To Give You My Name...

[BadInfluence]

She couldn’t have stopped the laughter that spilled from her lips if she had tried, the way he was moving, his words were utterly precious. True, she hurt too but lets be honest, women are the superior race and tend to bounce back much faster. Not to say she wasn’t without her own aches and pains but she also knew when it came to it they were likely ALL hurting and more than a bit dehydrated and tired. Honestly she felt pretty raw down there, just moving her legs hurt and she knew she’d be down and out for at least a few days, but on the sucky side if only because she thoroughly enjoyed sex and was looking forward to Jacob possibly getting on with Nautilous and being much closer for it. “I don’t blame you. I’m afraid to start something we couldn’t finish.” Said with a wink and a teasing smile on her lips as they’d both slowly start to move a bit, oh they were both definitely hurting but she felt he was likely a bit more on that end, his sweet ass had been thoroughly used and she could only imagine how raw and sore that had to be. “I never knew you could get like that. I knew you enjoyed anal but I had no idea that you enjoyed it like that, honestly it was so hot I thought I might melt, I had to join you. You were so rock hard and I don’t think you’ve ever cum inside me quite that hard before.” She said with a dreamy sigh on her lips, honestly that was all intently enjoyable to look back on, it was white hot and had been so satisfying she’d blacked out twice. Who wouldn’t look back on that and be utterly satisfied? “That Thaylan certainly knows what he is doing… It must be one of the benefits of being drow, with all the orgies that always go on down there, they learn quite a bit I would guess…” After all since she and Jacob had been down there? There had already been two massive orgy parties and while she and Jacob had not participated it was clear even to a blind man that the Drow knew more about sex and pleasure than any other creature in existence. It would go to stand that Thaylan would know how to fuck them into utter and complete bliss.

Holding his hand over her stomach she let him feel the kicks and flutters of the little hands and feet inside her, she was just as perplexed as he was that she wasn’t showing considering she was now at the five month mark, far enough along for the twins to be felt outside of her body. She slipped away only to order the food, making sure it was all stuff high in sugar and hydration, plenty of melons and sweet fruity drinks… She also made sure to order some milk and cheese with some meat since she had to make sure she had enough in her diet for the babies. Though… Given how much cum she had pushed into her you’d think she’d be set for the year on protein. Once that was done she asked him to grab her a gown while she went into the bathroom with he huge tub and began to make them a bath, a good long soak in order for them both without a doubt, and as the bath filled she made sure she put herbs and oils into the water that would help ease the aches and pains of a long sexual session while also heal any bruises and wounds. Plus it all smelled rather incredible. “Thank you my sweet love, I need nothing fancy, just something to cover up with.” Her smile was warm and loving as she hung her dress up on a peg while she waited for the food to come up, seeing how he was very splattered and sticky, giggling softly as she nodded her head. “Mmmhmm… We were both covered in several streams.” And she wasn’t sure entirely but she was fairly sure when she was in and out of conscious that he fucked her one more time with some extreme fury which was why she had bruises on the inside of her thighs and against her ass. What a jerk to keep it to himself… Of course it could have been something her mind made up because yeah… The whole thing had been erotic as hell.

“Oh now THAT I know we both said quite a bit.” She teased when he said oh God and yes, stepping down into the water as he did she just smiled at him before, finally, the food was delivered. She took it graciously even as the man who had delivered it and smiled softly, tipping him a gold coin before she closed the door and set everything up on the side so they could eat and drink to their hearts content while they bathed, the last step? Was pulling out a pack of cigarettes she had blended just for him, this time going for some of the stronger in the pack, gunning for pure and complete relaxation in the bath. She’d light it up before passing it to him, an ashtray set close by before she’d join him in the tub across from him, stretching out much the same as he was… Legs slightly parted so the healing waters could get to the parts that were… Well.. the most damaged… She sighed heavily as she rested her head on a towel much as he had before he spoke, his voice a little hoarse as she smiled, stretching her leg so she could run her toes up along the outside of his leg. “I can say the same… I never saw you get fucked like that before it’s insanely sexy… I can’t explain how turned on I was watching you get pounded like that.” She virtually purred as she let herself float and relax in the best way possible. “I never thought I’d enjoy a third in the bedroom outside of that pool party but that… That felt incredible… I thought it was the drugs at first but it seems it is just the lover…” And it was… Thaylan knew EXACTLY what he was doing without a doubt! “It’s made me laugh a bit because I don’t find Thaylan attractive at all, at most he is a friend and the idea of being romantic with him, it’s just laughable… But for some reason in bed… With us? It’s something else entirely, isn’t it?” She asked as she thought about it. After all they had both enjoyed it extremely, they had fucked and been fucked by the same man and it went without saying that they both knew what the other had felt, at least in some measure.

They lounged in comfortable, companionable silence for some time before her stomach began to rumble again and she moved from her position over to his by the food, leaning over the side of the tub to snack on what ever took her fancy, making sure to take in a good deal of fluids too. “Can I ask you something?” She asked as she took a bite of cheese as she lounged in the pool at his side, waiting for his response before she would continue, a curious and thoughtful look on her face. “Watching me getting bred by another man, is that something that turns you on, knowing someone else is inside of me?” She asked curiously, she did wonder if that was another fetish of his, like the pregnancy one he had that was deeper than his bones in him. “To be honest watching Thaylan do to you what he did… I’m pretty sure it made me realize I have a fetish for it, seeing someone sink into you, watching your cock get hard as you get driven wild until you can cum… It’s one of the most erotic things I have ever seen and I know I’d love to watch more of it.” Grabbing up a bit of the flavored tea she sipped it from the elegant glass as she watched him over the rim, curious as to how he would react… His thoughts on it all. “Though I’m not too sure on my own side… I won’t deny that it is extremely pleasurable but it’s not like how it is with you… Our sleeping together is entirely different from that, you satisfy me like no one else ever can or ever will, you’re perfect for me in every way… But on the same hand bringing another into the room… It takes it up a notch doesn’t it? I guess I’m confused on how I feel about it because we’ve never done it before… I thought I was going to faint.” Which in truth she had. Twice. “I do wonder if this is something you want to look into more…If perhaps it might be something you want to share?”

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She had remained within that small darkened study with her Mother for quite some time, they had gone over quite a few issues.. Gia had used her as a sounding board.. a venting tool and she was more than ok with that.. in fact she preferred it that way.. as a clear mind always meant problems could be solved so much quicker.. the issue with the two males seemed to be a common problem.. though the main fault laid clearly with miscommunication and education.. something that realistically could be easily fixed, but it would not happen over night.. the two in the study knew not of what was happening outside of it.. but when the scent of copper.. of blood and bodily fluids slipped beneath the door...oh her poor pregnant Mother turned a little green.. that was one thing about the Drow.. their sense of smell was pretty useless.. they had been around fungi and moulds for such an extended period of time that it had dulled that singular sense.. whilst heightening their sight.. so whilst she was pregnant it appeared her sense of smell tripled.. and those bloodied heads.. Oh.. no they set her stomach off.. with swift decision making she sent her Mother off to the bathroom attached to the study.. telling her to sit.. to breathe in some of the air in there for a little while whilst she dealt with what was outside.. she also wanted to have a discussion with the boys in question.. or in the very least meet one of them formally..

she slipped her piwafwi back on.. it was stifling her.. hot and heavy in this temperature.. but she wouldn't be able to walk outside of the room without her hood.. she drew it forward.. just her lips.. painted red like her Mother on display as the door opened and she stepped out into the main area.. that would be when she was greeted with the sight of the two recently culled heads.. she pursed her lips together.. her gaze.. that striking deep ruby wandered over the crowns atop their heads.. she knew who they were.. or at least she knew the Houses.. she recognised the insignia.. the designs upon the metal.. her ankle boots clicked as she made her way across the hall then.. sharply pointed ears would twitch to the sounds of running water.. and chatter.. conversation.. she paused.. listening.. catching a voice she recognised.. that being her Father.. she nodded.. rapping her knuckles against the semi closed door-.. Father?.. -she questioned.. calling out though not enough to draw too much attention.. -.. Im going to come in.. Im alone.. -she waited.. maybe a moment or two before she would nudge the door open.. the room inside was darker than the main open area.. enough that she would be able to draw down her hood.. unclasping the pin about her neckline as she let the heavy magic rich fabric glide down her arms.. before it would be placed atop the back of one of the chairs.. -.. Mothers.. well.. -her brows knitted together a moment-.. I think the smell set her ..newly pregnant body off.. she is ok.. just a little.. well.. green.. -she offered a smile.. a little nod of her head.. she was every bit an echo of them both.. Gia and Thaylan.. she couldn't be anyone elses child.. it was far to obvious.. -.

Congratulations are in order I see.. She is over the moon.. even with.. everything that is going on -her head tilted a little to the side.. those blue tinted locks held tight in a high pony tail shifted.. her gaze turned to Nautilous.. she had seen him before.. at the Princess run.. though it was only for a moment.. he looked quite different now though.. but from the looks of things he had been at war.. though with whom?.. himself perhaps?.. -.. Ive heard quite a bit about you Nautilous.. -she turned.. reaching for the chair that she had just placed her cloak on.. drawing it in as she settled down to sit.. closer to them both.. watching as her Father patched the newly open wounds.. -..Its not all bad.. I assure you.. Its nice to meet you formally however.. and to learn that you will be our WeaponsMaster.. you clearly have a lot of skill and talent under your belt.. for I will admit.. I have never .. Ever seen one quite so young succeed to earn such a title.. Mother must see something quite grand in you.. something quite special..-she slid her hand down into her pocket .. before she reached for his hand.. cradling it beneath one of hers before she placed the spider pin atop his palm..-.. This is my acceptance of you.. as Dalharil First daughter, to you our Qu'el'saruk.. I trust that you will learn your role, your station, your position in time. That you will not bring shame to our House..That whilst you will use underhanded and dishonourable tactics in your fighting as is custom.. you will not bring the same to our name. For once you are married you are bound Nautilous.. You will only leave through death or some grand pardon which I have yet to see any succeed.. -it usually only occurred when the Matron herself died-.. I trust that you will lay your life down on the line for the sake of the Matrons, in our home she comes first in everything, in all things.. and if thats not the case for whatever reason then it is only because its her decision to allow you however much power she decides. You will not be deceptive to those you protect and those you honour. We have no secrets, we have no ommisions from Family. If you are found to be flaunting any of the laws of the land or the House you will be dealt with swiftly.. -she gave his hand a light squeeze.. -.. I look forward to getting to know you better Nautilous.. I have heard some wonderful things.. and you appear to make my Mother very happy.. minus a few substantial hiccups.. -she settled back in her seat.. glancing between both him and Thaylan-.. But I will say this.. if you hurt her.. if Either of you hurt her.. it wont be my Mother or the great goddess you will have to worry about.. -her lips thinned and she looked a younger version of Gia.. strong.. determined..a clear leader-.. It will be me.. Understand?..

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He had slipped out of the bedroom, a robe about his frame that certainly did not belong to him.. finding his way swiftly into their shared chambers.. he hunted around for something light and easy for her to wear.. nothing lavish or bejewelled..just basic and quiet.. he would return to her side shortly there after.. the look of that oversized bath was incredibly inviting.. he was sure he could hear it beckoning him.. he slipped out of that robe.. stepping down into the awaiting warm water.. unable to hold back the groan that sounded so easily.. he dunked down beneath the surface of the water.. rubbing his fingers across his cheeks.. his face.. before he would surface and drag his fingers back through his hair.. he sighed-.. Oh that feels so much better.. -he would always enjoy water.. it calmed him considerably and washed the days away without judgement.. watching as she set up the food.. the drink.. tea and juices.. and then of course the cigarettes.. he sunk down to sit against one of the indents..as he reached for the cigarette.. taking it with a gracious smile-.. You're an angel.. thankyou.. -he slid it between his lips.. drawing back on it as he semi slumped against the side of the smooth stone.. exhaling a long thin line of smoke slowly.. his gaze just staring off at the ceiling.. looking at nothing in particular.. -.. It was certainly Quite an experience.. -he laughed a little.. reaching to rub his hand against his forehead - He is incredibly talented in the bedroom.. I can say that without a shadow of a doubt.. -his hand slid down a little.. rubbing at his chin.. his cheek where the stubble was getting a bit darker.. it grew faster on the surface.. it always had-..

You were in your element my dear.. a phoenix.. just outshining us both.. perfection.. -he exhaled another line of smoke then as his lids closed over.. he was letting the heated waters do their work.. it was just so soothing.. her comments about being unsure about enjoying a third in the bedroom.. thing is.. he knew better.. he'd seen it first hand.. experienced it even.. but.. her and Thaylan had taken it upon themselves to much around with her head.. her memories.. which put him in quite a spot.. he left it without comment.. turning then to the food plates.. plucking up small pieces.. small snack like items.. a little sugar.. something a bit more savoury.. -.. I think.. in my experience.. it always comes back to the lover.. it doesn't matter how many you have.. just the one.. or more.. if they dont know what they are doing.. or it just doesn't gel well.. it wont work.. but when it does its magical.. sublime even.. addictive.. -he downed half a glass of juice then.. before settling back into his earlier seated position- No I dont see Thaylan in that way.. -he shook his head-.. I am in the same boat as you sweetheart.. he's just not my type.. but when it came to that.. we all just fit.. meshed like lovers who had been around one another for years versus the first time type deal.. -silence fell between them for a moment or two.. they were both clearly content to just float for a while.. soak off the muscle aches and the mild sting from the bruising that was beginning to surface.. -.. You can ask me anything, always Rose.. -he nodded a little.. his head tilted a little to the side at her question-.. Well.. yes and no.. I dont enjoy the idea of you being bred by other people no.. I have no desire for you to be having anothers child.. -he rubbed his lips together.. before that cigarette found its place between them once more.. and he drew back on it.. holding it a little longer before he exhaled-.. I do however enjoy watching you get Fucked by another man.. or woman.. its more about the pleasure you receive, being able to see it first hand.. but not necessarily being the cause.. less about the mechanics of it..

-he placed the cigarette down atop the ashtray then.. moving back to take a little more of the snack foods.. -.. He certainly knew what buttons to press when it came to me yes.. I was utterly shattered by him.. he is very good at what he does.. Im glad you enjoyed the show.. -he shot her a playful wink.. -.. Well.. what we did today will never be like what we do together.. the connection we share.. well.. we dont share with anyone else.. with Thaylan it was purely physical.. it was desire laden lust.. fuelled I have no doubt by your own pheromones.. What we have is so much more than that.. whilst the physical side with you is So incredibly hot.. we have more than that too.. its emotion, it's feeling.. its love.. not everyone gets that .. not everyone feels both.. and I think we are pretty lucky we found it.. in each other.. -he offered her a smile.. it was warm.. -.. You did faint.. a couple of times.. It must have gotten a little bit much for you toward the end there.. -he nodded-.. as for this being something I am interested in sharing.. in the future.. sure.. I dont see why not.. so long as nothing else weasels its way in.. no feelings are strained.. nothing more comes of it.. I am open to inviting others into the bedroom.. but.. we have to be honest with each other.. about it.. if things change.. if you start to feel uncomfortable.. if you hypothetically start to feel a connection with someone we bring in.. you need to come to me and we need to talk about it.. come to a conclusion.. together.. no secrets.. -he drank down the remainder of that juice-.. But you have been asking me all this.. what says you?.. is this something you want to continue doing?.. continue to explore?

[BadInfluence]

“Come in my little tadpole.” He said quite happily at hearing the voice of his daughter on the other side of the door. His daughter… Their little girl… All grown up now and more beautiful than he could have dreamed, soft but strong, stern yet flexible… She was the best of both of them and it made his heart swell with pride and joy to call her his offspring. “There is just I and Nautilous in the bath who is a touch worse for wear. Please make yourself comfortable my pretty little mushroom.” Continuing his work on Nautilous as the love birds presumably slept off what he had done to them he was at a loss at how bad the damage was, all he could do was treat the surface wounds, perhaps set bones if he had to but that was not typically something that ever happened with the Harlequin. The armor did a majority of the repairs that might be needed so this sort of thing was… Well…Certainly not his forte by any means. Hearing from Anya that her mother was suffering from a bit of morning sickness from the smell of blood… A good husband would feel shamed for making her suffer… But as a father? This thrilled him because it meant those little lives were real, truly and completely solid in every way, down to the somewhat regrettable condition of their effect on her poor stomach. “I fear I was not around her enough to notice such when she was carrying you Anya, I do apologize for her discomfort though, I do not believe our Shield Master intended such an effect.” He said, nudging Nautilous in the bath who quickly nodded his head and made a gruff if somewhat quiet apology.

