry love I won’t chicken out on it… Got my pride still you know, even if you have my heart, I got to have something left over for me.”*He would smile for her thre, that smile slipped though when she talked about the pictures, her night at his brother’s house. When she said the children night come out with the red hair like he had once had, he flinched, his face turned into a grimace there as he shook his head.*”Oh hell I hope not… I know I will love them if they do, don’t get me wrong, but I hope they don’t… Being called a fire crotch is embarrassing… People with red hair, they get accused of all sorts of crap, and I don’t want out babies to get flack from anyone.”*It might just be his personal opinion on it though, his own history coming through a bit there, because as a kid he had been accused of everything bad that happened due to that red hair. Yes, it made getting clients a lot easier, that was true but… Well… To him, it wasn’t worth it if every copper he earned was taken from him to cover ‘theft’ that he had supposedly committed, when in truth he hadn’t lifted a damn thing. She had told him about how she met Vanima, the reasons why Diovan had told her about it, and he felt at least a little obligated to stand up for her. Vanima had ripped his emotions from his chest and stepped on them, ripped them into shreds and round them into dirt, as if they were worthless… She had hurt him very, very deeply… But she had also given him his first child, been the first person he chose to sleep with versus being paid or forced to do it, and she had been kind to him at times… He shook his head gently, his fingers curling softly into her hide, holding her possessively for a moment as if the world was going to try to take her and he was staking his claim in that little movement.*”Vanima is… Vanima is no idiot… She does nothing without a purpose, though she tends to keep those waters so muddied that no one knows what they are, no one but her… If Vanima is deciding to play with you… Then you are nothing more than a pawn, no more than I was, just a piece for her to use to get to Dio… You have people you like, people you love, and then sometimes that person you become obsessed about… I’ve been there before, I know how consuming it can be, and I don’t think Vanima has let Diovan go…. He should just sleep with her and get it out of her system already… If he had… A lot of stuff could have been avoided… As for my past…. Sybelle… I don’t want to forget it… It has defined me, made me who I am, given me the strength to handle what this life will throw at me… But that doesn’t mean anyone else needs to know it. Let it drag behind me in a little box that’s fine, so long as I am the only person who looks into it…”*He would do silent when she said that all of him… All of him was what she wanted to know, the good and the bad, the ugly and the painful, the bright and happy… He wasn’t sure if that was true for her though… Would she want to know how he got his medical knowledge? Would she really be interested to know that whenever he did rage, it was so bad that people died by the droves? That his anger was so bad even her dark side tended to walk a bit carefully around him? Would she really want to know just how much she meant to him, and just how much of himself he was putting on the line for her, how much he was gambling with? Would she understand the reasons behind his hiding her past from her? Why so much of her mental confusion was because of him, and what he was hiding from her, to keep her from becoming less bright under the shadow of her history? He couldn’t be sure on that one, and though a wise man would say that he would never know until he tried, no one ever said that wise man was a happy one… Just intelligent, and he chose to be happy with her, rather than take the path of enlighten. He heard her say that Dio loved him, that he asked her to go gently on him, that he had a big heart… He just… He couldn’ hang with that right now, not with so much of his memory so shot, not when he wasn’t too sure he was all too freaking happy with the loose lipped bastard right now. He had gone red when he admitted what he thought had happened with Garafin, and how he wasn’t so sure he would want to ask him, after all it wasn’t exactly something he was sure he wanted to bring up. What if he had hurt him? What if he had been too rough? What if Garafin didn’t swing that way?*
(07:08:10 )
ϕ₦ḁṷṭḯḷṓṷṩϕ
ᶲI Loved Her Not For The Way She Danced With My Angelsᶲ
°But For The Way The Sound Of Her Name Could Silence My Demons°
°°°
: *After all, he had flirted once or twice with Garafin, and he hadn’t responded once to the lined he tossed… After a while he had stopped flirting, figured that Garafin didn’t swing that way, and that was fine. Yet waking up holding him like he had been, legs interlinked, his arms wrapped about him? Yeah… He only got that nice and close when he fucked someone… Fucked someone and really enjoyed himself… He sagged a bit in relief when she told him Garafin did swing both sides of the fence there, grateful for that at least, because it meant there had been no coercion done.*”Thank God…. I can be….pretty bad when I want someone… I didn’t want to think that I had taken advantage of Garafin while he was drunk, while we were both drunk really… I just can’t do that to someone… I’m just… I’m glad he swings both sides… It means I didn’t hurt him either…”*She agreed with him that Caela was lucky to have him, that Garafin was something of a catch, and how he genuinely liked him. Pretty rare for him honestly, he wasn’t exactly the easiest guy to get along with, and for years any guy he met had hated him. Sad, but amusing at the same time really, so Jacob and Garafin were something of an awesome surprise. He would turn his head to kiss the palm of her hand there, though he wasn’t too sure that he and Garafin were exactly similar, Garafin was a whole lot more open and kind than he was… It would take some thinking on maybe… He would pick her up then, hearing her squeak before he would take her out of the kitchen, into that spare bedroom. He had settled her down into the bed there, soft words exchanged before things just kind of crumbled, but he didn’t close up or lock her out… He just…controlled his reactions… He told her that Dio had only ever loved one woman, and that if he confessed to having a crush on her, it would mean she was the one woman… It was bad enough to know his brother loved Sybelle, but it had been a kick to the gut, a bullet to the temple when she said he had kissed her. That was just… No… That wasn’t right… He couldn’t do it at that point… It was one thing to handle the first bit of information there, but to know his brother had kissed her, kissed her with the full and solid knowledge that she was his fiancé… What the fuck… Really? What he wanted to do was go and talk to his Brother… His hands had a lot to say… An awful lot… Right to that pretty fucking face… Instead he wanted to find out about Caela, to give his mind and body a chance to work through the rage, and he couldn’t around her until it was done… He told her that he wasn’t mad or upset with her, that he wasn’t locking her out or closing up… He just needed a chance to process. He told her he wanted to come back and sleep with her, and not to move from that bed, not that he expected her to listen. He had put on the robe then, moving out of the room and on his way to Caela’s, to put that energy to a less violent outlet…*
(08:18:49 )
ϕ₦ḁṷṭḯḷṓṷṩϕ
ᶲI Loved Her Not For The Way She Danced With My Angelsᶲ
°But For The Way The Sound Of Her Name Could Silence My Demons°
°°°
