Post by Deleted on Sept 30, 2014 19:12:08 GMT 9.5
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *She was trying to wake up… Trying and honestly, failing miserably, but she couldn’t figure out why… Her dreams had been full of nightmares, horrible, terrible nightmares… Part memory, part imagination, and all too real for her to tolerate… She hadn’t had them in… some time really… Once Jacob had started to sleep with her every night, she hadn’t had a single one, but for some reason she just had one after the other last night… It was like a vicious cycle, just one coming in on the tail end of another, until all she could do was whimper in the back of her throat as she suffered under it. It always started out so good, Jacob was making love to her so passionately, so fiercely before she would look up into his face and see it morph into Ace’s… Ace telling her he owned her… That he would show her how a real man treated his woman… Bending her over and ploughing into her until all she could do was scream in intense pleasure… Nightmares of her begging him not to, to let her go, but he never let up… Threatening her that this wasn’t the last time he would have her… He had raped her without her having anything to say about it… He raped her but it felt so good, even though she was begging him not to, he had her cumming all over him… There wasn’t a hole of hers that he didn’t use, her mouth, her pussy, her ass… He abused every inch of her… Telling her that her twins were his, that they would be just like Pia, absolutely perfect… Nightmares of Jacob finding out about it, about Pia’s real father, and him breaking the engagement and leaving her… Nightmares of the twins really being Aces, and that she never got to give Jacob any children, that he never had any… Nightmares of the twins being still born, that something happened when she was half way through her pregnancy and she lost them both, blood gushing between her thighs to coat her legs and the bedding. Dravanos came in, her mind making her relive what had happened to her before, and it was that that finally broke the cycle. She sat up in bed screaming silently, covered in sweat and tears, her whole body convulsing violently as she began to vomit, just barely making it over to the side of the bed to lose it all into the urn there on the side of the bed. By the time she was done she felt filthy, tired, and miserable… She looked down to see Pia still asleep there against her, which was quite odd since Pia was such an early riser usually, up with the sun just like her mother. She moved down to lift her up in her arms, taking her with her to the bath, because she needed one right now. She would make her way out of the room she was in, figuring she was at the Inn because that was the last thing she remembered, or at least remembered clearly. She would follow the hall out to the open baths, setting Pia up a nice little bed in one of the little baskets for people’s clothes, lining it with nice soft clean blankets for her to lay in. She would then strip out of her white dress with the peach colored sash, feeling her underwear fall out from where it had been stuffed between her breasts, just another savage hit to her already fragile psyche today… She would pick them up, bending slowly, feeling hurt in places she didn’t ever know could hurt… She would slide out of everything else, before she would step down into the hot water, feeling her muscles rebel at the heat. She would go as deep as she dared, forcing her body to take it on, to relax into the warmth. She made it all the way to the end, where the water was at its deepest, and curled up there with her arms over the ledge and just cried… She cried for what she had tried to do, cried for what had ended up happening, cried at how she had tried to do something kind and it ended up coming around to hurt her… She had tried to give Ace a chance, to give him a window to get to know their daughter, no matter how small it was… Only to have him threaten her… Those threats had shifted to seduction, and she had told him no, she had fought him for as long as she could… He had won out in the end, and she remembered him slipping her something, something had blossomed syrup sweet on her tongue…. And then everything just….slipped in and out… She couldn’t distinguish what was real or not in those moments… Only that she knew something had to have happened, she hurt quite badly in a way that only came from sex, and for that to happen not once but twice now… She hated him… She hated Ace for doing this to her, for making her wonder who’s children she carried, hated him for stripping away any control she might have had in her own life… She hated him for making her feel dirty… She had a good cry there, the tears that had been damned up for too long were coming out, and it left her feeling a little lighter for it. She pulled away from that ledge then, located a basket of the soaps and oils, and proceeded to remove any and all evidence that might even slightly cling to her skin. She wouldn’t leave that tub until her skin glowed like the most perfect cream and roses, her hair glowing like gold before she was done. When she felt at least a little more… Sane…. If she could ever call herself that… She stood up and walked out of the water, drying herself off in the sun as she watched Pia there, wondering why she was still sleeping… Was she sick? The first concern was that Pia was going to miss her feeding but she knew too that those days were passed now… Pia wouldn’t need her to suckle anymore, and she would be in pure unadulterated hell as her breasts dried up, only to go through it all over again when the babies were almost due… She groaned when she let down, pressing the towel there tightly, her brows furrowing in pain as she waited for it to pass. Once it was, she would slide into one of the robes left there for guests, her small feet slipping into a pair of almost child like slippers. She would reach down to pick Pia up once more, cleaning up everything behind her and setting it all back nice and neat, before she would head back in. She needed something to settle her stomach, she still felt too nauseous, and Cook was such a love he would know just what she needed… She was rounding the corner there when she saw Jacob and she let out a startled gasp. She didn’t even think for a moment, she just settled Pia onto the clean table there and ran to him, her delicate hands coming up to cradle his cheeks gently.*” A'maelamin… Mani marte?...(My beloved, what happened?) Please… please sit down…”
(23:07:08 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *If he allowed her, she would guide him to the nearest chair before she would pop off, looking for a bit of towel that she dipped in ice cold spring water and rung out, to gently hold it over that nasty shiner.*”Jacob, my sweetheart, are you alright? What in the world did you boys get into last night? I-….”*Her voice trailed off there when she saw them there…. Those crimson colored kisses across his neck and chest, trailing lower down, down into the tops of his pants… She went dead silent, utterly still as she gently held the cloth to his face, to try and bring him some relief. When the cloth was no longer cool, she would begin to wipe off those vulgar marks there, as if she could erase the way they got there so long as she removed the red…. She hated red… She wanted very much, so very much to yell and scream and rage, but she couldn’t… How could she? She might not have gone looking for what happened to her but… But it didn’t change what did… She was so very, very softly spoken when she did speak, her hands on his skin were gentle and sweet against his skin.*”I’m not going to ask Jacob… I am not going to ask, because I don’t need to know… I made the mistake once of jumping to conclusions, and I won’t do it again… This… Whatever caused these… never happened… I trust you… I trust you and I love you… and right now, that’s all I need…”
(23:44:33 )
…The..Curse..Ends..Here…
Dr. Jacob Anikin
..Stop trying to fix yourself, you’re not broken..
..You are perfectly imperfect, and powerful beyond measure..
says to ‡Ţŕįʼn: ..he gripped that bench top a little tighter.. his knuckles were white from the pressure of it all.. he had clearly staggered back here a bit to quickly…and he was paying for it.. wave after wave of that striking pain was running right between his temples…it was making him grimace and groan but he would not call out for help ..no he knew the cook was going to retrieve his bag.. he’d find something in there that would at least take the edge off.. he would just need to be patient for a moment or two.. surely the cook wouldn’t be long.. he hadn’t hidden his bag away..yet it seemed like it was taking forever.. her yelp though.. oh god that made his knees just about buckle when he gripped that bench top tight enough to make the wood edging splinter..before he felt her smooth warm fingers cradling against his cheeks.. her voice came at him as if she were caught in a tunnel somewhere.. his brows furrowed further.. he wouldn’t release that bench top so willingly nor quickly.. it would take him a moment before he would just sink down to sit there upon one of the chairs- ..please.. don’t.... he whispered.. exhaling a long and deep breath.. his voice was just shattered..broken.. crackling as if he’d been eating gravel..he’d blink a few times.. focusing on her as she shifted around.. or more so he attempted to.. her speedy movements just made his head spin so he allowed his lids to tumble closed.. deciding it would be best to just listen rather than see.. he winced and tensed up considerably when he felt that cool wet towel pressing to the bruising.. it took perhaps a moment.. maybe two before the immediate sting of the cool fabric would disappear and be replaced with something a bit more soothing for the nerves.. he heard her trail off there.. his chest rose and fell as he took quiet yet quite deep breaths.. his shoulders sunk and he seemed to slump in that seat a little lower than he had when he first settled.. - .. I’m fine.... he whispered.. clearing his throat.. the door opening then the cook returning rather apologetically for the delay before placing that bag down upon the table..the cook nodded and quickly made himself sparce.. leaving the pair of them to their privacy.. that pained look crossed his features once more as he winced ..reaching around to pick open the latch upon the top of the bag.. though doing actions such as this with your eyes closed never really worked so well.. and he was growing frustrated and a touch flistered by it all..- .. please.. can you get out the little tin of willowbark.... he whispered- ..and one of the tiny vials of heather spirit.... he exhaled..his hands rose up to rake back through his hair there..if she got out those few items for him he would slide the bark between his teeth.. chewing slowly upon it before he would break the top of the tiny vial.. downing its contents with quite a grimace and a distasteful look..- . I.... he hesitated.. tilting his head in the direction he figured she would be in- .. I don’t know what happened.. I really don’t remember.. .. he felt her shifting that now not so cool towel down from his eye.. to rub across his chest and he knew in that moment just what she was doing.. so he grabbed her wrist.. shaking his head just a touch.. or more so with as much strength as he could muster- .. I don’t deserve your help in that regard.. .. he whispered.. rubbing his lips together lightly.. the taste of that heather remaining like a horrible gluey medicine.. - .. I remember going.. through the portal with the three others.. I remember going to a Tavern..t hat was loud.. and smokey.. it was quite busy.. everyone seemed to be having a good time.. .. his fingers released the hold upon her wrists there only to spred out to take if she would allow it.. her hand..to intertwine their fingers-..I remember Nautilous ordering some kind of liquor that involved tiny little cups..and ale and things that tasted horrible.. that whoever finished their drink last would have to order the next round.. .. he held up his hand- .. I’m really not much of a drinker.. you know this.. .. he tried in vain to laugh but he thought better off it quite quickly..- .. the night wore on.. and there was more drinks.. plenty of nonsensical chatter amongst men.. before it just all seems to go hazey and.. .. the willowbark was doing well tot ake the edge off.. little by little he was finding he could open his eyes without their being strikes of pain shooting through his temples.. he could see her there before him.. her outline at first..before those duo coloured eyes would focus further and he could look upon her properly.. though the right eye was a little on the swollen side.. - .. I’m sorry Rose.. I don’t .. he exhaled shaking his head.. glancing down to her small hand in his there..- .. I can only go on what others have told me.. since my own memory is failing me miserably.. and it would appear that I have made a great deal many mistakes in this one evening alone..and I don’t recall any of it.. I will have to speak with Nautilous or Garafin.. maybe even Diovan.. someone must know what happened.. I was told I got into a fight.. defending a young womans honour.. that she was being abused by her suitor.. .. his brows furrowed.. he lifted his free hand there and he reached to cradle her cheek.. to lightly brush his fingers across her softly coloured cheek- ..and that I escorted her home apparently.. .. he exhaled.. he drew his hand away from hers.. away from her cheek there only to reach to hold the sides of his head and he would just bend clear at the waist.. sliding those fingers back behind his neck ..his forehead was practically down toward his knees.. he was having trouble with all of it- ..
(00:48:19 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *She had come in from her bath, with nothing more on her mind than trying to figure out how to settle her stomach, hoping with a more settled tummy she could worry about the other things that were a mess in her mind. She needed to do something, she felt washed out, bleached white from crying as she had been. She didn’t know what to do, what she could do, not with so much of her mind being a complete mess that she couldn’t distinguish dreams from reality anymore… The entire night she had had nightmares, just one after another, after another after another… It left her a wreck, but even so she had things she needed to do, and that meant she had no other option but to try and find some sort of a medium inside herself to start to work from. She had only just came into the kitchen when she found Jacob standing there, no shirt on, with a shiner that rivaled any she had seen before. Of course she was worried about him, that was her first reaction, and she had come over to his side immediately after putting Pia down onto the table. She would cradle his face gently in her hands, asking him what had happened, because you don’t get a black eye like that all too easily. She would gently guide him to sit down in a seat, standing up like that wasn’t going to do him any favors, and he was so much taller than her that she would have a hard time helping him with anything if he remained so. She would go to the sink there, looking for a clean towel to run under some ice cold spring water, before she would come back and lightly hold it over that black eye. She had heard him ask her not to, but hell if she was going to listen to him, he obviously wasn’t in his right mind. She saw him tense up, that wince cross over his features as she lightly pressed the cold cloth to his face, and her heart really did go out to him. She had started to ask him a few questions, her voice was soft and soothing as she did so, though her words trialed off when she saw those kiss marks up and down his neck and chest. He told her he was fine, though she would have normally called him on his bologna under any other circumstances, but right now she really wasn’t up for a battle. She watched cook come in, carrying Jacob’s medical bag, setting it down near them… then he just… Ran… Disappeared… She remembered cook being very kind and warm, eager to be helpful, loving being around people… Yet he was acting as if she had the plague but she had no idea why… She turned to watch him try to open his bag with his eyes closed, and failing rather miserably really, and she just shook her head. She would open it for him, and as he requested, pulled out the proper vials for him. She knew the willow bark, he had given some of it to her just yesterday when she had been feeling so ill. She watched him take a sliver of that willow bark, before he would pop the top off of the heather, downing the later with a disgusted look on his face. She had begun to wipe down the marks on his chest there before he would grab her wrist, and her first instinct, the immediate one would have been to of have yanked her hand free and slapped him. Instead she stayed still, let him talk, not interrupting him as she remained utterly silent. It sounded like the typical boys night out to her, it wasn’t exactly unusual for at least one of the guys to go black out drunk, especially the light weights as they tried to keep up with the heavier hitting friends… He would release her wrist then, to move to link his fingers with hers, and she couldn’t deny him…. She just held his hand like that, listening as he spoke, watching him open those eys once more so he could look at her. It sounded like he had just hit the place they call black out drunk, and that the guys had left him to his own devices a bit too much, rather than looking out for him as they should have… She had trusted them to take care of Jacob… and instead of doing that, they had brought him back hung over from a black out drunk, with a shiner and covered in lipstick… He was apologizing to her then, broken as it was, it was still an apology…*”Sybelle told me it isn’t…. uncommon for elves to take a lover or two during their… during their engagement… It’s seen as a way to…test the waters, to make sure that what they are feelings is true, and not just lust… You… You just followed tradition Jacob… and if I want to be a part of this world, a true follower of Hanali… Then I can’t judge you like a human would…”*She sighed softly, feeling his hand come up, to cradle her cheek, telling her than he took this young woman home…. He released her hand and her cheek, bending over at the waist there, raking his fingers through his hair… She could leave him there, miserable in the fact that he had slept around on her, it wouldn’t be a difficult thing to do… It wouldn’t be her though… She wasn’t like that…*”Jacob… You have come back, smelling like sex and another woman, with a black eye that’s the worst I’ve ever seen… I want to get mad yes… I want to rip into you, to tell you how much it hurts, but any right I have to that is gone… I wrote Ace yesterday… I told him that I would give him a month to see Pia… Pia… she is…. She is Aces daughter…. And Mine….”*She would say softly before she just rather broke down, just crumbed to the floor there, curling in on herself.*”He saved my life, and I thought maybe… maybe if someone gave him a chance… A chance to be good that he could be… I don’t want him in Pia’s life but I though he had a right to see her… even if just for a little while… I wanted to give him a chance for a month while you were here with me, where if things went bad you could protect us, and if they went good… If they went good you might… “*She broke down a bit more, her fingers curling into her robe there, gripping it all that much tighter.*”He threatened me when we met up… told me that he would tell everyone Pia was his… he would ruin her chances of having a happy, loving life just because he didn’t like that I was only giving him a month… I was so…so scared he would tell you, that you would hate Pia…. That you would hate me… He...”*She bit down another sob , trying to hold it all together as best she could, but she was slipping.*”I told him no… I told him no so many times but he didn’t listen… He gave me something… I don’t know what but… but I just stopped being able to say no… I don’t remember much else… it fades in and out… I just…”
(00:48:29 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *She shook her head gently, rising to her knees there before him, her head hanging lowly.*”Don’t you see? How can I have any, any right to be mad at you Jacob, when what I have done is so much worse? I didn’t tell you about Pia, even after I found out, because I was afraid you would hate us… How can I accuse you of infidelity when… I don’t even know if I can call it rape… I don’t know if being drugged up and saying yes makes or ok… I just don’t know… and all I want to do right now… Is run… I’m terrified… I am terrified and I want to run so the pain cant reach me…. So that I can pretend that you would still want me, that we are still engaged, that I didn’t loose everything that mattered to be on a stupid wish that I could do something right…”
(03:37:40 )
…The..Curse..Ends..Here…
Dr. Jacob Anikin
..Stop trying to fix yourself, you’re not broken..