As she said that Gia was over the moon even with everything going on made him sting a bit, having the decency to look incredibly ashamed and drop his head, even as he continued to stitch large wounds shut as best he could. “I fear… We slipped up greatly…” It wasn’t that it was intentional though, he hadn’t realized until his sister hit him with the knock out dust that he had been without a true deep sleep in many days, he had been incredibly caught up and worried about the state of things in Menzoberranzan, getting everything prepared and all the duties that fall to a Patron. He had also been helping Nautilous understand the in’s and out’s of a Drow army and how it aught to be run. Between all those he was far too tired to sleep because his brain would give him no rest, even with his eyes closed his mind ran on and on, until he began to truly slip… A source of incredible embarrassment for him as he realized all the mistakes he had made and how ashamed of him Gia must be… Even if she did not say as much he felt that she must be doubting some of her choices and the validity of them… And not just those pertaining to him…

Anya then proceeded to lay down the law with Nautilous before she then turned on him like one of the many vipers in the underdark, causing him to drop his head in shame, after all she should not be forced to feel as if she must defend her mother to those who loved her. “Siyo, dalharil d'lil ilharess, nindol ib'leua jaluk kampi'une lueth orn xun rilbol ulu morfeth zhaunus uk hojj lil' fuma lueth ukt jabbress nau mzild…” He said in soft deference. Anya was his daughter but she was still a Priestess, the daughter of the Matron, and a female of a noble family. She out ranked him regardless of the fact she had sprung form the seed of his own loins. Once again he had to nudge Nautilous who seemed to be in and out of it and he feared that he was in rougher shape than needing some stitches… The best thing he could do right now was keep him in the water as It helped keep his body from weighing down too much. “Forgive him I beg you daughter… He just took down two of the most influential houses of Menzoberranzan and he did it without a drop of magic at his behest… I fear his damage is substantial and while he will not die he will be in a great deal of pain…”

[BadInfluence]

In his mind he was trapped in something like a maelstrom of blood and screams, they were all around him like the howling, churning chaos of a tornado of macabre theatre. He’d gone down there originally to make a move against one of the houses she had listed, wanting to curry her favor after his many mistakes, to line the nest he was building with only the softest of feathers so that it would be most inviting… After all if he were to ask her to share him with her formal lover then the bed he planned to seduce and coax them into staying in had to be the best, the finest, the most alluring and tempting thing either of them had ever seen. No where did he plan to use guile or charm, if this was to work it had to work because all parties were being clear as crystal with each other, and that included both boundaries and needs. It was one thing to be aware of the lines drawn in the sand but it was hard to wish to mind said lines if the place they boxed you into, while holding a magnificent view, did nothing to nurture or sate the soul. Gia had, in such a short time, helped him realize he was trapped in an old skin… Something too small, too tight to be good for him, and yet at the time before her he had no idea how to shed it… But she had taught him how, showed him how to do it on his own, she didn’t do it for him she just explained that it could be done and was there to calm his chaotic soul when he felt stuck or unsure… Because of that he had come incredibly far in a short amount of time, grown substantially and yet he knew this was but the tip of the iceberg, there was so much more waiting to be discovered… Explored…

If he wanted what was best for him, he had to be able to show them with solid proof and without subterfuge that it was what would be good for them too, he’d have to find a way to strike that perfect balancing act… The way to explain it all was lost to him at the moment though, he was hoping it would come to him soon, but until then he knew what he COULD do to earn her favor and her forgiveness… He was to serve her and her house, to make her name ring out with awe and terror, so that even the bravest of her enemies speak her name only in the most terrified and hushed whispers. Tonight he had made a VERY substantial step in the right direction, having pushed himself and his men nearly to the breaking point but it was an excellent way to see if they were indeed up to muster or if they would break… They had not broken though, they had pushed through blood and gore, a wave of death as silent as a flood whispering through the caves until it is too late… There was no escape… No mercy… Only death. They came in the dead of night when many were sleeping or at rest, a skeleton crew was all that opposed them at the first and the victory was swift and brutal… He had caught the matron while she slept and hacked her head off with her own dagger she had under her pillow. Her scream had been what had set off the rest of them and the house had suddenly come alive like a bee hive after the Queen dies but at that time it was too late, her death spread quickly as the house turned it’s tail, the daughters and nobles ran while the slaved had rebelled and switched sides. None had managed to escape and those who resisted were slaughtered or kept as sacrifices to Lloth.

The second house had fallen almost as easily but apparently someone had lit a signal torch or perhaps someone had managed to slip away but they had come like a boiling bloody tide over the other house and it’s defeat was just as brutal as the first. Through it all he was there at the front, no armor and little more than twin blades in his hands, hacking and slicing through soldiers whos skin were as dark as the night around him… Only his mask allowing him to keep his sight from being bathed in blood as it spewed up from bodies like crimson geysers. Unfortunately for him though being at the front of it without armor caused him bodily damage, one of these armies had a massive cave troll in their ranks and he had taken it’s massive spiked club straight to his chest, feeling one of those rusted pike ends sinking into his heart. He FELT himself die for the first time, the true death and the pain was unlike anything else, he struggled and suffered immeasurably as he felt life slip from him as he was tossed about like a play thing still hanging off that club. Yet once his body was flung off, his vision black and his last breath leaving his lungs there was no void to embrace him, no warm light of a beloved god or the flames of hell… Instead it was the stinging bite of thousands of spiders as they crawled all over him, making him scream in agony, in such raw and hellish pain as he had never felt before. He heard Lloths laughter as he was brought back to life and in a frenzy of pain he unleashed an unholy furry upon the opposing army. The second time he had died was in a pit fall trap where he was neatly impaled and once again he felt death in all his vicious grasp take him only to be dragged back to life in a wave of pain and anger… There was no third death on the field this time, he was no longer a man but a beast, moving with all the grace and fury of Lloth herself which struck fear into any who saw him.

Rumors were flying about like wildfire by those who fled the field to other houses, other cities and gathering hubs, far and wide over Menzoberranzan that Lloth had chosen a Champion and a House for the first time in a hundred and one generations. The ash skinned noble of the Navere household was blessed by Lloth and any who dared oppose the House would fall… When all was said and done he had over a thousand slaves for the House, his army had quadrupled in size, and the pillage was richer than was first expected… The houses were smaller than some but old, terribly old and their treasures were some of the most lucrative, the most beautiful and rare… Priceless historical relics that were precious beyond price… The gold stores were much the same, vulgarly lucrative and all was going to the Navere house, building up it’s repertoire and wealth. At the end of it he allowed his army to rape and pillage as it saw fit, those he trusted the most were placed in charge of dividing the loot between the victors and those who had done exceptionally well, the best and most rare items or anything of extreme value belong to the House. He felt sure that after tonight too there would be a massive surge of children being born from this war to replace the numbers lost and given Lloths hand was in this he was sure many of them would be girls, only adding to the value and prestige of the Navere house and it’s slaves…

By the time he got back though he was running on something even thinner than fumes, hanging on by a brittle spider’s web of strength he called out to Thaylan who ported him back to the surface and into a tub where he would begin to get stitched up, his internal organs were bruised and bleeding, muscles were torn with such violence the ends were ragged and paper thin… It was all he could do to stay awake and not fall face first into the water. As such when Anya spoke and came in he had barely noticed, his eyes going from focused to extremely glazed back and forth, over and other again… It wasn’t till she came face to face with him, pressing the brooch in his hand that he looked up at her, his eyes blood shot and more blood in his hair than hair itself. ” Usstan z'klaen morfeth ul'plynndae xor usstan xuat screa…” (I must make mistakes or I will not learn) He said hoarsely. “F'sarn naut ilythiiri, usstan zhahus naut rosin wund dosst tresk'ri, jhal usstan detholus dossta lueth z'klaen screa z'hin wun lil' veldrin zil dos xun.” (I am not Drow, I was not born into your world, but I chose yours and must learn to walk in the shadows as you do.) He was using drow as a majority of his soldiers did not speak the common tongue or if they did it was very little, most low born Drow knew only drowish, which meant he had been crash course learning at a rapid pace the tongue of his chosen people.

“Usstan ssinssrigg dosst ilhar jhal wun mzil i'dollen f'sarn zil natha dalhar ulu ilta. Usstan stumble lueth rei lueth orn xun ji whol fol draeval, jhal nindel anika' hass'l usstan daewl ulu suldaim ilta, whol ussta xukuth beats whol dosst ilhar” (I love your mother but in many ways I am as a child to her. I stumble and fall and will do so for some time, but that does not mean I wish to shame her, for my heart beats for your mother.) And it was true… He didn’t act out or act poorly out of spite or general ill intent. He was, in so very many ways, a child among the drow. Worse actually as many young drow children know more about how to behave than he did, but he was learning. He was growing. He was changing. It took some time that was all, and while he was sure there were days when Gia would likely want to wash her hands of him, he wished with his heart that she wouldn’t. These issues… These troubles… They were like growing pangs for them all, cutting teeth as it were and there is no way to rush it, it must go at the pace which nature deems if it is to be genuine and solid. Anything rushed is going to have a foundation that is as unstable as loose limestone. “Whol nin usstan er'griff daewl ulu qualla ussta jabbress. Usstan'bal belbaunin ilta natha dalharil lueth llar karliiken, llar territories vel'bolen nin carry ilta banner, yatharil wun zhennu jintoor ulu or'shanse ulu Lloth wun lil' kaas de' navere. Areion ussta jabbress usstan xund ulu sila lil' kaas de' navere ulu zhennu highs lueth udos orn restore ussta chev ulu ilta ditronw'urn k'lar zil ilharess llieh” (For now I only wish to please my Mistress. I have given her a daughter and three heads, three territories which now carry her banner, priestess in great number to sacrifice to Lloth in the name of Navere. Through my Mistress I work to bring the name of Navere to great highs and we will Restore my beloved to her rightful place as Matron Perfect.)

As Anya put her foot down so to speak he was already out of it again, a thin stream of blood coming from the corner of his lips before he’d start to cough up the part of his lung that had been pierced and shoved into the cavity, ripping open the stiches that Thaylan had just put along his ribs. “You may wish to step back… Lest I get blood on your cloak…” He said around a gasp as he was hit with the racking coughs as chunks of spongy flesh came up.

[BadInfluence]

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Hid words caused a smile to rise to her lips as she lifted her arm to flash the beautiful bangle with the angel wings on it. “Well I have to live up to this don’t I?” The smile on her lips was perfect as they settled into the nice, just shy of too hot water, the salts and oils with the many herbs inside of it were going to go a long distance to help them feel a bit more alive rather than sore, stiff creatures bumbling about. Settling down opposite him she made herself her own little pillow and nibbled on the fruits and cheeses, sipping from the ice cold glass of milk between bites, looking out for the buds inside her knowing they needed as much calcium as she could intake right now. As they reclined and enjoyed some simple but delicious finger foods she recapped the evening of a sort, a bit surprised by it in a lot of ways, and others not quite so much. It didn’t feel wrong which for some reason she had figured it might have, there was no emotional association with it what so ever actually, if anything all she felt for the entire thing was pleasure. It had felt good, pure and simple, it was a deeply carnal act that had resulted in some incredibly decadent climatic bliss. Perhaps that was what it was supposed to be? She knew humans believed things like what they had done were extremely distasteful, many a woman on the surface would have called such acts unnatural, even going to far as to divorce a husband for wanting something like it… And she was coming to learn in a round about sort of way that humans were really just a bunch of small minded prudes… For a race that had such a small life span they sure spent it getting hung up on ALL the wrong things.

“You and I both… I can see why the Orgies are so common place when you have men like that to sample from.” It would do well for the species in general too though, more sex equals more babies, and babies she was learning came second only to the Matron. Looking up she caught him rubbing on the stubble and she couldn’t help the smile on her lips at it. “I love it when you grow your beard out a little… It feels really exquisite when your going down on me or sucking my nipples… Kissing too… Though it does tend to tickle when you go down my neck.” A little bit of a tease there but it was also honest. She really did love that stubble, it was a bit of the good old double duty when it came down to pleasure, just the right change of texture to really set it all off… Cherry on top of the sundae sort of thing. The compliment he payed her, called her a phoenix made her blush and giggle softly before she sighed, low and sweet, a dreamy smile on her lips as she remembered all that occurred. “I certainly felt like one… Being born all over again like that between you two. It’s quite strange in a way because even though on one hand I felt like a slave to you both and your pleasures, on the other hand I felt like an Empress, taking everything I wanted from the situation… Such polar opposites but they were in perfect unity in that bed.” She was both bottom and top, slave and queen, night and day… She burned up even as she froze… She’d never felt like that before and honestly she wasn’t sure if she should do it again… Or if she could resist it. Like sweets, you know they make you fat but they taste so good, so you try to moderate it and hold out but then you just break down one day and feast…

“That makes sense. I suppose chemistry is chemistry, be it in cooking, baking or in the bedroom. Though I’m afraid your right about it being addictive… It’s a bit like my favorite dessert, it’s so good that I get extremely excited when I realize I get to have it, and I wish I could have it every day but if I did, well it wouldn’t be as good I think. Something like this… It’s not something that should ever be done on the regular.” If you did it would likely ruin any intimate time one had with their singular partner. When you get used to having such an extreme high like that the only other thing to do is to try and top it and that sort of mentality, that behavior can be very unhealthy, if not to mention downright dangerous. Moderation in all things, both pain and pleasure, good and bad… Balance, she was coming to learn, was the seasoning for a healthy life…. With the occasional dip into the down right forbidden just to keep things lively. She was quite glad to know that he saw Thaylan the same way he did, a very friendly person and someone they got along with, a perfect partner in bed yes but absolutely NO interest in anything outside of friendship between them all. “I’m glad honestly. He makes a great friend and is a very talented piercer, an as you said an excellent lover too, but I just cant see anything beyond that.” He just… Like Jacob said… Wasn’t their type. She did have a question though, wondering if his fetish lay in certain ways, only to realize what she had said was not what she meant and she shook her head vehemently. “Oh no! No no no! Jacob sweetheart the only babies that I will ever allow in my body are yours, that I promise you, you’re going to be the only father to every baby I have. I meant more the act of another male cumming in me during sex versus the act of actual impregnation. Good Goddess I can’t even imagine having a child from Thaylan, that’s just all sorts of wrong.” And if some weird ass freak accident she somehow did? She’d terminate without anyone being the wiser. She was NEVER going to have someone else’s baby.

As Jacob explained more in detail though it did help line a few things up for her in her head. “So you are a voyeur of sorts then?” She’d say but it was less like a question to him and more so like she was sorting things out inside her own head, speaking to herself as she put things in their places, lining the blocks up and such. “I enjoy watching you too honestly. I think when we’re making love together, we get so caught up in the sensations and of course the fact that our vision is limited in those moments that we lose out on a part of what makes sex so erotic, and that is the movements and the subtle things that we miss out on… Like when Thaylan was fucking you I got to see a side of you come out that I can’t see when we’re together, I saw the fact you can get just as raw and hungry as I do, that you get caught up in the same extremely intense need for pleasure as I feel… But when we’re together I can’t see that because I am only able to get half the picture.” And because of that it helped her understand a good deal more about herself, about him, and about their sexual relationship… These were all important things for her to understand, to learn because they were going to help her grow, not just as a woman but as his partner too. If this was something they were going to do then she wanted to be sure she understood it to the best of her ability because only with understanding can you avoid making mistakes or extremely bad blunders.

“I really did and I’d like to watch it again as often as you might enjoy it. There’s something Thaylan can give you that I can only play at. I have a womans body, a womans movements, a womans touch… I can be rough like he was but it won’t be the same. There is something very keenly different and far more satisfying about a real flesh and blood cock pleasuring you than a toy. It’s the smell, the feel of the skin moving and shifting, the veins pulsing and the throbbing as climax climbs closer to the inevitable eruption… Thaylan can satisfy a part of you I never can and I am so grateful for that… You need what he can give you and that’s really a good thing. I never want you to go without the satisfaction to that other side of you.” Jacob would need to feel the roughness of a mans hand… The sensations of virulent hot cum exploding inside him… The sounds of a deep grunt and groan, the rasp of a mans beard and the hard muscled planes of their body, the strength and force they can exert. She could, would, never be able to match that and she understood it. She also understood in a somewhat smaller way that sex with her might at times become a little repetitive for him… He might find her boring… Strange for that thought to crop up but she could see why it might happen. Him having sex with other women would help him be able to enjoy her more because he had had someone else, it would be like a sort of reset button, a nice fresh start in a familiar and well loved dance. The only thing was if he did lay with another woman she just wanted to be there, to be a part of it, she didn’t think she could accept him sleeping with another woman behind her back with any measure of grace or dignity…

What he said next though made her blush and that had nothing to do with the heat of the bath and everything to do with his words. He knew just how to talk but she didn’t think he realized it, like someone with a beautiful singing voice but doesn’t know it, unable to see how their melody moves others… Or in her case, how his words always found a way to touch her soul and leave it’s mark, like wet fingertips on glass. “You know… Without our chemistry, or all the things you do, all the things you are… I feel blessed every day that I just even get to see you… The fact that you’re mine is something I don’t think I’ll ever fully trust. It’s like having a miracle happen or finding your prayers answered, a wish granted you just sit there and look… And you look, waiting for it to disappear because things like that, they just don’t happen… But yet here I am… There you are… And your my miracle… My wish and my prayers and I just hope…I pray, every single day, that what ever I did for you to decide to stay… That I never stop doing it.” It was honest and genuine, not that she was putting herself down or thinking she was unworthy, rather it was more that things like this do not happen to people… Their story was the kind that you see gracing brightly colored children’s books or the Avon romance novels that many a woman reads in the tub to candle light and wine… It didn’t feel like it belonged in real life, not aside things like death and sorrow, yet for some unknown reason… They were there… Flesh and blood…And she wished with all her heart that it never went away. Things turned back around into the sexual aspect and this really was important, seriously and truly because they needed to understand a lot about this, they needed to set boundaries and comfort zones. Rules… Most of all, rules. His comment about her fainting made her laugh as she shook her head remembering that. “Oh it was… It was just one long orgasm that didn’t seem to end, it didn’t even plateau it just kept going until I felt like I was going to break apart. When I came around and saw you being fucked by Thaylan it was so incredibly erotic I just HAD to have you.” It was worth it in every way too! She wondered though if this thing with Thaylan, or really anyone they might take a shining to, if it was something he wanted to do again? Was this perhaps a special treat they might share? Or was it more like a firework?