says to °-The White Lilly-°…Cael: *He had gone to Caela’s room then, and gently knocked on the door, his voice was soft and gentle on the other side of the door. He heard her say no, but fuck if he was doing to listen to her, and came in anyways. She was telling him he needed to go, her voice broken and muffled under the blankets, and he turned to look at her his a brow raised.*”I am not Garafin Caela, I won’t listen to what you tell me, just because you’re telling me to do it… Sybelle is worried about you, and when she worries, I worry. I take her happiness very, very seriously, and if she is worried about you then she isn’t happy… That means I take it as my personal responsibility to solve whatever is upsetting her. That means asking you why you were crying all night…”*When she said she wouldn’t tell Sybelle about what happened, those brows of his rose, and he shook his head. He walked over to her dresser there, to pick up a bit of towel there on the side, dipping it into the urn he filled with water before he would ring it out. His back was to her through this, and he didn’t need to see her to know, pieces were falling into place fast enough for him to put them together. He would then move over to the curtain and open it just a bit there, just enough for a bit of that light to come in, to let him really get a look at her. He leaned against her dresser as he let her talk, let her get it all out before he spoke.*”You know… I realize that more often than not guys who are a bit on the good looking side, tend to be pretty stupid… I’ve met my fair share of them… but you know like all things in nature, there is a flip side too… Women who are beautiful like you, for instance, tend to be pretty stupid as well… However, I am sure you can gather I am no idiot… though I have yet to see you prove anything other than air headedness from you. So, shall we stop the games then Caela, and get down to why I am here? Or do I have to guess?”*He would walk over to the bed the, and sit down right beside her, not asking permission or waiting for it to be given. He would reach out, his movements were slow though, gentle as he would take the blanket she had gripped in her hands.*”I wasn’t sure if I had slept with Garafin or not last night… Most of it is a blacked out blur to me to be honest, I don’t really remember much of anything, though from what you say I can see two things… One is that I did in fact sleep with your husband, and two, that at least I was gentle enough with him for him to enjoy himself… At least someone took the time to see after him.”*He would look pointedly at her there, before he would lift the cloth in his hands, and with touches as soft as a lovers, begin to wipe away at her makeup that was utterly shot to hell and back. He started with her eyes there, gathering up the khol that had run to give her those big black panda like eyes, and anything else that was there. He noted the split lip, the little signs of bruising he saw there on her shoulders, and he shook his head softly.*”I know about you and Ace Caela… I know that Sinaht isn’t Garafins… and I am pretty sure this right here… Is no work of a stranger…”*He would turn the cloth over in his hands once he had her eyes cleared of the make up, and began to gently work on the rest of her face, taking care over any areas that might be bruised.*”It’s stupid to hide Caela… Locking Garafin out of your life for twenty years like that, making him hurt, not even letting him know that it’s not his fault… It isn’t me that makes him happy, and it isn’t me he wants, it’s his wife… For most of what I remember, we talked about you, we talked about you and how much he misses you…”*He would pause for a moment there, his fingers gently cradling her chin for a moment, tilting her now bare face this way and that until he saw the markings there… Faint and light, just as Garafin said they would be, and they didn’t need covering at all.*”You know he didn’t stray once? Last night was the first night he did, and I am pretty sure I seduced him, it’s something I am quite good at… Especially drunk… What I find a bit funny, is you saying you don’t care… The fact you bring it up, means you do, you realize this yes?...I wouldn’t worry about it though honestly… I don’t think there will be a repeat of last night… I am not here to seduce your husband, I am here to try and show you it’s fruitless to lock him out, not when neither of you is complete without the other…”*He would move to stand then, taking the now dirty, make up covered towel and throwing it in the dirty clothes hamper. He would turn to look at her, his arms crossed over his chest, before his voice changed… Anger always fueled his passions, his lust, made that part of him that was Dominant flare to life like a torch to a lake of gasoline. His voice was gentle, compassionate there, but there was that lust riding on the undercurrent… He would never be able to fully burn down his nature, try as he might, there would always be that urge… But he could at least control it.*”Out of the bed Caela… I want to see how bad the damage he did is… I also want to see what I will be working with…”*He would wait until she did, and if she tried to bring a blanket or sheet with her, he would step in and gently take it from her fingers. He saw the bruises alright… and not just bruises from rough sex… no these were from rape…*”Did he ejaculate in you? Pardon the insensitivity for asking but if he did… we still have a little window to work in… to keep you from getting pregnant with his child… Unless you want a child? If that is the case… you still have an option... Of a better sire, anyways….” *He would reach out, gently brushing his fingers through her hair there, feeling that it was indeed still damp… Not exactly the best thing for her in this weather that was changing… He would look around for a moment, to grab up a towel from that same stand, and move in to gently dry her hair if he let her.*”I know Garafin is sterile Caela… and I know you want children… Garafin told me that if you wanted it, I would help you with that, my children have no genetic flaws and tend to come out quite beautiful…”*He would pause again there, making sure most of her hair was dry now, before he would look into her eyes once more.*
(08:18:59 )
ϕ₦ḁṷṭḯḷṓṷṩϕ
ᶲI Loved Her Not For The Way She Danced With My Angelsᶲ
°But For The Way The Sound Of Her Name Could Silence My Demons°
°°°
says to °-The White Lilly-°…Cael: ”I’m sure your wondering why I am saying all of this, why I have come to your room, ignoring your requests to leave… It is because I care. I care because Sybelle is worried… I care because Garafin is someone I genuinely like, and I think it’s complete and utter bullshit to have closed him out of your life, locking him up in a box for twenty years… I want to, if I can, undo the damage from twenty years ago, from last night… I can’t change the events no, but I can change how you react to them, I can give you options you didn’t have before…”*He would shrug his shoulders gently there, keeping his arms crossed over his chest, keeping his hands to himself.*”I already told Sybelle about the talk Garafin and I had last night… That if you wanted it, I would give you a child, because at least with me you have a choice… Garafin knows I wouldn’t try to claim the infant, nor would I take a part in it’s life, I would only be there for stud service… Sybelle knows you want a baby Caela, and she didn’t seem to have any issue with me being the father, I think she knows as well as I do that I’m not the kind of man to make it awkward…”*He would step in then, sliding out of his own robe there, showing off every single muscled inch of his frame to her. He was flawless and he knew it, and even flaccid he was nothing to shake a stick at, and he wanted her to see exactly what she might be getting into should she desire it.*”I will tell Garafin that I must have gotten lost going to the kitchen for something to drink last night… That I found you in your room and thought you were Sybelle, and that while I was drunk I got a bit too rough… I’m a bit on the large side, so it would be too easy for me to bruise and tear you, even if I went gently… Ace was never here… All that happened to you was me… Understand? As for the rest… We can make you some moon tea if you want… It will kill his seed, keep it from taking root, from getting you pregnant… It’s what they gave the girls I slept with, it induces your menses, making sure you don’t conceive… It is all up to you though Caela…”
(17:39:29 )
°-The White Lilly-°
…Caela Aranossë...