..You are perfectly imperfect, and powerful beyond measure..
says to ‡Ţŕįʼn: . she was being so very caring toward him in that moment.. and it was more than he felt he deserved..he was littered in the lipstick prints of another woman.. and he just stunk of sex.. he had picked up on that perfume.. all of it on his journey back to the house.. it was yet another reason he refused to put his shirt and blazer on.. so far as he was concerned those items of clothing were a complete lost cause.. he wouldn’t be wearing those again.. she applied that cool compress there.. right to his forehead.. to His eye.. above that horrible purple looking bruise.. he naturally winced not quite expecting it and since his eyes were closed at that point he didn’t even catch sight of her movement.. it stung like a bitch at first.. and the willowbark in combination with the heather was taking its sweet time to kick in.. soon though it was helping.. most definitely.. he was unsure on just what to tell her.. what to explain as he himself was really still at quite a loss on just what had occurred.. he could only go on what this young woman had said.. and the evidence that was all around him.. he woke up in her bed for goodness sakes.. with her wrapped all around him like a long thin strand of spaghetti.. he was covered in her kisses.. his clothing was just strewn to the side.. her story on the reason for the black eye certainly made some sense.. he would naturally step in if someone was being assaulted Especially a woman.. just the reasons why.. that was where he was having trouble.. he was sure even with the serious lack of straight thinking..surely he wouldn’t just stray like that.. it made no sense.. he adored his fiancé.. his sweet Rose.. why he didn’t even look twice at the women around him.. not even at the Tavern.. so why then would he just up and escort someone home only to end up in their bed?..oh his head ached just trying to come up with the answers for it..he thanked her softly when she aided him in getting those supplies out of his bag.. he would have normally done such on his own.. but he could barely see more than half a metre infront of him.. he exhaled.. his shoulders and head sunk lower.. he just felt so bad.. he felt horrible and it had nothing to do with the physicality of his wounds or his hang over.. she went to wipe down those marks on his chest and he stopped her.. he didn’t want her to be worrying about removing marks of another woman.. that’s just disgraceful .. she should never Ever have to do such a thing.. not for the rest of her life.. Ever.. his hold on her wrists was a little tighter than it perhaps should have been and when realisation struck him he quickly released.. only to take her small hands in his.. to caress and interlace his own fingers.. he tried in earnest to explain to her what had happened.. or.. what he thought had happened.. a lot of it just kept coming out wrong.. he was finally able to open those eyes of his and he looked up to her there.. he could smell the oils upon her.. she had recenlt bathed.. and she looked like an angel.. everything about her just sparkled.. the fact that she was just so stunningly beautiful just made his heart ache all the more.. she spoke softly on what Sybelle had told her.. that it wasn’t uncommon for elves to take lovers during their engagements.. he shook his head- .. it’s true.. yes.. .. his voice crackled a little more there.. and he did well to clear his throat - .. up to that year.. elves often do.. tangle with others.. sometimes of the same sex or opposite.. just daliances on the side.. it means nothing really.. more so testing the waters so to speak.. to make sure the heart is in the right place.. but no.. no.. please Rose.. I.... he exhaled.. his hands rose as he rubbed his forehead.. wincing as he remembered the bruising there and his hands fell back to his sides.. he took hers once more.. to hold to squeeze just lightly- .. I have no interest in taking a lover.. none what so ever.. I hadn’t before we got engaged.. and I haven’t now that we are engaged.. some do like to wander.. to experiment.. I’m just not that kind of person.. .. his brows furrowed- not that there is anything wrong with it.. it’s how things are done and have been done for centuries.. and it’s worked just fine..my heart..my body.. my soul.. all of it.. belongs to you.. it’s why I can’t understand whats happened.. I just.. .. he was getting visibly upset in that moment and it was when he dipped his head down toward his knees.. sliding his hands up behind his head.. fingers interlacing there at the base of his neck.. - .. You have all the rights in the world to get mad at me.. to rip into me.. to yell and scream.. and walk right on out.. You do and you can.. I wouldn’t blame you for it.. .. he swallowed.. lifting his head slowly..he fell silent though when she mentioned Ace.. that she wrote to him.. he looked confused.. utterly and completely so.. he reached for her hands as she spoke.. visibly shocked when she said Pia was Ace’s daughter- ..I’m not sure I understand.... he tilted his head.. listening to her a little longer.. she said that Pia was the baby born from her and Ace- .. I didn’t think you....he was referring to gathering she had lost all her children.. - .. sorry.. I shouldn’t be interrupting.. please.. go on.... he exhaled.. nodding a little..she went on to explain that Ace had saved her life.. he remembered Ace doing so when he brought her back to the house.. so he at least was on the level of understanding there..the chance to be good though he didn’t quite understand.. he slowly caressed her fingers as she spoke.. just lightly against the sides of her palms.. her thumbs.. she spoke on giving Ace some time while he was there so he could protect her if it was necessary.. he tilted his head when she didn’t finish her sentence.. he felt her tense up a little- .. if they went good I might?.
(03:37:46 )
…The..Curse..Ends..Here…
Dr. Jacob Anikin
..Stop trying to fix yourself, you’re not broken..
..You are perfectly imperfect, and powerful beyond measure..
says to ‡Ţŕįʼn: .. he prompted her..his tone was soft.. still quite crackled and stuttered.. though his confusion turned into frustration laced with anger when she said Ace had threatened her when they met up.. spouting that he’d tell the world about Pia..and that in effect he would hate Pia and then her.. his gaze lifted.. watching as her expressions began to change and she started to sob.. just a little at first.. he caught the hitching in her voice.. the sudden breath changes.. all of it.. oh she was growing upset- .. Oh Rose.. .. he sighed.. his anger turned to concern as he listened further.. about her telling Ace no.. but that he must have drugged her or something along those lines.. her memory in that moment was much like his own.. broken.. was a horrible horrible night for everyone..she had crumbled down onto the floor there.. balling herself up as she continued to grow further and further upset.. he reached down.. fighting against the spinning room.. ignoring the jabbing pain of needles there upon his temples as he drew her up onto his lap there.. sliding his arms around her.. drawing her head to rest there upon his shoulder as he slowly stroked his fingers down the length of her back and arms.. he exhaled long.. deeply.. his eyes closed as he just rested his head against hers.. he sat there with her in silence for a while.. just allowing the world to go on around them.. ignoring all and sundry.. the sounds of the birds outside.. the tea pot boiling.. all of it.. - .. I could never.. ever hate you or Pia..ever.. you are my light and she is my angel, and unless you want to walk away from me.. which.. after last night I couldn’t blame you.. I’m not going anywhere.. .. he whispered so softly.. it was almost a whisper really.. barely heard.. barely spoken- ..Promise me something.... he whispered..- .. if I may of course ask of you this.. .. he drew her around a little.. sliding a few fingers beneath her chin.. tilting her head up to look to him there- .. if you need to go and see Ace again.. you will take someone with you.. .. his lids half closed.. he leant in to press his lips to her forehead.. he wasn’t even going to talk about what had happened between her and Ace.. he didn’t even really know where to start.. he didn’t think him getting angry.. or frustrated was going to help matters at all.. it would just make things worse and he knew all she needed right now.. was to feel safe and secure.. and if he could do one thing right on this day.. it would be that.. he would make sure she felt.. safe.. he tightened his hold around her a little more- .. I remember.. .. his chin came down to rest there upon the top of her head there as he pulled her in a little closer- .. when I was a bit younger.. I was sketching when I came across one of my Mothers art books.. Caela had given a few to me.. to peruse at my leisure.. to maybe give me a little bit of insight into the kind of person she was.. and there.. written at the bottom of a page.. beneath a drawing of Caela and Garafin.. was a quote.. that I feel.. is quite possibly very apt to this situation we have found ourselves in.. .. he took another deep breath.. releasing it very slowly - .. it said.. that behind every happy couple, lies two people who have fought hard to overcome all obstacles and interferences. .. he slowly stroked his fingers along her arm there- .. Why? Because their relationship is important to them.. .. another quiet breath taken- .. You are my world.. my centre.. I need you Rose.. please forgive me
(06:03:02 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *She had picked up on the smells of sex that came off of him, the lipstick marks, the light scoring of a set of nails down his back… She hadn’t missed them no, but she could decide how she reacted to them, at least so long as she had her mental faculties… Though in truth, if all this stuff kept up as it had been, she wasn’t quite sure how long she would have them, the lines were getting too muddied in her head lately for her to think all that clearly lately. Still, just because he came home like this, it didn’t make her just stop loving him. She had gotten that bit of cloth and gotten it soaked in that nice ice cold water, wringing it out in the sink before coming back to his side, to gently press that nice cold cloth gently against his face. She watched him wince and she felt a stab of regret, but she knew it would help, it had to… At the very least it would help with the swelling, and take some of the heat from the injury there, giving him a little bit of relief. She had pulled out the willow and heather for him as he had asked, watching him medicate himself, knowing he would know the best thing for what he was feeling today. His gentle thank you was kind, though unneeded, she would do anything for him if he needed it… He had started to explain, in little starts and stops, what had happened… She didn’t want to hear it, she didn’t need to heart it, knowledge was pain at times after all… She began to wipe away at those red lipstick stains over his skin there, just wanting to remove them all, to erase any proof of what ever happened to him last night. When she caught Nautilous and Diovan, she would beat the ever loving hell out of both of them, for not looking out for Jacob when she trusted them to do so. She felt his grab her wrists to stop her, telling her no, to not remove those marks from him and she just felt a spark of anger at it all. She wanted to scream and rage and yell honestly, she wanted to allow herself to get good and angry, to yell about it all… But she didn’t… She waited, not pulling away as he held her wrists, and she didn’t pull her hands away when he linked their fingers, causing her to drop that wet towel. She listened as he got a bit more of the events out, and she related what Sybelle had told her, but more along the lines of what Ace had laid out for her in no uncertain terms. He had even joked about this very event happening, of Jacob getting himself good and fucked by another woman, asking how she would take it. She told him that so long as Jacob was happy, that was all that mattered to her, that she trusted him… And she did… She trusted Jacob in a way she would never trust anyone else… She had no idea how she looked to him there, that he thought she was stunningly beautiful, that she just glittered for him in his vision. She just refused to see him, to see anyone, after what Ace had done… She wouldn’t go stinking of him, she would rather scrub her skin right off than do that. She wouldn’t blame Jacob though, she couldn’t, not for what had happened to him. If he did take a dalliance on the side, then she wouldn’t hold it against him, it was his culture after all… He confirmed both Ace and Sybelle’s words, that it was quite common for there to be a dalliance or a few on the side, but he vehemently denied he had any interest in such a thing. He had no idea honestly, just how that made her feel, how that soothed a painful fear that had been gnawing on her poor mind since Sybelle had mentioned it. Her voice was just as soft as his, just as delicate as she spoke, her fingers falling from his to gently rest on his thighs.*”I don’t want anyone else either… Not because such an act is alien to me, giving the world I have grown up in, nothing quite so simplistic… I don’t want anyone else because I am yours… I have found my perfect mate… He just happened to come riding up to save my life one day, and I’ve been falling in love with him all over again, every single day… This… What ever happened… I refuse to let it hurt me… There is one thing of mine you have Jacob, that no one else ever will, and that is my complete trust…”*It was why, unlike with Ace, she didn’t feel that panicked overwhelming fear at what she saw. She didn’t think Jacob had slept with another woman, and even if he did, she didn’t think he would just abandon her or toss her to the side for it. With Ace… Ace gave her no such security… She told him she wanted to just rage at him, and she was not a person often prone to anger, yet she felt the desire to just shred into him for it… She didn’t for two reasons… One being that she didn’t honestly thing she could do it to hi, she loved him so much, so very very deeply that the idea of raising her voice to him in anger was utterly alien to her. The second was what she was telling him, that she had written to Ace, and after that… After that the truth about Pia… Why Pia looked so much like her, how she had come out with such strong elvin features, why she had hidden it away… She understood his confusion, she had been confused herself for a while in truth, wondering how she had survived… It took Nautilous explaining it to her before she truly grasped it, and then she often caught herself staring in wonder at the sweet little baby girl of hers, how she had somehow come home despite every odd stacked against her.*”I did… I lost them all Jacob… When I first met Ace… He ended up using some very powerful magic to save a womans life… But that sort of magic comes at a cost… While he saved her… I went down… I was taken to Naggoth… To Khorn… I was to be one of his brides… Nautilous… he saved me… But not without his own cost… In exchange for saving me… he would get my first born… All of this decided between Ace and Nautilous… When I met Sydel for the first time… The white haired woman you saw that night… She beat me pretty badly… And between her and… someone else… I won’t say who… I ended up having my first miscarriage… That was the firstborn… Nautilous had taken her… kept her alive… and when the time was right… dropped her at the orphanage where he knew I would find her, find her and take her home… Pia is that baby, my little girl, my angel… As much as she is mine though… she is Ace’s too…”*she would go on with what she needed to tell him, saying that the reason she was trying to give Ace a chance, was because he had saved her life. She had wanted to give Ace a chance to be something else, to not be this dark, manipulative man she was coming to see more and more…
(06:03:14 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *She felt his hands atop her own, gently stroking them, letting her know he was there without being pushy or overwhelming. She told him she had hoped that the meeting would go well, that Ace would want to get to know Pia, would at least try to understand why she was putting the limit on his time around her the way she was… That she had a hope that he might… She hadn’t finished that sentence no, and she heard the question there, her heart was just breaking there and it was making her crumble.*”If Ace wasn’t like he proved himself to be… That you might let him see Pia more… You are, forever to me Jacob, Pia’s father… But I can’t help but wonder if maybe… maybe part of the reason Ace is as bad as he is, is because no one has given him the chance to be something else…. It’s why I stuck with him even when he wasn’t to be seen, even when he said some very, very cruel things… He told me that… I knew nothing of how he cared for his children, because if he didn’t… If he didn’t he wouldn’t have brought you to Caela and Garafin to be raised up in a home where you would be loved…”*It had made her think then, think about his actions, his reactions to everything… He seemed to genuinely be interested in Pia, but at the same time she honestly couldn’t be sure, not when he had wrapped her around his finger and drugged her to get his own way… She told him Ace’s threat, to tell everyone about Pia, and how he would turn it into a nasty all out custody war… That she would be going against many of Arvandors traditions, that it was never done, keeping a parent from a child here… She told him then that Ace had drugged her with something, because she remembered telling him no, telling him no multiple times before she just stopped… She couldn’t remember much, just flashes here and there, and none of them were good. She began to draw inwards as she broke, the weight of everything finally falling in, and she was collapsing under it. She felt him draw her up into his lap then, wrapping his arms around her as she curled into him, crying into his shoulder. She didn’t cry often, she didn’t like it, it just made everything worse… She clung to him anyways, just letting it all out, everything that she thought she had been done with in the pool outside but apparently wasn’t. She was quiet as she cried, as quiet as she could be, but she wasn’t able to stop the way her breath kept catching or the muted little shattered cries of pain as it all came out. Over her crying, she heard him say he could never hate her or Pia, that he wasn’t going anywhere unless she walked away. She shook her head violently there, her fingers curling in to grip him gently, just wishing she could get small enough to just slide into his chest and rest there forever. *”I… am not… going Ah-ah-anywhere… I can’t…. live without you… you’re my soul mate… Leaving you… I would…have to cut…out my own heart…”*She heard the whisper, his request for her to promise him something, that id she ever went to see Ace again that she would take someone with her.*”I promise….”*She certainly wasn’t going to venture to meet him alone again, it was all too apparent from last night that she couldn’t trust him to be civil, and in all honesty she didn’t see a reason to let him anywhere near them again. She felt his lips to her forehead then, and she curled in even closer, just holding him as tightly as she dared. She shifted a bit, feeling him rest his head over her own, to cradle his chin in the crown of her hair as he spoke… she listened to his words, just soft little sounds of her hiccups and uncontrollable yawns. She felt the tears just start all over again when he said he needed her, to please forgive him, as if there was anything to forgive.*”There is nothing to forgive Jacob… Last night… it never happened… Whatever it was, whoever it was with, just a bad dream… I believe you when you say you love me, and I trust you when you say you would never do that willingly… I love you Jacob Anikin… I want to marry you… I want to spend all of this life and all of the next with you…”*She meant every single word of it too, sometimes bad things happen to good people, sometimes things are out of our control… She wouldn’t make Jacob suffer because he had had a black out, it wasn’t his fault what happened, it was however the boys fault for not watching him closer… She was starting to calm down just a little bit, her fingers finding and curling into his, holding them tightly.*”Jacob… can you take me… to the hall of records when we can…please… There is something…very important I need to look up… Ace told me that… if I found this information before he did… Then he would leave us alone Jacob…he would leave and never, ever come back… Will you…. Will you take me there, to… to let me find this information…?”
(06:58:25 )
…The..Curse..Ends..Here…
Dr. Jacob Anikin
..Stop trying to fix yourself, you’re not broken..