The answers he gave her were honest and straight forward which was just what they needed in this event. “The last thing I want is any romantic entanglement. We’ve seen it work sure, but we’ve seen it explode more than it functions, we’ve seen plenty of it at work and among our friends and colleagues.” She said, nibbling on some more cheese and milk before she’s speak again, shaking her head a bit. “I don’t want romance with anyone but you. Your my first love Jacob, your my greatest love, and I want you to be my only love outside of our children. What I feel for you… I don’t ever want to share with someone else. This devotion and dedication… You’re the only person worthy of it.” She’d die for him if he asked her to, she’d easily and rapidly lay down her life at his feet and she wouldn’t for a moment regret it or feel bad about it, she’d go happily into it knowing that it meant something to him. That it was FOR him. His question to her though was met with pensive silence a bit as she finished off her cheese and milk, settling in with a bunch of grapes in her hand, popping several before she would speak. “I’m not sure I have an answer for that… I know I am sexually immature in a lot of ways, there’s a lot about sex and intimacy I am still discovering, a lot of likes and dislikes we haven’t explored… I also know I’m young, much younger than you or anyone we might bring into our bed for a night of enjoyment, and there is a lot about myself that I still need to learn.” She was confessing a lot there, admitting some fears that she was maybe too young sometimes, too eager to play with the big kids sometimes. It was a little embarrassing to realize, let alone own up to, the fact that she had a habit of biting off more than she could chew for the sake of feeling like she fit in… Belonged with those whom she admired and respected. She wanted to wear those high heels even if she couldn’t walk in them without tripping, she was stubborn and determined and while that wasn’t always a bad thing… It was still bad enough to cause her some hiccups… Some of which washed over onto Jacob to which he had to clean up and handle on his own. To say it was embarrassing was quite the understatement.

“I can say that yes, I do very much enjoy what happened, from start to finish the act itself is electric and I find a pleasure in it that is incredibly extreme and oh so enjoyable.” And it was, oh it WAS, it left her feeling so damned alive in her skin it was a high unlike anything else. She knew now that she’d had a taste? She would want more… But was this a treat? Or a drug? Was this something they could enjoy without any issues or was this something that might be wiser to avoid? “I can also say that watching you being fucked by another man was one of the most erotic things I have ever seen and it turns me on so bad I feel like I’ll tear my skin off out of sheer frustration if I can’t fuck you right then and there.” Seriously, it had been an itch, worse even than a compulsion to settle herself on his throbbing dick and fuck herself with it while he was subjected to the ass pounding of his life. She hadn’t thought, hell her brain wasn’t even fully on, that was just sheer instinct driving her. “I want to explore... I want to hold your hand and learn about sex with you.” Not through books as Sydel had told her, books were just someone’s perspective on it, and nine out of ten that was only a small fraction of it. She could read a thousand books and not be prepared for even the simplest act of lovemaking because there is no way to describe what it feels like when someone you love penetrates your body for the first time, all the emotions and sensations are at such a peak, there’s a chaos and fire inside you that starts to build and build until it collapses upon itself in climatic bliss and through it all you can only hold on. “One thing above all though is that I don’t want to bring a lover into the room with us unless I’m already pregnant. You are already raising a child who isn’t yours and being a wonderful father to him, and while I know your heart knows no boundaries on love, I won’t ever risk you not knowing if the children I bear are yours or a possible lovers.” She didn’t trust birth control and her body for SHIT. Not a fucking bit because if her body decided it wanted a baby it damn well made one despite anything she and Sydel had brewed up to keep it form happening. “Though… On that same vein… I am finding pregnancy is actually really a turn on for me… So maybe I’m realizing now that we have the same fetish?... And after our sons are born I can’t wait for you to get me pregnant again.”

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-What she encountered when she entered that room, she was not quite prepared for.. her Father stitching up the wounds of this Nautilous fellow.. who yes.. was very very worse for wear.. she had settled down to sit upon the stool just across from them both.. her attention shifted.. between them.. her hand rose.. she waved it a little dismissive when Thaylan went to apologize for Gias discomfort-.. mm.. no, its doubtful it would be seen in any poor light. I have done enough reading to know that anything could have set her off.. its very random.. cologne.. cooking.. dust.. it just so happens the rather pungent scent of blood was the cause this time around.. Im positive she holds no ill toward either of you for such.. -she nodded.. and she was quite sure of that.. her gaze fell to Nautilous.. where she gave him the spider pendant.. it was her show of support.. of acceptance.. that she would not get in the way of the relationship that was blooming between him and her Mother.. it also showed a great deal of trust.. especially in someone she did not know.. so with that she laid down some rules.. she spoke her mind and in the end was sure to let them both know it would be her they would be dealing with if her Mother got hurt.. she nodded when Nautilous told her he was going to make mistakes.. but that he was learning.. that he was not Drow so , so much of it was incredibly new to him-.. Mother told me she honestly believes you are capable of such amazing things.. once you apply yourself.. once you find your footing.. once your foundation is set..-her head tilted a little to the side.. she gave his hand a light squeeze before she settled back in her seat.. letting Thaylan continue to work on those rather nasty looking wounds-.. She told me once.. a very long time ago to never judge a situation youve never been in.. -she rubbed her lips together.. taking a quiet breath soon after-.. so I wont.. I am decidedly cautious.. I think thats expected.. but.. You're heart must be in the right place for you to put your life on the line like this.. for Her.. for us.. -her speech.. her voice cut off when that blood began to trickle down the corner of his lips..shock showing upon her features as she turned to look to Thaylan.. the coughing.. the blood gurgling sounds that were coming from him made her shift to her feet suddenly.. -.. Im going to go get Mother.. -her brows knitted as she grabbed her cloak and threw it back about her shoulders.. the hood drawn forward.. shielding her gaze as she slipped out suddenly.. the whole thing.. the blood.. the wounds.. all of it seemed so bad.. worse than she had seen first hand.. and whilst she trusted her Fathers skills were indeed quite high, she had a feeling Nautilous was going to need more.. and that her Mother should be informed of what was happening immediately.. -

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The time she has spent in that bathroom was most certainly not fun, quite colourful and left her feeling more than a little drained..she couldn't honestly remember the last time she had actually thrown up Anything.. and this struck her suddenly with very little warning..the scent of blood.. rich and pungent had slipped beneath the door of the study they had been conversing in and the moment it crossed her features she basically turned green.. her sense of smell had always been a little dull, it was just normal for the Drow.. having lived underground for great lengths of time meant it just was not up to standard.. but with pregnancy came its own dramas.. her daughter had left her to go seek out the two gentleman..the discussion they had shared was helpful.. it gave her a sounding board that she needed.. someone to bounce ideas off of.. and someone to listen.. sometimes the mind just needed to unload.. a cool cloth against her forehead had helped to quel a secondary wave of nausea.. to calm her down as she sipped upon a glass of water.. Anya had popped in then.. alerting her to the fact that she was indeed needed in that bathroom .. that something was gravely wrong.. confusion settled in as she made her way out into the main room.. her feet stilled though when she caught sight of the heads just resting there near the door.. she moved to crouch.. long fingers reached to turn them around.. so she could see just who this was.. or well try her best to make it out.. the expressions of pure horror that rested upon the locked faces made it perhaps a little difficult.. but..the crowns well.. they gave it away.. had he done this?.. Had they done this?.. she was sure she hadnt seen Thaylan leave the property.. it was only Nautilous that had to slip out to deal with something that had happened.. what that was she was not so sure.. Anya was calling out to her by this stage to Come.. there was urgency in her voice.. she nodded..-.. yes.. yes I will be there in a moment.. -she responded.. turning her gaze back to the two Matrons that had been savagely murdered.. it had to have been Nautilous.. and these two were incredibly powerful women.. hidden away by even more powerful houses.. How on earth did he manage that?..

she blinked.. her mind was quite stunned.. she was more than a little shocked by this.. she plucked the crowns from their heads.. settling them down against her elbow.. like oversized bangles as she made her way across the hall toward this bathroom she was being drawn to.. Anya held the door open to her and she made her way in.. her gaze fell upon Thaylan first.. before she would catch sight of Nautilous and her face just fell.. -.. Oh My God.. -she exclaimed suddenly.. turning her head as she looked back to Anya-.. Go and get Jacob and or Rose.. They have to be around here somewhere.. Quickly.. -she blinked.. there was pleading and urgency in her voice as she placed those crowns down upon the stool and she went as far as to step down into that tub of water that he was in.. clothes and all.. she'd done it before.. except it was a shower last time.. -.. What in the goddesses name is going on here?.. -she questioned .. her brows drawing in.. concern.. even a level of fear was evident upon her face as she came to stand before Nautilous.. her hands reached.. she made sure not to get in the way of her brother as he was stitching or patching the wounds.. her fingers found his bruised jaw and cheeks.. lifting his head a little.. catching sight of the blood trickling down the corner of his lip.. she looked utterly heartbroken for him in that moment- My goodness you are going to be the death of me I sware it.. -she turned.. glancing toward Thaylan as if questioning if everything was going to be ok.. before she turned back to look upon him..seeing the stitches beginning to pop open.. seeing the scratches.. the knife and blade wounds.. the blisters and pustules that could only come from poison and chemical burns.. her shoulders just sunk-.

.I saw.. what you did.. or.. in the very least the remnants of it.. outside my door.. -her hand rose as she glides her fingers So softly along his cheek.. -.. That was an Incredibly bold move.. I knew those women.. personally.. I knew what you had to have gotten through to get to them.. and I am torn.. on one hand.. I want to chide you for going rogue.. you could have been captured.. You could have been killed.. many times over.. but.. not only have you been through enough today that you dont need me coming down on you.. Im also incredibly proud.. -the corners of her lips curled a little and if his eyes werent completely shot and blurry he would have seen it.. a glimpse of the pride she had for him..- and that goes for you too Thaylan.. for you both built up those men.. you buffed their skills and talent.. you engineered the perfect army and you must have had enough trust in them to allow them to fight along side you.. to succeed.. for a weaponsmaster will never.. Ever go into battle with even an ounce of insecurity about himself, his men or his weaponry.. -her hand reached back to press over her heart.. glancing between the both of them-.. I am proud of you both. I will however implore you to please.. not do that again without telling me though.. -she chuckled all be it very lightly-.. I love you both.. I do.. I just like to be kept in the loop.. I will need details though.. when you are up to it..

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-His cheeks coloured when she mentioned his facial hair and her like for it being a little bit longer.. how it felt as it crossed her bare flesh.. one thing he noticed about it was that it changed the appearance of his face.. made him look a little bit older.. not quite so babyfaced..-.. Well I will be sure not to remove it in a hurry.. -he shot her a playful wink as he downed that glass of cooled fruit juice..the water was warm.. soothing.. it was doing wonderfully to chase away the sting.. the mild bruising that was inevitably forming after such a rough and tumble play session..The two of them spoke at length about what had just happened.. their general likes and dislikes.. their wants soon finding they were on the same page in a lot of respects.. they both liked to watch.. and they both liked the idea of having someone else in the bedroom from time to time.. but they had to remain unattached.. there was no room for feelings.. not now.. not ever. What the two of them had was so very special and the last thing he wanted to do was jeopardise it.. she asked him if he liked the idea of another breeding her and he took it in its literal sense.. his head tilting to the side when she corrected him-.. Well you did say breeding my love.. I am only going on what you mentioned.. -he laughed a little-.. however.. thankyou for the clarification.. I have no desire to see you getting pregnant by anyone else no.. its not something that had even registered in my mind..so I think when we get further down the track we might need to be a little more careful.. so such does not ever eventuate.. plus.. if say.. hypothetically Thaylan was to become a regular lover in the bedroom when the mood struck us.. I have a feeling that the Matron would not approve of his impregnating anyone other than her.. -she went into great detail.. explaining what she got out of that rather heated session.. what she saw.. what she thought he needed that she herself could not give.. and how in the end it could work out quite well.. he asked her what it was she wanted though.. she seemed quite intrigued by his answers that he felt it time to turn it back on her.. just what was wandering around in that mind of hers .. he was indeed quite curious.. -

You are indeed quite young, with so So much ahead of you.. plenty of time to explore.. find out what it is you like and what you dont like.. and even then.. your taste will change over the years.. one year you will really be into one thing in particular.. and then the next it might be utterly pointless to you and you would have gotten no pleasure from it at all. One thing you will have to learn is how to listen to your body.. figure out what you like.. Always explore it.. never be afraid or embarrassed.. and if there is ever anything you want to try.. just tell me.. and we will go over it.. it's all about having fun together.. I never want that to be one sided.. -he nodded a little.. listening as she spoke on her desires.. of wanting to bring in a lover but only if she was pregnant at the time.. that birth control really never seemed to work successfully with her.. and she did not want to risk it-.. Sounds more than fair.. as long as you're careful.. pregnancy will hold you back from a great lot of things .. you can only go so far.. cant go that hard.. and Ill be honest.. if something I did.. or something I was involved in with a second party caused you to miscarry.. Id never forgive myself.. -and he wouldn't.. if she miscarried because of him.. directly or indirectly he'd never touch her again..-he settled his head back against the rolled towel on the edge of the oversized tub.. laughing a little when she said she couldn't wait to get pregnant again-.. mm.. well I can sweetheart.. I think it would be a good idea for us to have a little bit of a break in the middle there.. and you need to be thinking about your position too.. can you really give your all if you are pregnant All the time?.. It could put you at a disadvantage.. I love children.. I do and I really desire little more than to have a nice small family with you.. but not all at once.. I want to be able to enjoy our children.. not chase a toddler with an infant.. -it might be a little brash.. might even be a little pushy.. but he wondered if she honestly had thought that through.. pregnancy was taxing on everyone.. -.

. Im looking forward to being able to hold an infant .. My child..not one that I knew deep down never was.. but.. my own flesh and blood.. my own family.. -he smiled-.. its going to be pretty magical...and you are going to make the Best Mother.. I just know it. everything is slowly coming together.. piece by piece.. -his lids closed over.. before there was an obvious knocking on the door.. his brows furrowed-.. Are you expecting someone?.. -he would question her as he moved across the pool toward the side closest to the door.. -.. Who's there? -he would call out..-


Anya: -she had hurried off from the bath area where her Mother was just about having a fit at the sight of Nautilous.. she'd asked a few of the hired help where Jacob and Rose were.. but her english was a little rusty.. so she literally checked every door she came across.. empty bedrooms, kitchens, studies, libraries.. before she heard the faint noise of talking.. and she recognised Roses voice no less-.. Its Anya Navere.. I am sorry for interrupting Its an emergency..-she opened the door just a little.. just enough so that she wasn't yelling through the wood-


Jacob: -he blinked when he heard Anyas voice.. he knew it quite well from the time he had spent in the underdark that one fate filled night-.. No no its fine of course.. Whats wrong?.. is it your Mother? -he questioned as he glanced back over to Rose.. concern evident-


Anya: No.. no its Nautilous.. I dont know whats happened.. I just came to speak to Mother.. but when I went and visited him .. he looks terrible.. He has a great number of wounds.. he is bleeding profusely.. I saw blisters on his arms.. his eyes are almost completely red.. and he'd blood coming from his mouth.. Mother called upon me to get you and Rose.. quickly.. Please..

Jacob: -he blinked again.. his eyes widened a little when he heard it was Nautilous.. -.. Wow.. Ok.. yes.. of course.. just let us grab a few things and we will be right over.. -he turned back to her there.. his hands rose as he ran them back through his wet hair-. I dont understand it.. he was rattled yes from the brothel.. but he wasn't hurt.. nothing like that at all.. something has happened between then and now.. -he helped her out of the pool.. reaching for the towels and robes as he handed one over to her.. he wrapped one around his middle.. rubbing a second through his hair and across his shoulders-.. I need to go get some clothes from the room.. You head on over.. and evaluate whats happened.. Ill be there as soon as I can.. -he looked worried and a little jittery.. stress would do that.. he'd only just gotten Nautilous as a Father.. the last thing he wanted to do right now was lose him.. he went to leave before he paused.. stepping back to her swiftly as he without warning cradled her cheeks.. claiming those beautiful lips of hers in a sweet loving kiss.. before he broke it and pulled back.. tapping the end of her nose.. and he slipped out the door in a run toward their shared room-

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“That is good then, I fear this condition is far beyond my grasp in many ways, last I was with her you were hardly a seedling inside your mother.” Pregnant women and harlequin never ran into each other and if a performer managed to get pregnant she often retired during the course of it and resumed her activities after weaning, the entire process and the sensitivity that goes hand in hand with that particular state was well and beyond him, though he would do all he could to be as understanding and patient as he possibly could be. While his daughter touched base with the man who was to be her second father, a step father really, he continued to stitch open wounds and try to minimalize the damage as best he could. Sadly though it seemed his work was going to be for nothing as the two talked it seemed to strike up some sort of fit and there was nothing left to do but allow his daughter to go and seek out her mother and they’d go from there. He knew Lloth wouldn’t kill someone she was enjoying the torment and torture of, but that didn’t mean she’d not let him teeter damn close to it, only to yank him back from the ledge.