..you'll never see the end of the road - While you're traveling with me..
says to ϕ₦ḁM: ..she heard his voice..and it was then in that moment that she realised it wasn’t Garafin..she was expecting him to come in at some point.. he usually did to wish her well in the morning.. but she never in a million years would have expected Nautilous to be there.. especially with the way she had given him the third degree the night before.. she listened when he spoke on how Sybelle was worried and how her happiness mattered enough to him that he had to find out the cause ..it warmed her heart a little to know her baby sister had found someone that cared that much .. cared that much to seek out the cause of her concern and general unhappiness.. she did though know that Garafin was the same.. and in that moment.. and for the past twenty years..she didn’t deserve him.. she didn’t deserve the kindness he was offering her.. so she shut him out.. she had drawn up a little higher on that bed there.. dragging the thin sheeting with her.. her gaze watched him as he wandered about the room there.. the sun was still not quite so high in the sky so the room was only dimly lit.. but she could see his silhouette moving about.. sharply pointed ears twitched to the sounds of the water.. to him wringing out towelling before he opened the blinds just a touch.. she squnted and drew away from the light like an animal would.. before that duo coloured gaze adjusted to the sudden change in lighting.. she heard him speak on stupidity.. how pretty men were generally stupid and that the same went for the women.. beautiful like she was he said.. could make silly decisions too.. her brows furrowed a touch when he said it was time to stop those games.. and get down to the real reason he was there.. or did he have to guess.. she drew even closer to that bedhead when he sat down upon the edge of it.. closer to her.. and he took a hold on that sheet.. she held it a moment longer then.. not releasing it so quickly.. before she reigned herself to the fact he wasn’t just going to get up and leave her if she continued to ignore him.. he had made his point known.. well known that he wasn’t going anywhere till he figured out what was wrong.. the reasons for her being upset.. she released the sheet and exhaled.. her hands rose as she wiped them across her makeup stained cheeks..and back to draw her hair out of her face..she nodded when he said he couldn’t remember what had happened between himself and Garafin.. but that from her words he was gathering what had indeed occurred- .. I saw it.... her voice crackled a little there..as she rubbed just under her eyes.. the makeup was causing them to sting a little..she never went to bed with it on ever.. so this was new to her.. she felt horrible inside and out- ..I uh.... she swallowed.. her throat was so scratchy- ..was..forced to watch it.. .. she flinched when he reached for her.. when he went to dab at her cheeks as if he was going to strike her.. - .. please.. just don’t.. .. she’d whisper.. though she wouldn’t push him away..feeling the warmth from that soft damp towel was nice on her cooled skin.. it easily wiped away all the dark makeup.. the liners.. the mascara.. all of it.. revealing that soft pale flesh beneath it.. a lot closer to the colouring of her baby sister.. only in places it had light colour changes that were barely even noticeable.. they had done well to fade over the yearsd..and the sunlight helped a great deal in that..but she had continued to keep the remainder of it covered so the sunlight wasn’t able to bleach out the rest.. he spoke on knowing about her and Ace.. and her shoulders just sunk.. on her heart bottomed out in that mere split second.. she felt as though the weight of the world was on her shoulders.. how could he possibly know that?.. and then of Sinaht..her eyes became quite glassy in that moment.. and a tear ot two did manage to trickle down her cheek.. she shook her head when he guessed the markings on her body were not from a stranger- .. I know.. you probably think it’s all.. disgusting.. and so completely wrong.. and that I am the most horrible person.. and you’d be right.. .. she swallowed.. her eyes remained half closed as her gaze locked onto her hands there resting on her lap.. fingers were twitching.. - .. it’s all my own fault.. I put myself in this position.. .. her lower lip trembled in that moment- .. yes.. .. she nodded..drawing in a breath that sounded very shuddered and broken..as if she were that close to just breaking down- ..I heard movement.. in the Inn last night..late.. last night ..Cook came into my craft room.. to tell me someone was here.. and that I needed to go look.. I needed to go sort it out quickly. ..I moved out into the lobby only to see .... she grimaced a little- .. Ace..holding Rose and Pia.. .. her brows furrowed.. her hand rose as she rubbed at the side of her head- .. she was passed out.. in his arms.. and he was putting her to bed.. before he ushered me forward.. into the bathing area.. .. her breath kept catching there- .. he told me he needed a bath.. that he stunk of sex and sweat..he was covered in scratches and marks.. .. she lifted her gaze there to look to him.. - .. it’s my fault.. all of it.. I.. made some stupid mistakes.. I said some stupid things.. all for selfish reasons.. for my own selfish reasons.. and in doing so I ruined everything.. I took away my baby sisters life.. I convinced her he was a good man.. and I had never ever stered her wrong before that.. ever.. only ever been completely honest..so of course she listened.. of course she trusted me.. all to just get her away because she was starting to draw attention from certain people that were higher up..and I saw her.. at the celebration ball once.. and she was having such a good time.. ..and my own jealousy from that.. .. and My god.. I was so So stupid.. .. her brows furrowed-
(17:39:37 )
°-The White Lilly-°
…Caela Aranossë...
..you'll never see the end of the road - While you're traveling with me..