..You are perfectly imperfect, and powerful beyond measure..
says to ‡Ţŕįʼn: ..he wrapped his arms around her there.. drawing her in nice and close to him.. rocking her when he felt she needed it.. he could feel those little trembles.. the soft shuddering when she sobbed and cried.. he just wanted her to get it all out.. all that sadness.. that gret.. the fear.. all of it.. so long as she understood he wasn’t going anywhere..he would forever remain there.. at her side.. he had explained to her that he was not one to wander.. it was not in his nature.. he had no desire.. his heart settled with her..only to then hear her say the same.. that she had no interest in wandering either.. that he had her complete trust.. something no one else will ever have.. he pressed his lips to the side of her head there.. a light delicate kiss.. barely there really..she explained about Pia and how it was Aces child.. he told her of his confusion on that front.. and how he was under the impression that she had lost all her children.. especially considering she just about lost her life.. she explained it though.. how Nautilous had a hand in it all.. and how Ace had done to her.. what he had done to Sybelle…sending the pair of them off to Naggaroth without so much as a second thought.. that mans disregard for anyone elses life really weighed on his nerves.. - .. I don’t really know Ace so well.. not.. properly in any rate.. but from what I have seen and heard.. he is quite the Master manipulator.. if he is the father of Pia then here..in Arvandor he does have some rights in regards to seeing her ..and to making sure of her welfare.... he nodded- ,/i>.. though.. those rights do not extend to him taking her from you unless you pass away before we are married.. .. he shook hishead- .. I will be with you from now on.. if he calls upon you again to see her.. I will be there beside you.. or in failing that.. Nautilous.. Garafin.. anyone.. .. he caressed his fingers through her hair there.. just gentle touches.. light- .. He simply cant be trusted I see this.. we all do.. and I would never.. ever forgive myself if something happened to you.... he spoke to her then on things he had learnt from his mother.. and asking once more for her forgiveness.. practically begging her for it..before she just broke down in his arms.. he could hear her breathing hitching.. he could feel the trembling.. all of it.. before she spoke.. with her quiet broken voice that she wasn’t going anywhere.. that she couldn’t live without him.. his heart settled a little further when she said there was nothing to forgive.. that last night it never happened.. that it was simply all a bad dream.. that she loved him.. she wanted to marry him.. to spend all of this life and the next with him.. his lids tumbled closed as he rested his chin atop her head once more.. he would still hold that guilt there for quite a while.. and it would probably be quite some time before he even considered touching a single drop of alcohol.. but her words.. they meant the world to him.. - .. I adore you Rose.. .. he’d whisper softly.. - .. utterly and completely… I will never.. ever misuse that trust you have so willingly offered me.. I promise to hold that heart of yours as close to mine own.. in this life and the next.. we will be wed in a little under a year.. or.. perhaps a little over depending on when the little ones arrive.. .. he could tell she was starting to calm a little.. her breathing was becoming a touch more on the regular side.. his fingers would continue those soft stroking motions.. just down her back.. along her arms.. through her hair..she spoke on wanting him to take her to the hall of records.. that there was something she needed to look up.. something very important.. and that Ace had mentioned something about it.. with the possibility that if she got their first.. he would leave her be.. completely.. his brows furrowed a touch- why yes of course love I can take you there whenever you like.. you just need to tell me when you need to go.. it will have to be before the winterfest though as the records hall tends to close up for the duration of that event.. the guides also preferring to let their hair down.. we can go today if you’d like.. ..he was curious indeed as to her reasoning to going toward those records.. perhaps it had something to do with Pia?- .. can I ask why?.. don’t feel you have to tell me of course.. I wont hold it against you either way.. call it simply curiosity.. is it perhaps something to do with little miss Pia?.... the willowbark and heather had worked perfectly by this point.. he was only really left with that painful niggle.. that slight burning sensation and the heat left behind from the bruising.. the scratching on his back though.. it kind of stung as he leant back against the wooden backed chair.. his heart had settled back into a more regular rhythm .. he was able to calm down ..to let his body do what it was supposed to.. to heal.. to deal with that horrible hangover .. whilst he was seated it was ok.. he feared getting up however.. everytime he did so the room did well to spin.. and that feeling was not one he would forget anytime soon.. - ..could you do me a favour love?....he spoke softly- .. as much as I want to sit here with you.. curled up like this forever.. I.. . he exhaled- .. I think I really need to bathe and get out of these clothes.... he could still smell that perfume.. and it was doing well to attack his senses.. and he was not liking it very much at all.. he just wanted to get in that water and scrub every single inch of his skin till he looked and smelt much more like himself.. - .. could you help me back to the bath house?.. I fear if I stand up right now.. I’m just going to fall flat on my face.. whilst the willow and heather do well to take away the ache.. it’s more like a bandage.. just covering up the real issues there.. and balance.. no.. . he shook his head- .. I staggered the whole way home.. I don’t want to wake up half the inn trying to make my way down that corridor..
(09:28:33 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *She was curled in close to him in his lap, somehow he always knew when she needed him the most, just the perfect way to hold her to keep her from breaking… She hadn’t wanted to break down in front of him, but it had all come out there, his own guilt at what happened to him had spurned her own until she couldn’t bear it. She had told him what had happened to her, everything with Ace recently, and the truth about Pia… He hadn’t done anything wrong in her mind, he hadn’t gone out looking for a bit of tail intentionally, he had gone black out drunk and that wasn’t his fault. She would however, have several choice words to say to Garafin and Nautilous, Especially Garafin… She expected Nautilous to be a bit of a bad influence, but that could be good for Jacob in a way because he would get to enjoy things he had never done before, but she hoped he would be careful enough to ensure Jacob remained unhurt. Garafin should have been there as the fail safe, the guarantee she had, and if HE failed… Then at least Dio… She had seen the group he was going with, and she trusted them all to some extent, and they had all let her down. She had answered his question about how Pia had managed to exist, since she had told him the truth, that she had lost all her children and nearly been lost right along with them… She told him the entire event, though she didn’t say anything on how since then she was terrified of the color red, or how it was that event that had caused her night terrors. Her shoulders fell a bit when he said that Ace was right though… That Pia, being Ace’s daughter, made him entitled to certain rights… She had hoped he was lying about that, or making it into something more than it was, but no… Jacob would never lie to her, and because she knew that, she had to accept the facts. She shook her head softly, her voice was a little broken, she didn’t like knowing that Pia could be put in such a perilous position.*”Ace… Ace is very manipulative… He can make you feel like hell, then turn it around, make it so that you think he isn’t responsible for a single moment of it… When we got into arguments, it was always my fault, my…. Inability to understand… I was too judgmental or too close minded… I always felt that it was my fault, that I had to be perfect, always perfect… Yet he can sit there and like flipping a switch, make you feel like you are the most important person to him in existence, just pulling the rug out right under you so your heads just completely turned… I think… I think that’s what gets women drawn to him… We all think there is something there we can fix… but I don’t think he is broken… I think he just enjoys the game too much…”*She shook her head a bit there, genuinely surprised at herself, for not only saying it but for the fact she believed it too… She might have to look at that a bit closer… Perhaps the fact that he was threatening her baby, that just shattered a part of the hold he had on her, made her rear back and bare her fangs a bit.*”Jacob… If anything happens… If anything happens to me because of the babies, or even without them, but if I ever come close to death… I don’t want to force you but… Please.. Marry me then… I don’t want Ace to have any rights to Pia… She’s my sweetheart, my little sunshine, she’s everything and more… She’s brilliant, she’s special, she’s so beautiful that it almost hurts to look at her… I don’t want to see her warped… I want her to only know a life of joy and sunshine if I can… and if I die… I know you would do everything, everything you could for our little girl, to give her the best life possible…”*After all, she had come close to death so many times it was almost like an old friend, they damn near shared tea and crumpets at this point… Yet somehow someone always drug her back, Jacob was always there for her, to drag her back from the end of death… He just held her perfectly, so sweet and gentle, running his fingers through her hair and over her arms as he just settled down every frayed nerve… She nodded when he said that Ace couldn’t be trusted, that she was never to see him alone again, that it would be him or Nautilous or Garafin who would be with her from now on. She shivered a bit there, she didn’t want to think Ace would arrange an accident for her, to kill her so he could get Pia… She didn’t want to think it was possible… But she had also seen him go into such a rage that he had almost snapped a woman’s neck, holding her up and off the ground against the wall, and she didn’t think she had much better chances than that woman had… He had asked her to forgive him, and she could see, she could feel just how badly this was eating him up inside. She knew exactly how that felt, because she had been feeling that the moment Ace told her that her dream… hadn’t been a dream… It had eaten away at her inside for some time, making her wonder about who’s children she carried, and if they were Aces, at how unfair it would be to Jacob… He would love her, marry her, and she would never be able to give him children if these two weren’t his… Ace had taken enough from her, he couldn’t take these ones too… She told him that he didn’t need forgiven… To her, last night was just a bad dream, she wouldn’t ever remember it from this day forth… She loved him, she adored her tin soldier, he was her everything and she couldn’t imagine a single hour without him with her… Even if they were apart, even if they said not a single word to the other, just knowing he was alive and well… That was all she needed… She told him she trusted him completely, utterly, without fault… And he in turn swore h would never abuse it, that he would hold her heart next to his own, for this life and the next… *”I think a little before my love… Even with me being sick as often as I have been they’re growing so fast… I wouldn’t be surprised if I started to feel them moving within the next month or so… I don’t think I will last a year Jacob, not really… I’m already small to start with after all, and with twins?... Though remember my beloved, I promised you I would wait as long as you needed to, to know that I am the one you truly want to be with… One year or twenty… so long as you are with me? I can wait… You are worth it… Well worth it….”
(09:28:44 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
: *She had asked him if he could take her to the hall of records, she wanted to look up a few things honestly, and the chance to push Ace out of their lives permanently was a chance she wasn’t going to pass up on. Did she love Ace? Yes. Did that mean she was going to give him another second of her time, or another chance to ruin her family, her future? Not a snowballs chance in hell. He said he would take her, that of course he would, that they could go today if she wanted to…. Which for her honestly, would be incredibly ideal because they had only made the bet last night, and if she could get there and do it all… She would throw it in his face, and tell him to honor his word, and to leave her, Jacob, and Pia alone forever… She wasn’t prepared for his question though, asking why she wanted to go, especially since she had never really asked before… Should she tell him the truth? Or part of it? Or nothing at all?... She hated lying, she had done enough of it in the last few months to make her physically ill, to the point that she felt like the world was going to crash down around her… And these lies weren’t even for her, but for other people, to help them maintain their own sort of reality until it stabilized… She sat silent for a moment there, trying to figure out what to do about it.*”Can I… just wait to tell you until I can get the answer first? It isn’t that I am trying to lie to you, or to skirt your question, but I don’t want to tell you anything without knowing all the facts of something first… Though it does in part have something to do with Pia… I want to figure out her birthday… To see when my baby would have been born, or if she even has one, since I didn’t actually give birth to her… If she doesn’t, then I wanted us to pick a birthday for her, something special just for her, a little sign of our love for her that only we will know of…”*She felt him starting to relax, just as she was, and she had to rather sit in wonder of it… Was this what it was like then, when you were with your true love, that person you were supposed to spend your life with? So long as she and Jacob were together, everything somehow managed to work out between the two of them, like nothing bad could ever stay around them so long as they were hand in hand. She heard his request for her assistance, to help him get to the bathing house, that he wanted to get out of those clothes… She understood that well, Goddess knows she had scrubbed herself so hard it had hurt this morning, wanting to remove everything from the night before like a layer of dirt and grime she could scrape off if she tried hard enough. She didn’t mind helping him at all, in all honesty if she had to spend one more moment smelling that bitches scent on Jacob, she would drag him out there herself. She slid silently from his lap there, padding over on those little slippered feet to pick Pia up from the table where she was still sleeping, curled up on her side and wrapped in her little blanket.*”Trade me then? I woke up with our little beastie in bed with me somehow, and I can’t find Caela, so if you hold our baby I will in turn give you my shoulder… We will make it nice and quiet up the hallway, and get you in the bath in no time, though I demand rights to wash your hair and your back… Call it part of the bride purchase…”*She would wait until he would stand up, to give him Pia if he felt up to holding her, and if not she would hold her in one arm while the other would loop around Jacobs waist and they would head out. As they would walk up the hallway, she had a question for him, something that had niggled at her since Ace mentioned it.*”Jacob… Pia hasn’t been feeding like normal for about two weeks now… She seems to be tapering off, and she’s started to look rather interested in things like porridge and fruits and bits of other things… Is she already ready to be weaned off?... If she is… what can I do about… Well… you know… It’s going to be a while before it dries up, and I am not too keen on the pain that is going to happen until it does… I thought… I really thought Pia would take a bit longer to wean off, that it would be closer to when the babies would be born, not months early…”*They would reach the bathhouse then, and she would guide him over to where the baskets were for him to change, while she set up another little box for Pia to sleep in as she had when she had her own bath, still not certain about her sleeping so much… She was always such a sweet baby, she never cried, never made a fuss… Since she had started talking, she was a bit more chatty naturally, but everything else remained the same… Yet she was sleeping well over an hour past her usual time today, and she was started to grow a bit concerned… Still, she would wait, because aside from the late sleeping she was perfectly healthy. She would slide out of her robe then, not caring if it was her second bath in less than an hour, it was one she got to share with Jacob… Something they hadn’t been able to do in a very, very long time… She would wrap her arm about his waist once more, curling in close to his side in a lovers embrace, before she would lead him down into the water… Once there, she gathered up a box of soaps, clean citrus smells and a few very lightly scented oils for him… She also got a scrub brush too, like him she wanted to remove all traces and she was more than happy to help, almost thrilled really. She would slide the basket over to him in the water for his approval on the clean grapefruit and lemon scents there, avoiding anything sweetly cloying like oranges or nectarines. The oils were more like bergamont and ginger, a bit of spice to compliment the citrus, and one that was cinnamon to help loosen some tight muscles he might have.*”Come around then love… spoil me a little by letting me spoil you… It’s been ages since the last time we took a bath together…”
(16:46:16 )
…The..Curse..Ends..Here…
Dr. Jacob Anikin
..Stop trying to fix yourself, you’re not broken..
..You are perfectly imperfect, and powerful beyond measure..
: . he continued to stroke his fingers along her arms when she spoke just so softly to him.. he had told her of the ‘law’s of the land when it came to paternity.. how Fathers would always have a part in their childrens lives if they wanted it.. sure a father could back out at any moment.. to allow a new suitor to step in and pick up the hat so to speak.. but that if the genetic father wanted to see his child, he was more than welcome to.. and only in the Mothers death could the Father take the child away.. she told him.. she asked of him to marry her if it ever came to that.. if she was ever there.. on that brink again.. he exhaled and pressed his lips to her forehead there- .. If.. and only if we ever.. ever get to that point.. which I will fight tool and nail to stop ever even getting close to.. yes.. I will.. I promise you.. I will bring Sybelle in.. or the closest Paramour and we will be wed.. you have my word on that.. ..he held her a little bit tighter after that.. the thought alone of him losing her was quite hard to bare.l. and he simply would not allow those words to sink in.. to weasel their way into his head..into his mind.. he did not want dark thoughts right now..she spoke on Pia being her little angel ..her ray of sunshine.. before he remarked on the possibility of the babies being born a little late and she said otherwise.. she felt she would go early due to her size and that the possibility was there for her to feeltheir movement soon within the next month or so..- .. I am going to regret missing that.. you will have to tell me all about it when I get home.. every little detail.. .. he caressed his fingers through her hair there.. just a light touch as the sun began to rise properly.. filling the room with such a warm healthy glow.. - .. do you know.. with the sun behind you.. with that hair that looks like spun gold.. you would be a vision for any soul.. a true angel seated there upon my lap.. .. he would tilt her chin up a little so he could look to her..- .. my sweet angels.. the both of you.. .. he glanced across to the basket there.. gathering that’s where Pia was resting though he was quite curious as to why she was Still resting.. she was usually well and truly up with the sun..she had asked of him to takeher to the hall of records.. and he was more than willing.. naturally of course.. there would be no reason as to why he would possibly say no.. he asked her why.. perhaps it was something about Pia and she asked of him if it would be ok for her to keep her answer till after she found out the results.. the information she was looking for .. he nodded- .. yes of course.. of course.. you seek out whatever information you desire.. as for the little bugs birthday.. well yes we can pick a special date if you aren’t able to locate one.. though the records are very, very thorough.. all the information should be there.. from birth dates.. parental lines.. genetics.. all of it..you just say the word when you want to go honey and we will head off for the day.. can take Pia with us if you like.. I can look after her while you peruse the books.. .. he rubbed his chin- .. we should be pretty much on our own there if we go today.. maybe one other who will be down the back.. but you wont have anyone towering over you.. . he had asked her for assistance then to get him to the bath house he so wanted out of those clothes.. he wanted out of that skin almost.. to rid his body of the scent of this Mia he had managed to meet up with.. she offered him up a trade.. to hold Pia and she would help him down the hall.. - .. like I could ever say no to holding the little angel.. .. he waited until she slid down from his lap before he would very slowly.. and very cautiously move to his feet.. holding onto the side of the chair for a bit of support.. his head hung just a touch as things started to wobble.. namely the room.. he blinked a few times before things started to right themselves.. he took that usually wriggly girl.. holding her close to his chest as they made their way down the corridor there.. she asked then of Pia and her feeding times.. and how things seemed to be changing and was there something she could do for the fact her body was still producing when Pia clearly didn’t need it so much- .. Ahh.. well yes.. she should be moving onto more solid foods.. namely cereals and the like.. around about now.. it doesn’t mean she has to separate from you.. you are more than welcome to continue feeding her.. it wont really benefit her in any way physically but.. the bond will be strong between you both.. that decision is entirely up to you.. Pia will push away when she is completely ready to stop.. they all do.. as for your slight problem.. I am sure we can sort something out for you.. I know my Mother was quite talented when it came to brews and potions.. it’s where a great deal of our medicines originated from.. her handywork.. perhaps she could whip something up for you that would help with that production.. to at least put a halt to it for a little while.. .. he nodded.. they made it into the bath house then and she placed little pia down.. helping him across there sohe could remove the remainder of his clothing.. he slid out of those jeans.. the boots.. the shorts and he slowly made his way down into the heated water.. hje groaned a ltitle as it clung to his muscles and they rejected it at first before they would begin to sooth and calm down..- .. I tell you what.. Im never drinking again.. I sware it.. .. he chuckled all beit so very lightly.. leaning then against the side railing.. tilting his head back..allowing his eyes to close as he just succumbed to the sounds and feels of the water around him.. she gathered up those soaps and oils.. and a brush..going to ask him for approval to which he waved his hand- .. I trust you honey.. really.. you know a lot better about this kind of stuff than I do.. .. he moved across a little there to be with her..- .. thankyou.. for everything.. thank you for.. being you Rose.. I honestly feel like the luckiest man on the planet I sware it.. .. he gave her a small smile.. before he would allow her to do whatever it was she so desired-
(17:48:10 )
°.Chivalry isn’t Dead. °.