“Your mother is incredibly kind to me, she found me when I was quite broken and has been leading me home ever since, though I hope through this journey I am able to repay her for all she has done for me.” He could give her a gaggle of girls to raise but that wasn’t the same as being able to give her the sort of assurance, comfort and support that she gave him, because of her he had even made it this far inside himself. He was no idiot, at least not as much as he used to be, he knew the only reason he had come as far as he had was entirely because of the chance she had started inside him. She had flicked that first domino and he was riding on the momentum. How does one repay that? “Caution is justified always, and if anyone tells you otherwise, they have ill intent on the mind Anya. Adeliade herself is manipulative and scheming, every move she makes is for the betterment of her kingdom, and that does not go beyond forcing her children to marry for the sake of an heir.” Hence that damned Princess run which had ended in fire, blood and fiasco, sort of like a haunting forerunner to what was to happen between Ace and Rose. Maybe the ghost of Tirithon was doing them a favor and stopping them before it was completed… Spare the kingdom the embarrassment of their King Regent being unable to make a firm decision on anything regarding his love life. Some men just don’t have it in them to commit, they’d been too burned by life, too jaded by the experience of it to ever think love was anything more than a hard core pipe dream with one hellacious hang over after the buzz fades. “Trust needs to be earned through acts, don’t ever take someone at face value, let them fly or fail in your eyes according to actions. Your mother is hawk like, shrewd where she puts her trust and it’s what has allowed her to survive, to thrive despite the slings and spears life has hurtled at her.” Why was he saying that? Did he think Adeliade had mechanisms? Oh totally. He was almost positive that she was going to force Ace to marry soon for an heir before his cock got as shriveled up as his balls, and while he knew Anya being Drow was a bit on the less than pleasurable side, given how high and rich the family was growing Adelaide would be a fool to snub the possible riches and wealth to come to the city through it… Not to mention the army.

He was about to warn her of such a thing possibly being in the wings before the act of talking so much set his body off and parts of lung began to be coughed up, the action alone so brutal and sudden it opened many of the newly placed stitches and the water was growing pinker than a babies bottom in no time flat. No one would stop her when she sped off to tell Gia and to get the doctors on hand, after all that was why Gia hired Rose on, was to tend to the family. Seeing the look on Gia’s face though, that wrenched his soul as he gripped the side of the tub hard enough to crack the plaster and tiles as he struggled to get a hold on the spell, subverting it for a few moments… Just long enough to talk… “You shouldn’t be in the water… It’s filthy… Think of the babies…” He gritted out around the urge to cough all over again, he knew for a fact what ever was on him was going to be questionable at the very least, already having had several boils and blisters form from toxins and fire laden who the fuck knew what being lobbed at him, hell even his hair had chunks falling out from what ever it had been.






“He is right, my Matron, we don’t know all of what might be purged from his system, the heiress must come first. They are irreplaceable.” He said gently as he would guide her personally out of the water, even lifting her up if he had to, for while a Matron ruled all under her hand? It was their job to support her and keep her safe and that was exactly what they were doing. Instead of keeping her fully away though he sat her on the side where he had been at so she could touch him, embrace him if she wished for his body outside of the tub was clean so far, outside of the thin stream of blood from his lips. “He will be fine, Lloth provides, but such comes at a cost. This is likely his body rejecting things from the poisons still in him, his body attempting to purge it.” He was alive and would remain so, but that didn’t mean he’d be shitting rainbows and pissing sprinkles the whole time, he was sure at least for parts of it that Nautilous would rather be dead than the level of pain he was in. “The reports I am getting from our armies heads are all good, the houses were taken in a surprise ambush which allowed the first house to fall in rapid order, Nautilous had slipped into the castle under the guise of a pleasure slave sent as a gift from the house Navere in a show of good faith, the most famous Whore Nautilous Dragonsbane… No Matron alive would pass up that lure.” And it had worked like a CHARM. He had no idea sensuality could be a weapon but there it was, welded so expertly by the whore who had evolved into a Weapons Master, the silk worm into a beautiful and lethal butterfly. “She was murdered in her sleep…” Presumably after Nautilous fucked her brains out but he wasn’t about to say that out loud… He figured Gia would already know the math there. “He then took charge and command of the Matrons army and swarmed the next house, using the other army as cannon fodder as he calls it, having them take the worst of it while our army came around back in a pincer motion and had the city and the castle itself pinched in their grasp and fell within shorter order under overwhelming numbers…” That wasn’t to say there weren’t extreme losses on their side, but those losses would be replaced easily by the new soldiers who would be joining their rank after proper training and proving they were worthy of it. “The daughters, Grandmothers, and any other female of rank has been taken prisoner. The Sorcerers and Warlocks have been killed.” NEVER trust a magic user and Nautilous had devoured them personally, absorbing their powers for Lloth through the act of cannibalism… And set quite the ripple of fear among the enemy to see the Weapons Master of the enemy consuming the flesh of some of their most powerful Mejii like it was candied yams.





After Thaylan had filled her in of sorts he was in control of his breathing enough to speak once more, the worst of the fit having passed while Rose and Jacob would be preparing for what ever they might face, Gods know he figured they were likely relaxing or making love… What a shitty way to get interrupted and he’d apologize for it later… “I was killed. Twice. Lloth has kept her word… She had brought me back each time to slaughter all enemies of the Navere house.” While he was sure she wouldn’t like knowing he had died? At least she knew that he was going to be brought back each time. “She has… Grand plans for you.” Some of which had been shared with him versus trickling it down the line through Anya or one of the other Priestess. “You are to be an Example of the Llieh Ilharess… She says her people have become content and lazy… That only you have strove to be a true Matron, you follow the Old Ways…” But what else was in store? Had not been shared with him. Instead he listened to her speak of her pride and he just shook his head very carefully. “I have been wrong to you, expecting you to mold to me, to accept my hiccups and faults because I am young and new to this…” He wasn’t always stupid… Not always. “I have forgotten what it means to be around new people, people who I do not know, who are strangers to me in many ways… I expect you to learn me without opening myself up to learn you… For that I am so sorry, Mistress… I only hope these Victories can make up for the many mistakes I have made.” And he had made a few without a doubt… He had… A lot to learn in a short amount of time, he needed to know everything he could possibly know to be the very best he could be, for her… For himself… For Sydel… There were people he needed in his life and he wasn’t going to be healthy for any of them if he just pushed his weight around and expected everyone to crumble under it. He needed to learn harmony… Balance… And he was going to do that if it killed him.

Rose and Jacob would be entering then and it took them little more than a glance to see things were rather unpleasant, Rose instantly going with Thaylan and Gia to address what ever poisons were likely in his system from the attack, Jacob to attack the issues with his body purging damaged tissues so the new, fresh organs could grow.

[BadInfluence]

“Please do, it gives you a very handsome, almost roguish look. It’s insanely attractive.” She said as she smiled a this wink he shot her. She wasn’t going to lie about it, it felt good and he really did look incredibly, well; Incredible. That bit of facial hair made him look more worldly, a little more mature and debonair, a bit less straight laced… Plus the things it did to his cheekbones and jaw line… Be still her heart! The two of them lounged around in that soft potion of water mixed just to help them heal up from that wonderful little ménage a twa. The conversation was amazing though, very forward and honest, questions asked which were really needed to be felt out and explored. They couldn’t take a step forward together if they weren’t at the starting line side by side and this? Was a whole different kind of race wasn’t it? Though thankfully he did clear something up and she ended up blushing just a touch as she hurried to explain the miscommunication, laughing herself when he did call her out on it. He was right, she had certainly used the wrong word that’s for sure! “Yes I did, didn’t I?” She said with a laugh and a shake of her head with her lips turning up in a smile as she ran her hand over her flat belly, the only change she had noticed so far was that it was a bit firmer now, and of course the sudden flutter and kicks… The twists and now the smallest little bumps outside of her belly that could be felt. “I’d much rather not enter a situation like that honestly I agree. Not only would the Matron be furious but I’d absolutely hate the situation.” And while she didn’t say it out loud she knew if something like that had ever happened she’d force her body to miscarry rather than do something like that. She did tap her chin a bit in thought over something though which might just be a nifty solution.. “But you know, the berries at the party that Gia gave me and the other women? Those would actually work for me… What we have on the surface and in Arvandor is no where near as strong as what they have down in Menzoberranzan… Plus when you think about it their entire world revolves around population control so they have birth control down to the finest of sciences….”

Chances were the Drow were the only ones to have a birth control strong enough to actually work for her. Just pop one before sex and you could enjoy yourself consequence free. Who wouldn’t enjoy that?! More questions were asked, answers given, things were hashed out between them in such a way as they hadn’t done before. This was in truth incredibly good for them, something very important and healthy, a chance to get the ground work out before anything got complicated or weird. He asked her a very pointed question though and she paused for some moments to think it over, give it the attention it deserved before she would speak on it, all things considered it was a very important question and she wasn’t going to answer it off the fly. “I understand that and I know it’s important. I am eager to explore I really am, everything I feel with you is like shooting stars and fireworks, it’s always the most amazing thing in the world… And I know every sexual adventure in my life I want it to be shared with you, I want it to be things we are comfortable with, things we enjoy.” Something in her mind was chewing at her though… Like the faint humming of a melody you had long forgotten the tune or words to… A warning…. Caution… But she couldn’t trace it down, it was a ghost in her hands, smoke through her fingertips. “Like for instance I realize I enjoy being whipped, especially my breasts, even if I haven’t confessed that before now…” And she hadn’t, mostly because of her own thought pattern, something she had perhaps been doing wrong… “I guess at first I thought with you being so… Experienced… That you would know what I wanted before I did but… That’s really unfair. Putting so much on you without even telling you that I was expecting it. I’m really, truly blessed and grateful we’re talking about this now, I never realized how important it was… Or how silly I’ve been…” Though how and why she had gotten to this point was something that was still beyond her but… Did it matter how? Or was what really mattered more the fact they were talking about it now?

His words of wisdom on the pregnancy though… That did sour it just a little, didn’t it? The LAST thing she wanted was to be neglected something in what should be an area where all and sundry are explored with exuberance and joy. “That sounds like it’s cheating everyone in the equation put that way… We can always try using the drow birth control that Gia gave me… We can have sex during my peak ovulation and if I don’t conceive then we know it works and can go from there… Honestly the idea of not just putting everything in wrapped cotton during sex while pregnant but the way it would kill you inside if anything happened is just the most horrible thing honestly, I didn’t even realize that.” Though as they talked about fetishes and the fact they did have a couple in common, his words on how it would be hard on him to be a father taking care of a new born and a toddler all at the same time, not to mention that being pregnant back to back… It would suck. Big time. Even more was the fact she didn’t even realize that until he had said it and the shock showed on her face as she blinked a few times. “I didn’t even realize that… Not just the position thing but the fact that you would be under so much stress, that we’d basically lose out on a lot of the special, precious things that come with a child growing because we’d be too busy focusing on the next one… I mean I didn’t really realize it…” She said as she thought about it for several more seconds, tapping the side of her glass of juice now as the thoughts rolled about in her head, settling into neat little slots. “I think Jacob… I do have a fetish for being bred though… Not my everyone or anything like that, just by you… The idea of being forced into submission and fucked like that, being told I had no choice, that I was nothing more than a breeding mare… I think that’s what I crave about pregnancy… The children are beautiful yes, pregnancy for me so far has been very smooth, but the thing for me is the creation… That part makes me hotter under the skin than if I had an exceptionally high fever.” And that was a good thing to know… The play acting of it was what made her get a rush so hot it ached. “I think…. Every seven to nine years we’ll make room for a new baby? Space them out nice and far so we can enjoy all the crazy wonderful changes they go through as they become a little person of their own… Have maybe two or three?”

Three sounded good, not too many or too few, just enough to get that ideal ratio of chaos so that it’s never boring but never so mad that you want to run away. She really wanted her little girl though, that was going to be a stickler and perhaps the only reason she might shoot for four… Maybe more… At least until she got that little girl. Every daddy needed a little princess right? “Well before you know it our little sons are going to be here and ready for all those snugglings… I know I want to try and be the best mother I can be, but I think what I want more than that, is to be the best wife and mother I can be, not for myself but for you, for our family… I’m happy in my own skin, I like who I am becoming, and I want to be the type of person that our children and you can be proud of…” She stood up for a moment, coming over to his side of the tub before settling in next to him, her arms snaking about his waist as he leaned back to relax more. “But… I think it might just be one… I haven’t felt our twin move in more than a day now…” She said cautiously but before she got an answer there was a knock at the door and the world came crashing in…

It took her no time at all to get dressed, pulling it on over her head as she went for her medical bag and out the door, knowing Jacob would be right behind with his own kit. Once she was in the room and saw Gia was wet she hissed through her teeth slightly and clucked her tongue, guiding Gia to sit on the side to sit on a bench and strip our of her clothes and grab a shower immediately. “Your far too early in your pregnancy to be exposing yourself to anything. Shower with lye and iodine soap right away please! We’ll keep you abreast of the situation.” Gia might be her boss but she was also a mother figure and that meant she got extra care, even if she had to be a little bossy about it. Once that was done she’d have Thaylan drag Nautilous out of the pool and into a bedroom on top of thick towels laid over it, having Nautilous lay on his side so he could purge everything without aspirating it, growling under her breath about bad timing.. Pulling out a jar of specialty leeches from Menzoberranzan to draw the poisons out while she and Thaylan worked over what should be an antedote, leaving Jacob to set bones and bind them, stitch up the wounds and burns, lance the boils and blisters… Together though they worked like the dream team as they handled the man in the bed who seemed to always know how to get in trouble at the worst time.

Within about twenty minutes she had compounded an antidote she gave to Jacob to inject intravenously while she herself applied a salve to the wounds to draw out the toxins that the leeches hadn’t yet gotten to. Over all? It was about forty minutes of intense work, Gia would have been allowed back in after a shower of course, Anya as well if she wished to see them at work. Nautilous would have been safely put to sleep but he would be sleeping alone in that bed tonight, no one was leaving yet, not until he was healed up and that might take a few hours given the damages he had suffered.

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shock and fear was all that registered on her features when she entered that room.. now she had seen him beaten up before.. she'd seen him bruised and bloody.. but this was something else entirely.. he looked as though he had been murdered.. multiple times and that he was barely hanging on by a thread.. her logical thought did not register as she moved to his side.. the filth in the water was the least of her concerns before she was guided out to sit upon the tiled at the side.. her brows were permanently drawn in.. she was stressed.. her gaze shifted to Thaylan when he spoke on Nautilous being ok.. that it possibly just looked a lot worse than it actually was.. the fact he had so many wounds open though.. it worried her.. she nodded when it was discussed what had happened.. that the houses were taken by surprise.. how Nautilous has managed to find his way in without too much suspicion before the Matron was taken out in her sleep.. she reached across to him.. her fingers were soft as she cradled against his bruised jaw.. sighing audibly when he explained to her that he had indeed been killed twice.. but brought back to continue on his valiant efforts.. -.. I worry that there will come a time when you will not return though.. I dont doubt your strength.. you have proven thus numerous times now.. you're a veritable powerhouse..and I adore and honour my goddess and will do so until I take my final breath.. but I know better than to rely on her to bring you back.. every time ..-she just didn't want him to become complacent about it.. for it would be just like lloth to change her mind on a whim and then it would all be over he spoke to her about the goddess having grand plans..that she was to be set as an example..since she still leant toward the old ways.. it was an intriguing development. and most assuredly a step in the right direction.. -.. and none of us would be here.. if it werent for you.. -she glanced back to Thaylan as she reached across to rest her hand atop his-.. or Sy for that matter.. so any developments that come to us by way of the great goddess is due to the help.. we have had to build.. to make the foundation beneath us a little bit stronger every day..