says to ϕ₦ḁM: it’s my fault.. I made a deal.. he did for me..what I asked.. and in return I cant question what he does.. I honestly thought he was gone.. I hadn’t seen him in.. years.. I.... her breath caught there.. she listened when he spoke about how it was stupid for her to hide.. to lock Garafin out.. that in the time they had spent that evening her husband had spoken mostly about her.. and she just ached hearing that.., - .. I don’t deserve him.. I don’t.. he deserves someone that is honest with him and honerable.. .. she frowned a little.. her lips continued to tremble.. more so when he said her husband had not strayed once.. in that twenty years.. she exhaled long and deep.. shaking her head as she wiped at her cheeks once again- .. I.... she hesitated- .. I didn’t know. That no.. I figured he had.. he often goes out and spends time at the Tavern.. I wished he would have.. I honestly did.. so that maybe his heart would be accepted lovingly by another.. someone that deserved his affections.. because I certainly do not.. not after the way I have treated him.... he was right though.. she did bring it up because she cared.. she adored him..she loved her husband.. as much as she did not to begin with.. as much as she thought he was just utterly ridiculous and silly and far to much like her baby sister in the beginning.. she had grown to love that big guy..she watched him as he moved to stand there.. before his voice changed.. taking on that firmer tone yet he didn’t come across as over bearing.. her brow rose when he told her to get out of bed.. that he wanted to see what the damage was to her she hesitated a moment.. looking off to the side..before she slowly stretched out those legs of hers.. and she went to stand.. she was a little wobbly.. her body ached and she visibly winced..the sheet came along with her for a moment before she slowly allowed it to fall back to the bedding there.. her body shape was very similar to that of her sisters.. she was lean and tall.. though there was a bit more roundness to her.. her shoulders were covered in tiny little cuts from nails.. scratches and bruising.. the same went down the front of her.. along her sides there were visible hand prints.. and upon the rounds of her hips.. a long deep angry scratch down the length of her back.. and purpling bruising there between and across her thighs.. she blinked when he asked her so bluntly if Ace had ejaculated in her.. to pardon his insensitivity but that they only had a small window to work with.. her shoulders lifted a little and her hands rose there to cross about her chest.. to hug at her sides there as she nodded- .. yes.. he said he wanted to get me pregnant again.. .. she exhaled.. the shame was clear and apparent on her face and in her slightly hunched up body language.. she watched as he shifted then.. reaching for another towel before he began to dry her hair just slowly.. and she just cried then.. the tears just trickled down her cheeks.. he was being So kind to her.. her breath just kept catchin g there in the back of her throat.. he told her he knew Garafin was sterile.. and that he knew she wanted children.. she visibly trembled..genuinly surprised that her husband would say such.. asking him to help them out ..before he would return to the front of her once more..he was right when he said he was sure she would be wondering why he was saying all of it.. why he had come to her room.. ignoring all her requests to leave.. it all being because he cared.. she rubbed at her upper arms there.. just lightly..he spoke about wanting to help her and Garafin.. to undo the damage that twenty years of being apart has caused.. that he couldn’t change what had occurred last night but that he could give her options..- .. I.. I don’t understand.. .. she whispered softly.. looking up to him there.. he spoke about speaking with Sybelle about it all.. and how she seemed ok with it.. and that also surprised her a little and made her feel even more guilt.. her baby sister was more open than she was.. and she was willing to offer up the man she loved without question knowing how badly she wanted a child.. after all she had done.. she dragged her lower lip inward.. tugging it inward before she thought better of it.. letting the sliced flesh go as it stung.. he removed his robe then.. and her cheeks just flushed and she averted her gaze.. oh she was not prepared for that.. she was certainly not prepared for his frame standing there naked before her.. his body was finely muscular .. it made her grip her arms a little bit tighter.. he explained then on how he could make things different.. on how he could explain to Garafin that he got lost on the way to the kitchen ..that he would have thought she was her sister.. and that he got a little bit rough with her.. hence the bruising..that it would all be that Ace was never there.. and that all that had occurred was him.. - .. you would do that for me?.... she whispered.. lifting her gaze as she looked up to him there..she was genuinely curious and surprised that he was so willing to help her after all that she had done-
(21:16:12 )
ϕ₦ḁṷṭḯḷṓṷṩϕ
ᶲI Loved Her Not For The Way She Danced With My Angelsᶲ
°But For The Way The Sound Of Her Name Could Silence My Demons°
°°°
says to °-The White Lilly-°…Cael: *No, he wasn’t Garafin, not by a long shot… He wasn’t that nice, nor that patient, and he certainly didn’t have the perseverance to stand by idle while his wife kept him permanently locked in another room. He also wasn’t going to let Caela tell him what to do. He would submit to her questions yes, but that was not for her sake, but for Sybelle. Family was important to her, the end all be all, and if he had to let Caela rake him over the coals then he would. He had done it too, and so in his mind, that debt was already paid… Now it was time to set her right back on her ass, take the shovel from her, and start to fill in that big hole she dug for herself. Seeing Caela upset had in turn upset Sybelle, and he wasn’t kosher with that, not one bit. He already knew that he wasn’t exactly the perfect one to talk right now though, not when he was silently seething under it all about Dio, and wondering how in the hell he was going to handle that gigantic can of worms. He would come to that when he had to though, for right now he was more interested in burning off the energy that anger had caused, and he chose to use in a way that was more beneficial to others than detrimental to himself. Honestly he wanted to say it didn’t hurt, that he didn’t care if Dio kissed Sybelle, and maybe if it was just a kiss he could have… Maybe a little… But that Sybelle was the girl his brother had always loved, and add to that the fact that Dio had kissed her, that just tipped the scales… Until he knew what he could do though, he would need to keep himself busy, and he sure as hell couldn’t sleep with this running through his mind. At least if he were able to help Caela, he could make up last night to Garafin, as well as help Sybelle… He had moved around her room with sharp eyes, taking notes of where things were, using what was at his disposal. He had dipped the cloth into the water there, wringing it out so he could wipe that mascara and make up off of her face, to see what was going on beneath the mess. He wasn’t going to let her hide, no more than he was going to let her boss him around. She had mentioned that she said she wouldn’t tell Sybelle about what happened between him and Garafin, and in all honestly he had already told her, and Sybelle didn’t have a problem with it. Rather than make it about him though, he turned it around on her, saying that at least someone tried to look out for her husband. He was going to make sure that each time she tried to turn it around, he shifted it right back, Sydel was a master at that after all and he had learned VERY well from her. He heard her ask him to not take off that make up, and he shook his head, not pausing once as he wiped that crud off of her face.*”What, afraid I’ll see the scars, Caela? Vain little thing… You think I care about a scar? You think any of us do? The only person that bothers, is you. Garafin actually loves your scars, but he loves everything about you, you know… Now stop trying to push me off and let me do what I came to do, honestly this make up is a waste, you’re prettier without the crap. If Sybelle tries to wear this I swear I would drag her ass to the bath with me each time and wash it off, make up is only for silly stupid old women who are trying too damn hard to be young again.”*He listened to her, and he told her flat out he knew about her and Ace, after all Ace himself was more than a bit open about it that night… Naturally he knew then that Sinaht wasn’t Garafin’s, and with Garafin himself admitting to being sterile, well there was the last bit of proof anyone would need now wasn’t it? He saw the tears start to fall, and he would wipe them away with that same cloth, folding it over to a clean part as he gently gathered them up there.*”You must know some right close minded people Caela… Ace is a slick fucker, he’s probably had more women than I have, and that’s no mean feat to pull off… People like Ace… they’re spiders… they work in the shadows and all of their lives are spent in secret… Dealing with Ace is like dealing with the devil, if you aren’t stronger than he is, you had best well hope to all the God’s your smarter or he will drag you down with him so fast your head will never stop spinning…”*He would move his hand then, to rest it over hers in her lap as he saw them twitch, giving them a gentle squeeze. He was just glad she was letting it out, even if it was broken like this, as least someone in this Inn was getting some much needed release. He was a bit surprised when she explained the why of it, how she had ended up being forced to watch him make love to Garafin, and he just gave up on the day… Yesterday had been as crazy as batshit, and today wasn’t looking much better, but he did well to keep that all locked up in the rage pit of his mind and well under lock and key. His voice was calm, soothing, but still firm enough to let her know he was in charge right now.