Dr. Jacob Anikin
...I feel like a part my soul has loved you since the beginning of everything..
..Maybe we’re from the same star..
PRIVATELY whispers to .°.Chivalry isn’t Dead. : testing
(18:36:55 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *It was almost funny in a way really, that she accepted death now when before she used to run from it, that for such a bubbly person she accepted it with a morbid sort of calm. Perhaps she had just had too many close calls, too many brushes with it so that she could no longer labor under the very human fear of passing on, she simply knew and accepted that this was something that would one day happen to her. What worried her wasn’t dying, she would wait for him on the other side until he found her, no what worried her was Ace getting rights to Pia… Ace would take her away from Jacob just to spite them, and where he would leave her she had no idea, and she would never accept that fate for their daughter. So she had asked Jacob that, if she ever got to that point again, where she could very well die… To marry her… Not as a way to loop him in, or to rope him down as another person might, but to ensure the future of that little girl that they would never see as anything other than their daughter. If he fell in love again she wouldn’t begrudge him for it, she would wish him every possible best, after all she would no longer be there if this came about… Why should she be jealous when she was no longer alive to love him? But of course, all these things were not set in stone, simply her wish to ensure the best she could for those she loved. She felt him press a soft kiss to her forehead, her lips turning up in the softest smile there, oh how she adored the way he made her feel in those moments.*”Jacob, you’ve saved my life more times than I think I should admit to, especially since I am not so crazy as to run into danger after all…I will always trust you to bring me back… This is just me doing my best to ensure the future of our little girl, I know you would give her the best possible life possible, but if Ace came in there would be nothing you could do legally if he decided to take her… If we marry before I pass on, then he would have no rights what so ever, and Pia would be safe…”*He was giving her such a wonderful peace of mind in these moments, letting her know that if the worst thing happened, at least she could ensure the future of those she loved most… They talked about getting married in less than a year, or perhaps a little more, depending on when the babies decided to come. She was betting early right now, she really didn’t think she would be able to hold them the entire year, not with how she was starting to show… It wasn’t as obvious as it had been with the triplets no, but she was still starting to show, though it was just a wee little thing right now. Jacob could see it, just as she could, but unless someone had known her before she got pregnant?... It was impossible to tell. She heard him speak on how he would regret missing that, how he wouldn’t be here to support her in her wonder, when she got to feel them move for the first time… She remembered that with her triplets, at first she had thought she was ill it was such a strange feeling, but as it had happened more frequently and she realized what it was? She adored it… She smiled up at him for a moment, shaking her head softly, reaching out to cradle his cheek in her hand.*”I will write you, every single day, and send you all sorts of treats… I will tell you everything that happens with all of us, any adventures that we have, any changes… As for our little ones right here? You just need to come back when it’s your turn to feel them… you have a couple months yet before you’ll be able to feel little feet or little hands coming out to greet you, so just make sure you come back before then…”*Though his next words had her blushing softly, her eyes dropping down for a moment before he would slide his fingers under her chin, guiding her to look up at him. She looked up into those beautiful, amazing blue and green eyes, that perfect representation of Sky and Earth… Oh she would always, always get lost in his eyes, in the way he looked at her…*”I was an angel once… Did you know that?...”*She would ask softly, coming up to slide her fingers along the delicate pointed shell of his ear, dipping down to rest her fingers gently on the side of his neck.*”Then one day, I was about to go home, when someone started to talk to me…Told me to open my eyes, to not go home just yet, to stay with him… When I looked at this person, I saw the most amazing eyes I have ever seen, the most fantastic blue and green… I decided that my wings could wait a while… There were far better, far sweeter things to be found here, specifically the man who was calling me back… I get to call him something very special some day in the near future… First he was Friend… Then Suitor… Then Beloved… My Lover… And now my Fiancé… Then, in just a little more time, My Husband…. And he has shown me, every single day, that he was completely and utterly worth giving up those wings for…”*She had asked him if he would take her to the hall of records, she wanted to find out the truth, she didn’t want to sit in this hell of uncertainty anymore… And the chance… The chance to truly get Ace to leave them all alone… She couldn’t pass up the opportunity there, she had to do it, she had to… She was unprepared for his question though, and she had asked him if she could just hold onto the reason until she had her answer first. She didn’t want to upset him anymore than he already was, he was already hating himself enough because of last night, and he probably would for some time yet. She didn’t want to say the reason she needed to go, was to see who’s children she carried, because Ace had kidnapped her away right out of their bed… If he knew that, he would just really, really hate himself and she didn’t want that for him right now at all. That and something about another issue was niggling at her, something that had taken seed in the back of her mind, and once it started there she hadn’t really been able to push it away. She was eternally grateful that she had such an amazing, wonderful fiancé, that he was never one to push for answers… They trusted each other and that meant so much to her, that he gave her the chance to figure things out before she shared them, rather than pushing her to reveal things that may never need to be shared… She did tell him she wanted to figure out Pia’s birthday though, after all she had never been born, so did she technically have one? If she couldn’t find one for her, then she wanted to make her birthday something amazing and special, a date that would be as wonderful for her as she was for them.*
(18:37:58 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to °.Chivalry isn’t Dead. °: ”Let’s go today then… Before things get too busy and people need to handle other things… We can sneak out, just the three of us, I think Pia would adore seeing all those books on the walls… Plus you two need some time alone together, you should have heard her last night… One thing out of all of that really sticks out to me, and it was that she got Cheeky with Ace, can you believe it? I swear, I nearly busted my buttons to hear her, you would have applauded her… Ace asked if she spoke elvish and she just looked at him like he was dense, before she shot off in elvish right back at him, saying that of course she did and it was silly to think otherwise. Oh she was PERFECT! She didn’t slip once into Gaelic Jacob, not once, it was so perfect… Ace just looked at me in shock a bit, and it took everything I had not to encourage Pia, because really we don’t want her to be rude… But oh… Oh her cheek… No one will boss our baby around Jacob, she will be no one’s fool, not our little angel…”*She smiled at him once more, and she had honestly been so proud of Pia there, she had almost wanted to encourage her in Gaelic but she didn’t want to encourage what could be bad behavior at a later date. He had asked her to help him to the bath, and she told him that she would gladly do it, but only if he could hold Pia for her. She couldn’t hold the both of them at the same time after all, she was just a bit too small to pull that off, but she would still give it her best shot. She laughed softly when he said there was no way he could ever say no to holding their daughter, and she would move over to pick Pia up then, to hand her to him to hold. Once she was sure everyone was ready, she would help Jacob out of the kitchen and up the hall, on their way to the bathing room. She would ask him quietly about Pia starting to wean off, that she was barely feeding anymore, asking if that was normal for their baby. She listened to what he was saying, her brows furrowed a bit in thought there, her fingers curling in a bit more into his side as they walked together.*”I thought she might be… I will start to make her cream of wheat and porridge and such now, sliced fruit and things she can suck on, I don’t want to hold her back… As to her still feeding, that she doesn’t have to break off just yet… I think she knows that… It’s a comfort thing for me, a time that is just for she and I, when we just get to be as close as we can be… I think it is why she still suckles, even though she is ready to move onto other foods, because she only wants me in the morning and before bed…. Still… It’s good to know she will tell me when she is ready, and that we don’t have to stop, not completely yet… I’ll just start to make her things now, pastes and other things for her… As for the other part… My love, if you think I will even REMOTELY take anything that tastes like the stuff you gave me last night, I will lovingly tell you to shove it. I would rather deal with the discomfort than drink anything that vile ever again!”*They got out to the bath house without incident, and she would help him to the area where he would disrobe, while she took herself off to make another little bed for Pia there. She didn’t like this sleeping, but at the same time she wasn’t going to do anything to stop it, Pia might need it after all? She would watch him as he entered the water, swearing he was never going to be drinking again, and that light laugh that followed was priceless.*That is a shame… I rather enjoy sharing a glass of wine with you Jacob… Of course though, I can’t blame you if you do, though having just water in your glass at our wedding might start a tradition so be warned there…”*She would tease there, before she would gather up the soaps and oils for him, making sure she got a nice stiff brush to really spoil him. She would slide the basket to him then, wanting to make sure it was all good to him, scent wise. She heard him say that he trusted her, and because of that she pulled out a couple of different soaps, setting them up for her to use. She would settle herself of the ledge there, inviting him to come over and settle near her, smiling softly at his words. She would lift up the little pail she had with her, siding it through the water to gather it up, guiding him to tilt his head back so she could get his hair nice and wet to start washing it.*”Jacob, I am just me… There is nothing special about me, nothing that would ever make me worthy of you…. I don’t think one of us is… lucker than the other… I think we are both truly, honestly blessed by Hanali herself in each other though, because through her we have each other… I will say that I think I am the most fortunate woman in existence to have had you find me, that you fell in love with me as much as I did with you, in that we have our little miracles on the way… We are lucky, we are blessed, and we will never lose that… See… The thing about love is that the best part of it, is the falling into, when you just topple into love with the other person… Staying in love takes work… So you know what we do? We just fall in love with each other, over, and over, and over again… Every day I am around you, I find something else about you that I fall in love with, so each day I get the wonderful sensation of toppling for you over and over again…”*She would wet his hair down then, before she would pick up one of the soaps, a crisp apple scented one, and begin to work it into a lather before she applied it to his hair. She began to massage his scalp then, sighing happily as she relished the feeling of his hair beneath her fingers, knowing it had to be helping with the tension there she felt beneath her fingers. She would gently swing her feet in the water, more like a shifting really, before she would being to softly sing the rubber ducky song. She did this with Pia quite often in their bath time together, and it always made Pia smile and laugh, splashing the tub there they shared together.*
(18:44:56 )
°.Chivalry isn’t Dead. °.
Dr. Jacob Anikin
...I feel like a part my soul has loved you since the beginning of everything..
..Maybe we’re from the same star..
says to ‡Ţŕįʼn: .. bows to his sweetheart and throws up a ghosty sheet for a little bit-
(19:13:52 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to °.Chivalry isn’t Dead. °: Oh wow... -swoons-
(20:44:35 )
°.Chivalry isn’t Dead. °.
Dr. Jacob Anikin
...I feel like a part my soul has loved you since the beginning of everything..
..Maybe we’re from the same star..
says to ‡Ţŕįʼn: -winks-
(20:47:26 )
°.Chivalry isn’t Dead. °.
Dr. Jacob Anikin
...I feel like a part my soul has loved you since the beginning of everything..
..Maybe we’re from the same star..
says to ‡Ţŕįʼn: ..it settled his heart to hear her say she would write to him every day and to make sure he was back before they were born so he could to experience those moments with her.. he offered her a smile and a nod- .. I will do my damnest to get back to you quickly.. I promise you.. I simply cant bare the thought of being away from you for any great length of time.. .. he commented on her looking akin to an angel in that moment.. what with the sunshine flowing through the window as it was ..reflecting off those perfect golden locks of hers.. she told him she was nearly an angel once.. but that just as she was to go home she was called back.. that someone had told her to open her eyes.. to not go home to stay with him.. and that when she did she saw the most amazing eyes she had ever seen.. and in that moment his cheeks flushed that genuine soft colouring they did..he reached up to cradle his warm fingers across her cheek there.. to trace them along the gentle curve of her jawline as he smiled.. those dimples just peeking through in the process- .. I will make it my lifes work.. to make sure I was worth you giving up those wings.. .. he’d whisper so softly.. they had discussed the hall of records then.. and how she desired to go look ..and could he take her.. to which he replied that yes he could and that today would probably be the best bet if she was up to it.. and to take Miss Pia along with them.. he could spend some time with the little one whilst she searched through all those books and papers..she agreed that today would be wonderful- .. sounds like a plan.. we will get ourselves organised and just slip away for the rest of the day.. I don’t think anyone has anything else planned so we wont be missed so much.. .. she told him then about how Pia had gotten right cheeky with Ace.. he couldn’t help but laugh and shake his head a little- .. right.. well.. seems we will have our arms full with that one then.. but yes I do agree with you.. I don’t believe anyone.. Anyone will be able to boss that little miss around.. she knows what she wants.. and I imagine just how to get it.. .. he smiled.. quite pleased that Pia had stuck Ace up.. even if it was only a little.. he had asked her then for assistance to get to the bath house.. really wanting to be rid of the clothing that smelt horribly foreign.. he took Pia.. cradling her close to him as she helped him down that long corridor.. they spoke a little on Pia then.. on weaning and wether or not it was time.. he made sure she understood that Pia would tell her when it was time.. but that she possibly would be requiring a bit more sustenance now that she was growing.. he kenw that Sybelle would be able to concoct something up to relieve her of her issue if she so desired it and her response to him was just priceless.. he had to stop himself from laughing loudly so as to not wake up the people in the rooms they were passing.. he shook his head and his smile just widened- .. Ahhh.. well yes.. sometimes the things that are good for us.. are not always the most pleasant in the beginning.. I am sure though if you brought that up.. that Sybelle would make sure it was at least palatable.. .. he chuckled again.. stepping into the bath house.. he drew that door closed.. he moved across and removed the clothing he had on.. stumbling a little when it came to removing his boots but he got there in the end.. sliding down into that water..he sighed and settled back against one of the sides there.. letting his lids tumble closed.. he commented on never drinking again.. - .. well.. wine..perhaps that’s a little different.. but anything else.. No.. .. he chuckled- . though it makes me a little fearful for whatever Nautilous has involved for the boys night before the wedding.. if its anything worse than what has just occurred.. I might just fear for my life.. .. he chuckled shaking his head.. he moved across to her there when she motioned for him.. he spoke softly about just what she meant to him..and she replied in such a loving manner.. that neither one of them was luckier than the other.. that they were just both truly blessed by Hanali herseld.. that they themselves were lucky.. they were blessed and that they would never ever lose that.. she tilted his head back a little and letting the water rinse through it.. wetting it down before she picked up one of the soaps.. lathering it up.. applying it to his hair.. massaging his scalp his lids just tumbled closed and he sighed.. a soft murmur sounding there soon after.. that felt unbelievably incredible.. he could feel each and every muscle in that body of his just calming considerably.. there was no real tension there anymore.. their discussions.. they gentle talking things through worked wonders on him.. and so it seemed the same for her.. sure they could have easily raged at one another.. screamed and pointed fingers and ended up storming out.. but where would that have gotten either of them?absolutly no where.. and then they would have had to get close enough to get to this point right here and start all over.. no they settled with each other and they talked it through.. and it calmed the heart.. the raw nerves.. the frustration.. all of it.. he just felt so good beneath her touch.. his brows furrowed and he blinked a little when she started singing though.. and of all songs one about what seemingly sounded like a rubber duck?.. - .. Uhh.. .. he laughed- .. You my dear sweet angel are one of the oddest little ducks this side of the portal I sware.. .. he gave her a slight sideways glance there.. there was a grin playing about his lips.. just causing them to twitch a little before he laughed- .. and I love you all the more for it.. .. he settled back once more allowing her to continue massaging his scalp.. rubbing that apple scented soap through his thick hair.. - .. I think after this..Ill get dressed.. and we will head off toward the temple.. if you wanted to grab a few things from the kitchen.. .. his hand rose as he rubbed there against his chin.. feeling that stubble there.. still not being quite used to that just yet- .. I think it would take us the better part of the morning to reach the temple on foot.. you can do what you need to.. and then we can stop somewhere in the gardens for lunch.. if you like..