-she shook her head when he went to speak about him making mistakes and being wrong to her.. -.. Its not the time .. not right now.. all I am worried about is you getting patched up.. -everything else was forgotten in those moments.. it was trivial in comparison and she wasn't about to be bringing it up.. when everyone was settled.. in better spirits and in a lot better health.. maybe then they would sit down and have a nice long talk.. it would be then that Rose would come in and she was unceremoniously shifted across the room.. reminded of the fact she should not have exposed herself to whatever may have been in that water.. -.. Of course.. -..she exhaled.. rubbing her forehead with the back of her hand as she made her way across the room toward where the showers were.. she would strip out of that now murky blood stained dress.. glancing down at this lye and iodine soap.. turning it around in her fingers.. certainly had an interesting scent.. she practically drowned herself under that stream of heated water.. that body of hers couldn't have possibly been cleaner when she was done.. she sunk down to sit there upon the bamboo chair.. just breathing in the steam clouds that were around her as she ran that comb back through her hair.. pinning it away from her face.. she slipped into one of the toweling robes.. drawing it around her as she made her way back toward the rooms where everyone appeared to be.. it would be around the time Nautilous was drifting off to sleep.. medically induced and much needed.. his wounds looking a damn sight better.. at least they werent gaping and bleeding anymore.. but there would be quite a few stitches there for a while.. her attention turned to Rose and Jacob as they would be packing up a few things and doing their final checks.. -.. Thankyou.. I know the timing was not so wonderful.. especially given everything you went through.. -she waved her hand a little.. -.. but if Nautilous has taught me anything.. its that things dont always run to a schedule.. -he certainly had a knack for keeping everyone on their toes.. she figured life would never be dull whilst he was around.. -.. I trust the prognosis looks ok?.. -she would question.. allowing them to respond before she would send them off to relax for the remainder of the afternoon and evening.. she would move to the bedside there.. looking down to him resting quite peacefully.. her fingers rose as she brushed a few coloured locks behind his ear-.. You know.. you should be a little more careful.. you're not made of metal.. Im not ready to lose you yet.. I still have so much to learn.. -a single finger traced down the side of his face..down along his jawline-.. so much to share.. -she leant in.. pressing her lips to his forehead before she would settle into the arm chair beside the bed.. and that where she would remain.. drifting off as a much needed nap overcome her.. -

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It was a roundabout way of putting his foot down when it came to their future family.. he didn't want her pregnant all the time.. he had seen it in his field of work.. everyone around them got neglected all for the sake of the newest addition and the Mother always got drowned in exhaustion.. it was not a future he wanted.. -.. Sometimes all it takes is looking at something from a different perspective.. thats all.. -he nodded a little.. offering her a smile as he took another bite of the crackers and cheese.. -.. I think three sounds good.. a little spaced out so we can enjoy how much our life changes with new additions.. and who knows where we will be in ten years or even twenty.. we will just take it as it comes.. one step at a time.. -she spoke on wanting to be a Mother and Wife they could all be proud of.. -.. Ill always be proud of you my love.. You surprise me with something every day.. and I adore you for it..-he felt her hands gliding around his waist as he settled in against the rolled up towels that were upon the bathing pools side.. her comment on how it could be just one baby.. not two as they had originally thought caused him to look to her.. placing his glass of juice back upon the tray.. he paused.. before reaching for her.. hands atop her shoulders-. one step at a time sweetheart.. Ill do that scan for you soon yes?. and we will see whats happening in there.. it could be nothing.. you're not showing out front much at all.. room might be an issue with you being so petite.. -it would be then though that they would be interrupted.. Anya alerting them to the fact they were needed.. it was an emergency.. thankfully not with the Matron herself.. but equally as scary for him it was Nautilous.. the one of which he had just accepted as a Father finally.. the two of them parted ways as he rushed off to find something to wear.. something light and easy.. a pair of slacks and a shirt.. he gathered up his bag and made his way back into the bathhouse where everyone had congregated..

his heart sank when he saw the colour of the bath water.. the way his Father looked.. the wounds.. the bruising and blisters.. he nodded to her when she sent Gia off in urgency to get cleaned up.. he agreed with her completely.. until they knew for sure what was in that water it wasn't safe-.. Same goes for you Rose.. step back until we have him out of the water.. -he called across-.. Settle the bedding out.. towels and the like -he assisted Thaylan to get Nautilous out of the murky water.. -.. You certainly know how to get Everyones attention -he laughed a little.. trying to make the situation a little lighter.. though deep down he knew how grave it certainly looked.. he and Thaylan settled Naut onto the bed.. wedging him so he was resting partially on his side.. he worked on the opposite side of her.. making sure she had room to perform her duties.. whatever she felt was necessary.. he kept an eye on what she was doing though.. curious as to what her go-to's would be.. and just how much she had learnt .. the ribs that were fractured were the most bothersome.. he could hear that several were applying pressure on the lungs.. the rattle in his breathing gave that away easily.. with a little magical intervention.. which unfortunately was not void of pain that pressure would be removed.. he would bind his chest with firm cotton bandages.. going over his arms.. fingers.. shoulders and legs.. checking everything as he moved along.. he didn't want to miss anything and would always be incredibly studious when it came to things like this.. his attention shifted when she handed him this compound.. it was an antidote.. -.. Im impressed.. I really am.. -he gave her a smile.. he was So proud of her .. seeing her in action like this.. the antidote was injected.. it would take some time to work.. to flood the body..

so an easy and swift sleep spell was used.. magical and medical.. his body would remain in a comatose state for a good half a day if not longer.. Nauts ability to heal was always quite striking.. but.. from the look of this.. maybe not as much as it used to be.. he glanced toward Gia as she re-entered-.. He will be fine, he just really needs to rest otherwise none of this will heal up properly. He will be bruised and sore for a while though. But dont worry.. -his hand to his heart-.. I wont let anything happen to him.. Neither of us would.. -he glanced toward Rose there for a moment with a smile-.. If anything happens.. just call out.. really.. If you need us.. we will come.. regardless of what is happening at the time.. its what you employed us for.. -he lingered for a moment longer.. before he would move to take Roses hand.. and they would slip out of the room.. allowing the door to close quietly behind them.. he exhaled once he was outside-.. That was madness.. whatever happened must have been huge.. he was hurt pretty bad.. -his hand brushed his forehead-..But you.. my dear sweetheart were perfect.. skills and knowledge were on point, you didn't panic.. you were completely focused.. I couldn't be prouder.. -he pulled her in for a hug.. a soft warm embrace.. wrapping his arms around her as he held her for a moment-.. You are going to make a wonderful Doctor.. You'l surpass your teacher in no time.. I am sure of it.. -he smiled.. chuckling softly-.. How about we go and set your mind at ease.. get you the answers to the questions circling your mind.. and do this scan.. mm?.. if you want that is.. -he would pause.. giving her the option.. though if she said yes he would move them across.. back to their bedroom.. the one they had Not ruined with a sex fuelled threesome.. he drew the curtains open.. letting the room fill with a soft warm breeze.. -.. You get nice and comfortable on the bed.. -he would settle in on the stool beside her.. waiting till she settled into position.. she'd feel the slight prickle of his energy as he conjured up that dark screen.. -.. so you can see what I see.. two sets of eyes always better than the one.. -he would warm his hands up a little.. before he would place them down upon her lower stomach.. the image flickered.. until it would move into focus.. he would shift it around.. making sure he got views from different angles.. -

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“I know… Someone very dear to me reminded me that Lloth is loyal to no one but herself in the end and that relying on the contract was like building on quicksand.” Sydel had imparted a lot of wisdom to him in those moments after they had made love for the first time, the pleasure of it was still deep in his veins, allowing him to tolerate the pain far better than he would have otherwise. “It will be difference once my power is restored to me, Death would be very hard to come to me at that point, I’m immortal with it…” He just needed his powers returned to him, his magic, once he had that then his body would once more become the immortal power house he was known to be. The trick of it was that Lloth still had it so until she gave it back he was stuck relying on the fact that she enjoyed his suffering far too much to end it so quickly.

As she spoke about how none of them would be here if not for himself or Sydel, he reached out for her and took her hand in his for a moment, curling in his fingers around hers. “Sydel is a part of this family… In more ways than any of us can understand…” He wasn’t about to get into the details of it though, what had happened in Sanctuary was between the two of them for now, when the right time came to pass he was going to tell her all of it… From beginning to end and give it over to the Gods and Fates. If Gia tossed him then that was just going to be his luck with it and that was that. He fervently wished, prayed and hope that she wouldn’t, but he was going to have to be prepared to take it all both good and bad in the end. There was no lying about this, he knew Sydel was still the Princess of half his heart, Gia was the Queen of the other… He had to find a way to live in harmony with both parts of it or he would never truly be whole… “Foundations are mixed by who we have in our life I realize… They are not built upon by ourselves alone, we simply set the shape of it, nothing more… What is filled in… Is entirely dependent on what people add to our lives.” He had said he was learning, had he not? Coming to understand more and more about this life of his, the people in it, around him and those who have yet to come in.

Confessions were made in a small part, he realized after the battles and perhaps a bit before that he had been giving Gia the shitty end of the stick, for while he had been focusing on his own growth he had neglected the people who had given him the soil and space to grow in in the first place. She’d given him a hell of a lot of slack, more than anyone else in her position ever would have and he appreciated it, he understood now just how hard that must have been for her… A weaker woman would have snapped and walked… “But it must be spoken about soon… Letting it drift on the wind is like stray embers in a dry field, it would take nothing at all for them to make a situation worse…” But she was right… They did need to talk but right now it wasn’t going to do any good for them if he didn’t wait for the right moment. At least he had spoken about it in some measure so that was what mattered to him for right now. He submitted to being moved around by Thaylan and Jacob, everyone suddenly buzzing around him like bees, his lips pressed into a thin line as bones grated and ground together as he was placed in a clean bed that Rose had set up.

He stayed still and submitted to the treatments as they came, those leeches were fucking vile and if he were in a better place health wise he would have pulled those nasty little blood suckers off, but alas he was a bit fucked for strength and had to take it like a good patient… Though while he hated it? There was something to it though because where ever those little bastards were placed he started to feel a bit better, a lot of the burning sensations were being lessened pretty substantially… Enough that he relaxed a little bit which likely made the job a lot easier for Jacob who was about to reset his ribs and pull them out of his lungs… Though there was no way to silence the thick grunt of pain as it was done, his hands fisted in the sheets as he grit his teeth down hard enough to almost crack them, forgetting to breathe for a moment… Though when he did remember? Jacob was starting to bind his chest and he found breathing didn’t hurt NEARLY as bad… Daring even to take a few slightly deeper breaths, grateful that he was no longer feeling like he was drowning on his own blood in there. More potions and lotions were applied to his skin, drawing the poisons out in thick black patches that were quickly wiped off, each passing cluster of minutes had him feeling better and better. At the end of it, the injection coursing through his veins and the leeches falling off after gluttoning on the poisoned blood, the healing magic applied to him from both sides had him feeling so good… Crashing out incredibly hard under that magic sleeping spell and he wouldn’t so much as twitch as everyone slowly went to their own things after.

[BadInfluence]

He assisted as best he could but his skills in healing were minimal at best. He could keep someone alive until a doctor was found but admittedly his skill was putting holes in people, not removing them, but over all? He was pleased with what he had done and easily stepped back to let the doctors get to work. When Rose had called him to help her identify the poisons used he accessed all he saw and smelled, the signs and symptoms and was able to help her identify several poisons that had been used and which treatments were best, though as Rose began to get to work he was surprised that she had such a cache of Drow medication with her. Some of them were something only a Matron would have which made him wonder how deep in with the other matron she was to have gotten her hands on so much… The leeches alone were worth a fortune! Then considering the amount of antidotal herbs and even some of the rarer vials of the puffer fish venom and even some from several spiders… He was going to have to sit down with her and ask her just what the hell she was doing when she wasn’t treating Gia…

All of that could wait though as he told her which were the best antidotes for what and let her work things out on her own as he moved to help Jacob do what ever it was with those ribs, keeping him on his side so that the work wasn’t undone before those bandages could be applied. When Nautilous was done up and all the work in good stand he would move with Gia to keep her company while she took that shower, keeping an eye on her incase anything happened, such as say some of that venom or poison had sunk in. He also took those wet clothes and burned them with mages fire so that they’d never be worn again, who knew what might be on them at that point?, it wasn’t worth the risk. As she scrubbed he spoke to her through the curtain. “Little sister…” He said gently to get her attention, seated on the counter as he was they were quite close, his face a very pensive mask as his mind ran behind the scenes. “If what he said is true… Lloths wish for you… You would be the first since the Fall. Every other House would bend to ours, you would come second only to Lloth herself, our daughters will wear that mantle themselves as they too grow in to take their place among society… Is this something you wish?” He wondered. It was… A precarious position. On one hand the amount of control she would have is the sort that every matron dreams and wishes for their entire life. It was nothing to snub ones nose at and if the power wasn’t enough, the fact that the house would be immortalized, her name down among Drow history for all time… Their daughters, their daughters daughters, their daughters and so on would bear the name of someone who wielded power over all Menzoberranzan… Even their sons would be in a higher position than some of the smaller houses females, sought out for marriages from all over their race in a desperate wish to be tied to the grand house Navere… It was a huge blessing, a gift of no small measure, but that didn’t mean Gia would want it… Or be comfortable under the mantle it would cast upon his shoulders…

“On a side note… Nautilous has been dealt a heavy blow once again today and this comes from outside his battles… His brother, the only family he has, has been struck once again by a deadly cancer… He will not make it past two years before he succumbs to the disease. Upon his death many things will come to light and I worry for our lover…” For while he could see the future and the myriad of paths that it took? There was no way to guarantee any of them unless he carefully, lightly and cautiously guided them that way, constantly looking out for any shifts or changes in the timeline. “The death will hit him hard and I fear you and I will not be enough to chase away his sorrow… He will need more…” He hedged in very gently… Carefully… Treading about this as if he were walking on paper thin glass. “Sydel… She needs to be here with us my sweet sister…” Shaking his head very gently, his stomach in knots at the moment because the future was spinning wildly about him, a wheel rolling far too fast to catch… The spokes little more than a whirlwind of motion. It wouldn’t settle until she made a choice… “I feel in my heart that you miss her… The place she resided in your heart must ache for her absence, someone who was once as close to you as I am, the moonlight to my shadow… I miss my friend deeply…. Perhaps as much as you miss her…” Had he pushed too far? Or had he been to gentle? Had he approached it properly? Catching her when she was in this state was vital though, if she was too calm she could overanalyze it, look too deeply into it which could end up incredibly bad. All he was hoping for? Praying for? Was that she would accept that she missed her lover and friend and that she would open the idea to it.

When she was done and out of the shower he would bring her an air light dress made of spider web thin linen dress that would feel like air on her skin and backed out of the situation so that Gia and Nautilous could be close while he went to go and pin a certain blonde with some pointed questions. If he was right? Someone was going to be in a fair bit of deep shit…

[BadInfluence]

“I’m really lucky I have you love, you know that? You talk about needing a different perspective sometimes and you always give that to me. You find a way to put something in a different light and that’s all I need.” She was lucky for it too because he was easily able to divert her by pointing something out, keeping her from say, cliff diving just because it looked fun… Telling her to gage the distance by pointing something out and giving her the time to pause and look it over, think it through, then either reroute or go forward with what ever it was she had on her mind. Everyone was right when they kept telling her to slow down, she was always so eager to run forward, forgetting that at times a nice slow walk was the best thing of all. She brought up a few numbers, like children and how many years apart, nothing grand but a decent approximation… “You know I have to admit thinking of my future like that, twenty years down the line with you? Sounds like the best thing I have ever heard. I’m just glad that you are proud to be mine, and that I am yours, you’re nothing short of incredibly wonderful and you only deserve the best… That’s what I try to be every day…” She said with a smile as she curled up next to him for several moments, mentioning gently that she feared she might have lost one of the twins though, she hadn’t felt it move for over a day now and since she first felt them decide they were going to move it had been pretty consistent.

He offered to do the scan for her some time today and she nodded her head. “Barely I noticed… I haven’t had to have any of my clothes tailored, the only place that has changed are my breasts and even that isn’t a grand amount.” Yet… She had no idea down the line her breasts would double in size from where they are now, all she knew was that she didn’t look the least bit pregnant, at most she looked like she might have gained a pound or two and nothing more. She was nodding her head and about to speak before they were interrupted and their relaxing afternoon was chucked into a blender and shredded, the two of them getting out of the bath quickly and getting into gear, each of them dressed and heading off with their own medical bag. She had arrived first since Jacob had already gotten her clothes for her and she instantly got on Gia’s case for having been in that filthy blood riddled water and told her in no grand fashion to go and scrub up right now because there was no idea what could have been in that water, easily absorbed into her skin. Once Gia was out of the room and Jacob working with him the two of them fell into a very easy dance of healing between them, Jacob handling things like setting bones and stitching wounds, lancing pustules while she handled the poisons side of thing. Jacob was always going to be better at her at the actual hands on act of healing, he had a gift for it, a true natural gods given knack for it. She? Hers was with plants and potions, her healing came from the acts of injections and pills, lotions and potions… Between the two of them she doubted there was anything they couldn’t heal short of Death itself.

Nautilous was very poorly off though, grateful for Thaylans help in discussing and discovering which poisons were likely used, allowing for her to mix up potions and powders to counteract it. The leeches were incredibly hard to come by, the only reason she had the ones she did was by very careful breeding of a set she had been given as a gift from the Matron after she had healed her grand daughter from Pneumonia she had caught from swimming in a cavern system she was told to stay out of. The rest? Bartered for, traded or given as gifts from the family, a few were bought from the funds that she was paid by Gia for he services… The rarest ones… Those she got from mixing with someone she knew she shouldn’t be, the person pushed quite a few boundaries but the serves provided were exemplary, getting her the rarest of ingredients… But she couldn’t use him anymore, he was asking for things she wasn’t willing to pay, and she’d stopped talking with him entirely at that point. Because of that she had to be extra careful with some of the things she was given or she’d be up the river so to speak… This was an emergency though and she couldn’t let Nautilous suffer just because she might go through her small stock pile. So she just did what was right, using up several of the most potent ingredients for him in a potion that would be injected into his body, breaking everything down in rapid order over a small ball of fire magically burning under the glass vial to purify everything before it was loaded into the syringe.