*”Just breath Caela… In and Out… Breath through the pain, breath through the memory, breath through the reality… Rose and Ace have a very… complicated history… a dark one… There is… a lot of pain shared between those two. I’m not going to say I am happy to see him handling Rose again… He haunts her like a shadow, and because of that he wont let her move on, and it doesn’t help her… Rose is very, very soft hearted, when she loves she loves freely… She doesn’t realize that love can be used as a weapon, that it can be turned on you, used to hurt you in a way nothing else can… He is going to ruin any happiness between Jacob and Rose just to spite them both, and to be honest, I worry for them… I worry because unless someone else catches his attention, Ace really will do anything he can to split Rose and Jacob up, and I don’t know about you but those two always reminded me of a fairy tale couple… I would rather see them have their happy ending, you know?”*He was trying to divert her for a minute, to get her brain to jump track for just a bit, to give her emotions a chance to settle. He held her hand for a moment before he would remove it, brushing a lock of her hair over her shoulder, looking at the bruises and such there.*”I have the weirdest love hate relationship with my own brother Caela… He has everything, and I just kind of got left in the dark, out in the cold knowing no one would do for me unless I did it for myself…”
(21:16:23 )
ϕ₦ḁṷṭḯḷṓṷṩϕ
ᶲI Loved Her Not For The Way She Danced With My Angelsᶲ
°But For The Way The Sound Of Her Name Could Silence My Demons°
°°°
says to °-The White Lilly-°…Cael: *He was silent for a moment before he would continue.*”In all honesty… I owe you a thank you for what you did, just like I owe one to Ace, because without you two I never would have met Sydel… Sydel is what she became after the person we know as Sybelle died… I lived with her, loved her, did everything with her for twenty years… When I got the chance to bring out Sybelle I did, because I needed her, I need both sides of her… That good and bad… they match my own. I wouldn’t have my perfect mate without what you did… So yes, you did it for the wrong reasons, but it had a good outcome… It saved a woman who was and still is in a lot of ways, far too sweet and gentle for this world, yet who lives in it precisely because she is what it needs. I love Sybelle… With everything I have in me, I love her, I love her so much it terrifies me… You see?... Sometimes bad choices had good outcomes Caela...”*He was doing his best to bring her to level one with him, to drag her out of what she had been through, what she had felt… He had his questions yes, he wanted to know what she meant when she said she asked Ace to do something for her… That it had resulted in Sybelle getting pregnant and going to the surface… Yes, he had questions… But this wasn’t the time or the place to ask them, and he wasn’t the one that needed to hear the answers either honestly, that was for Caela to reveal to her sister… Not to him. He told her though, that locking Garafin out like she had, that it just wasn’t right. Garafin adored her, worshiped her, and accepted her exactly as she was. If it weren’t for what she had been through, he honestly would have flicked her ear there, just shaking his head at what she said.*”Garafin flirts, he teases, and he smacks an ass here and there… He is a man after all… But he never strayed, and I don’t believe he ever will, I don’t know how you see it but same sex love isn’t cheating to me… As to the whole being loved by another… Now, you can correct me if I am wrong Caela, but from what Sybelle and Jacob have told me is that there is only one true love for an Elf… You don’t ever remarry, and though you might take a lover now and then, you never stop loving your spouse… I’m not perfect, I know there are going to be days when Sybelle will want to just beat me with a frying pan, or pull my hair out because I drive her up the wall. I know too that there are things she may want that I can’t give her in bed, such as what she can get from another woman, just for an example… But it won’t for a single second make me love her any less… We’ll piss each other off through time that’s just going to happen, you can’t really love someone if, at times, you don’t want to burry them in the back yard. You’ve hurt Garafin yes, from what he did share with me, from what I saw he mourns you not being there… He married you because he loves you. Now, you can’t change what you did in the past, trust me I’ve tried… But you know what you can do? You can change the right now… You can change how you react from now on out, you can choose to be his wife again Caela, and you can give him all the love you held back for twenty years… If you’re worried about Ace, don’t, I will handle him personally… He is not as powerful as he likes people to think he is…”*He would stand then, crossing the room to put the dirty towel in the clothes hamper, turning then to cross his arms over his chest. He needed to see the extent of damage that had been done to Caela, if it was really light he could help her to hide it, but if it was extensive another option would have to be had. He wouldn’t let her tell him no, he would continue to insist if she refused, though he would have to stop after a time. She had just been raped, he wasn’t about to go and force her to do something, not after that. She hesitated for a while, and he could understand that part honestly, though he was relieved when she stood up. He watched her take that sheet with her for a while before she dropped it, and he got to see Ace’s handiwork there, and the extent of it. Well… There was no hiding all of that no… He had asked her then, albeit a bit bluntly, if Ace had ejaculated in her. He wanted to swear when she said he had, that he wanted to get her pregnant, and he fought the urge to face palm… That bastard had put Rose through hell when she got pregnant, made her feel like the babies were a mistake and unwanted, and here he was raping Caela and telling her flat out it was to get her pregnant. Seriously…. What the fuck was going on in that devils head?*”I’m so sorry Caela…”*He would say softly, before he grabbed up that towel there and began to dry her hair gently, not wanting her to catch a cold in these cooler days. He told her he knew about Garafins condition, and how Garafin had known for a very long time that she wanted children, and his own feelings of guilt that he couldn’t give them to her. He was honestly fine with providing stud service, he knew that their child, if Caela wanted one, would be very similar in looks to Aysil… So in all honesty he could tell her flat out he knew the child he would give her would be a true beauty. He told her that he just wanted to help, not because he held any real compassion for her, but for Sybelle and Garafin… He wanted to give them a chance, to get back to that happy place they must have once shared, to not repeat the last twenty years of their life.*”I know I’m confusing, people have said that about me my whole life, and that’s ok. The fact is that you don’t have to… You aren’t really required to… Just know that… I know all too well how Garafin feels… He and I loved a woman who couldn’t love us back for twenty years… It’s not an easy thing to go through… I’m giving you the chance to change Caela…”
(21:16:35 )
ϕ₦ḁṷṭḯḷṓṷṩϕ
ᶲI Loved Her Not For The Way She Danced With My Angelsᶲ
°But For The Way The Sound Of Her Name Could Silence My Demons°
°°°
says to °-The White Lilly-°…Cael: *She could take his offer after all, when he told her that he would provide her with a child if she wanted it, sliding out of his robe as he did so. He was big, all over really, far from the lean more swimmers body version that the elves had. He wasn’t bulky no… He was just…bigger. He watched her avert her gaze, and he would reach out and gently grip her chin then, guiding her to look at him.*”Look at me Caela… You will have to… Yes I know I’m naked, but it’s not a state I am uncomfortable with, and you looking won’t bother me. If you want me to give you a child, you will be seeing me like this Caela, that’s just a foregone conclusion. Also, if this is going to work… You will need to know what I look like naked… Garafin obviously does, and if he were to ask, you might need to have a bit of an accurate description. Just… keep with the story please, Caela… I literally was black out drunk last night, because I don’t remember most of last night, and that means I wouldn’t remember this… If they ask, tell them I kept calling you Sybelle, that I didn’t understand you telling me to get off because I was too drunk. Though I tell you now, if this upsets Sybelle, or causes any issues in our relationship, I will tell her the truth… I will ask her to keep it from Garafin, but that is as far as I will go Caela, I will never ever jeopardize my relationship with Sybelle… Now dry your tears Caela, you’re safe, and you don’t have to worry… If you want, I’ll show the cook how to make you moon tea, it’s not too complicated… Just have a cup every three hours today and tomorrow… You should start sometime today or early tomorrow once it starts… “
(22:30:09 )
°-The White Lilly-°
…Caela Aranossë...