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *She was trying to wake up… Trying and honestly, failing miserably, but she couldn’t figure out why… Her dreams had been full of nightmares, horrible, terrible nightmares… Part memory, part imagination, and all too real for her to tolerate… She hadn’t had them in… some time really… Once Jacob had started to sleep with her every night, she hadn’t had a single one, but for some reason she just had one after the other last night… It was like a vicious cycle, just one coming in on the tail end of another, until all she could do was whimper in the back of her throat as she suffered under it. It always started out so good, Jacob was making love to her so passionately, so fiercely before she would look up into his face and see it morph into Ace’s… Ace telling her he owned her… That he would show her how a real man treated his woman… Bending her over and ploughing into her until all she could do was scream in intense pleasure… Nightmares of her begging him not to, to let her go, but he never let up… Threatening her that this wasn’t the last time he would have her… He had raped her without her having anything to say about it… He raped her but it felt so good, even though she was begging him not to, he had her cumming all over him… There wasn’t a hole of hers that he didn’t use, her mouth, her pussy, her ass… He abused every inch of her… Telling her that her twins were his, that they would be just like Pia, absolutely perfect… Nightmares of Jacob finding out about it, about Pia’s real father, and him breaking the engagement and leaving her… Nightmares of the twins really being Aces, and that she never got to give Jacob any children, that he never had any… Nightmares of the twins being still born, that something happened when she was half way through her pregnancy and she lost them both, blood gushing between her thighs to coat her legs and the bedding. Dravanos came in, her mind making her relive what had happened to her before, and it was that that finally broke the cycle. She sat up in bed screaming silently, covered in sweat and tears, her whole body convulsing violently as she began to vomit, just barely making it over to the side of the bed to lose it all into the urn there on the side of the bed. By the time she was done she felt filthy, tired, and miserable… She looked down to see Pia still asleep there against her, which was quite odd since Pia was such an early riser usually, up with the sun just like her mother. She moved down to lift her up in her arms, taking her with her to the bath, because she needed one right now. She would make her way out of the room she was in, figuring she was at the Inn because that was the last thing she remembered, or at least remembered clearly. She would follow the hall out to the open baths, setting Pia up a nice little bed in one of the little baskets for people’s clothes, lining it with nice soft clean blankets for her to lay in. She would then strip out of her white dress with the peach colored sash, feeling her underwear fall out from where it had been stuffed between her breasts, just another savage hit to her already fragile psyche today… She would pick them up, bending slowly, feeling hurt in places she didn’t ever know could hurt… She would slide out of everything else, before she would step down into the hot water, feeling her muscles rebel at the heat. She would go as deep as she dared, forcing her body to take it on, to relax into the warmth. She made it all the way to the end, where the water was at its deepest, and curled up there with her arms over the ledge and just cried… She cried for what she had tried to do, cried for what had ended up happening, cried at how she had tried to do something kind and it ended up coming around to hurt her… She had tried to give Ace a chance, to give him a window to get to know their daughter, no matter how small it was… Only to have him threaten her… Those threats had shifted to seduction, and she had told him no, she had fought him for as long as she could… He had won out in the end, and she remembered him slipping her something, something had blossomed syrup sweet on her tongue…. And then everything just….slipped in and out… She couldn’t distinguish what was real or not in those moments… Only that she knew something had to have happened, she hurt quite badly in a way that only came from sex, and for that to happen not once but twice now… She hated him… She hated Ace for doing this to her, for making her wonder who’s children she carried, hated him for stripping away any control she might have had in her own life… She hated him for making her feel dirty… She had a good cry there, the tears that had been damned up for too long were coming out, and it left her feeling a little lighter for it. She pulled away from that ledge then, located a basket of the soaps and oils, and proceeded to remove any and all evidence that might even slightly cling to her skin. She wouldn’t leave that tub until her skin glowed like the most perfect cream and roses, her hair glowing like gold before she was done. When she felt at least a little more… Sane…. If she could ever call herself that… She stood up and walked out of the water, drying herself off in the sun as she watched Pia there, wondering why she was still sleeping… Was she sick? The first concern was that Pia was going to miss her feeding but she knew too that those days were passed now… Pia wouldn’t need her to suckle anymore, and she would be in pure unadulterated hell as her breasts dried up, only to go through it all over again when the babies were almost due… She groaned when she let down, pressing the towel there tightly, her brows furrowing in pain as she waited for it to pass. Once it was, she would slide into one of the robes left there for guests, her small feet slipping into a pair of almost child like slippers. She would reach down to pick Pia up once more, cleaning up everything behind her and setting it all back nice and neat, before she would head back in. She needed something to settle her stomach, she still felt too nauseous, and Cook was such a love he would know just what she needed… She was rounding the corner there when she saw Jacob and she let out a startled gasp. She didn’t even think for a moment, she just settled Pia onto the clean table there and ran to him, her delicate hands coming up to cradle his cheeks gently.*” A'maelamin… Mani marte?...(My beloved, what happened?) Please… please sit down…”
(23:07:08 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *If he allowed her, she would guide him to the nearest chair before she would pop off, looking for a bit of towel that she dipped in ice cold spring water and rung out, to gently hold it over that nasty shiner.*”Jacob, my sweetheart, are you alright? What in the world did you boys get into last night? I-….”*Her voice trailed off there when she saw them there…. Those crimson colored kisses across his neck and chest, trailing lower down, down into the tops of his pants… She went dead silent, utterly still as she gently held the cloth to his face, to try and bring him some relief. When the cloth was no longer cool, she would begin to wipe off those vulgar marks there, as if she could erase the way they got there so long as she removed the red…. She hated red… She wanted very much, so very much to yell and scream and rage, but she couldn’t… How could she? She might not have gone looking for what happened to her but… But it didn’t change what did… She was so very, very softly spoken when she did speak, her hands on his skin were gentle and sweet against his skin.*”I’m not going to ask Jacob… I am not going to ask, because I don’t need to know… I made the mistake once of jumping to conclusions, and I won’t do it again… This… Whatever caused these… never happened… I trust you… I trust you and I love you… and right now, that’s all I need…”
(23:44:33 )
…The..Curse..Ends..Here…
Dr. Jacob Anikin
..Stop trying to fix yourself, you’re not broken..
..You are perfectly imperfect, and powerful beyond measure..
says to ‡Ţŕįʼn: ..he gripped that bench top a little tighter.. his knuckles were white from the pressure of it all.. he had clearly staggered back here a bit to quickly…and he was paying for it.. wave after wave of that striking pain was running right between his temples…it was making him grimace and groan but he would not call out for help ..no he knew the cook was going to retrieve his bag.. he’d find something in there that would at least take the edge off.. he would just need to be patient for a moment or two.. surely the cook wouldn’t be long.. he hadn’t hidden his bag away..yet it seemed like it was taking forever.. her yelp though.. oh god that made his knees just about buckle when he gripped that bench top tight enough to make the wood edging splinter..before he felt her smooth warm fingers cradling against his cheeks.. her voice came at him as if she were caught in a tunnel somewhere.. his brows furrowed further.. he wouldn’t release that bench top so willingly nor quickly.. it would take him a moment before he would just sink down to sit there upon one of the chairs- ..please.. don’t.... he whispered.. exhaling a long and deep breath.. his voice was just shattered..broken.. crackling as if he’d been eating gravel..he’d blink a few times.. focusing on her as she shifted around.. or more so he attempted to.. her speedy movements just made his head spin so he allowed his lids to tumble closed.. deciding it would be best to just listen rather than see.. he winced and tensed up considerably when he felt that cool wet towel pressing to the bruising.. it took perhaps a moment.. maybe two before the immediate sting of the cool fabric would disappear and be replaced with something a bit more soothing for the nerves.. he heard her trail off there.. his chest rose and fell as he took quiet yet quite deep breaths.. his shoulders sunk and he seemed to slump in that seat a little lower than he had when he first settled.. - .. I’m fine.... he whispered.. clearing his throat.. the door opening then the cook returning rather apologetically for the delay before placing that bag down upon the table..the cook nodded and quickly made himself sparce.. leaving the pair of them to their privacy.. that pained look crossed his features once more as he winced ..reaching around to pick open the latch upon the top of the bag.. though doing actions such as this with your eyes closed never really worked so well.. and he was growing frustrated and a touch flistered by it all..- .. please.. can you get out the little tin of willowbark.... he whispered- ..and one of the tiny vials of heather spirit.... he exhaled..his hands rose up to rake back through his hair there..if she got out those few items for him he would slide the bark between his teeth.. chewing slowly upon it before he would break the top of the tiny vial.. downing its contents with quite a grimace and a distasteful look..- . I.... he hesitated.. tilting his head in the direction he figured she would be in- .. I don’t know what happened.. I really don’t remember.. .. he felt her shifting that now not so cool towel down from his eye.. to rub across his chest and he knew in that moment just what she was doing.. so he grabbed her wrist.. shaking his head just a touch.. or more so with as much strength as he could muster- .. I don’t deserve your help in that regard.. .. he whispered.. rubbing his lips together lightly.. the taste of that heather remaining like a horrible gluey medicine.. - .. I remember going.. through the portal with the three others.. I remember going to a Tavern..t hat was loud.. and smokey.. it was quite busy.. everyone seemed to be having a good time.. .. his fingers released the hold upon her wrists there only to spred out to take if she would allow it.. her hand..to intertwine their fingers-..I remember Nautilous ordering some kind of liquor that involved tiny little cups..and ale and things that tasted horrible.. that whoever finished their drink last would have to order the next round.. .. he held up his hand- .. I’m really not much of a drinker.. you know this.. .. he tried in vain to laugh but he thought better off it quite quickly..- .. the night wore on.. and there was more drinks.. plenty of nonsensical chatter amongst men.. before it just all seems to go hazey and.. .. the willowbark was doing well tot ake the edge off.. little by little he was finding he could open his eyes without their being strikes of pain shooting through his temples.. he could see her there before him.. her outline at first..before those duo coloured eyes would focus further and he could look upon her properly.. though the right eye was a little on the swollen side.. - .. I’m sorry Rose.. I don’t .. he exhaled shaking his head.. glancing down to her small hand in his there..- .. I can only go on what others have told me.. since my own memory is failing me miserably.. and it would appear that I have made a great deal many mistakes in this one evening alone..and I don’t recall any of it.. I will have to speak with Nautilous or Garafin.. maybe even Diovan.. someone must know what happened.. I was told I got into a fight.. defending a young womans honour.. that she was being abused by her suitor.. .. his brows furrowed.. he lifted his free hand there and he reached to cradle her cheek.. to lightly brush his fingers across her softly coloured cheek- ..and that I escorted her home apparently.. .. he exhaled.. he drew his hand away from hers.. away from her cheek there only to reach to hold the sides of his head and he would just bend clear at the waist.. sliding those fingers back behind his neck ..his forehead was practically down toward his knees.. he was having trouble with all of it- ..
(00:48:19 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *She had come in from her bath, with nothing more on her mind than trying to figure out how to settle her stomach, hoping with a more settled tummy she could worry about the other things that were a mess in her mind. She needed to do something, she felt washed out, bleached white from crying as she had been. She didn’t know what to do, what she could do, not with so much of her mind being a complete mess that she couldn’t distinguish dreams from reality anymore… The entire night she had had nightmares, just one after another, after another after another… It left her a wreck, but even so she had things she needed to do, and that meant she had no other option but to try and find some sort of a medium inside herself to start to work from. She had only just came into the kitchen when she found Jacob standing there, no shirt on, with a shiner that rivaled any she had seen before. Of course she was worried about him, that was her first reaction, and she had come over to his side immediately after putting Pia down onto the table. She would cradle his face gently in her hands, asking him what had happened, because you don’t get a black eye like that all too easily. She would gently guide him to sit down in a seat, standing up like that wasn’t going to do him any favors, and he was so much taller than her that she would have a hard time helping him with anything if he remained so. She would go to the sink there, looking for a clean towel to run under some ice cold spring water, before she would come back and lightly hold it over that black eye. She had heard him ask her not to, but hell if she was going to listen to him, he obviously wasn’t in his right mind. She saw him tense up, that wince cross over his features as she lightly pressed the cold cloth to his face, and her heart really did go out to him. She had started to ask him a few questions, her voice was soft and soothing as she did so, though her words trialed off when she saw those kiss marks up and down his neck and chest. He told her he was fine, though she would have normally called him on his bologna under any other circumstances, but right now she really wasn’t up for a battle. She watched cook come in, carrying Jacob’s medical bag, setting it down near them… then he just… Ran… Disappeared… She remembered cook being very kind and warm, eager to be helpful, loving being around people… Yet he was acting as if she had the plague but she had no idea why… She turned to watch him try to open his bag with his eyes closed, and failing rather miserably really, and she just shook her head. She would open it for him, and as he requested, pulled out the proper vials for him. She knew the willow bark, he had given some of it to her just yesterday when she had been feeling so ill. She watched him take a sliver of that willow bark, before he would pop the top off of the heather, downing the later with a disgusted look on his face. She had begun to wipe down the marks on his chest there before he would grab her wrist, and her first instinct, the immediate one would have been to of have yanked her hand free and slapped him. Instead she stayed still, let him talk, not interrupting him as she remained utterly silent. It sounded like the typical boys night out to her, it wasn’t exactly unusual for at least one of the guys to go black out drunk, especially the light weights as they tried to keep up with the heavier hitting friends… He would release her wrist then, to move to link his fingers with hers, and she couldn’t deny him…. She just held his hand like that, listening as he spoke, watching him open those eys once more so he could look at her. It sounded like he had just hit the place they call black out drunk, and that the guys had left him to his own devices a bit too much, rather than looking out for him as they should have… She had trusted them to take care of Jacob… and instead of doing that, they had brought him back hung over from a black out drunk, with a shiner and covered in lipstick… He was apologizing to her then, broken as it was, it was still an apology…*”Sybelle told me it isn’t…. uncommon for elves to take a lover or two during their… during their engagement… It’s seen as a way to…test the waters, to make sure that what they are feelings is true, and not just lust… You… You just followed tradition Jacob… and if I want to be a part of this world, a true follower of Hanali… Then I can’t judge you like a human would…”*She sighed softly, feeling his hand come up, to cradle her cheek, telling her than he took this young woman home…. He released her hand and her cheek, bending over at the waist there, raking his fingers through his hair… She could leave him there, miserable in the fact that he had slept around on her, it wouldn’t be a difficult thing to do… It wouldn’t be her though… She wasn’t like that…*”Jacob… You have come back, smelling like sex and another woman, with a black eye that’s the worst I’ve ever seen… I want to get mad yes… I want to rip into you, to tell you how much it hurts, but any right I have to that is gone… I wrote Ace yesterday… I told him that I would give him a month to see Pia… Pia… she is…. She is Aces daughter…. And Mine….”*She would say softly before she just rather broke down, just crumbed to the floor there, curling in on herself.*”He saved my life, and I thought maybe… maybe if someone gave him a chance… A chance to be good that he could be… I don’t want him in Pia’s life but I though he had a right to see her… even if just for a little while… I wanted to give him a chance for a month while you were here with me, where if things went bad you could protect us, and if they went good… If they went good you might… “*She broke down a bit more, her fingers curling into her robe there, gripping it all that much tighter.*”He threatened me when we met up… told me that he would tell everyone Pia was his… he would ruin her chances of having a happy, loving life just because he didn’t like that I was only giving him a month… I was so…so scared he would tell you, that you would hate Pia…. That you would hate me… He...”*She bit down another sob , trying to hold it all together as best she could, but she was slipping.*”I told him no… I told him no so many times but he didn’t listen… He gave me something… I don’t know what but… but I just stopped being able to say no… I don’t remember much else… it fades in and out… I just…”
(00:48:29 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *She shook her head gently, rising to her knees there before him, her head hanging lowly.*”Don’t you see? How can I have any, any right to be mad at you Jacob, when what I have done is so much worse? I didn’t tell you about Pia, even after I found out, because I was afraid you would hate us… How can I accuse you of infidelity when… I don’t even know if I can call it rape… I don’t know if being drugged up and saying yes makes or ok… I just don’t know… and all I want to do right now… Is run… I’m terrified… I am terrified and I want to run so the pain cant reach me…. So that I can pretend that you would still want me, that we are still engaged, that I didn’t loose everything that mattered to be on a stupid wish that I could do something right…”
(03:37:40 )
…The..Curse..Ends..Here…
Dr. Jacob Anikin
..Stop trying to fix yourself, you’re not broken..
