Life goes on..

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They had slipped out of the Inn proper and out into the surrounding sunshine.. it was beautiful, not too warm and the breeze wasn't too cool.. just that comfortable sort of Autumn/Spring weather that everyone enjoyed.. they walked..for quite a while.. through the small hamlet village.. amongst a few of the smaller cottages.. gardens.. weaving in and out of trees.. before they came to a nice wide meadow.. -.. Oh I know angel.. I know I come first.. I just know that this opportunity is yours.. this is your moment.. it's not mine.. -he gave a little shake of his head-.. We are going into a domain where I will be .. on their scale at least ..beneath you.. so my work will not be on par with yours.. and in a lot of instances I will not be in the same room as you or able to assist.. But you will do just fine.. I have complete faith in your abilities.. -and he did.. completely and utterly.. he was not worried.. -.. I will be alright, There will be people around that I know..Anya, Nautilous.. I can go and speak with them or busy myself with books when you are busy.. its not an issue.. -he wouldn't pull out purely because he knew what this could do for her.. the confidence boost alone was priceless.. she brought up the name that she had decided on.. this Lyon.. and he thought it was quite striking.. unique.. -.. I dont think Gia will find it a hindrance.. but it is something I think she should know ahead of time.. that way precautions can be taken should they be required.. Drow are very family orientated.. its a very big deal for Matrons to have children.. to build up their Priestess ranks.. for their houses will fall after the Matron passes .. there simply has to be someone to pass it all on to.. a Matrons strength lies within her ability to build her home..

-a soft colouring came to his cheeks when she placed the crown down upon his head.. he would lean in to brush his lips to her cheek-.. I think the best thing we can probably do is just not talk about it as often.. if we are indeed going to take life as it comes and just go with it.. then thats what we should do.. Relax.. stress and worry over things you cant possibly control isn't healthy for you love.. -he reached to cradle her cheek.. brushing his fingers across it lightly before he would let her go to pick more of those wild flowers..he slid his hands down into his pockets... this was all going to be a big change for him.. he was going from a position of power.. to one that would be classed lower than a striper.. basic general practitioner who would be of service to the male slaves..but he could be content with that.. he never really wanted for much.. he just hoped that it would be at the very least a challenge.. -

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“I know it just… Feels sort of like I might be forcing it on you… Like what Ace did to me on the Princess run… Sure I grew from it, made some friends too, but it was far from fair… Even if I did chose to participate of my own volition…” And that was really her hang up in this. She didn’t want to do to him what Ace did to her, to force her into a role she didn’t quite fit, like shoving a foot in a shoe too small… She had a strong gut instinct and she often followed it, she rarely allowed herself to pause and reflect, mostly because if she did she knew she’d talk herself out of so many good things that had come to her. But this time? It wasn’t just her. It was her AND him. Would he resent her the way she resented Ace for what had gone on? And would that make him feel bitter and then leave her too? It was a gut wrenching, stomach twisting sort of thought, something that loved to come up and smack her since she had made that choice. “Will you please continue to teach me while we’re there? Matron Gia said it would be on rotations so we wouldn’t be down there forever but I really… I think it would be good for us to grow both together, and individuals, and I want to take the opportunity to keep learning from you.” And anything new she learned? She could teach him. Drow were incredibly Matriarchal as a clan and as a species and there was likely going to be places of knowledge that only she could go due to her sex. She’d teach him all of that… And she hoped while they were together that he could teach her too. She had come a long way yes but that didn’t mean he had nothing to teach her. Experience alone could teach her a world of things she’d not find in a book. “Yeah plus you can make friends too through the people you meet. I once heard that every friend is just a stranger waiting to be met.” Or… Something like that? She had read it somewhere and it really stuck with her but she was also pretty sure she didn’t quite mesh the lines up perfectly.

Speaking of babys though it was still a bit of a mess. She had the name picked out for the first time but that didn’t mean it was going to be any different. She listened as Jacob explained to her how important it was for the families to be built up, the Matron was held up in strength and esteem by the children she bore, and she knew she herself had been hired on specifically to ensure that her children were kept in good health and delivered safely while of course keeping her healthy as well. She sighed just a bit and leaned forward, looking at the sun falling on the rain dappled flowers, all of it glittering like diamonds on brilliant colored velvet. “I’ll tell her as soon as we set of… If she does decide that it will be an issue than we’ll work from there. We’re going to be ok no matter what so long as we’re together…” She said as she made those flower crowns and settled one atop of his head before she’d lean in a little with her head on his shoulder. “That is like asking a frog not to jump. I am the very Queen of Worry.” And it was honest, a little bit of self depreciating humor but it was rather true, as she’d grown in the medical field and put more into practice she began to realize that worry sort of became a second nature. I drove her to double check everything which was in a lot of ways a really great thing, but the stress and nerves that came with that behavior, not exactly the most beneficial… “I just feel like if I check to see if they’re there I just jinx it somehow, I wasn’t even going to check but it just sort of made me wonder, you know?... But… Yeah let’s just let it flow… After I tell Matron Gia about the babies we’ll just not talk about it, see how it goes…” It wasn’t the first miscarriage so sadly at this point? She was familiar with the pain… Knew how to work through it…