..you'll never see the end of the road - While you're traveling with me..
says to ϕ₦ḁM: .. a great deal of what he had sit hit harshly close to home.. and though it was hard to hear.. it was what she needed to hear.. she needed to hear all of it.. when he dabbed away at her makeup and she tried to tell him no.. his comments on her being vain.. were true.. she was.. sure she had her reasons.. but the scarring had gotten less and less over time.. and yet she continued to layer it on so very thick .. her hands had toppled down to her lap there to allow him to continue till every single smudge of it was gone.. and her natural beauty shined through.. the corners of her lips twitched just a little when he said he would drag Sybelles ass to the bath if he caught her wearing it.. it was warming to see that her little sister had managed to find someone who cared that much about her.. who complimented her.. and she had been able to see it in Sybelles eyes.. she was still her unusual.. aloof ..spontanious self.. but she was also a little more grounded.. and that all had to have been him.. she told him about Ace.. and what had occurred..and he explained that Ace was a slick fucker.. she nodded understanding what he meant by it all.. - .. I thought I was smarter.... she shook her head- ..clearly I wasn’t and am not.. I let my emotions and my jealousy cloud my judgement.. and it put not only those that I love dearly in a horrible spot.. but..also myself.. .. her brows furrowed and she exhaled another slightly hitched breath.. her lids tumbled closed properly when she explained to him about Rose and he told her to try and breathe through it all.. that Rose and Ace had a complicated history.. and that Ace would practically do anything he could to make sure that fairyutale relationship broke up.. she sighed and nodded- .. you’re right.. they do.. they’re perfect for one another.. .. her lids lifted as she looked up to him there- .. he’s such a gentleman.. and from what ive heard of her she is just a beautiful woman.. inside and out.. I fear I haven’t had much of a chance to sit and talk with her.. I sincerely hope that Ace wont ruin it for them both.. they deserve nothing but happiness.. the pair of them.. .. she felt his warm hands hold her small fingers before he reached up to glide a few locks of her golden hair over her shoulder..she listened when he spoke about his brother.. and the relationship they had being quite love hate..- .. I know your brother.he was around a bit.. when we were children.. and then.. I remember seeing his face pop up every so often..... she nodded- .. I didn’t realise it at first.. but when I saw him in the house earlier I put two and two together.. .. she exhaled..her fingers intertwined then to stop her fidgeting- .. I think that kind of relationship is supposed to be quite normal.. that sibling rivalry.. I don’t know your family well at all.. so I wont presume to understand your meaning behind your explanation there.. Sybelle and I.. well.. I can’t say love hate.. as I don’t think we ever really hated one another.. we rarely ever even argued.. or even had disagreements.. well.. apart from when she’d just disappear for days on end.. returning as if nothing happened.... she shook her head a little- ..but I do love her dearly..id give my life for her.. .. she nodded.. sliding her hands up her bare arms there.. to cross her chest- ..in a heart beat.. without a second thought.. she’s a bit unique that one..I’m sorry for giving you the third degree earlier.. .. she chewed on the inside of her cheek there- .. I just.. I worry about her.. and I see what I put her through.. I..just please forgive me.. I didn’t mean to make you upset or angry with my questions.. I can see your intent.. I can see the love you have for my baby sister.. I can.. .. she nodded a little looking up to him there- .. I can see you’re a good person.. and Id like to think that over time I have become a much better judge of character.. .. he spoke then on how he almost owed her a thankyou for what she did.. because without her being sent off with Ace he would have never met her and lived with her for those twenty years.. that sometimes there is good outcomes to bad choices..- .. You don’t know how relieved I am to see that she is ok.. I was so.. so frightened that he had well.. .. her brows furrowed and she looked back down to her lap there.. she didn’t even want to finish the sentence.. she knew what a sly fucker Ace was after he had left here.. and she worried for Sybelles life almost every day.. they spoke on Garafin then.. and how he flirts and teases but how he had never strayed and she nodded.. - .. Oh yes.. I feel the same.. yes.. when it comes to same sexual relationships.. it’s quite common around here.. It wasn’t that he was with you that..bothered me.. it was more that ..I knew he was enjoying himself.. so much.. and that I had refused to ..well.... she exhaled- .. Ace told me the day he left here with her.. that if I gave in.. that he’d tell everyone.. that he’d tell that I had seduced him.. and with him being with my sister.. well it wouldn’t have gone down so well.. that he would go on to tell that I had organised to have him take her away for a while.. that I was pregnant with his child.. all of it.. and so much more.. and I was terrified.. so I just shut myself off.. and I felt horrible for it.. I wore the guilt of my own bad choices along with the ones I continued to make.. and I watched Garafin grow further and further quiet around me.. and then when he even stopped calling upon me.. I just.. broke a little more.. when Ace came back with Jacob.. leaving him with us.. he reminded me then.. that her death was on my shoulders…and I threw myself into caring for that child.. every waking moment of the day.. Sybelle and Jacob are right.. .. she nodded- .
(22:30:15 )
°-The White Lilly-°
…Caela Aranossë...
..you'll never see the end of the road - While you're traveling with me..