..You are perfectly imperfect, and powerful beyond measure..
says to ‡Ţŕįʼn: . she was being so very caring toward him in that moment.. and it was more than he felt he deserved..he was littered in the lipstick prints of another woman.. and he just stunk of sex.. he had picked up on that perfume.. all of it on his journey back to the house.. it was yet another reason he refused to put his shirt and blazer on.. so far as he was concerned those items of clothing were a complete lost cause.. he wouldn’t be wearing those again.. she applied that cool compress there.. right to his forehead.. to His eye.. above that horrible purple looking bruise.. he naturally winced not quite expecting it and since his eyes were closed at that point he didn’t even catch sight of her movement.. it stung like a bitch at first.. and the willowbark in combination with the heather was taking its sweet time to kick in.. soon though it was helping.. most definitely.. he was unsure on just what to tell her.. what to explain as he himself was really still at quite a loss on just what had occurred.. he could only go on what this young woman had said.. and the evidence that was all around him.. he woke up in her bed for goodness sakes.. with her wrapped all around him like a long thin strand of spaghetti.. he was covered in her kisses.. his clothing was just strewn to the side.. her story on the reason for the black eye certainly made some sense.. he would naturally step in if someone was being assaulted Especially a woman.. just the reasons why.. that was where he was having trouble.. he was sure even with the serious lack of straight thinking..surely he wouldn’t just stray like that.. it made no sense.. he adored his fiancé.. his sweet Rose.. why he didn’t even look twice at the women around him.. not even at the Tavern.. so why then would he just up and escort someone home only to end up in their bed?..oh his head ached just trying to come up with the answers for it..he thanked her softly when she aided him in getting those supplies out of his bag.. he would have normally done such on his own.. but he could barely see more than half a metre infront of him.. he exhaled.. his shoulders and head sunk lower.. he just felt so bad.. he felt horrible and it had nothing to do with the physicality of his wounds or his hang over.. she went to wipe down those marks on his chest and he stopped her.. he didn’t want her to be worrying about removing marks of another woman.. that’s just disgraceful .. she should never Ever have to do such a thing.. not for the rest of her life.. Ever.. his hold on her wrists was a little tighter than it perhaps should have been and when realisation struck him he quickly released.. only to take her small hands in his.. to caress and interlace his own fingers.. he tried in earnest to explain to her what had happened.. or.. what he thought had happened.. a lot of it just kept coming out wrong.. he was finally able to open those eyes of his and he looked up to her there.. he could smell the oils upon her.. she had recenlt bathed.. and she looked like an angel.. everything about her just sparkled.. the fact that she was just so stunningly beautiful just made his heart ache all the more.. she spoke softly on what Sybelle had told her.. that it wasn’t uncommon for elves to take lovers during their engagements.. he shook his head- .. it’s true.. yes.. .. his voice crackled a little more there.. and he did well to clear his throat - .. up to that year.. elves often do.. tangle with others.. sometimes of the same sex or opposite.. just daliances on the side.. it means nothing really.. more so testing the waters so to speak.. to make sure the heart is in the right place.. but no.. no.. please Rose.. I.... he exhaled.. his hands rose as he rubbed his forehead.. wincing as he remembered the bruising there and his hands fell back to his sides.. he took hers once more.. to hold to squeeze just lightly- .. I have no interest in taking a lover.. none what so ever.. I hadn’t before we got engaged.. and I haven’t now that we are engaged.. some do like to wander.. to experiment.. I’m just not that kind of person.. .. his brows furrowed- not that there is anything wrong with it.. it’s how things are done and have been done for centuries.. and it’s worked just fine..my heart..my body.. my soul.. all of it.. belongs to you.. it’s why I can’t understand whats happened.. I just.. .. he was getting visibly upset in that moment and it was when he dipped his head down toward his knees.. sliding his hands up behind his head.. fingers interlacing there at the base of his neck.. - .. You have all the rights in the world to get mad at me.. to rip into me.. to yell and scream.. and walk right on out.. You do and you can.. I wouldn’t blame you for it.. .. he swallowed.. lifting his head slowly..he fell silent though when she mentioned Ace.. that she wrote to him.. he looked confused.. utterly and completely so.. he reached for her hands as she spoke.. visibly shocked when she said Pia was Ace’s daughter- ..I’m not sure I understand.... he tilted his head.. listening to her a little longer.. she said that Pia was the baby born from her and Ace- .. I didn’t think you....he was referring to gathering she had lost all her children.. - .. sorry.. I shouldn’t be interrupting.. please.. go on.... he exhaled.. nodding a little..she went on to explain that Ace had saved her life.. he remembered Ace doing so when he brought her back to the house.. so he at least was on the level of understanding there..the chance to be good though he didn’t quite understand.. he slowly caressed her fingers as she spoke.. just lightly against the sides of her palms.. her thumbs.. she spoke on giving Ace some time while he was there so he could protect her if it was necessary.. he tilted his head when she didn’t finish her sentence.. he felt her tense up a little- .. if they went good I might?.
(03:37:46 )
…The..Curse..Ends..Here…
Dr. Jacob Anikin
..Stop trying to fix yourself, you’re not broken..
..You are perfectly imperfect, and powerful beyond measure..
says to ‡Ţŕįʼn: .. he prompted her..his tone was soft.. still quite crackled and stuttered.. though his confusion turned into frustration laced with anger when she said Ace had threatened her when they met up.. spouting that he’d tell the world about Pia..and that in effect he would hate Pia and then her.. his gaze lifted.. watching as her expressions began to change and she started to sob.. just a little at first.. he caught the hitching in her voice.. the sudden breath changes.. all of it.. oh she was growing upset- .. Oh Rose.. .. he sighed.. his anger turned to concern as he listened further.. about her telling Ace no.. but that he must have drugged her or something along those lines.. her memory in that moment was much like his own.. broken.. was a horrible horrible night for everyone..she had crumbled down onto the floor there.. balling herself up as she continued to grow further and further upset.. he reached down.. fighting against the spinning room.. ignoring the jabbing pain of needles there upon his temples as he drew her up onto his lap there.. sliding his arms around her.. drawing her head to rest there upon his shoulder as he slowly stroked his fingers down the length of her back and arms.. he exhaled long.. deeply.. his eyes closed as he just rested his head against hers.. he sat there with her in silence for a while.. just allowing the world to go on around them.. ignoring all and sundry.. the sounds of the birds outside.. the tea pot boiling.. all of it.. - .. I could never.. ever hate you or Pia..ever.. you are my light and she is my angel, and unless you want to walk away from me.. which.. after last night I couldn’t blame you.. I’m not going anywhere.. .. he whispered so softly.. it was almost a whisper really.. barely heard.. barely spoken- ..Promise me something.... he whispered..- .. if I may of course ask of you this.. .. he drew her around a little.. sliding a few fingers beneath her chin.. tilting her head up to look to him there- .. if you need to go and see Ace again.. you will take someone with you.. .. his lids half closed.. he leant in to press his lips to her forehead.. he wasn’t even going to talk about what had happened between her and Ace.. he didn’t even really know where to start.. he didn’t think him getting angry.. or frustrated was going to help matters at all.. it would just make things worse and he knew all she needed right now.. was to feel safe and secure.. and if he could do one thing right on this day.. it would be that.. he would make sure she felt.. safe.. he tightened his hold around her a little more- .. I remember.. .. his chin came down to rest there upon the top of her head there as he pulled her in a little closer- .. when I was a bit younger.. I was sketching when I came across one of my Mothers art books.. Caela had given a few to me.. to peruse at my leisure.. to maybe give me a little bit of insight into the kind of person she was.. and there.. written at the bottom of a page.. beneath a drawing of Caela and Garafin.. was a quote.. that I feel.. is quite possibly very apt to this situation we have found ourselves in.. .. he took another deep breath.. releasing it very slowly - .. it said.. that behind every happy couple, lies two people who have fought hard to overcome all obstacles and interferences. .. he slowly stroked his fingers along her arm there- .. Why? Because their relationship is important to them.. .. another quiet breath taken- .. You are my world.. my centre.. I need you Rose.. please forgive me
(06:03:02 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *She had picked up on the smells of sex that came off of him, the lipstick marks, the light scoring of a set of nails down his back… She hadn’t missed them no, but she could decide how she reacted to them, at least so long as she had her mental faculties… Though in truth, if all this stuff kept up as it had been, she wasn’t quite sure how long she would have them, the lines were getting too muddied in her head lately for her to think all that clearly lately. Still, just because he came home like this, it didn’t make her just stop loving him. She had gotten that bit of cloth and gotten it soaked in that nice ice cold water, wringing it out in the sink before coming back to his side, to gently press that nice cold cloth gently against his face. She watched him wince and she felt a stab of regret, but she knew it would help, it had to… At the very least it would help with the swelling, and take some of the heat from the injury there, giving him a little bit of relief. She had pulled out the willow and heather for him as he had asked, watching him medicate himself, knowing he would know the best thing for what he was feeling today. His gentle thank you was kind, though unneeded, she would do anything for him if he needed it… He had started to explain, in little starts and stops, what had happened… She didn’t want to hear it, she didn’t need to heart it, knowledge was pain at times after all… She began to wipe away at those red lipstick stains over his skin there, just wanting to remove them all, to erase any proof of what ever happened to him last night. When she caught Nautilous and Diovan, she would beat the ever loving hell out of both of them, for not looking out for Jacob when she trusted them to do so. She felt his grab her wrists to stop her, telling her no, to not remove those marks from him and she just felt a spark of anger at it all. She wanted to scream and rage and yell honestly, she wanted to allow herself to get good and angry, to yell about it all… But she didn’t… She waited, not pulling away as he held her wrists, and she didn’t pull her hands away when he linked their fingers, causing her to drop that wet towel. She listened as he got a bit more of the events out, and she related what Sybelle had told her, but more along the lines of what Ace had laid out for her in no uncertain terms. He had even joked about this very event happening, of Jacob getting himself good and fucked by another woman, asking how she would take it. She told him that so long as Jacob was happy, that was all that mattered to her, that she trusted him… And she did… She trusted Jacob in a way she would never trust anyone else… She had no idea how she looked to him there, that he thought she was stunningly beautiful, that she just glittered for him in his vision. She just refused to see him, to see anyone, after what Ace had done… She wouldn’t go stinking of him, she would rather scrub her skin right off than do that. She wouldn’t blame Jacob though, she couldn’t, not for what had happened to him. If he did take a dalliance on the side, then she wouldn’t hold it against him, it was his culture after all… He confirmed both Ace and Sybelle’s words, that it was quite common for there to be a dalliance or a few on the side, but he vehemently denied he had any interest in such a thing. He had no idea honestly, just how that made her feel, how that soothed a painful fear that had been gnawing on her poor mind since Sybelle had mentioned it. Her voice was just as soft as his, just as delicate as she spoke, her fingers falling from his to gently rest on his thighs.*”I don’t want anyone else either… Not because such an act is alien to me, giving the world I have grown up in, nothing quite so simplistic… I don’t want anyone else because I am yours… I have found my perfect mate… He just happened to come riding up to save my life one day, and I’ve been falling in love with him all over again, every single day… This… What ever happened… I refuse to let it hurt me… There is one thing of mine you have Jacob, that no one else ever will, and that is my complete trust…”*It was why, unlike with Ace, she didn’t feel that panicked overwhelming fear at what she saw. She didn’t think Jacob had slept with another woman, and even if he did, she didn’t think he would just abandon her or toss her to the side for it. With Ace… Ace gave her no such security… She told him she wanted to just rage at him, and she was not a person often prone to anger, yet she felt the desire to just shred into him for it… She didn’t for two reasons… One being that she didn’t honestly thing she could do it to hi, she loved him so much, so very very deeply that the idea of raising her voice to him in anger was utterly alien to her. The second was what she was telling him, that she had written to Ace, and after that… After that the truth about Pia… Why Pia looked so much like her, how she had come out with such strong elvin features, why she had hidden it away… She understood his confusion, she had been confused herself for a while in truth, wondering how she had survived… It took Nautilous explaining it to her before she truly grasped it, and then she often caught herself staring in wonder at the sweet little baby girl of hers, how she had somehow come home despite every odd stacked against her.*”I did… I lost them all Jacob… When I first met Ace… He ended up using some very powerful magic to save a womans life… But that sort of magic comes at a cost… While he saved her… I went down… I was taken to Naggoth… To Khorn… I was to be one of his brides… Nautilous… he saved me… But not without his own cost… In exchange for saving me… he would get my first born… All of this decided between Ace and Nautilous… When I met Sydel for the first time… The white haired woman you saw that night… She beat me pretty badly… And between her and… someone else… I won’t say who… I ended up having my first miscarriage… That was the firstborn… Nautilous had taken her… kept her alive… and when the time was right… dropped her at the orphanage where he knew I would find her, find her and take her home… Pia is that baby, my little girl, my angel… As much as she is mine though… she is Ace’s too…”*she would go on with what she needed to tell him, saying that the reason she was trying to give Ace a chance, was because he had saved her life. She had wanted to give Ace a chance to be something else, to not be this dark, manipulative man she was coming to see more and more…
(06:03:14 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *She felt his hands atop her own, gently stroking them, letting her know he was there without being pushy or overwhelming. She told him she had hoped that the meeting would go well, that Ace would want to get to know Pia, would at least try to understand why she was putting the limit on his time around her the way she was… That she had a hope that he might… She hadn’t finished that sentence no, and she heard the question there, her heart was just breaking there and it was making her crumble.*”If Ace wasn’t like he proved himself to be… That you might let him see Pia more… You are, forever to me Jacob, Pia’s father… But I can’t help but wonder if maybe… maybe part of the reason Ace is as bad as he is, is because no one has given him the chance to be something else…. It’s why I stuck with him even when he wasn’t to be seen, even when he said some very, very cruel things… He told me that… I knew nothing of how he cared for his children, because if he didn’t… If he didn’t he wouldn’t have brought you to Caela and Garafin to be raised up in a home where you would be loved…”*It had made her think then, think about his actions, his reactions to everything… He seemed to genuinely be interested in Pia, but at the same time she honestly couldn’t be sure, not when he had wrapped her around his finger and drugged her to get his own way… She told him Ace’s threat, to tell everyone about Pia, and how he would turn it into a nasty all out custody war… That she would be going against many of Arvandors traditions, that it was never done, keeping a parent from a child here… She told him then that Ace had drugged her with something, because she remembered telling him no, telling him no multiple times before she just stopped… She couldn’t remember much, just flashes here and there, and none of them were good. She began to draw inwards as she broke, the weight of everything finally falling in, and she was collapsing under it. She felt him draw her up into his lap then, wrapping his arms around her as she curled into him, crying into his shoulder. She didn’t cry often, she didn’t like it, it just made everything worse… She clung to him anyways, just letting it all out, everything that she thought she had been done with in the pool outside but apparently wasn’t. She was quiet as she cried, as quiet as she could be, but she wasn’t able to stop the way her breath kept catching or the muted little shattered cries of pain as it all came out. Over her crying, she heard him say he could never hate her or Pia, that he wasn’t going anywhere unless she walked away. She shook her head violently there, her fingers curling in to grip him gently, just wishing she could get small enough to just slide into his chest and rest there forever. *”I… am not… going Ah-ah-anywhere… I can’t…. live without you… you’re my soul mate… Leaving you… I would…have to cut…out my own heart…”*She heard the whisper, his request for her to promise him something, that id she ever went to see Ace again that she would take someone with her.*”I promise….”*She certainly wasn’t going to venture to meet him alone again, it was all too apparent from last night that she couldn’t trust him to be civil, and in all honesty she didn’t see a reason to let him anywhere near them again. She felt his lips to her forehead then, and she curled in even closer, just holding him as tightly as she dared. She shifted a bit, feeling him rest his head over her own, to cradle his chin in the crown of her hair as he spoke… she listened to his words, just soft little sounds of her hiccups and uncontrollable yawns. She felt the tears just start all over again when he said he needed her, to please forgive him, as if there was anything to forgive.*”There is nothing to forgive Jacob… Last night… it never happened… Whatever it was, whoever it was with, just a bad dream… I believe you when you say you love me, and I trust you when you say you would never do that willingly… I love you Jacob Anikin… I want to marry you… I want to spend all of this life and all of the next with you…”*She meant every single word of it too, sometimes bad things happen to good people, sometimes things are out of our control… She wouldn’t make Jacob suffer because he had had a black out, it wasn’t his fault what happened, it was however the boys fault for not watching him closer… She was starting to calm down just a little bit, her fingers finding and curling into his, holding them tightly.*”Jacob… can you take me… to the hall of records when we can…please… There is something…very important I need to look up… Ace told me that… if I found this information before he did… Then he would leave us alone Jacob…he would leave and never, ever come back… Will you…. Will you take me there, to… to let me find this information…?”
(06:58:25 )
…The..Curse..Ends..Here…
Dr. Jacob Anikin
..Stop trying to fix yourself, you’re not broken..