It wasn’t too long for them to get Nautilous well on the path to being better, the bones having been set and the poison neutralized or purged as was needed, allowing for her and Jacob to prepare to head out into their own room once more. It was then that Gia had come back in and speak with them, shaking her head with a slight smile on her face and gently waved her hand as Jacob spoke with her as well. “We might be a bit sore from your brother but luckily Doctors of made of some sterner stuff. We’re just happy to have been on hand to help, and it’s a Jacob said. It is exactly what you hired us here to do.” Said with a gentle nod and a slight blush on her cheeks. After all it was one thing to be watched getting fucked, she loved it really, she was a hard core exhibitionist and loved to put on a show for someone else. But that it had been her employer who watched and her fiancé and brother who had been fucking them? A little bit on the side of making her bashful. They’d make their way into the room and she couldn’t help the laughter that bubbled up as Jacob said what had just happened was madness. “Your father has always had a serious knack for getting into trouble! Given I saw two heads on the mantle though I would say that he had taken the army down and conquered two more houses for Gia.” She said as they moved into their room, leaning on his shoulder a bit before she’d press a kiss to his arm when he said that he was proud of her, feeling his arms wrap around her causing a smile to unfold on her lips. “Mmm hard to be in a panic when you’re totally exhausted.” After all they had both been fucked within an inch of their life, there was nothing to do other than be on point, she didn’t have the energy to worry about anything. “You were perfect too you know. You’re amazingly skilled in ways I never will be love, and don’t you go saying that’s not the case, I’ll hit you right here and now if you do.” A warm laugh accompanied those words but they were also very true. He was always all about playing everyone else up while keeping himself down beneath the others, ever humble and quiet, refusing the rightful limelight that was his to shine under. “We’re both very gifted in certain areas that we specialize in, your amazing with things like surgery and bone setting where as I am more competent in the areas of potions and pills, together though we sort of have the whole thing settled in nice and tody.” [/i]

She was grateful when he offered to do the scan for her though, settling down on the bed while he opened the windows so the warm sweet breeze drifted through the room, closing her eyes for a moment as she centered herself… Slowed her heart a bit and got her breathing more even. She waited as he pulled on the magical plane and began to cast the spell, opening her eyes so that they could both see the image he summoned up, and in those moments? The image was much clearer for her than it had been while she was trying to do it herself, her hand coming to rest over her heart for a moment as she looked at the twins in there, virtually hugging each other through the thin walls of their bag of waters but she could see… Quite clearly in fact… That one of them had been struggling for some time, smaller than his brother was, and as Jacob focused in… There was only one heartbeat… The second twin had given up the fight a couple of days ago and now that the twin had passed on all the energies and nutrition were going to the single child. She was still for several moments as she just let it settle over her… Everything that the signs showed her… The size and shape of their remaining baby… “I guess… He chose to let his brother be the one to survive… What a brave sweet baby he was… He must have known down the line it might have been hard for me to provide enough for both of them to make it to term…” She was choosing to look at it in a positive light, something warm, something that wasn’t sharp or painful… She reached out and gently placed her hand over Jacobs for a moment. “I’m sorry about it all the same… Twins just aren’t meant for us… But your son Lyon…” She said as she looked back at the image. “As a twin… He’s bigger than he should be…” She pointed out to how well developed the fetus was, looking very much like a baby would late term pregnancy, making her pause for a moment as she looked at the baby boy on the screen. Before she had opted to have her memories hidden from her, she had begun to wonder about the date of conception, which part she and Jacob had gotten pregnant with Ace’s baby… And given the way the baby looked it had been that very first night… When he had ordered her to get pregnant and she had done just that despite being already pregnant with Jacobs son… “We’re… Going to need to buy a crib long before I even go dress shopping I think…” Looking over to him she would catch his hand in hers and link their fingers, brining it to her lips to kiss over his knuckles, his fingers as they laced with hers. “I thought it was morning sickness the way my stomach was cramping but it seems that I’ve been having Braxton Hicks contractions…” The baby was seven months along, almost eight and given how petit she was, the lack of room in there?... She wasn’t going to make it to ten months, let alone twelve, that baby was going to be coming out to say hello much earlier than either of them expected.

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-she nodded when Nautilous spoke about Lloth and how the great goddess was loyal to no other but herself..-.. mm.. she is firm but fair.. always has been. Not many understand her ways, and even more have tried to challenge them only to fail. Its certainly not a goddess I would want to be on the bad side of.. -she tilted her head-.. but sometimes it comes to be a little unavoidable.. so we do what we can to.. soften the blow..so to speak. Whomever parted with that wisdom to you was very smart.-she nodded a little-.. We can only hope that the contracts will remain as originally written and discussed.. and that they wont deviate from their points too much.. -she was worried about him.. about how he was.. his appearance was quite bleak and whilst she trusted in Thaylan, Jacob and Rose to patch him up.. what if next time they werent so lucky.. her heart ached at the very thought of it.. their fingers intertwined when Sydel came up in conversation.. -.. Sydel is a remarkable woman.. -she nodded-.. and has touched many lives in her time.. We will talk about everything else soon.. -she paused.. glancing toward Rose and Jacob as they entered the room with haste-.. I never put things off Nautilous.. I just arrange their timing so it suits better.. thats all.. -she took a step back.. getting a bit of a stern talking to by Rose to go and shower immediately ..its precisely what she did.. the soap smelt funny.. and felt even worse upon her skin.. it was quite harsh.. but she understood the reasoning behind it so there was no question..her brothers voice echoed through the room as he called to her-.. Yes love? -she responded.. dipping her head beneath the stream of warm water as she felt it cascading down her back.. soaking through her hair.. feeling the pressure of the water against the back of her neck.. she listened when he spoke about the goddess.. and asked.. more or less what she thought about it all.. she paused for a moment or two.. placing that soap down as she turned the water off..-.. Ill be honest.. -she reached for the soft towel as she dried her face-.. Its a lot of pressure.. -she exhaled softly-.. Its a lot to live up to.. an honour yes.. a huge one.. and a position I had never dreamed I would be in reach of..

-she rubbed her lips together lightly-.. On one hand I am quite humbled by it.. yes it is true I do lean toward the old ways.. the ones that Mother taught me and I rarely deviate from my path.. the climb to get to such a status wont be a short one.. but it appears with Nautilous in our ranks we are getting a considerable boost.. -she stepped across the tiles as she wrapped that towel around her.. -.. On the other hand.. the climb is high.. the fall from there.. higher.. -her brows furrowed-.. to get that close to the goddess would be a dream.. of course.. I do wonder at the cost though.. nothing worth it ever comes easily Brother.. you and I both know this.. so.. whilst I am optimistic.. I will remain cautious.. -she moved across the bathroom then.. to gather up the comb as she ran it back through her wet hair.. listening as he spoke on Nautilous and of the poor fortune his Brother was taking-.. Oh dear.. -she sighed.. her shoulders sunk a little-.. Thats quite a blow indeed.. I know him and his Brother do not get along.. quite possibly not to dissimilar to myself and Chaka.. though in reverse.. -afterall in Chakas eyes she was the favourite.. -.. dreadful news indeed.. this cancer.. im guessing is not curable?.. I do not know a lot about this kind of thing especially when it comes to slyvans and diseases that appear to occur more on the surface.. perhaps we should send Jacob up there.. to see if there is anything that can be done.. -she placed the comb down.. turning then to face him from a little distance.. her hands clasped before that towel..her head tilted when he mentioned them not being enough to chase away Nauts sorrow on the hour of his Brothers death.. that it was clear he was going to need Sydel.. if it were possible for her to visibly pale she would have.. she paused on the spot for a moment.. looking a touch unsettled.. perhaps even lost for words.. - Mother took me aside once.. and she told me.. that one day.. I would understand why I had to marry men I had no desire for.. why status was important early on.. and that one day I would find the one who sang the tune to my heart.. who knew my rhythm.. who understood my tempo..

-she pushed away from the counter and approached him.. taking the offered dress.. letting it fall over her arm for the moment-.. She told me.. to Never let myself believe I was not enough.. That I am precisely.. and perfectly enough for the right person.. -she blinked.. -.. I stood.. in that small sunroom back on the surface.. and I listened.. for hours.. to him talking about your best friend.. and how horrific she had been.. I stood there.. and I listened.. and I guided.. and I did my best to patch up the huge gaping hole that she had left in him.. to release the sheer amount of pressure he had around him.. to let him breathe.. I stood there.. and I listened to him cry.. and my heart broke for him.. I struggle.. to hear this from you.. that you believe we need her here.. after all that.. Yes.. you are right.. my heart does ache with her absence as we were once incredibly close.. I am tired Thaylan.. I am Exhausted with this.. I am trying to figure out who is with me.. who is against me..and who is walking down the middle because they dont have the guts to pick a side.. I sware to all that is holy though.. if I hear anyone tell me I am not enough.. -she shook her head-.. Ill walk.. I dont have to put up with that..I am not timid, inferior, less than or second best.. Im far to old for games and tricks of the heart. -she slipped that gown over her head.. straightening it upon her newly cleaned body.. lingering a moment longer before she would head into the bedroom area.. where she would settle upon that seat.. and thats where she would remain.. drifting off after an hour or so.. her mind desiring the break.. the rest.. he reverie-

[BadInfluence]

“Indeed…” She was right on all fronts there. Sydel had warned him and she was dead to rights on it too, he knew it and that part scared him a bit, especially with LLoth holding all the cards. He had nothing but grit, skill and sheer determination under him, if Lloth backed out of the bargain he would find himself dropped… And never coming back. He knew Sydel wanted him to stay safe, just as much as Gia did and he was going to his best, he really was… There was a lot for him to live for, a lot more than he first realized, than was first brought to his attention through all the years he had been around. He took her hand for a moment as they spoke about Sydel, he was trying to impart something gently, something that was important but might not be taken with any grace if it was not delivered very carefully… Did he have the sound mind to do so? In his current state he wasn’t so sure… She was wise to put it off but he was worried that if they did not tend to it soon a lot of things would be misunderstood or maligned and then it would be hell to pay. “I trust you Gia… I hope you trust me too… I’ll never do anything that isn’t meant with the best intentions…” And that was all he could say to it… Because at that point Rose, Thaylan and Jacob had him trussed up like a Christmas goose, basted and plastered with all sorts of things while injected with others… Bones set and bound… He began to feel better in large steps but he was still sore, he still needed to heal and he didn’t fight the sleeping spell that was put on him, he crashed out hard and didn’t even flutter an eye lash while everyone else went about their business…





He had stayed behind to help Rose mix what she needed in order to help their Shield Master purge the poisons and Goddess knew what ever else was in his system, though as he looked into her bag he saw things that aught not be in there, things that were rare and precious… That normally only a Matron and those directly tied to her would have access too… Now as Gias doctor? Yes, she would have gotten her hands on many of these at some point, but they hadn’t been down in Menzoberranzan long enough for her to have even a fraction of what she did… Which meant she was doing something she aught not to… Stealing perhaps? He had heard rumors of her having light fingers before… But he didn’t think someone with her funds and family ties would need to steal… So where was she getting it? Not Gia, naturally, perhaps the Matron who they stayed with? She was an old family so she might have large stock holds of such things… But if that was the case… What was Rose doing to earn them? Was he the only one to notice? Ah… Questions he would look into later, for right now they had much more important things to look into, one of which he was about to gently try and enter into the conversation with his sister. He had followed her into the shower and brought up a few things lightly, just feeling it out, feeling her current situation… Her state of mind…

“A lot of pressure is an understatement… No one has held that title in longer than we have a written history.” It felt like Lloth was setting his sister up to fail, to fall from extreme heights, but why? Why would Lloth do that? It was beyond him, the Goddess herself was not fond of the male species, so her ways were a mystery to him just as much as women will always be a mystery to men. He did not think these gifts came without some sort of a price tag attached and this one so far seemed to be carte blanc which he doubted with all due justice. NOTHING was for free… Ever. Especially not with the gods. “I fear for you my sweet sister… Lloth has not chosen someone to bear that tile in centuries, all this in combination with our trip home to our ancestral lands, with our daughters on the way and out eldest a highly skilled Priestess…” Something was not lining up… “I fear that while Nautilous being with us does indeed make your climb as smooth as spider silk, that it does not come without a cost, look as us…” He said gently, looking down at his hands against his thighs, feeling the memory of her skin under them as easily as he breathed… “I have not been myself… I have done things that make me shudder, make me weep for shame, things that are not something I would ever dare… It is as if something compels me to act even though I rebel and I am trapped watching as it unfolds against my deeper will.” Which was what it felt like lately… Like someone was pulling the strings and he had to act compulsively, a knee-jerk type reaction that he had yet been able to break.

“I fear Lloth is testing you through us… Myself and our lover… For our behavior is not as it should be, and while we talked he feels much the same, as if someone is… Inside our heads… Planting ideas that at the moment seem ideal and yet once it begins we can not stop it and you have been the one to pay the price.” It was something they had talked about on and off but neither of them dared speak on it much, afraid that if they did something might get worse, go even farther left… As it was? They did their best at damage control. He would leave that fact there before he would mention Nautilous’s brother and the cancer that had returned, how it was indeed a hard blow, even they could understand it… Chaka had no love lost between them in the later years but she was still their sister and they would mourn her death, no matter how vital it had been for her to die… “No, I’m afraid it is fatal, he won’t live long and given he and Sydel are to be married soon… When he perishes…” Sydel would be alone where ever she decided to wander, alone and very mortal, her death would be the death of a human with no possible afterlife to be found… No God to call her home… His words about how they might not be enough were not meant to be taken the way they obviously were and while he desperately wanted to jump in and correct it? He would not interrupt her, indeed he let her say her piece as he handed her the dress to wear, his chest aching because her pain? Was almost palpable… He felt it on the air like a poison that stung his skin…

When she had said her part though he would not let her leave, instead he grabbed her by her wrist, taking her hand in his before he’d lead her out of the room and up to the roof of their suite. He knew she was likely going to ask questions, to fuss and perhaps even curse him but he wasn’t going to let her go, he dragged her with him the entire way even if it were kicking and screaming. When they were on that roof she would see that he had set up a small picnic, full with tea light candles and some of her favorite foods from Menzoberranzan, the sort of things that would ease her heart and remind her of their mother. He would set her on the largest, softest cushion before he would settle down beside her, keeping her hands in his because he feared until she understood that she would just stand and walk away, every inch the proud matron… “Please… Listen to me… I beg you my sweet sister… Listen to what I say with your heart, not with your mind, for your brain is sharper than any blade and you make things bleed with it sometimes…” She had not been this wa as a child… In their youth she had more faith… More hope… She was not so jaded by life and by men… If she decided to listen he would then begin to set up a dish for her, wingfish liver with sweet tony black eggs of the white grunt from the rivers of their home, steamed kes, cubed for easy enjoyment… Sul porridge with delicate organs finely minced in a rich porridge with exotic seasonings and spices… Bazi tea with her favorite sugars in their myriad of colors. He poured her a cup of tea in what had been her favorite tea cup as a child, something he had kept with him the whole time as a reminder of her, returning it to her now versus on their wedding night as he had originally planned. Dusk settled upon them in a few moments before the night sky suddenly erupted around them in a glorious blaze of the deepest dark blues and the more stunning bright white stars and a moon so big and full it almost looked too large, too beautiful to be real. “What Sydel had done to him in their past was deplorable this is true, he put up with much I know but it was not one sided, he was just as cruel to her in his own way. They were children in their first love, neither of them knew what it truly meant to love someone, how it is meant to be. Because of that they only succeeded in slowly killing each other.” While he knew Nautilous likely bore the brunt of it he also knew enough about the man that he could be incredibly cruel in his own twisted way and he doubted that Nautilous was the ever patient, eternally wounded party, that wasn’t possible and he knew it.

“I said that he would need Sydel is not for what you thought… Sydel is Mortal now my sweet sister… She bears the form of an elf but her life is as fragile and easily snuffed as a humans.” He knew the deal was broken, no God took her side, no God sheltered her or guided her… She was a sailor lost at sea, the ship she had one rode was rotten and she had abandoned it lest she get dragged down into the depths with it, but because of that she now had nothing but the world around her… No direction, no land marks, no coastal line to swim towards… “When his brother leaves this world she will have no one… He will worry ceaselessly about her and it will take his mind off of what he needs to be focusing on.” Did she not see that? Was she too wrapped up in thoughts circling about her head? He knew as a Matron the world she ruled had to be built on a foundation made out of diamond hard surfaces for it to work, but she was also doing things that were very different from any Matron before her, he worried that in her quest to try and make everything fit in the old puzzle space she was going to drive herself mad with how it wasn’t meshing… From inside his robes he pulled out a very small box, something she would recall from the night at the pool, something she was very familiar with indeed. He would hand her the vial, placing it before her as he opened the lid and placed the spider next to the vein in his neck, watching her with unblinking eyes as the fangs pierced his skin and the venom was injected virtually into his heart… He’d close the lid of it then and kneel at her feet, his head touching the stones just before her beautiful little feet, arms behind him in absolute surrender.

“I have always been and will forever be with you my sweet Matron… You are my life, my heart, you are the blood in the veins and the reason I exist… From you I was created in the womb to be ever by your side, and by your side is the place where I draw my last breath, of this I swear.” And he had meant it, all of it, every word down to the very atoms of his soul. He ached for her to know that she felt so uncertain but he was in such a situation where regular words and deeds would not suffice… She had been shaken to her core and he didn’t know any way which to stop it without doing something as extreme as what had shaken it in the first place. “If you doubt my love or my loyalty to you then kill me for I deserve nothing more than death for failing to show you the depth of which my soul lives to serve you.” He was laying it out on the line here and now, if she did indeed doubt him then she could simply withhold the antidote and he would die within short order, thus was the place every drow male holds in the world… His was no different. “I only wish to serve you Gia, and I am doing my best to try and bridge what is a very difficult meshing of two worlds that rarely touch and never in a way outside of blood, violence and death… Our lover who holds our hearts is not a man who is easy to love or to understand, he is an ocean where we have ever only known the caves, the two could not be any more different than if we had designed them ourselves. His past is chaos, his present is filled with pain and growth, his future is yet unwritten…” No matter the mans charms or charisma, his skills with flattery or seduction, all the beauty of form and face… They could never fully hide the fact that the man beneath the most beautiful of coatings was a man who had grown and evolved warped, nothing about him was as it should have been, everything was twisted and gnarled and only now was he trying to grow properly… To straighten out what nature had mutated… But to do so he needed more than just understanding and patience, at times he would need someone to forcibly take him, to make him bend or stretch to return to shape what was made monstrous. That meant work on all parts, submission from Nautilous and Gia, Gia would have to step into roles she had never held before…

“I do not question his love for you, for I have seen him brave hell and fire to do what is best for you, and that is in so many ways exactly what love is… Putting yourself through pain and suffering because the person you love… Because the one who holds your heart… Needs you to do so. Love is not sweet all the time, love is a maelstrom of flavors, at times it will be bitter and others acidic and unpalatable… It is everything and it is nothing, it is the reason we draw breath and move forward, because at the end of the day nothing is more precious than love…” The venom was starting to work it’s hellish designs upon him, his head was starting to feel incredibly heavy, his limbs numb and tingly all at the same time… “I only… Every wished to bring you love and peace Gia… Every step I have taken, every word I speak, every attempt to help guide you has never been to hurt you… To make you feel as if you are less than what you are for you are Perfect in my eyes and always shall be… I only wish to be your perfect Patron, your partner, your lover and your friend… Your protector and your big brother… You have lived alone for so long, without the love that should have been yours, forced to make harder and harder decisions because the world became so narrow you relied only on yourself… Because of that I am afraid… Afraid you have gotten so used to seeing weakness in everyone around you… Looking for faults… Weakness… Mistakes… You expect all to fail you because that is all you have ever known for so long that it is a second nature to you now… I know I presume much to think I know what is in your head after being gone more than half our lives… It is the height of audacity to think I could ever imagine what goes on inside the mind of a Matron…” He dared to look up at her then, to reach out to her and rest his hand atop her knee, giving it a soft squeeze as he looked into her eyes with his whole soul in his… All the genuine sincerity and love he had in him for her. “I ask you… To please think of what I have said… Not just in the mind of a Matron… But as my baby sister… The woman who stole my heart when I was but eight… Who has always been my greatest love and who had always been kind to those around her, no matter how far below her they were… I’m begging you… As you one sheltered and loved me when I was but a slave to be sold off to another house for marriage and you spared me the whippings… Taught me to read and right… You educated me when I was meant to be nothing more than a slave to produce daughters… I beseech that woman inside you to please look at the men who love her and try to see through the eyes of her heart… That while we falter… While we make mistakes… Loyal to her we will always be… and love her we always will.”