says to ϕ₦ḁM: we live for the love of one other.. our perfect mate.. we don’t divorce.. we don’t separate.. and it’s not uncommon for an elf to die of a broken heart when one of them passes on.. we love in this life and the next.. forever waiting until hands are clasped again.. regardless of the land.. lovers are just that.. daliances on the side.. a bit of entertainment.. something different.. couples are generally open enough that neither parties mind who or whom it might be .. as the couple know where the heart truly lies.. and that no other could ever just waltz in and take it.. it can be a lot for someone that is not from here to understand.. so if you are having trouble with it.. its completely natural.. correct me if I am indeed wrong but you don’t appear to be an elf.. so.. you wouldn’t be completely knowledgeable of our traditions and concepts.... she nodded when he said it wasn’t possible to change the past.. but that she could change the right now.. that she could change how she reacts to him from no on.. that she could choose to be his wife again..give him all the love she had held back for twenty years.. and that he would handle Ace personally.. her brows furrowed.. she nodded once more.. exhaling slowly.. the hitching in her breath had settled a touch..- .. I want to.. .. she whispered..- .. I do.. I miss him terribly.. .. she lightly fidgeted with her fingers there- .. Im not even sure where to begin though.. I.. feel so terribly stupid and horrible for having left him like this.. for this long.... he asked to look upon her.. for her to stand and though hesitant she did.. she moved to show him the cuts and bruising upon her.. answering in a nod when he asked if Ace had indeed ejaculated within her.. making the comment that he wanted to get her pregnant..he offered an apology there and her hands slid about her belly.. holding it firmly as she shook her head..- .. it’s just horrible.. I am starter than this.. I know I am.. .. she sighed.. he spoke about being able to help then.. about Garafin being sterile.. and how they both loved a woman who couldn’t love them back for twenty years.. that it wasn’t an easy thing to go through.. but that he was giving her the chance to change..he slipped out of that robe and she looked to the side.. before he reached out to grip her chin.. tilting it.. turning her head so she would look to him.. he was far from lean.. far from skinny.. he wasn’t huge and bulky though.. just like somewhere in the middle.. she nodded when he said she had to look at him.. that it was a state he was not uncomfortable with.. he spoke about her keeping with the story.. that he was so so very drunk last night that he is lucky to remember much at all so it would all fit in quite perfectly.. but that if her sister questioned or became upset about it.. he would have to be honest with her.. - .. yes.. of course.... she spoke softly.. she understood quite clearly on that front.. - .. I wouldn’t want you to jeopardize anything with Sybelle.. .. she reached her hands up to wipe under her eyes there.. across her cheeks.. he spoke about getting the cook to make her this..moon tea.. and how it wasn’t complicated.. she slipped across the room cautiously..standing before the cane chair as she picked up her own robe.. drawing it around her person.. the tie was fastened about her middle..before she would reach back to pull out her hair from its confines- .. thank you..Nautilous.. for all of this.. it means more to me than I think you will ever really know.. .. she slid her hands down into the depths of her pockets there.. her gaze lifting to look to him- .. the cook will be in the kitchen I imagine.. organising breakfast if you wanted to talk with him.. before everyone else rises from their beds..
(14:27:29 )
ϕ₦ḁṷṭḯḷṓṷṩϕ
ᶲI Loved Her Not For The Way She Danced With My Angelsᶲ
°But For The Way The Sound Of Her Name Could Silence My Demons°
°°°
says to °-The White Lilly-°…Cael: *He knew that, given Caela’s current state that he should be kinder, softer with her… But what good would it honestly do for her? Would it help her to face the reality of what had happened to her any sooner? Would him being gentle help her pull out of it, to face the world, to give her courage? He didn’t think so, no… Someone who could fire off questions like she did, to dissect a stranger like she had done him? No, Caela didn’t need any softness, not right now… Not from him either. Besides, she had that from Sybelle earlier, and that was enough in his mind. He was gentle as he took off her makeup, wanting to see the extent of any damage Ace might have done to her face, unsure if that split lip was as far as it went facially. He did finally see those little scars, they were really quite light, he could barely see them and he was looking quite closely for them too. She really didn’t need the makeup, so long as she kept her head covered when she was outside in the strong sunlight, they wouldn’t show up much more than they were now. He had told her that if he caught Sybelle wearing anything like this, he would drag her ass to the bath, and he was dead serious about it. Make up was crap, just crap, and he would rather see a woman in nothing but her pretty skin than one who looked perfect with layers of cosmetics on. She told him about Ace, and he told her flat out that it wasn’t exactly all her fault, Ace was a bag of snakes with no real safe way to handle them. He had his own leverage over Ace personally, he had the power there, the rank to make his life a living hell if he needed to… As such Ace didn’t fuck with him… But others without that protection?*”Playing with Ace is like playing a game where he holds all the pieces and knows all the rules, and you can’t understand the language it’s written in. You made a mistake Caela yes, but that doesn’t mean you have to repeat it, no more than you have to keep suffering for it.”*He listened when she talked about Ace, and how he had shown up with Rose and Pia in his arms, and that really just made him hurt for those two.. He knew that Ace was Pia’s father, Pia was kind of a miracle, something he had pulled off with Dravanos in the final hours… Jacob had stepped up to plate when Rose found her, had taken to the role of being a father like a fish to water honestly, and he was such a fantastic dad. Even when the house was busy as hell, Jacob had just come off of a long shift at the hospital, he still made sure he spent time with Rose and Pia before bed. He told her that Ace was rather hell bent it would seem, to destroy Rose and Jacob, and all over what he could only see as jealousy…*”I think… Ace is doing it out of jealousy, doesn’t exactly enjoy the idea that his son is the one Rose chose, it makes him feel second fiddle… Ace is rather like a Diva, all the attention has to be on him, and all the pieces on the board can only move when he says so… Once he finds something else to gather up his attention, something that will sooth his bruised pride, I think he will leave them alone… As for Rose herself… I think you will like her, it’s rather hard not to, everyone just kind of falls in love with her when they meet her… Considering the fact of things for you as they are, I think you would find a very solid ally in Rose Caela, and Rose is so very warm and loving she might help you heal a little bit… She’s done that for all of us in her own way… It’s why she and Jacob are so perfect together… Jacob can patch the body, and Rose the soul. Little healers…” *She went on to talk about how she felt with her and Sybelle, and he told her that he and his own brother had a bit of an interesting relationship, quite the love hate sort of thing. He listened on a bit more before he would reply, his voice low, thoughtful for a moment there.*”My mother abandoned me not long after I was born… Just left me in the streets where I lived for a few months before I was picked up by a Madame… In exchange for food and shelter, I was to become a whore, it’s how I got into my profession. I certainly didn’t choose it. Diovan… He got everything… Had a mother and a father, a house, all the stuff a kid should have… He got to pick his life, got to decide what he wanted to do, who he made friends with and talked to… I hate him for all the choices he had, for the life he had given to him on a silver platter, and he does nothing with it… I hate the fact he loves my Fiancé, but I hate even more the fact that I still love him, because he was the only father figure I ever actually knew… It’s outrageously complicated… I was trying to patch it with him because Sybelle asked me to, but he kissed her last night while I was behind with Garafin at the tavern, knowing I am engaged and head over ass in love with her… Don’t worry about the questions Caela, you caught me a bit off guard, and I didn’t like how deep you were digging into me. I’m a very private person, so I have to be open with you for the sake of your approval… It means a lot to Sybelle, so it means a lot to me in, and if I had to let you rake me a bit then hey, that’s what it takes.”*He would shrug his shoulders there, not liking any of it really, but not having a terrible lot he could do at the moment either. He did owe her a bit of a thank you though, that even though she had caused a lot of pain, without it he never would have had Sydel… He loved Sydel, just as much as he loved Sybelle, and sometime… Sometime he truly, honestly hoped he could merge the two without one taking over the other… It was just a waiting issue, that was all there was to it, no more no less. He just nodded his head gently when she said she was a better judge of character now, that she was glad to see that Sybelle was ok, that she was safe…She said she wished Garafin had strayed, and he told her flat out that the worse Garafin did was slap a nice pert ass and that was it, otherwise it was just light flirting and teasing and that was all. He listened as she went on, and he just remained silent and let her speak, to get it all out before he would.*