..You are perfectly imperfect, and powerful beyond measure..
says to ‡Ţŕįʼn: ..he wrapped his arms around her there.. drawing her in nice and close to him.. rocking her when he felt she needed it.. he could feel those little trembles.. the soft shuddering when she sobbed and cried.. he just wanted her to get it all out.. all that sadness.. that gret.. the fear.. all of it.. so long as she understood he wasn’t going anywhere..he would forever remain there.. at her side.. he had explained to her that he was not one to wander.. it was not in his nature.. he had no desire.. his heart settled with her..only to then hear her say the same.. that she had no interest in wandering either.. that he had her complete trust.. something no one else will ever have.. he pressed his lips to the side of her head there.. a light delicate kiss.. barely there really..she explained about Pia and how it was Aces child.. he told her of his confusion on that front.. and how he was under the impression that she had lost all her children.. especially considering she just about lost her life.. she explained it though.. how Nautilous had a hand in it all.. and how Ace had done to her.. what he had done to Sybelle…sending the pair of them off to Naggaroth without so much as a second thought.. that mans disregard for anyone elses life really weighed on his nerves.. - .. I don’t really know Ace so well.. not.. properly in any rate.. but from what I have seen and heard.. he is quite the Master manipulator.. if he is the father of Pia then here..in Arvandor he does have some rights in regards to seeing her ..and to making sure of her welfare.... he nodded- ,/i>.. though.. those rights do not extend to him taking her from you unless you pass away before we are married.. .. he shook hishead- .. I will be with you from now on.. if he calls upon you again to see her.. I will be there beside you.. or in failing that.. Nautilous.. Garafin.. anyone.. .. he caressed his fingers through her hair there.. just gentle touches.. light- .. He simply cant be trusted I see this.. we all do.. and I would never.. ever forgive myself if something happened to you.... he spoke to her then on things he had learnt from his mother.. and asking once more for her forgiveness.. practically begging her for it..before she just broke down in his arms.. he could hear her breathing hitching.. he could feel the trembling.. all of it.. before she spoke.. with her quiet broken voice that she wasn’t going anywhere.. that she couldn’t live without him.. his heart settled a little further when she said there was nothing to forgive.. that last night it never happened.. that it was simply all a bad dream.. that she loved him.. she wanted to marry him.. to spend all of this life and the next with him.. his lids tumbled closed as he rested his chin atop her head once more.. he would still hold that guilt there for quite a while.. and it would probably be quite some time before he even considered touching a single drop of alcohol.. but her words.. they meant the world to him.. - .. I adore you Rose.. .. he’d whisper softly.. - .. utterly and completely… I will never.. ever misuse that trust you have so willingly offered me.. I promise to hold that heart of yours as close to mine own.. in this life and the next.. we will be wed in a little under a year.. or.. perhaps a little over depending on when the little ones arrive.. .. he could tell she was starting to calm a little.. her breathing was becoming a touch more on the regular side.. his fingers would continue those soft stroking motions.. just down her back.. along her arms.. through her hair..she spoke on wanting him to take her to the hall of records.. that there was something she needed to look up.. something very important.. and that Ace had mentioned something about it.. with the possibility that if she got their first.. he would leave her be.. completely.. his brows furrowed a touch- why yes of course love I can take you there whenever you like.. you just need to tell me when you need to go.. it will have to be before the winterfest though as the records hall tends to close up for the duration of that event.. the guides also preferring to let their hair down.. we can go today if you’d like.. ..he was curious indeed as to her reasoning to going toward those records.. perhaps it had something to do with Pia?- .. can I ask why?.. don’t feel you have to tell me of course.. I wont hold it against you either way.. call it simply curiosity.. is it perhaps something to do with little miss Pia?.... the willowbark and heather had worked perfectly by this point.. he was only really left with that painful niggle.. that slight burning sensation and the heat left behind from the bruising.. the scratching on his back though.. it kind of stung as he leant back against the wooden backed chair.. his heart had settled back into a more regular rhythm .. he was able to calm down ..to let his body do what it was supposed to.. to heal.. to deal with that horrible hangover .. whilst he was seated it was ok.. he feared getting up however.. everytime he did so the room did well to spin.. and that feeling was not one he would forget anytime soon.. - ..could you do me a favour love?....he spoke softly- .. as much as I want to sit here with you.. curled up like this forever.. I.. . he exhaled- .. I think I really need to bathe and get out of these clothes.... he could still smell that perfume.. and it was doing well to attack his senses.. and he was not liking it very much at all.. he just wanted to get in that water and scrub every single inch of his skin till he looked and smelt much more like himself.. - .. could you help me back to the bath house?.. I fear if I stand up right now.. I’m just going to fall flat on my face.. whilst the willow and heather do well to take away the ache.. it’s more like a bandage.. just covering up the real issues there.. and balance.. no.. . he shook his head- .. I staggered the whole way home.. I don’t want to wake up half the inn trying to make my way down that corridor..
(09:28:33 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *She was curled in close to him in his lap, somehow he always knew when she needed him the most, just the perfect way to hold her to keep her from breaking… She hadn’t wanted to break down in front of him, but it had all come out there, his own guilt at what happened to him had spurned her own until she couldn’t bear it. She had told him what had happened to her, everything with Ace recently, and the truth about Pia… He hadn’t done anything wrong in her mind, he hadn’t gone out looking for a bit of tail intentionally, he had gone black out drunk and that wasn’t his fault. She would however, have several choice words to say to Garafin and Nautilous, Especially Garafin… She expected Nautilous to be a bit of a bad influence, but that could be good for Jacob in a way because he would get to enjoy things he had never done before, but she hoped he would be careful enough to ensure Jacob remained unhurt. Garafin should have been there as the fail safe, the guarantee she had, and if HE failed… Then at least Dio… She had seen the group he was going with, and she trusted them all to some extent, and they had all let her down. She had answered his question about how Pia had managed to exist, since she had told him the truth, that she had lost all her children and nearly been lost right along with them… She told him the entire event, though she didn’t say anything on how since then she was terrified of the color red, or how it was that event that had caused her night terrors. Her shoulders fell a bit when he said that Ace was right though… That Pia, being Ace’s daughter, made him entitled to certain rights… She had hoped he was lying about that, or making it into something more than it was, but no… Jacob would never lie to her, and because she knew that, she had to accept the facts. She shook her head softly, her voice was a little broken, she didn’t like knowing that Pia could be put in such a perilous position.*”Ace… Ace is very manipulative… He can make you feel like hell, then turn it around, make it so that you think he isn’t responsible for a single moment of it… When we got into arguments, it was always my fault, my…. Inability to understand… I was too judgmental or too close minded… I always felt that it was my fault, that I had to be perfect, always perfect… Yet he can sit there and like flipping a switch, make you feel like you are the most important person to him in existence, just pulling the rug out right under you so your heads just completely turned… I think… I think that’s what gets women drawn to him… We all think there is something there we can fix… but I don’t think he is broken… I think he just enjoys the game too much…”*She shook her head a bit there, genuinely surprised at herself, for not only saying it but for the fact she believed it too… She might have to look at that a bit closer… Perhaps the fact that he was threatening her baby, that just shattered a part of the hold he had on her, made her rear back and bare her fangs a bit.*”Jacob… If anything happens… If anything happens to me because of the babies, or even without them, but if I ever come close to death… I don’t want to force you but… Please.. Marry me then… I don’t want Ace to have any rights to Pia… She’s my sweetheart, my little sunshine, she’s everything and more… She’s brilliant, she’s special, she’s so beautiful that it almost hurts to look at her… I don’t want to see her warped… I want her to only know a life of joy and sunshine if I can… and if I die… I know you would do everything, everything you could for our little girl, to give her the best life possible…”*After all, she had come close to death so many times it was almost like an old friend, they damn near shared tea and crumpets at this point… Yet somehow someone always drug her back, Jacob was always there for her, to drag her back from the end of death… He just held her perfectly, so sweet and gentle, running his fingers through her hair and over her arms as he just settled down every frayed nerve… She nodded when he said that Ace couldn’t be trusted, that she was never to see him alone again, that it would be him or Nautilous or Garafin who would be with her from now on. She shivered a bit there, she didn’t want to think Ace would arrange an accident for her, to kill her so he could get Pia… She didn’t want to think it was possible… But she had also seen him go into such a rage that he had almost snapped a woman’s neck, holding her up and off the ground against the wall, and she didn’t think she had much better chances than that woman had… He had asked her to forgive him, and she could see, she could feel just how badly this was eating him up inside. She knew exactly how that felt, because she had been feeling that the moment Ace told her that her dream… hadn’t been a dream… It had eaten away at her inside for some time, making her wonder about who’s children she carried, and if they were Aces, at how unfair it would be to Jacob… He would love her, marry her, and she would never be able to give him children if these two weren’t his… Ace had taken enough from her, he couldn’t take these ones too… She told him that he didn’t need forgiven… To her, last night was just a bad dream, she wouldn’t ever remember it from this day forth… She loved him, she adored her tin soldier, he was her everything and she couldn’t imagine a single hour without him with her… Even if they were apart, even if they said not a single word to the other, just knowing he was alive and well… That was all she needed… She told him she trusted him completely, utterly, without fault… And he in turn swore h would never abuse it, that he would hold her heart next to his own, for this life and the next… *”I think a little before my love… Even with me being sick as often as I have been they’re growing so fast… I wouldn’t be surprised if I started to feel them moving within the next month or so… I don’t think I will last a year Jacob, not really… I’m already small to start with after all, and with twins?... Though remember my beloved, I promised you I would wait as long as you needed to, to know that I am the one you truly want to be with… One year or twenty… so long as you are with me? I can wait… You are worth it… Well worth it….”
(09:28:44 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
: *She had asked him if he could take her to the hall of records, she wanted to look up a few things honestly, and the chance to push Ace out of their lives permanently was a chance she wasn’t going to pass up on. Did she love Ace? Yes. Did that mean she was going to give him another second of her time, or another chance to ruin her family, her future? Not a snowballs chance in hell. He said he would take her, that of course he would, that they could go today if she wanted to…. Which for her honestly, would be incredibly ideal because they had only made the bet last night, and if she could get there and do it all… She would throw it in his face, and tell him to honor his word, and to leave her, Jacob, and Pia alone forever… She wasn’t prepared for his question though, asking why she wanted to go, especially since she had never really asked before… Should she tell him the truth? Or part of it? Or nothing at all?... She hated lying, she had done enough of it in the last few months to make her physically ill, to the point that she felt like the world was going to crash down around her… And these lies weren’t even for her, but for other people, to help them maintain their own sort of reality until it stabilized… She sat silent for a moment there, trying to figure out what to do about it.*”Can I… just wait to tell you until I can get the answer first? It isn’t that I am trying to lie to you, or to skirt your question, but I don’t want to tell you anything without knowing all the facts of something first… Though it does in part have something to do with Pia… I want to figure out her birthday… To see when my baby would have been born, or if she even has one, since I didn’t actually give birth to her… If she doesn’t, then I wanted us to pick a birthday for her, something special just for her, a little sign of our love for her that only we will know of…”*She felt him starting to relax, just as she was, and she had to rather sit in wonder of it… Was this what it was like then, when you were with your true love, that person you were supposed to spend your life with? So long as she and Jacob were together, everything somehow managed to work out between the two of them, like nothing bad could ever stay around them so long as they were hand in hand. She heard his request for her assistance, to help him get to the bathing house, that he wanted to get out of those clothes… She understood that well, Goddess knows she had scrubbed herself so hard it had hurt this morning, wanting to remove everything from the night before like a layer of dirt and grime she could scrape off if she tried hard enough. She didn’t mind helping him at all, in all honesty if she had to spend one more moment smelling that bitches scent on Jacob, she would drag him out there herself. She slid silently from his lap there, padding over on those little slippered feet to pick Pia up from the table where she was still sleeping, curled up on her side and wrapped in her little blanket.*”Trade me then? I woke up with our little beastie in bed with me somehow, and I can’t find Caela, so if you hold our baby I will in turn give you my shoulder… We will make it nice and quiet up the hallway, and get you in the bath in no time, though I demand rights to wash your hair and your back… Call it part of the bride purchase…”*She would wait until he would stand up, to give him Pia if he felt up to holding her, and if not she would hold her in one arm while the other would loop around Jacobs waist and they would head out. As they would walk up the hallway, she had a question for him, something that had niggled at her since Ace mentioned it.*”Jacob… Pia hasn’t been feeding like normal for about two weeks now… She seems to be tapering off, and she’s started to look rather interested in things like porridge and fruits and bits of other things… Is she already ready to be weaned off?... If she is… what can I do about… Well… you know… It’s going to be a while before it dries up, and I am not too keen on the pain that is going to happen until it does… I thought… I really thought Pia would take a bit longer to wean off, that it would be closer to when the babies would be born, not months early…”*They would reach the bathhouse then, and she would guide him over to where the baskets were for him to change, while she set up another little box for Pia to sleep in as she had when she had her own bath, still not certain about her sleeping so much… She was always such a sweet baby, she never cried, never made a fuss… Since she had started talking, she was a bit more chatty naturally, but everything else remained the same… Yet she was sleeping well over an hour past her usual time today, and she was started to grow a bit concerned… Still, she would wait, because aside from the late sleeping she was perfectly healthy. She would slide out of her robe then, not caring if it was her second bath in less than an hour, it was one she got to share with Jacob… Something they hadn’t been able to do in a very, very long time… She would wrap her arm about his waist once more, curling in close to his side in a lovers embrace, before she would lead him down into the water… Once there, she gathered up a box of soaps, clean citrus smells and a few very lightly scented oils for him… She also got a scrub brush too, like him she wanted to remove all traces and she was more than happy to help, almost thrilled really. She would slide the basket over to him in the water for his approval on the clean grapefruit and lemon scents there, avoiding anything sweetly cloying like oranges or nectarines. The oils were more like bergamont and ginger, a bit of spice to compliment the citrus, and one that was cinnamon to help loosen some tight muscles he might have.*”Come around then love… spoil me a little by letting me spoil you… It’s been ages since the last time we took a bath together…”
(16:46:16 )
…The..Curse..Ends..Here…
Dr. Jacob Anikin
..Stop trying to fix yourself, you’re not broken..
..You are perfectly imperfect, and powerful beyond measure..
: . he continued to stroke his fingers along her arms when she spoke just so softly to him.. he had told her of the ‘law’s of the land when it came to paternity.. how Fathers would always have a part in their childrens lives if they wanted it.. sure a father could back out at any moment.. to allow a new suitor to step in and pick up the hat so to speak.. but that if the genetic father wanted to see his child, he was more than welcome to.. and only in the Mothers death could the Father take the child away.. she told him.. she asked of him to marry her if it ever came to that.. if she was ever there.. on that brink again.. he exhaled and pressed his lips to her forehead there- .. If.. and only if we ever.. ever get to that point.. which I will fight tool and nail to stop ever even getting close to.. yes.. I will.. I promise you.. I will bring Sybelle in.. or the closest Paramour and we will be wed.. you have my word on that.. ..he held her a little bit tighter after that.. the thought alone of him losing her was quite hard to bare.l. and he simply would not allow those words to sink in.. to weasel their way into his head..into his mind.. he did not want dark thoughts right now..she spoke on Pia being her little angel ..her ray of sunshine.. before he remarked on the possibility of the babies being born a little late and she said otherwise.. she felt she would go early due to her size and that the possibility was there for her to feeltheir movement soon within the next month or so..- .. I am going to regret missing that.. you will have to tell me all about it when I get home.. every little detail.. .. he caressed his fingers through her hair there.. just a light touch as the sun began to rise properly.. filling the room with such a warm healthy glow.. - .. do you know.. with the sun behind you.. with that hair that looks like spun gold.. you would be a vision for any soul.. a true angel seated there upon my lap.. .. he would tilt her chin up a little so he could look to her..- .. my sweet angels.. the both of you.. .. he glanced across to the basket there.. gathering that’s where Pia was resting though he was quite curious as to why she was Still resting.. she was usually well and truly up with the sun..she had asked of him to takeher to the hall of records.. and he was more than willing.. naturally of course.. there would be no reason as to why he would possibly say no.. he asked her why.. perhaps it was something about Pia and she asked of him if it would be ok for her to keep her answer till after she found out the results.. the information she was looking for .. he nodded- .. yes of course.. of course.. you seek out whatever information you desire.. as for the little bugs birthday.. well yes we can pick a special date if you aren’t able to locate one.. though the records are very, very thorough.. all the information should be there.. from birth dates.. parental lines.. genetics.. all of it..you just say the word when you want to go honey and we will head off for the day.. can take Pia with us if you like.. I can look after her while you peruse the books.. .. he rubbed his chin- .. we should be pretty much on our own there if we go today.. maybe one other who will be down the back.. but you wont have anyone towering over you.. . he had asked her for assistance then to get him to the bath house he so wanted out of those clothes.. he wanted out of that skin almost.. to rid his body of the scent of this Mia he had managed to meet up with.. she offered him up a trade.. to hold Pia and she would help him down the hall.. - .. like I could ever say no to holding the little angel.. .. he waited until she slid down from his lap before he would very slowly.. and very cautiously move to his feet.. holding onto the side of the chair for a bit of support.. his head hung just a touch as things started to wobble.. namely the room.. he blinked a few times before things started to right themselves.. he took that usually wriggly girl.. holding her close to his chest as they made their way down the corridor there.. she asked then of Pia and her feeding times.. and how things seemed to be changing and was there something she could do for the fact her body was still producing when Pia clearly didn’t need it so much- .. Ahh.. well yes.. she should be moving onto more solid foods.. namely cereals and the like.. around about now.. it doesn’t mean she has to separate from you.. you are more than welcome to continue feeding her.. it wont really benefit her in any way physically but.. the bond will be strong between you both.. that decision is entirely up to you.. Pia will push away when she is completely ready to stop.. they all do.. as for your slight problem.. I am sure we can sort something out for you.. I know my Mother was quite talented when it came to brews and potions.. it’s where a great deal of our medicines originated from.. her handywork.. perhaps she could whip something up for you that would help with that production.. to at least put a halt to it for a little while.. .. he nodded.. they made it into the bath house then and she placed little pia down.. helping him across there sohe could remove the remainder of his clothing.. he slid out of those jeans.. the boots.. the shorts and he slowly made his way down into the heated water.. hje groaned a ltitle as it clung to his muscles and they rejected it at first before they would begin to sooth and calm down..- .. I tell you what.. Im never drinking again.. I sware it.. .. he chuckled all beit so very lightly.. leaning then against the side railing.. tilting his head back..allowing his eyes to close as he just succumbed to the sounds and feels of the water around him.. she gathered up those soaps and oils.. and a brush..going to ask him for approval to which he waved his hand- .. I trust you honey.. really.. you know a lot better about this kind of stuff than I do.. .. he moved across a little there to be with her..- .. thankyou.. for everything.. thank you for.. being you Rose.. I honestly feel like the luckiest man on the planet I sware it.. .. he gave her a small smile.. before he would allow her to do whatever it was she so desired-
(17:48:10 )
°.Chivalry isn’t Dead. °.