She’d get up to gather those wild flowers, picking some of her favorites from the meadow, the most vibrant and sweet smelling before she’d come back to his side and from these? She plucked the head off of ever single one and set it in a pouch to dry and harvest the seeds from. “You know… I wonder how the drow all started down in Menzoberranzan… Like they went down with next to nothing and had to build up from scratch. So that means the flora and fauna down there… It had to start from a common ancestor… I was thinking… On days when you feel a bit bored or maybe restless, you might like to go on an adventure, see what you can find and who knows? We might find genetic links and commonalities between their plants and the very ones around us. Like… Imagine… What if say, our fox glove here, is a type of mold there?” Something to think on perhaps? She’d remain quiet by his side for some long moments before she’d tilt her face up to the sun for a moment and just close her eyes. “I hope I did the right thing… In my gut I feel like it is but… I just remember how I felt after Ace had me do the run and… I don’t want you to feel the way I did… But… I’m scared I’m not doing any better… You keep saying this is my great opportunity but it feels wrong if it’s at the expense of the person I love most in this world…”

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I am choosing to go down there with you, I am not being forced into anything. -a big difference between the two of them.. was that it was quite rare for him to hold a grudge.. for him to be bitter.. he was generally positive about everything he could be.. and tried to always look in the brighter sides instead of allowing concern and worry take over.. -.. I guess in all relationships there is give and take.. its not always going to suit me completely and vise versa.. this time its for you.. this is your turn in the spotlight.. and I have no issue with bowing out to the side for a while.. it will be a change yes.. it will be drastically different as to what I am used to.. but its not that i cant do it.. and Im willing to do it.. for you.. for your growth.. -he nodded.. -.. I wont be able to teach you much of anything when we are down there no.. a lot of the time we are in cycle I wont be with you much at all.. just when its time for rest.. I will help out where I can but for the most part in your medical position you will be on your own with the Matron and her upper tier family members..-he was trying to reassure her that everything would be ok.. but also keep it utterly truthful.. it was going to be a lot different than what she was used to.. a great lot of freedoms she had on the surface she wouldnt be afforded.. when she said she was the Queen of worry he shook his head-.. Well let me put it this way.. What would you have told Gia?.. if she were stressing over things like this?.. You need to take your own advice angel.. Worrying is like praying for what you dont want to happen.. You need to learn to relax.. for the most part this is out of your hands..

-he offered her a smile as he re-situated the crown of flowers upon his head-.. I am positive Gia will be fine with you being pregnant so long as you take the proper precautions.. -he nodded.. glancing out over the sunny meadow.. he watched her as she shifted around.. plucking up various flowers and blooms.. placing the seeds and pods down into an appropriate pouch.. -.. Its very possible some of the plant life down there shares a common genetic pool as some up here.. though i feel it would be far removed due to the lack of sunlight which is what is needed for the majority up here.. but none the less.. I have no doubt it will be an intriguing study.. I have been there before and gathered a few.. but not a great deal.. Ill certainly see what I can come up with.. -he nodded..she brought up Ace again and he exhaled-.. Well.. I guess to begin with you only really had the introduction of the run before it all fell to shambles.. so.. relax.. -he slid his arm around her.. rubbing his hand across her shoulder-.. It is an incredibly grand opportunity that I doubt would come around again.. in fact I could probably bet on it as a sure winner that it wont.. the Drow are very focused on their own kind and not outsourcing anything.. the fact she asked you at all is the hugest honour.. but.. I digress.. I'll be fine.. -he gave a little shrug of his shoulders-.. its really just a swapping of roles in a sense.. in Menzoberranzan you will be the in the Master teaching role.. you will be the one who is more experienced.. and in control of those higher up.. I will be in the more.. student role.. off to the side.. doing what I need to , to keep the foundations.. the slaves and warriors healthy and fit for battle and service..