(14:27:40 )
ϕ₦ḁṷṭḯḷṓṷṩϕ
ᶲI Loved Her Not For The Way She Danced With My Angelsᶲ
°But For The Way The Sound Of Her Name Could Silence My Demons°
°°°
: ”I honestly wish I could remember Caela… I’m just glad I didn’t hurt him. I have to be gentle and control myself, if I don’t, I could easily hurt my lover… As for Ace’s threat… I understand that you did what you had to do, to make the best of a nasty situation, it’s all anyone can do… Sybelle’s death resulted in the birth of Sydel, it kept Jacob alive, and it brought Rose and I the people we love to us in a way… I met and fell in love with Sydel, who is just the darker side of Sybelle, and Jacob survived to save Rose’s life… Yes, you hurt some innocent people, but for as many as you hurt you also saved… It’s time to let the pain go Caela, stop killing yourself over it, the horse is dead and beating it won’t bring it back.”*He listened to her say that Sybelle and Jacob were right, that elves married forever, that they only really and truly loved once. She said it was normal for him to struggle with it if he was, because it was a custom unique to elves, and many other races would find it as something of a hiccup.*”I think my issue… my issue is with what I was for so long, and not really knowing what love was, not true love. I was paid to pretend, to give the illusion of a never ending love, a man who existed only for that woman… I saw sex as just sex for so many years I forgot it could mean something, then when I met your sister it all shifted… Sex wasn’t just a common thing… It became complicated with Sydel… I cared yet didn’t care, we loved to hate each other, and loved each other so much we hated it… Then when I was able to bring Sybelle forward… I really and truly fell because she gave me all the love her other side couldn’t... With her I know what love, healthy, true love feels like… and I guard it… I guard it jealously, fiercely, because I will never have this with anyone else…”*He told her she had choices now, choices she didn’t have before when all this had started, and it could all change by letting her husband back in. What she had done to Garafin was unfair, and he told her flat out the truth of it, and that it was time to change that. She said she wanted to, but that she wasn’t sure where to start, and he tilted his head a bit.*”Start by wooing him. He spent years trying to repair a bridge he didn’t know was sealed off, so now it’s your turn to try and reach out to him… though if I might say something? Make a romantic night between you two, dinner, candlelight, music, dancing… Then when all is said and done, take him to bed Caela… Remember how his touch feels, how he felt atop you, inside you… Make love to your husband Caela… More marriages have been made and repaired in the bedroom than any I ever saw anywhere else…”*He had asked her to get out of bed for him, he wanted to see the extent of the damage, and how he might be able to help create a blanket for it all. He had hoped it wouldn’t have been too bad but that was hoping for a bit too much… Ace had worked her over worse than he had seen someone do in a long time, she was littered with bruises of various shapes and colors, scratches and cuts, and that split lip to top it all off. He had asked if Ace had finished off inside her, and she answered in the positive, saying that Ace had wanted to get her pregnant again. He just shook his head, and told her that he could make her moon tea, to start her menses so that she wouldn’t conceive Ace’s child. A nice fat fuck you to that black haired devil…* “Rose is whip smart too, but Ace has her just as bad as he has you, and he has used you both quite poorly. You’re not stupid, Ace is just a master at manipulating women, and he does everything he can to get what he wants too. I am going to laugh hysterically the day he really and truly falls in love, because everything he has caused you and Rose, Garafin and I, all of that will round back on him and he will know true misery. We’ll pull up a chair with some popcorn… watch him fall under his own noose, and hand himself like a happy little idiot… “*He had slid out of his robe then, watching her glance to the side before he would gently capture her chin, turning to back so she would look at him. If she didn’t know what he looked like naked, the entire play would go to shit, and he didn’t want to put himself on the line for something half baked. He told her flat out though if this upset Sybelle in any way, the game was up, and he would tell Sybelle the truth of it all. He wouldn’t allow this to complicate his life, to hurt the woman he loved, there wasn’t enough in there for him to risk it. He heard her agree, and he slid the robe back on after she had her look, tying it about his waist there. He turned to head out the door then, to go and get that first batch made up for her, nodding his head there.*”I think I’ll leave cook out of this… and make it myself… You’ll feel sick honestly, your stomach won’t like you very much, but it’s better than the nine month alternative… As for everything else… I leave in less than a month Caela… You will be fertile in one to two weeks after your last menses day… If you want me to get you pregnant, we have a three day window to work before I have to leave, and I can’t guarantee I will be alive at the end of it. Talk to Sybelle and Garafin when you are ready, decide if this is what you want, how you want this to happen. I’m flexible, so long as everyone is comfortable. If Garafin wants to be there and make it a threesome we can do it that way, if you want an orgy we can bring in Sybelle if she is of a mind, or if you want it private that works too… I can make it as professional as you want Caela… The choices are yours… Now… I am going to go make your tea, and go find my future wife, and you should find your husband…”*He would head out then, down the hall and into the kitchen, another nod from the cook as he asked where the penny royal was. A few words were exchanged as he cut the leaves up quite fine, putting them into the strainer before steeping it in the kettle, pouring out what was there in a cup for Caela. He told the cook to keep this from any pregnant women as it caused contractions, that he had made a bit for Caela to get things moving, saying she was a bit bound up due to the stress form harvest. Yes, Caela was constipated, and this would give her the boost to get it all out. A lie yes, but one that would cover their ass… *
(14:27:55 )
ϕ₦ḁṷṭḯḷṓṷṩϕ
ᶲI Loved Her Not For The Way She Danced With My Angelsᶲ
°But For The Way The Sound Of Her Name Could Silence My Demons°
°°°
: *He would then make his way out to the room he had left her in, only to find that she wasn’t there, and after a couple of silent peeks later… Found her in bed with Garafin… He would slip in then, sliding out of his robe and curling in behind her, wrapping his arms about her as she slept on. Garafin would never know he had left, Sybelle was warm and comfortable between the two of them, and he could finally get that sleep he needed. Now than he was hang over free, that sleep came easily, and he drifted off without a fight… If they all squeezed in really close, Caela could fit in that bed with them, though if she took his advice she would take Garafin out of there and to her own room… Those two needed some bonding time, and he needed much of the same with his own lover, knowing she was probably worried sick. He would whisper to here there, just before he fell off the edge into sleep, just a few soft words.*”I love you baby… I’m sorry about leaving pissed… When we wake up… Help me figure out what to do… because I don’t know how to handle my brother kissing you… all I know… is that I love you… and I can’t live without you…”