Dr. Jacob Anikin
...I feel like a part my soul has loved you since the beginning of everything..
..Maybe we’re from the same star..
PRIVATELY whispers to .°.Chivalry isn’t Dead. : testing
(18:36:55 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to …The..Curse..Ends..Here…: *It was almost funny in a way really, that she accepted death now when before she used to run from it, that for such a bubbly person she accepted it with a morbid sort of calm. Perhaps she had just had too many close calls, too many brushes with it so that she could no longer labor under the very human fear of passing on, she simply knew and accepted that this was something that would one day happen to her. What worried her wasn’t dying, she would wait for him on the other side until he found her, no what worried her was Ace getting rights to Pia… Ace would take her away from Jacob just to spite them, and where he would leave her she had no idea, and she would never accept that fate for their daughter. So she had asked Jacob that, if she ever got to that point again, where she could very well die… To marry her… Not as a way to loop him in, or to rope him down as another person might, but to ensure the future of that little girl that they would never see as anything other than their daughter. If he fell in love again she wouldn’t begrudge him for it, she would wish him every possible best, after all she would no longer be there if this came about… Why should she be jealous when she was no longer alive to love him? But of course, all these things were not set in stone, simply her wish to ensure the best she could for those she loved. She felt him press a soft kiss to her forehead, her lips turning up in the softest smile there, oh how she adored the way he made her feel in those moments.*”Jacob, you’ve saved my life more times than I think I should admit to, especially since I am not so crazy as to run into danger after all…I will always trust you to bring me back… This is just me doing my best to ensure the future of our little girl, I know you would give her the best possible life possible, but if Ace came in there would be nothing you could do legally if he decided to take her… If we marry before I pass on, then he would have no rights what so ever, and Pia would be safe…”*He was giving her such a wonderful peace of mind in these moments, letting her know that if the worst thing happened, at least she could ensure the future of those she loved most… They talked about getting married in less than a year, or perhaps a little more, depending on when the babies decided to come. She was betting early right now, she really didn’t think she would be able to hold them the entire year, not with how she was starting to show… It wasn’t as obvious as it had been with the triplets no, but she was still starting to show, though it was just a wee little thing right now. Jacob could see it, just as she could, but unless someone had known her before she got pregnant?... It was impossible to tell. She heard him speak on how he would regret missing that, how he wouldn’t be here to support her in her wonder, when she got to feel them move for the first time… She remembered that with her triplets, at first she had thought she was ill it was such a strange feeling, but as it had happened more frequently and she realized what it was? She adored it… She smiled up at him for a moment, shaking her head softly, reaching out to cradle his cheek in her hand.*”I will write you, every single day, and send you all sorts of treats… I will tell you everything that happens with all of us, any adventures that we have, any changes… As for our little ones right here? You just need to come back when it’s your turn to feel them… you have a couple months yet before you’ll be able to feel little feet or little hands coming out to greet you, so just make sure you come back before then…”*Though his next words had her blushing softly, her eyes dropping down for a moment before he would slide his fingers under her chin, guiding her to look up at him. She looked up into those beautiful, amazing blue and green eyes, that perfect representation of Sky and Earth… Oh she would always, always get lost in his eyes, in the way he looked at her…*”I was an angel once… Did you know that?...”*She would ask softly, coming up to slide her fingers along the delicate pointed shell of his ear, dipping down to rest her fingers gently on the side of his neck.*”Then one day, I was about to go home, when someone started to talk to me…Told me to open my eyes, to not go home just yet, to stay with him… When I looked at this person, I saw the most amazing eyes I have ever seen, the most fantastic blue and green… I decided that my wings could wait a while… There were far better, far sweeter things to be found here, specifically the man who was calling me back… I get to call him something very special some day in the near future… First he was Friend… Then Suitor… Then Beloved… My Lover… And now my Fiancé… Then, in just a little more time, My Husband…. And he has shown me, every single day, that he was completely and utterly worth giving up those wings for…”*She had asked him if he would take her to the hall of records, she wanted to find out the truth, she didn’t want to sit in this hell of uncertainty anymore… And the chance… The chance to truly get Ace to leave them all alone… She couldn’t pass up the opportunity there, she had to do it, she had to… She was unprepared for his question though, and she had asked him if she could just hold onto the reason until she had her answer first. She didn’t want to upset him anymore than he already was, he was already hating himself enough because of last night, and he probably would for some time yet. She didn’t want to say the reason she needed to go, was to see who’s children she carried, because Ace had kidnapped her away right out of their bed… If he knew that, he would just really, really hate himself and she didn’t want that for him right now at all. That and something about another issue was niggling at her, something that had taken seed in the back of her mind, and once it started there she hadn’t really been able to push it away. She was eternally grateful that she had such an amazing, wonderful fiancé, that he was never one to push for answers… They trusted each other and that meant so much to her, that he gave her the chance to figure things out before she shared them, rather than pushing her to reveal things that may never need to be shared… She did tell him she wanted to figure out Pia’s birthday though, after all she had never been born, so did she technically have one? If she couldn’t find one for her, then she wanted to make her birthday something amazing and special, a date that would be as wonderful for her as she was for them.*
(18:37:58 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to °.Chivalry isn’t Dead. °: ”Let’s go today then… Before things get too busy and people need to handle other things… We can sneak out, just the three of us, I think Pia would adore seeing all those books on the walls… Plus you two need some time alone together, you should have heard her last night… One thing out of all of that really sticks out to me, and it was that she got Cheeky with Ace, can you believe it? I swear, I nearly busted my buttons to hear her, you would have applauded her… Ace asked if she spoke elvish and she just looked at him like he was dense, before she shot off in elvish right back at him, saying that of course she did and it was silly to think otherwise. Oh she was PERFECT! She didn’t slip once into Gaelic Jacob, not once, it was so perfect… Ace just looked at me in shock a bit, and it took everything I had not to encourage Pia, because really we don’t want her to be rude… But oh… Oh her cheek… No one will boss our baby around Jacob, she will be no one’s fool, not our little angel…”*She smiled at him once more, and she had honestly been so proud of Pia there, she had almost wanted to encourage her in Gaelic but she didn’t want to encourage what could be bad behavior at a later date. He had asked her to help him to the bath, and she told him that she would gladly do it, but only if he could hold Pia for her. She couldn’t hold the both of them at the same time after all, she was just a bit too small to pull that off, but she would still give it her best shot. She laughed softly when he said there was no way he could ever say no to holding their daughter, and she would move over to pick Pia up then, to hand her to him to hold. Once she was sure everyone was ready, she would help Jacob out of the kitchen and up the hall, on their way to the bathing room. She would ask him quietly about Pia starting to wean off, that she was barely feeding anymore, asking if that was normal for their baby. She listened to what he was saying, her brows furrowed a bit in thought there, her fingers curling in a bit more into his side as they walked together.*”I thought she might be… I will start to make her cream of wheat and porridge and such now, sliced fruit and things she can suck on, I don’t want to hold her back… As to her still feeding, that she doesn’t have to break off just yet… I think she knows that… It’s a comfort thing for me, a time that is just for she and I, when we just get to be as close as we can be… I think it is why she still suckles, even though she is ready to move onto other foods, because she only wants me in the morning and before bed…. Still… It’s good to know she will tell me when she is ready, and that we don’t have to stop, not completely yet… I’ll just start to make her things now, pastes and other things for her… As for the other part… My love, if you think I will even REMOTELY take anything that tastes like the stuff you gave me last night, I will lovingly tell you to shove it. I would rather deal with the discomfort than drink anything that vile ever again!”*They got out to the bath house without incident, and she would help him to the area where he would disrobe, while she took herself off to make another little bed for Pia there. She didn’t like this sleeping, but at the same time she wasn’t going to do anything to stop it, Pia might need it after all? She would watch him as he entered the water, swearing he was never going to be drinking again, and that light laugh that followed was priceless.*That is a shame… I rather enjoy sharing a glass of wine with you Jacob… Of course though, I can’t blame you if you do, though having just water in your glass at our wedding might start a tradition so be warned there…”*She would tease there, before she would gather up the soaps and oils for him, making sure she got a nice stiff brush to really spoil him. She would slide the basket to him then, wanting to make sure it was all good to him, scent wise. She heard him say that he trusted her, and because of that she pulled out a couple of different soaps, setting them up for her to use. She would settle herself of the ledge there, inviting him to come over and settle near her, smiling softly at his words. She would lift up the little pail she had with her, siding it through the water to gather it up, guiding him to tilt his head back so she could get his hair nice and wet to start washing it.*”Jacob, I am just me… There is nothing special about me, nothing that would ever make me worthy of you…. I don’t think one of us is… lucker than the other… I think we are both truly, honestly blessed by Hanali herself in each other though, because through her we have each other… I will say that I think I am the most fortunate woman in existence to have had you find me, that you fell in love with me as much as I did with you, in that we have our little miracles on the way… We are lucky, we are blessed, and we will never lose that… See… The thing about love is that the best part of it, is the falling into, when you just topple into love with the other person… Staying in love takes work… So you know what we do? We just fall in love with each other, over, and over, and over again… Every day I am around you, I find something else about you that I fall in love with, so each day I get the wonderful sensation of toppling for you over and over again…”*She would wet his hair down then, before she would pick up one of the soaps, a crisp apple scented one, and begin to work it into a lather before she applied it to his hair. She began to massage his scalp then, sighing happily as she relished the feeling of his hair beneath her fingers, knowing it had to be helping with the tension there she felt beneath her fingers. She would gently swing her feet in the water, more like a shifting really, before she would being to softly sing the rubber ducky song. She did this with Pia quite often in their bath time together, and it always made Pia smile and laugh, splashing the tub there they shared together.*
(18:44:56 )
°.Chivalry isn’t Dead. °.
Dr. Jacob Anikin
...I feel like a part my soul has loved you since the beginning of everything..
..Maybe we’re from the same star..
says to ‡Ţŕįʼn: .. bows to his sweetheart and throws up a ghosty sheet for a little bit-
(19:13:52 )
‡Ţŕįʼnįţŷ‡
♥ There He Stood, As Steady on One Leg as Any of the Other Soldiers on their Two. ♥
♥ But just You See, He'll be the Remarkable One. ♥
says to °.Chivalry isn’t Dead. °: Oh wow... -swoons-
(20:44:35 )
°.Chivalry isn’t Dead. °.
Dr. Jacob Anikin
...I feel like a part my soul has loved you since the beginning of everything..
..Maybe we’re from the same star..
says to ‡Ţŕįʼn: -winks-
(20:47:26 )
°.Chivalry isn’t Dead. °.
Dr. Jacob Anikin
...I feel like a part my soul has loved you since the beginning of everything..
..Maybe we’re from the same star..
says to ‡Ţŕįʼn: ..it settled his heart to hear her say she would write to him every day and to make sure he was back before they were born so he could to experience those moments with her.. he offered her a smile and a nod- .. I will do my damnest to get back to you quickly.. I promise you.. I simply cant bare the thought of being away from you for any great length of time.. .. he commented on her looking akin to an angel in that moment.. what with the sunshine flowing through the window as it was ..reflecting off those perfect golden locks of hers.. she told him she was nearly an angel once.. but that just as she was to go home she was called back.. that someone had told her to open her eyes.. to not go home to stay with him.. and that when she did she saw the most amazing eyes she had ever seen.. and in that moment his cheeks flushed that genuine soft colouring they did..he reached up to cradle his warm fingers across her cheek there.. to trace them along the gentle curve of her jawline as he smiled.. those dimples just peeking through in the process- .. I will make it my lifes work.. to make sure I was worth you giving up those wings.. .. he’d whisper so softly.. they had discussed the hall of records then.. and how she desired to go look ..and could he take her.. to which he replied that yes he could and that today would probably be the best bet if she was up to it.. and to take Miss Pia along with them.. he could spend some time with the little one whilst she searched through all those books and papers..she agreed that today would be wonderful- .. sounds like a plan.. we will get ourselves organised and just slip away for the rest of the day.. I don’t think anyone has anything else planned so we wont be missed so much.. .. she told him then about how Pia had gotten right cheeky with Ace.. he couldn’t help but laugh and shake his head a little- .. right.. well.. seems we will have our arms full with that one then.. but yes I do agree with you.. I don’t believe anyone.. Anyone will be able to boss that little miss around.. she knows what she wants.. and I imagine just how to get it.. .. he smiled.. quite pleased that Pia had stuck Ace up.. even if it was only a little.. he had asked her then for assistance to get to the bath house.. really wanting to be rid of the clothing that smelt horribly foreign.. he took Pia.. cradling her close to him as she helped him down that long corridor.. they spoke a little on Pia then.. on weaning and wether or not it was time.. he made sure she understood that Pia would tell her when it was time.. but that she possibly would be requiring a bit more sustenance now that she was growing.. he kenw that Sybelle would be able to concoct something up to relieve her of her issue if she so desired it and her response to him was just priceless.. he had to stop himself from laughing loudly so as to not wake up the people in the rooms they were passing.. he shook his head and his smile just widened- .. Ahhh.. well yes.. sometimes the things that are good for us.. are not always the most pleasant in the beginning.. I am sure though if you brought that up.. that Sybelle would make sure it was at least palatable.. .. he chuckled again.. stepping into the bath house.. he drew that door closed.. he moved across and removed the clothing he had on.. stumbling a little when it came to removing his boots but he got there in the end.. sliding down into that water..he sighed and settled back against one of the sides there.. letting his lids tumble closed.. he commented on never drinking again.. - .. well.. wine..perhaps that’s a little different.. but anything else.. No.. .. he chuckled- . though it makes me a little fearful for whatever Nautilous has involved for the boys night before the wedding.. if its anything worse than what has just occurred.. I might just fear for my life.. .. he chuckled shaking his head.. he moved across to her there when she motioned for him.. he spoke softly about just what she meant to him..and she replied in such a loving manner.. that neither one of them was luckier than the other.. that they were just both truly blessed by Hanali herseld.. that they themselves were lucky.. they were blessed and that they would never ever lose that.. she tilted his head back a little and letting the water rinse through it.. wetting it down before she picked up one of the soaps.. lathering it up.. applying it to his hair.. massaging his scalp his lids just tumbled closed and he sighed.. a soft murmur sounding there soon after.. that felt unbelievably incredible.. he could feel each and every muscle in that body of his just calming considerably.. there was no real tension there anymore.. their discussions.. they gentle talking things through worked wonders on him.. and so it seemed the same for her.. sure they could have easily raged at one another.. screamed and pointed fingers and ended up storming out.. but where would that have gotten either of them?absolutly no where.. and then they would have had to get close enough to get to this point right here and start all over.. no they settled with each other and they talked it through.. and it calmed the heart.. the raw nerves.. the frustration.. all of it.. he just felt so good beneath her touch.. his brows furrowed and he blinked a little when she started singing though.. and of all songs one about what seemingly sounded like a rubber duck?.. - .. Uhh.. .. he laughed- .. You my dear sweet angel are one of the oddest little ducks this side of the portal I sware.. .. he gave her a slight sideways glance there.. there was a grin playing about his lips.. just causing them to twitch a little before he laughed- .. and I love you all the more for it.. .. he settled back once more allowing her to continue massaging his scalp.. rubbing that apple scented soap through his thick hair.. - .. I think after this..Ill get dressed.. and we will head off toward the temple.. if you wanted to grab a few things from the kitchen.. .. his hand rose as he rubbed there against his chin.. feeling that stubble there.. still not being quite used to that just yet- .. I think it would take us the better part of the morning to reach the temple on foot.. you can do what you need to.. and then we can stop somewhere in the gardens for lunch.. if you like..