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She had turned the water off.. letting the last of it run down her frame as he spoke to her through the thin veil curtain.. his concerns.. his worries about the goddess and this new title and stress that had been suddenly thrust upon her.. she stepped up from the tiles.. wrapping the towel around her as she nodded-.. I know, I am in agreeance with you Brother.. something doesn't sit quite right with it.. Whilst it is healthy to question, I wonder if one should ever truly have the rights to question the very goddess they professed fealty.. -she ran the comb back through her hair slowly- It does appear to come at an odd time.. I am at a bit of a loss.. really.. I dont know what to think.. the sheer idea of it is quite daunting.. it frightens me a little.. as I have seen what happens when Matrons fall from a height.. lower than this one would be and its not .. -she fell silent.. shaking her head.. the images of what she had seen as a youth would never leave her.. -.. She could well be testing me yes.. but in the same vein my love.. I would have already failed.. -she placed the comb down upon the dresser-.. for a Matron would have killed you both for much less.. -and it was true.. what she had been put through on several occasions would have been enough for her to end their lives.. collectively.. Nauts decision to back away that first night.. the constant power plays.. the forced dominance from both of them.. she exhaled softly.. he spoke on the fact he felt as though there were someone playing his life out for him.. like a puppeteer.. pulling his strings.. if this were the case then he could not be held responsible for any of his actions.. and it would all fall back on her.. -.. Whilst yes some of your actions have appeared out of character for the Thaylan I once knew.. so long ago.. -she tilted her head as she took the dress from him.. draping it over one arm-.. The Thaylan before me I dont know so well just yet.. Only you know you dear Brother..

-the topic shifted to that of the Brother of Nautilous.. and the horrible diagnosis of incurable cancer.. her shoulders sunk a little and she nodded.. -.. When he perishes she will be left alone.. -she finished his sentence. she knew where he was going with that.. and she of all people knew.. what that felt like...for she didn't get her goodbye... what that pure heart breaking grief felt like.. how it was all encompassing.. how it destroyed ones insides.. their thought.. their mind.. their life.. and it hurt to think about it.. it registered there on her face for a moment.. before a passing remark he had spoken caught a nerve.. she slipped on that gown.. drawing it down over herself.. she said her piece.. she would be no ones second choice.. and if it came to that she would leave and she made that very, Very clear. She knew what she deserved and that well could have been seen as selfish.. but she had one life and it wasn't fucking sugar and roses.. it was hard.. but she got through it On her own.. she went to pluck up one of the hairclips.. ready to return to the bedroom before she felt his fingers wrapping around her wrist.. -.. mm?.. -she'd question-.. Whats going on?..Where are you taking me? -she blinked as he lead her out.. she didn't fuss or curse.. she was not that type of person.. he guided her up onto the roof.. stilling.. pausing there as her gaze fell upon this picnic he had set up.. all the little intricate details he had made.. the organising he must have done.. -.. I am stunned.. when did you have time for this?.. -she questioned as he settled her down to sit upon one of the cushions.. her knees bent.. curved to the side.. her fingers curled in his as she noticed he wasn't about to let her hand go.. that garnet gaze lifted as she looked to him.. he just wanted to talk.. she nodded.. all he wanted from her was to listen-.. You have my ear Thaylan.. always.. -she fell silent.. watching as he prepared her a plate of home delicacies.. the cup made her brow rise as he passed it over to her with its saucer.. she looked at it a little more closely-.. surely this is not the actual cup.. the one I used to use?.. -she lifted it up.. careful not to spill the brew it contained as she glanced beneath it and sure enough.. it had her initials scrawled in the gold leaf.. the corners of her lips curled.. she smiled.. it had been a long time since she had seen it let alone even thought about it.. she took a small drink of the tea.. it was incredibly soothing against her slightly raw throat.. the earlier bathroom escapades had left her feeling a little off.. but this was helping to settle all of that..

she placed the tea cup down..her free hand fell to rest there upon her lap as she glanced out over the scene unfolding before them both.. he spoke to her then about Sydel.. and then of Nautilous and how they had both been as bad as each other.. a love for the ages yes.. but wasted and broken in youth.. she remained quiet.. as she said she would.. it was his turn to talk.. she would not interrupt.. the idea of Sydel being little more than a mortal though caused her to blink.. for the white witch she had always known was unkillable.. she was for lack of a better term akin to a cockroach.. when the lands had fallen and the rubble stacked up.. the dust settled and the rain stopped she would be there.. standing in amongst all the death around her.. seemingly though that was no longer the case..she nodded slowly..he released her hand when he reached for the box.. she turned properly to face him then.. she knew it.. recognised it.. her lips parted ..breath drawn as if to call for him to pause before it was too late.. the spider struck him.. her gaze that rich garnet searched out his.. confusion.. and concern.. watching as he moved to kneel..to fall into the ultimate submissive position before her as his head touched the stones.. he professed his utmost feelings in that moment.. he laid it all out.. every single thing.. every thought and worry.. his concerns when it came to Nautilous.. and then of course even going so far as to talk on some of the weaknesses she had.. like seeing failure in people.. especially men because of what she had lived through.. their eyes met as he looked up.. he pleaded with her.. with the woman he once knew.. the one he had loved since she was a little girl.. that the men before her.. would forever he loyal and loving.. but that mistakes and faults were inevitable.. her eyes closed.. her shoulders softened.. her thumb tipped off the cap of the antidote.. gliding that glistening substance across her lips.. it coated her tongue.. the taste of it was always just enough sweet.. just enough tart.. with that sparkle of magical energy.. before she would reach for him.. her fingers were warm as they slid across his cheeks..cradling his jawline as she pulled him from his knelt position.. drawing him in close.. they were face to face.. an inch maybe half that apart.. -.. I miss you.. -spoken in little more than a whisper.. before she claimed his lips.. the kiss was full and firm.. it held its original purpose to pass on the antidote.. but also with enough love to warm his heart.. her fingers slid back through his hair.. to link up at the base of his neck.. holding him there.. close to her as she fell into that sweet kiss.. one that was not driven by a cloud of lust pheromones.. or planted ideals.. just two people that loved one another.. finding a place where the world melted away..

it slowly broke..her hands fell to his shoulders.. she sighed-.. Please I beg of you.. Dont do that again.. -she whispered-.. I dont ever.. Ever want to lose you.. I thought I did once.. and I dont think Id survive the second time around.. -her gaze lifted to catch his.. before her hands would fall back down to her lap.. she took a breath.. pausing for just a moment.. -.. I dont like falling into disagreements with you Thaylan.. I dont like whats happening.. to us.. -her hand rose as she rubbed it across her forehead-.. You were right.. when you spoke on how I had been alone for so long.. -she drew her knees up a little.. -.. I hardened.. quite a bit when you left as I couldn't express what I was going through.. no one would have understood it.. Im not blaming you.. no.. please dont think that.. -she shook her head-.. I know you had to go.. and I understand that now more than I think I ever would have.. there was No way you could have stayed.. I guess.. when it all happened.. and I managed to pull away from Valkryn finally..I learned how to be strong alone.. I had my beautiful daughter and I had couldn't fail her.. and this is where I find my problems lie.. -she turned.. glancing across to him there.. -.. I am frightened of making mistakes.. of fucking this all up because Im not sure I know how to Be with other people..Not just other people.. I lived easily with the likes of Valkryn and the other older gentleman .. but people that I care about.. people that I love.. -this was her being completely and utterly vulnerable.. no walls.. no Matron.. just Gia.. just his sister.. -.. On one hand I have my training.. -she held out her hand-.. that which I grew up with.. the likeness and shadow of my dear Mother and Aunts.... the teachings of my goddess.. the duties of a Matron.. The strong independent woman that rules with an iron fist.. and that makes sure her people are settled and safe.. That has strict rules and laws to follow.. goals to reach and succeed beyond.. -she rubbed her lips together-.. and then on the other.. -she held up her free hand-.. I am a Mother.. I am a partner.. a lover.. and a friend.. Soon to be a wife.. and I have the biggest fears that these just do not gel.. I cant.. get them to work in harmony.. -her brows furrowed-..

I have so much going on in my head.. and just when I feel I have found my feet, more gets added and I feel that weight all over again.. -her gaze had wandered out over the setting sun.. the colours that were painting the sky.. before she turned back to him.. to reach for his hands.. -.. Im frightened.. im not too proud to admit that to you.. Im almost terrified that I am in over my head.. I dont know how to be with men who are so dominant.. I dont even know if I can bend the way I feel both of you need. Its not that I dont want to.. Its not that at all.. -she nodded-.. it's that I dont know how.. Even though we were brought up under the same house.. we were taught things very differently.. I know.. that you both love me.. I see it in your actions.. I hear it in your words.. and I feel it.. -she reached his hand to rest there over her heart-.. in here.. -she continued to hold his hand in much the same way he hers when they first arrived on the roof.. letting them both come to rest there upon her lap-.. I wish I knew what to do.. I feel a little trapped at times..as if we are all on different pages of the same book.. if that makes sense.. -she frowned a little.. finding the right words in this situation was becoming difficult.. and for her that was a big thing.. she who was usually so incredibly cool, calm and collected.. was in this very moment speaking without her filter.. - I need to find.. that place in the middle.. where we can all be accommodated.. but I fear.. -her gaze lifted.. garnet to his deep ruby-.. with us choosing to live in our home.. under the rule of the goddess ..that such a place.. might not exist.. -The biggest problem that seemed to be reoccurring was that she had rules she had to live under.. and those rules were the very ones that she would be punished for not adhering to with their disobedience.. and yet on the other hand pulling them into line.. constantly.. correcting them constantly.. was not going to benefit either party.. for they would all be miserable.. -.. Help me.. I really dont know what to do.. -she looked a little defeated.. this was all new and she genuinely needed assistance-

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-he smiled.. giving a bit of a shake of his head when she said she was lucky to have him-.. I firmly believe we are lucky to have found each other.. I mean realistically if we looked back.. there were so many opportunities for us to have missed each other.. even for something as simple as running late to that very first call for student doctors.. -which he certainly was.. turned up looking like he'd been pulled through quite a few bushes backwards.. but if he had not have made it.. she could well have chosen someone else.. or just let it be all together..their quiet warm soothing bath ritual was interrupted then and all hell broke loose for a good few hours.. Nautilous had gotten himself into some serious trouble and their medical services were required.. he used the time to observe her.. to watch what she did, how she handled the sudden stress and what answers she came up with on her own.. and honestly he couldn't have been prouder.. she was quick and incredibly smart.. she was thinking on her feet.. coming to conclusions and taking control when it was required.. he knew in his heart she would make a wonderful doctor.. easily fully qualified.. he had No doubts.. when all was said and done though and his Father was resting very very peacefully upon that bed he took her hand and they made their way out.. giving Thaylan, Gia and Nautilous a bit of privacy.. All with clear instructions to call on them .. no matter the time.. or what was happening.. it was what they were paid for afterall.. he squeezed her hand a little as she echoes his thoughts..

the two of them on the same page.. as they slipped out.. heading back toward their own suite -.. mm.. yes I think you are right.. i think he had gone down there himself to do it.. what prompted him though.. I am unsure.. it wasn't a terribly safe move on his part.. He clearly had the army at his disposal which was good, but I do worry.. sometimes he can be a bit brash.. a bit aggressive and it gets himself into some really sticky tight corners.. thankfully this time he came out the other side just a bit battle worn.. -his cheeks coloured a little when she called him out on not taking compliments himself.. that it was not all about her. it was about him too.. - I have been classically trained yes.. for many years.. you my dear have picked things up in lightning speed.. its impressive.. take the credit my love for it is earned.. every bit of it.. -he shot her a wink and a smile as they settled back in their suite.. he told her to get settled on the bed.. they would organise this scan then.. put her worries to bed.. he made sure the room was comfortable.. the curtains semi drawn.. the lamps were on but covered.. he pulled from the magic plane.. making sure a screen flickered to life so she could see what he would otherwise only be able to.. he remained silent as the image came into view.. there they were.. cradled in close together.. but upon closer inspection.. there would be only one heart beat.. only one sound as he turned it up.. that steady horse galloping rhythm.. his free hand came across to rest atop hers then.. his fingers curled in.. he could see what had happened.. the second baby was not fit or viable for life.. something wasn't right in there.. but the second twin was thriving.. incredibly well in fact.. larger than would be expected given the dates she was sure she was going by.. -.. mm.. he must have known sweetheart.. thats quite a brave and Honorable thing to do.. -he spoke softly..though when she apologised he shook his head-.. no.. no dont apologise my love.. its not necessary.. these things are out of our control..

-he leant over a little.. brushing his lips to her forehead.. the heartbeat still ringing out through the bedroom they were currently within.. he turned his attention back to the scan there.. moving his hand around a little.. getting a view from as many angles as he could.. even going so far as to take a few dot point measurements.. -.. He certainly is bigger than he should be.. if we are to go by the dates you suggested.. -his head tilted.. making sure to check all he could whilst the scan was open.. looking for any kind of deformities or anomalies.. he blinked when she said they would need to crib shop before dress shopping.. -.. Yes.. I think you're right.. I believe this bouncing baby boy is looking to arrive much earlier than you must have expected.. Im certainly not complaining.. not in the slightest..its really quite exciting. -he offered her a smile.. -.. He looks perfect angel.. he really does.. healthy.. growing.. everything is in the right place.. everything is forming in the right order.. Just beautiful.. I cant wait to meet him.. -he let the image linger for a moment longer before closing it down.. -.. We best be keeping a closer eye on you I think.. for the next coming months.. No more war games for you.. you'l have to remain home.. its getting to close now.. you need to be kept safe at home.. and I know you'l grumble about it.. -he laughed a little..reaching to tap the end of her nose-.. but.. Doctors orders.. Im sure the Matron will understand once she is informed of the impending birth.. -he nodded.. moving to stand-.. You'l have to keep me in the loop.. of any changes.. especially if you get too many of these cramps .. ok?.. Ill be on hand to rub that back of yours.. give you some nice warm wheat packs.. get you comfortable and settled.. I guess in some cases many women would find the lack of showing a blessing.. at least you can get around without too much issue..

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“It’s a very unfair relationship in some ways… Most Gods invite questions, the desire to know more, to explore and evolve… But Lloth wants nothing of the sort, she is content in her role, in the way she rules… She punishes anyone who steps out of her role…” It was the exact opposite of Chegorache who always wanted his followers to question everything, to find the truth no matter what, to grow and become better… He was easily the kindest, most understanding of all the Chaos gods, but his sister… She had been raised in a world so very different than the one he had found his manhood in… Her words that followed made him ache deep in his heart, the way his shoulders dropped, his soul feeling heavy… “I hate that I do not know these things… We were young when I left and so much if myself… I have forgotten… Only the harshest rules are recalled, the beatings and the lashings, but all these finer… More minute things… I can not recall… I am failing you because… I am in every way in this situation… Ignorant…” And he was… He had forgotten SO much… On one hand he by his very nature was a good partner to many women, but to a Drowesse he was perhaps a bit too strong, a little too up-front… He could easily slip into a submissive role and be silent, seen but not heard, or not seen or heard as was needed… But if he did that in ways he felt as if he were failing her… He had spent so much time away from her that being apart from her bothered him… Set him on edge… and when he was not around her and he was not performing his duties as a harlequin… What was he, then? So many of his latest mistakes were a soul that felt lost… Adrift… He wanted to DO something…Be something… But what? His role had not been assigned…

“I know that… Many times… I feel very lost. In a troupe I had my position, my place and my role, nothing was a shock or unknown…” He said quietly… “I went from organization for over half my life to a place that… Well it is not quite solid now, is it? None of us I think have solid foundations to stand on… We might not have some until we reach home and can begin to build them.” Gia was really the only one who had anything that resembled something stable and it might very well be why she was feeling it shake so badly… She was an island that was suddenly among storm tossed sea where before it was calm waters. Nautilous was chaos incarnate and he? He was struggling to find a niche with which to fit in. He was at a complete loss… Trying so hard and that might just be the reason why he was struggling… Because he was trying too hard. “Perhaps… It might be best… If Nautilous and I submit to some training to remind us and teach us our proper roles…” He knew someone who could do it too, someone who did in fact owe him a bit of a favor, someone he could trust to be discrete… And in this? They could do their very best to ensure that they no longer caused Gia so much grief that she felt that she had to run away to try and find peace… THEY should be her peace… Not apart from them.,

A new topic was brought up when he mentioned Sydel and he knew it would sting, there was no reason for it not to after all, the entire thing was akin to an incredibly bitter ale that you must chase with honey to even palate it. Even so if he wanted things to go even a small amount of the right way down the line he had to try and at least eliminate some of the more… Unpleasant outcomes… Narrowing the wheel down so to speak. “Exactly… He is young… Easily distracted I am afraid… If his mind lingers upon her too much, worry and concern will start to eat away at him, he will become foolish and risk too much.” Ah… How he wished he had their fathers suave tact… For who else did he get this cursed gift from if not his father? But then again he was still young, he was rather good at it for his age, though lately he felt so entirely beset on all sides from it that he was starting to crack under the pressure, the demand to perform well… Rather than let her go to the bedroom he lead her to the rooftop where he had packed up a small picnic, all the favorites from home, the utmost in comfort food… “When you were out after Nautilous and I failed you so hard…” Was it… Perhaps… Was it ok?... To just… Step back? To let fate spin out as it might? It seemed like it might be the best course and yet… He was worried… He was a father… His daughters, those precious beautiful creatures only just starting to grow, they needed him… He had to protect them… But right now… Putting all this pressure and stress on their mother… How could that possibly be safe for them? For any of them? “I confess I’ve been letting myself get… Far too carried away with so many things… Thins that… After seeing you now… Hearing your words… Your pain… Oh my sweet sister… How did I go so terribly wrong?” He said gently as he moved towards her, pouring her a cup of her tea with those sugars she had always loved, in the tea cup she had favored as a child. “It is… I found it in the ruins of your old home, somehow it had remained unscathed along with a few other things, things I plan on giving back to you as a wedding gift…” Precious things most assuredly… Valuable and utterly priceless…

One of the things he wanted to show her, here and now, was his devotion to her. That spider bite was nothing to laugh at, it was the real thing and she knew what it would entail, what would befall him… He was daring much, risking even more and he knew he was saying things that he never should have said, trying to reach out to the woman she had been before she had become a Matron… It was cruel… Unfair even… But he was struggling to speak the same language as the Matron and he was hoping that… With luck… She could hear him… He knew little else before she kissed him, giving him the antidote to the poison on her lips, falling into that kiss with her as he held her close…Tight… He truly missed her too… More than anything… His arms tightened around her even more despite the fact she was gently letting him go. “I miss you too and I am so sorry… I feel so crazy…” He confessed, sitting on that rooftop with him, his hands linking with hers in her lap, holding them tightly in his. “I won’t but Gia… I am making mistakes and I must account for them… We are all struggling to find the right pace… It is as though we all hear different music with different tempos, we’re all dancing on the same floor but it’s not the same dance, our steps are not meshing and it’s causing us to hurt each other so badly…” But HOW… HOW were they supposed to fix this? Like her, he too felt lost, like he was sinking in an unknown sea… He exhaled slowly… Weighing his words as best he could… “When it is just us… We are perfect… We know each step as we always have… But we brought in someone new… We fell in love so very unexpectedly…” Neither of them were prepared for him… For the fact he was chaos in the flesh, if anyone could ever be unexpected, it was him… He threw them all off, out of balance and off their normal paths, and now everyone was hurting because of it… Did he resent it? No… But… He did have a feeling that it was a bit like hitting a reset button… Everyone had to learn again…

“What you said earlier… About you not knowing me as a man… And you know… I don’t know you as the woman you are now… I keep expecting you to react like I knew you to… And that’s so unfair… So cruel… I am so sorry Gia… For not realizing it till now… I think we all need to learn each other… Both on a one on one scale… And as a unit… So… Maybe…” He said before he would get up for a moment and bow low before her, his head resting over her hand before he would kiss her knuckles lightly. “Perhaps you would do me the honor, after becoming your Patron, you might allow me to take you on a date… Be it for a meal or a small walk, what ever it may be, allow me to take you out on one little date a day so that I can come to learn the woman you have become… I loved the girl I had to leave behind and I can only imagine the woman you are will undoubtedly make me fall even farther in love with her… And I can hope… That you fall in love with me all over again too…” It wasn’t perfect… But it was a start… Perhaps… Perhaps the best start… The best way to step forward… “Let us make this a date today… Ask me what ever you wish… I will tell you all the truths to everything… And in return I would love to return the same… Such as if you prefer cocoa in the morning or tea?... Do you still love to wake up with your hair being played with? How about something more serious… If we are to talk with other houses, do you want me to stand beside you or behind you? Do you ever wish me to speak up or simply stay silent?...”

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“Mmm, you never will let this be uneven, will you my love? You’re always going to be sure that no matter what comes up we truly share it down the middle…” She said with a soft, warm laugh and the most loving smile on her lips as she looked up to him, her fingers finding his to trace along his fingertips… Up his knuckles and long the back of his hand… Truly they were quite the pair… She always wanted to build him up… And he was always sure to take her along for the right no matter how far or short it was. It was a beautiful thing even if sometimes it drove her a little insane and really, how could it not? This man of hers… This beautiful, smart, and at times vexingly stubborn man, he always wanted to be sure that everyone around him always felt loved and valued… Even if it meant he took less of that limelight than he deserved. “I’m honestly glad you did run a little late though… Because you did I saw the tattoos on your arm and I thought… You were like me… We both wear our ink on our skin, don’t we? The stories we share on the outside…” The ink had gotten her attention and after that it was this whole question of… How had she not really noticed him before? And after that it was just the slowest, sweetest build up of love she had ever known, it was like warm honey it just coated every bit of her… At the end of it she was just saturated, she was his in every single sense a woman could be with a man, and she never wanted to be anything else… His… And only his. Forever.

Shit hit the fan like someone pumping a septic tank into a sprinkler system and there was nothing but hard core chaos for some time, both of them working in tandem to repair the man he now called father, the man she had idolized and read all about for years and years… It wasn’t easy, it wasn’t fun and it wasn’t painless but at the end of it they had him back to sorts, time would finish what they had started and he would be right as rain… Added a few scars of course but that was simply how it was to be. They made their way out to leave everyone else to their own means, he and she going to their own bedroom where they hopefully could spend the rest of a warm, uneventful evening of just chatting and some well earned snuggles. “He’s insane is what it is… Through your fathers history he has taken on nothing but risk after risk, he’s always come out on top of course but never once has he ever done anything short of a suicide run, during his battle in Carpathia the odds were hellacious but somehow he made the turn around… Made it work…” She said as she shook her head and let out a somewhat exasperated sigh. “I’m sincerely hoping this new round of fatherhood settles him down once we get to Achkinnal falls…” Home… Weird… She never thought she’d call a place like that a home of any sort but it was to be theirs for however long the cycles lasted between the services she provided.

The words he said next were compliments to her skills as a doctor about to be licensed and she once again turned it around on him and yet… Once again he had it back on her and she just laughed, dragging him against her for a moment for a sweet, brief kiss before she jabbed him in the ribs. “Don’t make it a part of our wedding vows for you to have to take a compliment Mister!” She said with a warm laugh as she sighed, turned in a bit closer to him as they walked into their room, laying down on the bed as directed and relaxed as best she could. “I’m afraid if you looked at how I perform in general you’d be less impressed… You just happen to see me performing under circumstances where I excel… But look at back with Sybelle… I could barely save one baby and even at the end of that I was a complete wreck… Anything to do with children tends to tear me apart inside and I can’t tell you how many times I have seen children come in with marks that are clearly from abuse and it takes all I have in me not to make sure the parents can’t hurt anyone again… I’m not good Jacob… Not like you… You really are amazing.” He could handle everything, even the things that went against his moral code, even the hardest cases he just excelled… She was a very, very long way away from ever actually doing anything even remotely that good… That refined…

As the scan began and went along it’s course she saw that one of the twins had indeed died, something wasn’t quite up to snuff in it, but all the same it hurt a bit… She had only just started to feel him, or at least she had thought so but perhaps she had never felt him at all, maybe it was just wishful thinking… But what ever the case she chose to put a more noble spin on it, her fingers curling in over his because she felt horrible, one of his sons had passed away for what ever reason… She couldn’t help but blame herself for a moment before he corrected her and she didn’t get into it with him this time… This time she took the way he was reassuring her because she really needed it and just let the feelings go… Can’t undo what was done… But as they realized the surviving child was so large she didn’t think the baby was going to last a year, no way in heck, she was going to pop within a few months… “Well he will make the most charming little ring bearer when we get married in a year. But… I wonder…” She said as she paused for a moment, her hand over her stomach as he moved around… Making sure all was well and the like… Well formed and growing according to the way they should be. “You’re a god’s child Jacob… Think about your mother and your father… They’re both the children of the Gods of Chaos… What if your children will never be born at the normal rate? I know none of Nautilous’s children went the full term either…” All of his children were born incredibly early, the morals went through the entire gestation in a matter of weeks, half a year at most… The other species he had breeded with out of curiosity, some of those were even faster, the pixies for instance produced heirs within a matter of a few days. Sydel might have been the only one to have a full term but no one knew but the woman herself because she had vanished almost the moment Aysil was conceived.

Maybe this might just be the normal for us? Not that I am going to complain a bit honestly.” She’d seen pregnancy first hand more than a few times and she was feeling insanely blessed that she wasn’t showing and wouldn’t going to the agony of late term when your constantly on the toilet wondering how in the world you have to pee so much. She was quiet for a few moments more before she’d ask. “With what is going on with your father… What do you think… About naming our son after him…” She hedged in quietly… Gently… “Perhaps… Dovan Lyon Dragonsbane?...” It was just a question… Wondering about his thoughts on this… She laughed softly at his teasing and reached up to drag him into bed with her, curling on her side to look into those beautiful eyes, reaching out to link their fingers together as she rested their foreheads against one another… Just savoring the smell of him… The feel… Breathing him in softly because before she knew it… All of this would change and it would never, ever be the same, chaos would reign and it was going to be beautiful… “I wish we could get married earlier… I can only dream of how handsome you will be in your suit… I imagine you waiting for me at the front of a velvet carpet and I think to myself… What ever star I was born under… May it never fall from the sky because you’re more than any fairytale… I know…I can be far from the easiest woman to love… I can be reckless and brash… I jump into things head first without realizing people care about me… About my safety… I can be stubborn and refuse to listen to wisdom too… But I am so… So thankful that you do… And I can promise I will make you the best wife Jacob… I’ll never let a day go by when you don’t realize how loved you are.”

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Lloth was never about being fair, that was something Mother taught me very very early on. Its about survival and beating the odds.. afterall we have had those stacked against us forever.. She has her rules.. her laws.. in some respects I guess its something to admire.. to be steadfast in your own ideals.. in what you believe in.. to not waver.. on the other hand yes I can see how it overtime could become quite stagnant.. there is little room for growth.. and it possible could drive people away. -she paused.. taking a breath-.. but.. if we look around us.. we were born breaking a rule.. and then we continued to break another.. -her head tilted-.. perhaps this is why I am stubborn when it comes to the rest.. I am fearful of gaining attention for the wrong reasons.. for when eyes are upon us Brother.. the truth is a lot harder to hide.. -her brows furrowed.. and it was true.. if the goddess and other houses turned their eyes to them.. were it possible for it to come out that they were related so closely.. would it come out that the weapons master they had was not Drow.. that the physicians in their employ were sylvan.. and on the same note Also related.. and then the icing on the cake.. That the Mother of one of those physicians Killed a Matron of the House.. the weight that was growing on her shoulders was slowly becoming unbearable.. it was getting heavier as each day passed.. she wore it well.. she always did.. ever present would be the poker face that she was incredibly good at.. he had brought her up stairs.. up onto that balcony edge.. surprising her with the picnic he had organised.. the tea cups from her childhood..it was time for them to have a talk.. one without interruption .. time to just communicate as they did so long ago.. he layed his heart out..using the spider as his vehicle .. it made her heart ache.. seeing him perform such a manoeuvre.. but she understood his reasoning.. allowing him to get all he had held inside..out.. before she would use that antidote..

she would pull him in closer the two of them sharing quite a long drawn out kiss.. one that was filled with perhaps more communication than mere words could ever convey.. she spoke her position.. her response to a lot of his concerns.. her head tilting when he spoke on feeling lost..-.. You dont have to give up your troupe position.. I said as much when we first come to meet up again.. I understand all to well what it feels like to.. well.. feel lost.. I was on my own with Anya for such a long time.. and now.. I have so much buzz around me.. It feels even a little crowded at times.. -she paused.. her brows furrowed-.. and as hard as it might be to hear.. I miss Chaka.. and its not.. for how she treated us.. especially you because that was horrific.. or.. Nautilous for that matter.. it was just.. because I have no confidant.. I have no one around me that understands the life I lead.. whats ahead of me.. I can confide in you my love.. I can confide in the likes of Rose.. or Nautilous.. but.. its not quite the same when it comes to matters of home.. Whilst I desire strong foundations.. I fear they are a bit sandy at the moment.. and I sincerely hope it will only get better from here.. -she nodded when he spoke on them getting training-.. If you think it will help.. but..I guess.. -she motioned between them-.. that is a two way street.. You can go and get training to see how you need to act in our home.. and in some respects yes that might make things easier in the public eye.. and behind closed doors.. but.. what about what you desire.. what you want..of me?.. Whom do I go to ..to learn this.. to see what it is through different eyes.. and to adjust..and bend without feeling like a fish out of water..

-there was no one that she knew of that could do that.. they spoke a little on Sydel.. and the issues with Nautilous and the impending death of his brother.. how it had the possibility to effect them all quite greatly.. she had come to the conclusion that she didn't really know him anymore.. not really.. she knew the boy she had fallen in love with .. Oh so long ago.. but the man that stood before her was quite different.. and he explained that she was much the same.. she had changed a lot in the time they had been apart..- I think you're right.. I think we do need to re-learn one another.. we have hurdles to overcome.. but I am positive that we can do this..so long as we are all honest with one another.. as for dates after we are wed.. it is expected.. -she offered him a smile-.. and I look forward to those.. -she took another drink of her tea before placing it aside-.. a lot of my habits have not changed.. it will always be tea in the morning.. cocoa in the evening.. -she reached across to cradle his cheek-.. as far as standing beside me or behind me.. proticol dicates.. in public you will always be one step behind me.. but in here.. -she placed her hand to her heart-.. you will always be beside me..

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-he held up his clean arms when she spoke about them both wearing ink on their skin-.. not so much anymore no.. but yes I did used to.. I remember having forgotten to cover it up before I walked in.. not necessarily the best look for a doctor in that particular hospital.. -he laughed a little.. everything changed suddenly.. with little warning.. Nautilous required aid immediately.. the procedures were swift and accurate.. the two of them working perfectly together to make sure he was settled and sorted.. bones repaired and a lot of stitching work.. he was impressed with her skills and her abilities and made sure to tell her as much.. though she brought up what happened with Sybelle and he shook his head-.. You brought a beautiful baby girl into the world.. you shone a light on a truly horrible situation.. Nothing could be done for the other two that were there.. that was not on you and never could be seen as such by any of the parties involved.. in fact I am certain if you were to ask them they would brush you off swiftly.. Its always harder love.. to work on those we care about.. When we step into our roles in a hospital its almost like something inside us switches on and we just get to work.. Sure yes we care about their outcome.. but its different when there is emotion involved.. You knew that was my Mother.. she was your friend.. everyone in that room was your friend.. We also knew going in that the possibility of complications was quite high.. You have a history that is not pretty.. something that will haunt you in some way quite possibly for the remainder of your life.. its something that only you know how deep it runs.. and only you can work on that.. no amount of pushing on my part or anyone elses is going to help.. -his hands came down to rest upon her shoulders-.. That aside.. your skill under pressure is insurmountable.. its perfection.. for someone who has been in this profession for such a short amount of time.. you are a marvel.. I would have you as my second in surgery Any time.. I do not doubt your abilities.. I do not doubt your skill.. -he nodded-..

sometimes we get caught up in it all.. and thats when we need to step back.. Ive done it.. ive been there.. and thats when Barathon stepped in and pulled me out.. just like I did for you.. -he leant in and pressed his lips to her forehead-.. One thing you need to remember.. about all that circus back in that mansion on the surface.. You helped to save my Mothers life.. You helped me bring her back when the boys were arguing over who's fault it was.. You were there.. hands on.. focused and driven.. That will remain with me.. forever.. -he drew her in for a warm hug.. just holding her there for a moment before they would move into the bedroom.. drawing the doors closed.. it was then that he would get her comfortable on that bed and they would have a closer look at this baby.. get this scan up and running.. the news would come quickly that one of the twins had not survived.. and he could hear the.. gentle tremble in her voice.. but he would talk with her.. to bring light to a dark place.. the idea of the child coming early though made him sit up a little.. it was definitely further along that he expected it to be.. -.. I mean its possible the child has a gods influence on its growth cycle.. it could account for the shorter time yes.. they usually have around half the gestation of normal elves.. -he nodded.. watching as she manoeuvred the scan herself so she could check everything else was ok.. -. Im not complaining.. far from it.. he looks completely healthy.. everything looks really very good.. he took a breath when she mentioned his Father.. .. and the idea of perhaps naming him after Diovan.. he nodded a little-.. I think that would be a beautiful idea.. yes.. -it would be a nice little marker.. something to cherish.. something to remind them of his Father.. even if the relationship he had with him was a little strained.. it was better than it had ever been before.. he was pulled up onto the bed with her.. the two of them just curling in close.. resting side by side.. she spoke on her wish for getting married a little earlier and he smiled.. ahh but he wasn't about to say anything.. not yet..she just needed to learn a little patience-.. It will be worth the wait.. I promise..